We are not asking You to do something new. We are asking You to reveal Yourself in a way that we have never experienced before." — Kristen Wambach In this intimate milestone episode, Kristen unpacks a personal journey of physical restoration—facing a torn meniscus and locked knee—and how the sovereign whisper of 3 John 1:2 broke through the noise of physical pain and spiritual striving. When we understand eudōomai (the Greek promise of a smooth, unobstructed, prosperous journey) and realize that Christ is not a distant deity we must beg down from the sky, healing and identity align from the inside out. This episode features the official debut of the full acoustic anthem, "Beloved, You Are Highly Prized," an 8-minute journey translating forensic theology, the mercy seat, and the anatomy of healing into sound. In This Episode, We Explore:
"My deeply prized companion, you who are held in the absolute embrace of My affection! My prayer for you is that you are continually brought along on a smooth, highly successful journey..." — 3 John 1:2 (Mirror Embellishment)
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A 300th Milestone Surprise — Healing, Inheritance & "Beloved" ❖ 300 with Kristen Wambach Spiritual Investigative Journalist CHAPTERS 00:00 Introduction to Episode 300 Milestone & Prayer 01:25 Faith Journey: From Yaquina Bay Bridge to Mount Tabor 03:14 Building Podcast Confidence & Pulling Up a Chair 08:05 Trusting Holy Spirit for the Episode 300 Surprise 09:27 Prophetic Dreams and Divine Timing in Healing 10:12 Overcoming Knee Injury, Torn Meniscus & Physical Pain 14:21 3 John 1:2 Mirror Translation: God's Blueprint for Health 17:06 The Meaning of Eudoomai: A Smooth, Prosperous Stride 19:45 Inner Soul Prosperity and Physical Bodily Healing 23:18 Breaking Chronic Insecurity & Fatherly Dysfunction Lie 24:41 Unconditional Love: Moving from Begging to Sonship 25:09 Behind the Song: Beloved, You Are Highly Prized 28:15 Speaking Resurrection Life to the Deep White Zone 30:21 Stepping Out of Friction, Sickness, and Decay 33:09 The Covered Bridge, the Mercy Seat & Ark of Covenant 34:32 Realizing the Scale of Your Divine Inheritance 38:41 Freedom from Meniscus Locking & Physical Restoration 40:22 Final Activation: Safe, Greatly Loved & Well-Resourced TRANSCRIPT Kristen Wambach (00:01) Welcome. I am so glad that you are here. Let's pray together. This 300th episode I have been mulling over for such a long time. And my heart is that as special as the story is for me, that that uniqueness and the treasure that I find. This story to be a treasure for you. So that we walk into this 300th episode, feeling the oneness of God opening up our hearts to touch us. So as I say, this is very off the cuff. I have a few notes to help remind me of the path of my story. And then I have a beautiful song to share with you that I know will deeply touch your heart. Let's pray together. Kristen Wambach (01:07) Father God, I thank you that every individual listening to this episode, every single one, no matter the time frame, whether it's tomorrow, next week, or in two years, I thank you that you are constantly hovering over the relationship with your kids. And we just release Holy Spirit to hover over us, to move the waters, to remove some things that need to be removed from our heart or from our thinking, and to just open up what is already there. What is already there? We're not asking you to do something new. We're asking you to reveal yourself in a way that we have never experienced before. Thank you for your faithfulness to touch me, to touch the listeners. In Jesus' name. Amen. Okay. Breathe in, breathe out. 300. If you go back and you listen to my journey, my first 100, my second, you can hear confidence building. You can hear some of the things that I learned. I remember on my hundredth episode, I took my phone and I downloaded the app for recording and I trudged up to the top of the peak of the Yaquina Bay Bridge. It was very noisy, windy, raining out there. Very, very rainy, and you can hear all the background sound in the recording but you can also hear what God was doing. I wanted it to be memorable. I wanted to remember where I was at the time because a hundred seemed huge in the history of podcasting of sitting down and having a conversation with my friends. Kristen Wambach (03:28) I wanted to remember that we were both there pulling up chairs to the table. Then my 200th episode, I went back to a very dear place where I had a monumental encounter with an angel back at Mount Tabor, and it's the same place that John G. Lake had an encounter with an angel. And his whole healing ministry was just born and birthed from that point. So make sure you cue back. I will highlight those two. Let me make a note of it. Kristen Wambach (04:16) There, I've made a highlight of those two episodes so that you can also listen to it because not only are you hearing how God is teaching me and how I'm improving as a podcaster and the different guests that He so graciously brings to our table. So that is something of an encouragement. We want to learn how to podcast. Sometimes it's just a learning curve and just trusting that Holy Spirit will help you get you there and you can accomplish it. Amen. But now we're at 300. And like I said, I have been praying over this for some time. I had some personal desires of how I saw the episode come to pass. But about three weeks ago in my serious get in your face, Lord, I kind of need a clue about 300 so we can get organized. Yes, I'm one of those organized administerial people, which is really good. But sometimes the Lord literally wants you to set your faith out there and just trust him. And the only word that I heard was, it's a surprise. So that is today. It's a surprise. And what cued me in just to sit down and get very personal with you to reveal that surprise right here, in my office with all of my recordings and lights here. Kristen Wambach (06:05) was that yesterday in researching my notes on the conversation that God and I were having, I stumbled on a journal note on a dream. And what's so amazing is that dream came to pass yesterday. It occurred quite textbook. Surprise, right? So that encouraged me to take out the fanfare of the day. Yes, it's special, but take out the fanfare and just invite you as my friend. Kristen Wambach (06:56) That together we hear what the Lord is doing in our lives. Thank you for being here. Shall we get started? So, my rest story over a period of time, I think it was in November, that I really hurt my right knee quite severely, and I was off of it. Four or five days I was off of it. It was extremely painful. I'd had knee surgery, not in this knee, before, so I was aware when there was a rip or a tear. I was very, very aware. Now, in my relationship with the Lord, I prefer to walk with him and allow him to hold my hand through the healing process. Yes, doctors are wonderful, medical advice is absolutely wonderful and helpful. But when something like this, I know that he would tell me, Kristen, you need to go to the doctor. And I never had that word. And so because he never said that point blank, I knew that he would meet me every step of the way. So in short, I had torn my meniscus and my left ankle on the Achilles heel had created a bump that was super uncomfortable. So my walking was tremendously hindered. Kristen Wambach (08:43) A point or statement that I want to share with you. When you are in pain, sometimes it is so trying to get yourself what we would say in the Lord's presence to relax when the pain is really screaming in your ear and hurting. And we're going to talk about that today. And the beauty that he brought about, because he knows when we are uncomfortable and are in pain, and his goodness just moves over that. And so I'll tell you this more of the story. So when I was researching the knee and I knew that I had torn it deeply. And it's interesting about the meniscus, the outer part of the knee, according to science, the outer part of the knee is subject to the flow of blood. So when there's flow of blood, that's where the healing of the body, the natural DNA of what Christ put in us in creation, that we are to heal. Our bodies are destined to heal themselves. That's the goodness of God. But when I dug in a little bit more in medical science, the inside of the meniscus, they call the white part, is not subject to the flow of blood. So right there it takes my faith to a deeper level, a deeper step of that my communion, that the bread of life. Kristen Wambach (10:37) Is literally going to feed life into my knee and heal it, into my ankle and heal it. And that Holy Spirit is going to encourage me through the pain because you still have places to go, people to see, and responsibilities. It's quite a story. Kristen Wambach (11:09) The root of the story is that Holy Spirit touches you with the same healing anointing and touch that is inside of you, from the inside of you released throughout your entire body. I'm going to read Third John 1:2. We are all familiar with it. I'm going to read it from the Mirror translation, and it has some embellishments with it. My deeply prized companion, you who are held in the absolute embrace of my affection. My prayer for you is that you are continually brought along a smooth, highly successful journey, and that word in the Greek is eudoomai. And it means that smooth, highly successful journey where every single area of your physical life down to the very marrow of your frame vibrates in robust, overflowing health, perfectly mirroring the beautiful. Kristen Wambach (12:35) Unhindered prosperity that already defines your true identity inside my spirit. It is already defined. But sometimes getting our logic, getting our issues already on the inside, sometimes that can feel overwhelming and difficult. Let's break down some of the words that we find in this scripture of 3 John 1:2. Beloved, I wish above all things that thou mayest prosper and be in health as thy soul does prosper. That was my blueprint for my healing. It is your blueprint for your healing. The word beloved: highly prized, esteemed, dearly loved, held in unconditional embrace of the Father's affection. Unconditional embrace. Meaning we're held no matter of the conditions on the inside or the outside or the noise going on in the brain, we are held in that unconditional embrace. Amen. Whew. It is so tender. Can you feel the tenderness of the Holy Spirit here? It is good. And the word prosper, part of the word eudoomai, means well and good. A journey, a road, or a path, literally to be led along a good, smooth, unobstructed road to have a frictionless, prosperous journey. Walking with him. A prosperous journey. Meaning that life. Kristen Wambach (14:49) We always take in communion and the bread of life and the spirit of life every step that we take, every circumstance that might present itself. To be in health, what does that mean? To be sound, to be whole, to be uncorrupted, vibrant in physical vitality, free from disease, friction, or decay. In my spirit, when Christ said it was finished, it was done, when he overcame sin, sickness, and death, everything under death, decay, and disease have been taken care of. That's the way that I see it. That's the way that Jesus reveals himself to me. It is finished, Kristen. And that is what I purpose myself to know him, to place myself in the oneness of his finished work. As your soul prospers, your spirit has always been perfect. Always, because God can never be in something or around something that's unholy, and your spirit and his spirit have always been one. Your spirit has always been pure. So our soul prospers when we enter into relationship with him. And that begins to create a physical wholeness operating as a direct parallel reflection of the unhindered life already established within your spirit. So if you just meditate that your spirit is pure, always has been, and every unhindered thing is established in there, sometimes we just have to be taught of the Lord to release it so that it floods into our body. Kristen Wambach (17:09) Sometimes it feels trapped. I know I struggle with that, especially when we're uncomfortable and in pain. That pain can create fear, and you can feel trapped. And then it becomes a spiritual performance to get yourself to that place, so to speak, so that you can receive, the walls seem to drop down, and the reception of his goodness and healing are doing what they're purposed to do, and that is to heal us and make us whole. How easy is it when you're in pain—physical, financial problems, relationships—to slip into survival mode. Sometimes we do that. Survival mode, trying to build a monument of stone or calculate the cost of survival. And it can feel real, just like pain. But there is a turning point. God is good. Hearing the one simple sovereign word breathed into the room. Aside from all my tryings or performance, that one word: beloved. Kristen Wambach (19:03) Beloved, this is how he speaks to us, beloved. I heard a particular quote from Graham Cooke through another podcast, and he happened to say a relationship where the son is always desperate for the father is dysfunctional. Hard stop! I heard that and I went, huh? Let me say that again. Graham Cooke quoted this, I think he was with Kris Vallotton. Honor to both of them and their ministry. The quote is, a relationship where the son is always desperate for the father is dysfunctional. Kristen Wambach (19:56) I needed to hear that. Because part of my performance that we might call pressing in had dysfunctional tendencies because I was desperate for the Father to heal me because it hurt. But to switch my thinking that the Father in all of his goodness and his love is right there, is totally attentive to us. Let's dial that down. The word beloved, I wish above all things, that breaks down the lie that God only responds when we're screaming in crisis. Kristen Wambach (20:59) A good father doesn't want his children waking up terrified every morning, wondering if they qualify for breakfast, so to speak. Wondering if they qualify for a touch from God. That is not the Father's heart. He delights in you and I. Kristen Wambach (21:47) Now I knew that when he spoke 3 John to me, and I could feel the resonance of him saying beloved. And if you add your name to it, you could say, beloved Kristen or Beloved, add your name to it. I wish above all things. All things. This is his desire. He desires it above all things that you prosper, be in health as your soul does prosper. That is God's desire. And I needed to get that into my system, so to speak, so that the noise of pain, the noise of discomfort, the noise—yeah, you get it. The noise. And so what I did is I took this whole story and created a song. Yes, I used AI. It was wonderful. And I created that song. And today it marks our 300th episode. I took the entire ledger, the theology, the anatomy of healing. I talk about a covered bridge, which the covered bridge represents the mercy seat. Kristen Wambach (23:23) Where we sit in a covered altar which is the mercy seat, when the mercy seat was represented sitting on top of the Ark of the Covenant. That's what the covered bridge is. We are sitting in the temple of God within it, and it is filled with his glory. We don't have to praise for two hours for the glory to fill his temple. The temple is filled with his glory. And so I created a song. I want you to close your eyes and take a deep breath and let this song just wash over your frame. It'll be here in the episode. It is also on YouTube and I encourage you to play it again and again. So my knee was so freaked out and hurting because the meniscus was torn. And all of a sudden, my knee was locking up. And I went, God, I have a conference to go to in a week. There is no way that I'm canceling on going to see my very dear friend who's going to be preaching. No way. Kristen Wambach (24:59) So Lord, we have a problem because my knee locked up so bad, I couldn't walk. And I found out from a dear friend whose sister is a doctor, the reason why it's locking up is the meniscus is torn and this little flap of membrane literally because it's been severed folds back, gets in the way of the joint and the flow, and that's what's causing it to lock up. So we need to unlock the knee, and we need the knee to move freely and the pain to go away and for God to heal it. So I listened to the song again and again and again. Kristen Wambach (26:02) [Feature Presentation: "Beloved, You Are Highly Prized"] Kristen Wambach (26:13) Thank you for listening to that with me. I have a couple questions to ask you. Where in your life are you still operating out of panic or friction or feel like you're begging? Kristen Wambach (26:36) Share that with Jesus. Share those areas with him and say, Jesus, forgive me. Help me, show me. And what defensive walls are you ready to drop so you can walk through the open door? So you can sit in that mercy seat. Mercy, remember? Mercy. It overcomes any judgment of self, any judgment noise, any judgment of sickness, disease: mercy. Because that's what Christ did for us. He stepped in, he offered himself in mercy. Kristen Wambach (27:31) So that his desire—beloved you and I—I wish above all things that thou mayest prosper and be in health as your soul does prosper. He made a way. Kristen Wambach (27:47) And the closing declarations of the song: You are safe. You are greatly loved. You are well-resourced. Breathe in the fragrance of the breath of life. No more friction, no more strife. And just stay right there. Again, the song is on YouTube. You can listen to it over and over and over again. INTERACTIVE WATCHING PROMPTS FOR YOUTUBE LIVE "ASK"When you join us for the YouTube LIVE broadcast, don’t just watch—participate with us in real-time! Grab your coffee, open your heart, and drop your thoughts in the chat as we journey through these moments together. Welcome to "Ask," just to the right of the share button! STEPPING OUT OF THE SURVIVAL PERFORMANCE (~17:09): Tell us in the chat: Have you ever found yourself in "spiritual survival mode," striving and begging as if you have to qualify for the Father’s attention? Type "I AM BELOVED" in the comments as a declaration that you are laying down the performance and taking your seat at the table of rest! THE 3 JOHN 1:2 BLUEPRINT & EUDOOMAI (~11:09): In the comments, share what area of your life needs to experience a frictionless, smooth stride (eudōomai) today: 1️⃣ Physical Healing in the Body & Joints 2️⃣ Mental Rest & Peace from Striving 3️⃣ Financial Alignment & Kingdom Resources Drop your number 1, 2, or 3 in the chat so our community can stand in agreement with your inheritance! THE MERCY SEAT & THE COVERED BRIDGE (~23:23): Drop in the chat: What defensive walls, pain noise, or old fears are you ready to leave behind on the distant ridge today? Type "NO MORE FRICTION" as we agree together that the temple is already filled with His glory and His mercy covers your walk! Former Milestones:The Frictionless Stride: Stepping Out of Performance into the Blueprint of WholenessWelcome to this sacred milestone. Reaching our 300th episode has had me in deep reflection. If you have walked with me across the years, you know the milestones: trudging through the roaring wind and pouring rain atop the Yaquina Bay Bridge for episode 100, or standing at Mount Tabor for episode 200, anchoring into the legacy of angelic encounters and healing ministry. When I asked the Lord how we should structure episode 300, I expected an elaborate plan. Instead, Holy Spirit whispered a single directive: “It’s a surprise.” Taking away the artificial fanfare, I pulled up a chair in my studio to share a deeply personal journey—one where physical agony, forensic theology, and divine rest collided. The Anatomy of Physical ResistanceBack in November, I severely injured my right knee and left ankle. The pain was unrelenting, leaving me off my feet for days. Medical understanding confirmed a torn meniscus, with a painful bump on my left Achilles. When pain screams in your ear, entering the Lord's presence and finding rest feels like an uphill battle. While science shows the outer meniscus has a direct blood supply capable of organic healing, the inner section—the "white zone"—is avascular. It receives no blood flow. In that space, human effort ends. My faith had to lock into something higher: the communion table. The Bread of Life had to become real food, supercharging my frame and feeding resurrection life directly into that joint. Unpacking the Blueprint: 3 John 1:2During this season of immobility, Holy Spirit spoke one sovereign word into the room: "BELOVED." He led me straight to 3 John 1:2. In the Mirror Translation, the passage reads:
Let’s unpack the forensic weight of this promise:
Breaking the Lie of Fatherly DysfunctionWhen we are in pain—whether physical, financial, or emotional—it is easy to slip into survival mode. We start calculating costs, managing lack, and turning prayer into an anxious performance. I was reminded of a statement popularized by Graham Cooke: "A relationship where the son is always desperate for the father is dysfunctional." That statement stopped me in my tracks. A good father does not want his children waking up terrified every morning, wondering if they qualify for breakfast. Our Father does not only respond when we are screaming in a crisis. He delights in us. Shifting from the panic of a beggar at the gate to the rest of a daughter at the table changes everything. The Covered Bridge and the Song of RestTo anchor this truth, I translated the entire theological and anatomical ledger into sound. The result is our 8-minute acoustic anthem, "Beloved, You Are Highly Prized." In the song, the covered bridge represents the mercy seat resting atop the Ark of the Covenant. We do not have to strive to coax God's presence into the room; the temple is already filled with His glory. When my torn meniscus created a mechanical locking flap just a week before a major conference, I did not accept a locked gait. I listened to this anthem repeatedly, declaring the word of the Lord over the "white zone." The joint unlocked, the tissue relaxed into its original design, and my stride was restored. Safe, Loved, and Well-ResourcedWhere in your life are you still operating out of friction, fear, or begging? Lay down the defensive walls. Step across the covered bridge into the sanctuary where the table is already set. Declare this over your body and circumstances today:
No more friction, no more strife. Coaching Church ActivationsThe "Friction to Stride" Activation (3-Minute Exercise)Core Truth: Healing and clarity flow from an established seat at the Father’s table—not from the anxious performance of begging at the door. Step 1: Identify the Friction Point (30 Seconds) Close your eyes and breathe in deeply. Name the exact area where you are currently experiencing friction, anxiety, or physical pain:
Step 2: Drop the Beggar Posture (60 Seconds)Silently hand that issue over to Jesus and discard the performance mentality:
Step 3: Take Your Seat at the Mercy Seat (60 Seconds)Picture walking across the covered bridge—away from the noise on the ridge—and taking your seat in the finished work of Christ:
Step 4: The 3-Fold Alignment Declaration (30 Seconds)
Physical wholeness operates as a direct, parallel reflection of the unhindered life already established within your spirit." — Kristen Wambach
Whether unpacking the original Greek scriptures, creating healing soundscapes, or sharing raw testimony from the front lines of life, my mission is simple: to remind you that you are unconditionally loved, completely safe, and fully resourced in Christ. Grab your coffee, pull up a chair, and let’s journey together! A good father doesn’t want his children waking up terrified every morning, wondering if they qualify for breakfast, so to speak. Wondering if they qualify for a touch from God. That is not the Father’s heart. He delights in you and I." — Kristen Wambach Final Summary and Call to ActionEpisode 300 marks a monumental milestone—not with empty noise or complicated religious performance, but with an invitation to come home to the Father’s heart. When physical pain, financial strain, or emotional weariness screams in your ear, you don’t have to beg as an orphan for bread that already belongs to you. Healing, peace, and wholeness are not distant prizes to strive for; they are the natural outworking of the unconditional love (Agapētos) and frictionless stride (Eudōomai) already anchored in your spirit through the finished work of Jesus. Step across the covered bridge, leave the frantic calculating behind, and take your seat in the sanctuary of His rest. Call to Action:
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The personal stories, testimonies, and spiritual insights shared in this episode are for inspirational, devotional, and educational purposes only. They are not intended to substitute for professional medical advice, diagnosis, or treatment. We deeply honor and value healthcare professionals. Always consult with a qualified physician or healthcare provider regarding any physical injury, medical condition, or treatment plan before making healthcare decisions.
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The tree might look still, but the clouds are racing high. God is at work behind the scenes, even when your circumstances look completely frozen." — Jen Allee
Before long, the quiet, toxic lies creep in: “Has God forgotten me? Am I doing something wrong? Is He punishing me?” In this grounding episode of the Interviewing Jesus Podcast, host Kristen Wambach sits down with author and ministry leader Jen Allee (When Waiting Feels Like Withholding: Trusting God When You Doubt His Goodness) to pull back the curtain on the silent seasons of faith. Moving past neat spiritual clichés, Kristen and Jen dive into the raw, sacred work of trading performance shame for steady, unshakable trust in the heart of the Father. In this episode, you will discover:
Punishment was satisfied on the cross with Jesus. Our sin separated us from Him, and Jesus died on the cross and took that punishment for us. So we are never being punished—that is completely off the table." — Jen Allee What's Inside This Week's Blog Post:When our daily reality flatly contradicts what we know about God's goodness, the silence can feel deafening. We want to trust, but the friction between what we pray for and what we actually see on Monday morning creates an ache that religious formulas simply cannot fix. This week, we are taking a Spiritually BRAVE dive into the heart of the Father to dismantle the quiet fears that take root in the waiting room:
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Kristen Wambach (00:01.23) Hello and welcome. Our guest today is author and ministry leader Jen Allee. In her book, When Waiting Feels Like Withholding: Trusting God When You Doubt His Goodness—have any of us been there? Well, Jen dives straight into the messy, sacred reality of that in-between. That space where waiting stops being an adventure and starts chipping away at our fortitude. She doesn't offer neat, wrapped-up formulas. Instead, she walks listeners straight out of performance shame and into steady, unshakable trust in the character of God. Please welcome Jen Allee to Interviewing Jesus Podcast. Jen Allee (00:53.84) Thank you so much. It's so great to be here today. Kristen Wambach (00:56.66) Yay, yay. And listeners, Jen and I were talking how we kind of stumbled upon each other. Would you share with them how that occurred? Jen Allee (01:07.14) Yeah, I just hopped on that Threads app and said, "Hey, I just want to be a guest on a podcast," and Kristen responded. So here we are. Kristen Wambach (01:15.21) Isn't that fun? I love it. It's just those divine moments that God puts two people from miles and miles away, and He just says, "You guys have a conversation together." So I appreciate that very much. Let's jump right in and dive in. Jen, you write in your book that we want to visit waiting—how many of us have... I mean, we've all waited and been in that in-between stage. So the uncertainty in that in-between moment, which chips away from our peace because we don't say maybe, when God's primary mode of communication in that halfway point feels like complete silence. How do we stop our minds from translating quietness and hindrance to hearing His voice instead of the cruelty or abandonment that is so noisy in our brain? How do we do that? Jen Allee (02:22.33) Yeah, that's a great question. Well, I think we start with the Word of God, honestly. You know, we have to go back to what the Word says: that He loves us, that He's with us, and that He's not going to leave us. And so when we're in those seasons of uncertainty and it's just foggy and confusing, we have to go back to what the Word says—that He's with us—and we can't let our circumstances speak louder than what God's Word says. Kristen Wambach (02:46.87) That is true. In your book, I love your explanations and your stories. The one where you took a scripture and you basically consumed it and let it embed into your spirit. Would you tell our listeners the story about your son and his reaction to tree nuts, but how you brought him to the place—because he was very young—how you brought him to the place of actually learning to be careful? Jen Allee (03:21.85) Yeah. So he was really young. He was two when we discovered that he had a nut allergy. But when he was five, he was at a birthday party and he wanted to eat what everybody else was eating. He had gotten tired of me bringing homemade snacks from home. And we hadn't really told him that if you eat a nut, you could die—your throat could close up, he was anaphylactic. We didn't want to scare him when he was itty-bitty. So we just told him, "Don't do it, it'll make your stomach hurt." We tried to just get him to not do it. Well, anyway, we're at this birthday party, and he decides he wants to eat the birthday cake that everybody else was eating. Bakeries are usually not nut-free facilities, and so I brought his own little cupcake. But he decided he wanted to eat the cake. The mom came over to me and said, "I'm so thankful to hear that Parker's not allergic to nuts anymore." And I just looked at him down the table, and we made eye contact. He knew what was going on. I gave him a look like: you better not eat that birthday cake. So when he came home that night, he was like, "Why can't I eat the birthday cake?" We just explained to him, "When your skin touches a nut, what happens?" And he said, "It swells up." So we asked, "Well, what happens if a nut touches your throat? What will happen?" And he was like, "It'll swell up." We asked, "Well, then how will you breathe?" And he kind of paused and said, "Well, how will I breathe?" And we're like, "Well, that's why we don't eat nuts." We just had to walk him through the best way we could at age five to help him understand that it was very serious that he couldn't eat nuts. But now at age fifteen, he outgrew it! He was positive all the way up until his appointment when he turned fifteen, and he is clear now. We no longer carry the EpiPen. Kristen Wambach (05:17.16) That is a wonderful testimony. But God taught you how to take scripture and actually let it embed into your spirit so it was part of your daily consumption that helped you through what was a really hard thing to walk through. How do you do that? Would you share with us that tool that God provided for you that helped you through so many life applications? Jen Allee (05:55.56) The point of the story was he just didn't understand: Why can't I do what everybody else is doing? Oftentimes in life, especially when we're in seasons of waiting, we just don't understand. We don't have all the facts and all the information, so we're just like, God, help me to understand what's going on here. In the book, I talk about a season of anxiety I went through that was really challenging. I didn't understand why God wouldn't just take it away. Like, just take it away! But instead, He kept me in that season. In that season, I came across Psalm 40. In Psalm 40, it says, The Lord lifted me out of the mud and the mire, and He set my feet on a rock, and He gave me a firm place to stand and put a new song in my heart. When I read that, I thought: that's what I want. I felt like I was in this pit, and I wanted Him to pull me out and set my feet on a rock. I wanted that verse to be true. I reached this point where I was like, I'm either going to take God at His Word and say this is what Your Word says so You can do this, or not. I decided I had no other options. In my own strength, I was not able to overcome my struggle with anxiety. So I memorized that passage—not intentionally, but I just kept reading it over and over again. I put it on a note card and read it multiple times every day, and it just sunk deep in. I started off by asking God, "Can You lift me out of the mud and the mire and set my feet on a rock and give me a firm place to stand?" As time went on, He built this confidence in my heart. I moved into saying, "I know that You can lift me out of the mud and the mire and set my feet on a rock and give me a firm place to stand." Then as more time went on, I got to the place where I was like, "Thank You. You are going to do this. I don't know when You're going to do it, I don't know how You're going to do it, but You are going to lift me out of the mud and the mire and set my feet on a rock and give me a firm place to stand." And He did! But I got to the "thank you" phase before He had helped me with my anxiety. He wanted me to learn to depend on His Word and to take Him at His Word: This is what Your Word says, so I can stand on it. He taught me that lesson, and I've used it still to this day. When we really know His Word and stand on it and put our faith in it, He's very faithful. Kristen Wambach (08:26.95) He is very faithful. I love the part how you were so honest in saying, "Can You?" Because we can read what's printed on paper, but it doesn't mean that it actually lives in our understanding. Jen Allee (08:47.48) Absolutely. I wanted to believe that He could do this, but it felt so big to me. Like I said in the book, it truly was the first thing I had dealt with in my life where I felt like: Is God big enough to handle this? I didn't become a Christian until I was in college, so this was probably ten years into that. It was the first big thing where the anxiety felt so big to me. I just was honest: "Can You do this?" But the beautiful part was I didn't have to manufacture that faith in my own heart. I didn't have to muster it up. In just reading His Word and meditating on it and thinking about it, He put the faith in me so that I got to the "Okay, You are going to do this," to "Okay, thank You. I know You're going to do this." And He did. Kristen Wambach (09:45.27) It is a beautiful thing. For me, trust built in different levels throughout my life. I knew Him as a child, ignored Him as a young adult, and then Holy Spirit introduced Himself to me. That's when trust started to build in my adult life. Sometimes we get in that place where there is deep disappointment. We don't know what to ask, we don't know what is expected of ourselves or even of God, yet at that same exact time there is tension. How does looking at Jesus' own humanity, like His prayers in Gethsemane, give us permission to bring our raw questions to the Father? You did such a good job of bringing those raw questions, and you didn't let your humanity and God separate you. How did you bring it to that raw, intimate place where you trusted Him enough to ask such huge questions? Jen Allee (11:14.51) Well, I think honestly, when you're in a desperate place, you're more free with your raw emotions. When you're in a place of if God does not do this, it's just not going to happen—I've tried all the things and in my own strength this isn't happening—then you're free to be honest because you're desperate. When we're in desperate places, we depend on Him on a desperate level. I think that's what He's wanting all along: Just trust Me on all levels. Sometimes He has to take us to a place where we're desperate to teach us that He's dependable and faithful. Kristen Wambach (11:55.84) He is dependable and faithful. It reminds me of the Psalm where it says the Lord is close to those who have a broken and contrite spirit. I chewed on that for the longest time. He finally said to me one day, "Kristen, you don't need to be broken for Me to speak with you. But sometimes that desperateness brings us into a place that will literally chisel off the things that hinder our hearing to hear Him." Jen Allee (12:36.06) Absolutely, I totally agree with that. We don't have to be in desperate places for Him to be speaking to us and encouraging us. But when we are in desperate places, we can trust that He will be there. He allows these seasons of waiting—where we're wondering Where are You? or Why can't I have this?—to take us to a place of truly depending on Him. Kristen Wambach (13:05.05) I agree with you. He is much more concerned about our Sonship than our comfort. Jen Allee (13:15.63) Absolutely. The lessons I learned through Psalm 40 years ago—I'm so grateful I learned the power of believing God's Word and standing on it. I would never have done that in my own strength because I didn't know I needed it. But when I was in that desperate place, it was all I had. Kristen Wambach (13:39.70) Can we talk a little bit about those times when our prayers seem to go unanswered? Our internal default is often to look at self: Well, I must not be doing something right. I'm missing it. We get into that rotation of self-blame: What did I do wrong? What am I doing that's blocking the blessing? I must be in sin somewhere. How do we use the truth of our Oneness and identity in Christ to completely dismantle the lie that our waiting is a secret punishment? Jen Allee (14:30.87) When we're in these seasons of waiting and our prayers aren't answered or we feel like God is silent, we immediately jump to questions like: God, do you still care? Have you forgotten me? Are you punishing me? We're trying to make sense of it using logic. One of my chapter titles is Are You Punishing Me?, and that's the one people resonate with the most. They're like, I just feel like I must have done something wrong. One way we can combat that is we have to listen to what we're hearing. If what we are hearing is causing us to feel guilty or shameful or negative, we can know that that is not from God. That's not who He is. He is always trying to build us up and not tear us down. Now, He can point out our sin and say, "Hey, you've made a mistake," and we need to repent and deal with that. But He doesn't leave us in that place of shame. If your punishment-talk is leaving you in a place of shame, that is not from Him. Scripture tells us punishment was satisfied on the cross with Jesus. Jesus died on the cross and took that punishment for us. So we are never being punished—that is completely off the table because Jesus has already done that. Now, we can be disciplined as children, but we are not going to be punished. Kristen Wambach (16:39.90) I agree. You shared a profound perspective on Mary, Martha, and Lazarus, pointing out that the sisters just wanted healing. Like: Jesus, where are You? Why is this taking so long? We're good friends. But Jesus had a plan of resurrection. When our expectations of how God should move don't match what He is doing, how do we shift our spiritual senses to look for what He is raising instead of what is dying? Jen Allee (17:36.96) The short answer is that we tend to make life about us and what we want, but life is about Him and His plans. He is here to make Himself known, and He wants to use us to do that. Mary and Martha knew Him and loved Him, and they were hurting. They knew Jesus could fix it. But Jesus was like: It's not just about making Mary and Martha feel better or comforting them, though I love them. I want to make Myself known, and I'm going to use the resurrection of Lazarus to do it on a greater level. Scripture tells us many people came to know the Lord because of the resurrection who may not have if it had just been Mary and Martha talking about Him. We have to look and see: What is God trying to do to make Himself known? and take ourselves out of the equation. When we're not getting what we want, it's usually because we're focused on our comforts and desires. We live in an instant society where everything is on our phone with a tap. We translate that into our spiritual lives: God, here is my request, and we want instant work. But God says, "No, it's about Me making Myself known. I'm not going to answer instantly sometimes because I'm doing something different." Kristen Wambach (19:27.17) When He is giving us an answer and we know it's not about us, that's when I step back and go, Huh, it could be about a family member, my husband, or the community around me. When I allow myself to step back from the immediate discomfort and say, "Jesus, can You show me the bigger picture? Can You show me all the areas You are moving?" it encourages me to rely on His peace. Having been married forty-one years, that might just mean holding my tongue a few more times! Allowing Him to do that work in me allows Him to be known in other people. Jen Allee (20:51.13) Absolutely. It's distinguishing between what I want and what is God's will. What He has for us is good if we walk the path He has for us, but it may not match our expectations. When Lazarus was resurrected, I can't imagine Mary and Martha's joy. Their joy was greater having seen him die and be raised than it would have been if Jesus had just healed him. What they really wanted He gave them, but in a way they didn't expect. Kristen Wambach (21:29.67) Exactly. It reminds me of carrying children and going through birth. There is discomfort, but when the reward and the gift of the child shows up, it makes it all worth it. From that knowledge, we would gladly do it again. Jen Allee (22:07.56) I'm sure that's what Mary and Martha would say too on the back end: Here's Lazarus again—such joy! Kristen Wambach (22:25.83) If somebody is listening right now and feels pinned against a wall by a dream, an answer, or a healing that hasn't arrived, what is one practical, Spiritually BRAVE step they can take today to move from "Why are You withholding?" to "It is well with my soul"? Jen Allee (23:08.24) We can go all the way back to the Ten Commandments where God says, "Do not make an idol out of anything." Sometimes we get so fixated on what we want—and they may be really good things—but we elevate them above God. We say, "I have to have this thing in order to be happy; I cannot go through life unless You do this." A practical thing we can do is ask God: "Do I have anything in my life that's greater than You?" That thing says, If You don't give me this, I can't be happy. Taking those idols out of our lives and putting God back in the proper order is the best thing we can do. Then we can be at peace that it is well with our soul because God is back at number one. Kristen Wambach (24:20.60) And sometimes that can be a difficult heart-to-heart. Jen Allee (24:27.64) Very hard. Things become idols over days, months, and years of elevating them. To take it down is not easy, but in the end, that's where our freedom comes from. That thing tells you, You won't be happy unless you have me, but God is saying, You can always have joy in having just Me. Not an easy process, but worth doing. Kristen Wambach (25:13.35) The scripture talks about setting the joy before Him. In Jesus' humanity, just like on the Mount of Transfiguration, He experienced the outcome in the Spirit before He paid the cost. Jen Allee (25:45.15) Hebrews says He endured the cross because the joy was set before Him. Because the joy was set before Him, He was able to do that hard thing. When we have the joy set before us, we're able to do the hard things like dismantling idols or surrendering a dream. Kristen Wambach (26:17.20) For me, it helps to feel His joy. I'm a tangible person, so I ask Him for a portion of that joy so I can walk through with strength. He is so faithful to give that tangibility of His love. Now, could you share the story where you and your family walked through a transition right before COVID when your husband's job situation changed? Jen Allee (28:09.74) My husband was unemployed a couple months before COVID hit. He was looking for church staff positions, and then COVID hit and nobody was hiring. We didn't know how long the pandemic was going to last, so we told the Lord our first "yes"—whatever the first yes was—we were going to take it and trust that was the job He had for us. He applied for everything. A computer IT position opened up; it wasn't what he wanted to do, but he knew he could do it. They were willing to offer him the position and said, "We're going to get paperwork to you." Weeks went by, and they kept delaying sending it. In the meantime, another position opened at a church. He was very interested, had a first interview, and then we didn't hear anything for several months. We assumed they hired someone else. Several months went by, and I was sitting on my back porch feeling so sad. I looked at the tree in my backyard, and it was perfectly still—not a leaf moving, just a frozen picture. That's how I felt: like our lives were frozen. I asked, "God, when are You going to move?" Then I happened to look up. As I looked up, the clouds above me were racing by! I was so confused: How can the clouds be racing by when nothing is moving in front of me? I felt God say to me: "I'm at work. Your life looks paused, but I am at work." A month or two later, the church called back and offered him the position. They had just put the hiring process on hold because of COVID; they hadn't hired someone else. The very next day after he accepted that church job, the IT job finally sent the paperwork! But we were able to say no because we had already said our first yes to God's best. Kristen Wambach (30:58.44) How much time was it that you didn't have income coming in? Jen Allee (31:13.24) It was eight or nine months. What was so sweet was we just started getting cards in the mail from people. Consistently, the cards would say, "You were on my mind, God put you on my heart, and I wanted to send you this." It would be a gift card to a grocery store, Target, or a check. We never asked for it, but by the end of that nine months, we had received a sizable amount of money. After he said yes to that church job, we never got another card in the mail! God provided fully that whole season. We were never in need. It was so obvious God was at work. Kristen Wambach (32:26.16) There is a hidden tool in there: you logged down every single off-the-cuff help that showed up, and at the end you added it up. When we journal even the simplest encouragements, we see God moving. At the end, we have a testimony to look at the whole picture. Jen Allee (33:19.03) God tells us in scripture all the time: Remember, remember, do not forget what I've done. It's so important to write down when we see God moving so we can look back and remember. Kristen Wambach (33:37.26) Yes! I'm an avid journaler. Malachi 3 talks about God having a Book of Remembrance, so when we create one, we are mirroring Him. Jen, this is such a grounding, liberating conversation to talk about that hard in-between. For our listeners who are navigating their own in-between right now and want to dive deeper into your work, where can they connect with you and grab a copy of When Waiting Feels Like Withholding? Jen Allee (35:15.06) Everything is on my website at jenallee.com. I have the book, When Waiting Feels Like Withholding, and a companion 13-chapter Bible study guide with weekly journal prompts. You can get both on Amazon directly through my website. I also have my speaking schedule there. You can find me on Instagram and Facebook at @jen_allee_author. Kristen Wambach (36:09.63) I will have all those links in the show notes for you. Now, Jen, would you pray for our listeners wherever they find themselves in that in-between place? Jen Allee (36:49.42) Father, thank You that You are so faithful and that You are with us in the wait, even when we can't see it. I pray for anyone listening today who is struggling with that—that You would do something with their name on it so they know You see them, hear them, and are with them. Give them eyes to see where You are at work. Lower any walls of disappointment, confusion, or frustration so they can hear Your voice clearly. Help each one of us in our seasons of waiting not to miss out on what You are teaching us, and fully accomplish what You want to do in our lives. In Jesus' name, Amen. Kristen Wambach (38:07.40) Thank You, Jesus. I felt Holy Spirit releasing His breath through you to encourage people. Thank you for being with us today! Jen Allee (38:37.95) Thank you so much for having me, I really enjoyed it! INTERACTIVE WATCHING PROMPTS FOR YOUTUBE LIVE "ASK"When you join us for the YouTube LIVE broadcast, don’t just watch—participate with us in real-time! Grab your coffee, open your heart, and drop your thoughts in the chat as we journey through these moments together. Welcome to "Ask," just to the right of the share button! THE FROZEN TREE & RACING CLOUDS (~28:55): Drop in the chat if you are currently staring at a situation that looks completely frozen or stalled! Type "HE IS AT WORK" in the comments as a declaration of faith that God’s invisible momentum is moving behind the scenes right now. DISMANTLING THE PUNISHMENT LIE (~16:34): Tell us in the chat: Have you ever caught yourself wondering, "What did I do wrong to delay this blessing?" Let us know how you are choosing to stand on the finished work of the cross today and permanently kick self-blame out of your waiting room. THE PSALM 40 PROGRESSION (~08:08): In the comments, share where your heart is resting today on a scale of: 1️⃣ "Can You do this?" 2️⃣ "I know You can do this." 3️⃣ "Thank You that You will!" Drop your number 1,2 or 3 in the chat so our community can agree with you in prayer! How to Trust God When |
| Instagram: @jen_allee_author Devotional / Featured Content: Life Bible: Wrestling with Waiting Devotional |
Waiting is hard, but waiting while it feels like God is withholding something can be heartbreaking. When a longing in your heart is met with silence, it can shake your faith and leave you wrestling with uncertainty, disappointment, and unanswered questions. In the ache of unfulfilled prayers, it is easy to wonder if God sees you, cares for you, or is holding out on purpose.
With honesty, compassion, and biblical truth, Jen Allee invites you to hold on to hope when it feels like God is holding back. Through personal stories and Scripture, this book will help you:
- Find satisfaction in life that is not dependent on your dream coming true
- Step out from under shame and regret, and stop believing you are the reason God is withholding something
- Recognize the habits and thought patterns that quietly intensify the pain of waiting, and learn how to release them
- Practice one simple, practical way to keep fear from taking over as you face an uncertain future
- Know what to do when God’s answer is “no”
The Frozen Tree and the Racing Clouds
Then she looked up.
Above the motionless tree, the clouds were racing across the sky at full speed. In that moment, the Holy Spirit gave her a living picture: Your life looks frozen, but Heaven is in constant motion.
As spiritual investigative journalists of our own journey, we must recognize that sensory data only reports temporal facts—it does not dictate eternal truth. Francois Du Toit captures this in The Mirror Bible:
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"We conduct our lives by the conviction of who we are in Christ and not by what mere physical sight or the senses might suggest to us." (2 Corinthians 5:7)
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Dismantling the Punishment Lie
Here is the Monday-morning reality: Punishment was permanently satisfied on the cross.
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"There is therefore now no sentence of condemnation, no punitive judgment whatsoever against those who are in Christ Jesus." (Romans 8:1, The Mirror Bible)
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Pleading for a Healing vs. Receiving a Resurrection
Often, God allows our initial timeline to fall away because He refuses to settle for a temporary bandage. He wants to reveal a dimension of His resurrection life that an easy answer could never produce. When you surrender your demand for an instant fix, you position your spiritual senses to witness what He is actually raising from the ashes.
The Practical Move: From "Can You?" to "Thank You"
Jen shared a simple activation using Psalm 40. When panic was high, she wrote out verses 1–3 and placed them where she could see them daily. Over time, her prayers shifted through three distinct stages:
- The Question: "God, can You lift me out of the mud and set my feet on a rock?"
- The Conviction: "Lord, I know You can do this."
- The Resting Place: "Thank You that You are doing this, even before I see it."
Coaching Church Activation
When you document His faithfulness, you build an undeniable altar of truth that silences fear and anchors your heart in a simple reality: He has never failed you, and He will not start now.
When God's answer seems delayed, step back from the immediate discomfort and ask Jesus to show you the bigger picture. He is far more concerned with cultivating your Sonship and revealing His resurrection power than simply serving our temporary comfort." — Kristen Wambach
“Hey there, Kristen Wambach Here—author, speaker, and host of the Interviewing Jesus Podcast. As an ordained pastor and spiritual coach who has walked alongside seekers and leaders across the globe, I know firsthand what it feels like when life comes to a screeching halt. You’ve prayed, you’ve stood on every scripture you know, yet your physical circumstances flatly refuse to cooperate with what you believe about God. |
Today, we are stepping past religious clichés with author Jen Allee to discover how to stay Spiritually BRAVE, dismantle the lie of punishment, and anchor your soul in unshakable peace—even when the tree in front of you looks completely frozen.”
When our daily circumstances flatly contradict what we know about God's goodness, silence can feel like abandonment. In this episode of the Interviewing Jesus Podcast, host Kristen Wambach and guest Jen Allee (When Waiting Feels Like Withholding) pull back the curtain on the sacred "in-between." Together, they dismantle the toxic lie that delayed answers are divine punishment, expose how human performance striving robs our peace, and reveal why God often pauses an immediate fix to prepare a greater resurrection. Through raw personal stories—from navigating overwhelming anxiety with Psalm 40 to watching God move like racing clouds above a frozen tree—this conversation delivers practical, outcome-focused tools to help you trade weary striving for the unshakable certainty that it is well with your soul.
CALL TO ACTION
Are you ready to stop letting temporal facts dictate your peace?
- Take Your Spiritually BRAVE Step Today: Open your journal and begin your own Book of Remembrance. Write down three unexpected provisions or quiet mercies God has given you recently, and declare your "Thank You" before the physical breakthrough appears.
- Grab Jen’s Resources: Connect with Jen Allee at jenallee.com, pick up a copy of When Waiting Feels Like Withholding, and dive into her companion study guide.
- Join the Community: If this episode gave your heart a safe path through the silence, subscribe to the Interviewing Jesus Podcast, leave a review, and share this conversation with a friend who is waiting on a promise today.
My identity had to change before my circumstances could. My insides had to change... Jesus didn't simply improve my business. He transformed the man leading my business, which is me. When God changes the person, He changes the way that person experiences everything else in life." — Dr. Joseph Drolshagen
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Are you secretly exhausted from carrying a high-performance mask while staring at a massive gap between what you pray for and the physical reality you actually experience? Have you ever wondered why no amount of white-knuckled hustle, extra tasks, or human willpower seems to shatter the silent scripts, inherited limitations, and internal ceilings keeping your life and vision small?
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Behind his Doctorate in Psychology and over three decades of developing Subconscious Mindset Training™ (The SMT Method™) lies a man whose perspective was forged in the real fires of life —from wrestling as a young boy with how we represent God, to enduring the tragic loss of four infant children, to resigning from a 28-year corporate executive career and leaping off a 2,000-foot mountain peak strapped to a hang glider.
Together, Kristen and Joseph pivot past the published pages and corporate achievements straight into the "quiet room" of real-world transformation:
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Foundational Scripture
"Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new." — 2 Corinthians 5:17 "Now, in the light of your co-inclusion in his death and resurrection, whoever you thought you were before, in Christ you are a brand-new person. The old ways of seeing yourself and everyone else are over. Acquaint yourself with the new."
2 Corinthians 5:17 Mirror Study Bible |
- Dismantling the Hustle Lie: Why white-knuckling habits fails and how to let the Holy Spirit rewrite your baseline identity.
- Dropping the Performance Mask: How to navigate internal friction points on Monday morning without relying on human "attaboys" or surface-level success.
- Dynamic Visioning™ vs. Self-Will: Shifting from rigid goal-setting into a living, Spirit-led vision anchored in trust rather than fear.
- Breaking Generational Chains: Overcoming inherited programming of struggle and scarcity so your children never carry the burdens of your past.
- Music Video: Breaking Generational Chains
I spent years believing my worth came from performance and achievement. What Jesus has been teaching me is that my identity comes from being His son—not from what I accomplish, not from how many hours I work. I still work hard, but I work from trust instead of fear . The whole weight is not on my shoulders to make it happen anymore." —Dr. Joseph Drolshagen
What’s Inside This Week’s Blog Post:
- The Lead Quote from Dr. Joseph Drolshagen: Discover why business transformation and personal breakthrough don't happen by tweaking your task list, but by letting Jesus transform the person leading your life .
- Meet the Author & Podcaster: A warm welcome from Kristen Wambach, sharing the heart behind Interviewing Jesus and why we are passionate about helping you live Spiritually BRAVE!
- The Anatomy of the Subconscious Ceiling: Why standard coaching methodologies leave high-capacity leaders exhausted—and how Eden’s original design was engineered for automated momentum and union with God .
- Truth vs. Physical Facts: How the Law of the Spirit of Life in Christ Jesus (Romans 8:2) judicially overrides temporal realities such as lack, sickness, and business stagnation.
- Dynamic Visioning™ Meets Prophetic History: Learn how to use your journal entries, vision boards, and past encounters with God as legal deposits of heaven to anchor present-moment peace.
- Coaching Church Activation (3-Step Assignment): Practical, Monday-morning steps including 10 minutes of "windshield time," sifting ego triggers with "Jesus, did You say that?", and speaking 2 Corinthians 5:17 over your legacy.
- Guest Resources & Special Gift: Access Dr. Joseph Drolshagen's free 15-minute Stuck-to-Unstuck Strategy Session and claim a complimentary copy of his latest book.
- Spiritually BRAVE Call to Action: Your invitation to watch the YouTube LIVE broadcast, listen to our special Country Gospel Music Video anthem, and step off the porch of self-reliance for good!
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Guest: Dr. Joseph Drolshagen
Kristen Wambach (00:01.611) Joining us today is Dr. Joseph Drolshagen, an international coach, an author, a speaker, a minister who walked away from a successful 28-year career as a corporate VP of sales to help leaders break free from their deepest limitations. Tell me, do we have some questions for him today? Behind his doctorate...
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (00:26.548) Okay.
Kristen Wambach (00:29.725) ...in psychology and his three decades of developing subconscious mindset training, otherwise known as the SMT Method, lies a man whose perspective was forged in the fires of real life. From wrestling as a young boy with the weight of how we represent God to enduring the heartbreak of personal loss of four infant children to leaping off a 2,000-foot mountain peak strapped to a hang glider. Maybe we ought to pray for him, right? Joseph doesn't teach abstract theories; he brings a deeply personal, scripture-rooted reverence for helping people dismantle the silent barriers that keep us small so we can step fully into our kingdom calling.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (01:06.699) Yeah.
Kristen Wambach (01:25.761) Dr. Joseph Drollshagan. What a name. Welcome to the show.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (01:31.182) It's great to be here with you, Chris. And I told you I've I've been excited all day knowing we're gonna get to talk today. So really looking forward to a really good conversation here. And let...
Kristen Wambach (01:41.953) And I did have to practice your name. I kept going over and over and over and over. It's it's just a tongue twister.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (01:48.992) It took me until I was twelve before I could spell not really.
Kristen Wambach (01:54.231) Jumping right in, Joseph, in your book Reprogramming Your Subconscious Mind, the SMT Method for Rapid Growth, along with your work through subconscious mindset training, you offer a practical guide for dismantling internal ceilings and aligning our inner world with true kingdom potential. Now to our global audience listening today, we are putting all the direct links in Joseph's—from his books, from his coaching programs, and his website right there in the show notes. So it is effortless for you to connect with him. But Joseph, before we stir up the waters today, I want to give you the floor right up front. Tell our listeners where they can get their hands on your books, explore your SMT method, and plug directly into your resources.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (02:54.612) Absolutely. The easiest way is is the website. Everything is on the website. I'm on all social media under Joseph Drill Shagan. The, you know, my books and all of that are on there. And the one thing I wanna I wanna offer to your audience, I'm so excited that we're talking that I wanted to make sure I got something special is somewhere time during the call I'm gonna offer during our discussion, I'm gonna offer a free 15 minute conversation that's all geared to help people identify where they're stuck and get some actions they can start taking that are unique to them to start opening that up and start shifting that and changing their results in that area. And then Kristen, if anybody anybody who called and schedules that with me, I'm going to send them a copy of my latest book, Breaking the Attachment Pattern Keeping Your Business Small. It works the same in your life or your business, whatever area it is, health and well-being, finances. And so I'm going to give them a copy of that as well.
Kristen Wambach (03:47.233) Thank you. That's most generous. Most generous. So I love getting those links out of the way so that we can dive into the conversation with our undivided focus. And if you hear snoring, it's my King Charles Spaniel in the background.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (03:48.394) Absolutely.
Kristen Wambach (04:10.218) She just snoring away. And I even have my little squirt bottle here to hush her up and it's not doing good. So listen that I have a snoring visitor here. Okay. All right. So because right now I want to take us past the public pages, past your 28 VP career and way past leaping off the 2,000 foot mountain peak...
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (04:14.309) Yeah. That's funny.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (04:22.306) No.
Kristen Wambach (04:38.898) ...strapped to a hang glider. My husband did that too. I want to take us right into that quiet room, to that secret place. Take us back to the exact moment as a young boy, wrestling with that staggering question: What if God experiences the human condition through how I live my life?
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (04:39.086) Okay.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (05:02.103) Yes.
Kristen Wambach (05:02.944) The second you were stopped running the background noise and realized God was meeting you in that raw reality of life. What'd that feel like? Tell us about that, please.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (05:15.542) Yeah, you know, I I grew up with four siblings and two parents who who loved us incredibly. You know, but but their programming was that you struggle. And I watched him struggle my whole youth, you know, anxiety and fear and worry and things like that. My my dad worked operated heavy equipment and cranes and such and and he would work until he was so beat up that he'd need medical attention and stuffing with as many hours as he could. And my mom was the same way. And I remember one time I think I was nine, I don't remember exactly, but I went and saved the weekend at a friend's house.
You know, on Saturday afternoon his dad gave us twenty dollars and he goes, "Here, go up to Dairy Queen and get you guys an ice cream," you know? And and in my family you didn't do that. You had to save up to do things like that. And so we would so we went up there and then we spent the weekend and stuff and then I went back home and even walking in the house, I didn't know how to describe it that... but there was like a heaviness about it. You know, and and and we're I grew up Catholic. I was an altar boy, I went to Catholic school, I did all those things. I you know, I know the Catholic service to this day. I can go through every bit of the Catholic service, both sides too, the priest and the and our side as a congregation, you know? And and so so I I... what's that? It no, no.
Kristen Wambach (06:26.687) In Latin. In Latin. Gotcha on that one. Go ahead. I did.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (06:33.824) Okay, you you got me there, Kristen. But so, you know, and but I never I never really understood. God my understanding, I don't know what they taught me, but I remember what I learned. And I learned that God was to be fear of. God was was something I probably wasn't gonna make it to at the end and stuff, because the best I would do is purgatory.
Kristen Wambach (06:46.369) Mm-hmm.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (06:56.844) You know, and and and you know, and and and so like you know, I would I swear sometimes or I would, you know, do something and you know, get in a fight or whatever and stuff and every one of those things I thought was a mark against me and stuff. So I grew up with that being my belief of a fearful God. And so I didn't, you know, and they made us go to church every week and you know, and and so but I didn't have those things. And and so when I went back home after that weekend, I thought, "You guys are not doing something right. And I'm not gonna live like you guys." And that was my first spark. And then I went through my teen years following the same suit with that and such. And then I got into my 20s. And at 20, I think it was 22 years old, I had an opportunity to take over a million multi- well multiple million dollar construction company up in Michigan.
Kristen Wambach (07:44.919) Mm-hmm.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (07:45.527) And I wasn't going to have to get a loan or pay for it. All we were going to do is it was be like he'd get a percentage of the revenues for a five-year period. And he owned it and he operated the whole thing and everything. He was going to teach me with it and stuff, you know. And it was probably the most exciting moment of my life at that age. Because it's like, man, this is my break. Because since I said that at that earlier age, I've been looking for that and I've been really I was really attuned to it as well. So it was like, man, this is my break. I knew I wasn't gonna have to live like you guys live. And and so, and within three days, I told him I can't do that. And it took me probably close to a few weeks to a month to realize why. And you wanna why I didn't accept that? Because I thought I didn't deserve it, because I didn't work hard enough for it.
Kristen Wambach (08:32.321) Yeah, I do.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (08:37.194) And I let that opportunity pass. And I was embarrassed, so I didn't explain it to him so he could help me see it a different way. I just... and and and and so the opportunity passed. But what else happened is once I realized what it was, is when I said, "Man, I'm broken. There's something really broken inside of me." And and and from that moment I've been a student of the works that I do today. You know, and then I ended up getting into corporate America and I spent years, probably a decade in there, barely getting by. I was traveling three to five thousand miles a week trying to develop a territory and barely making a mark. And I see these other guys who are taking Friday out, you know, other salespeople taking Friday off, coming in late on Mondays, you know, golf things through the week, this and that. And and and every time I just kept turning that to "there must be something wrong with me." Because I felt like I was different than all those people. And I'm going forward. And and you know, I had God in my life, but it was the God I had talked to you about.
And then and then into all this stuff and everything, I I was not, you know, in corporate America and I'm barely getting by. So I was constantly just like my parents, constantly worried about losing my job and I was married. And you know, in my late twenties we had my the only the only child I have. You you said that about the four children... but I have the only child that I have today and and that made that even compounded it worse because I felt like there was more weight on my shoulders to succeed and I didn't know what to do. I started going to coaching program after coaching program, getting books, doing experiments with them. It was just a constant thing. And then at one point when that fourth child passed within an hour and a half after being, you know, after being born, I made a decision: "there can't there can't be a God over all this stuff and allow this to happen." And I purposely chose to walk away from that.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (10:29.390) And within a year and a half, I was using alcohol, I was using gambling, I was using food, I was doing whatever I could do to avoid the life that I felt like I was destined to live. As I'm studying this up, I th- at that point I threw everything away. I threw every book I had--The Secret, I I you know, all of it I just tossed it off 'cause I like, "this is all BS and none of it works and and and I'm gonna find another route," you know. And and I so I I... yeah, that was that was that was the darkest moment I've ever experienced in my life. You know, and then as I went through going forward, and a lot of things happened. I got help for the, you know, the drinking and things like that and stuff, which kind of sparked the door with God. And at first I avoided it at all costs, and then it kept getting worse and worse and worse, and finally I said, "God, please help me."
Kristen Wambach (11:19.999) Mm.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (11:27.650) I didn't even know what I was asking help for—the alcohol, the the gambling, the the job, the you know, I didn't even know what it was. I just to throw something in there for about a year ago I was consulting for a turf company, artificial turf company and helping them build up and so with doing that... the person who ran it said to me... She used to get really mad at my kidding around and stuff like that, you know, because I we'll go into restaurants and stuff and I'll joke with the wait staff or something and try and make them laugh, you know. And she goes, "Why do you always do that? Why are you always doing that?" And I finally said to her, "You know why? Because I was so miserable for so long, I really did not want to live anymore. And today I do. And today, if I can make somebody laugh or smile or even say, 'That's a dad joke,' I I feel better inside of myself for who I am."
You know, and and so with all this stuff started coming the growth of a God of my understanding. It took a while to let go of again, not what they taught me, but what I had learned to open that doorway up. You know, and some of the things I've experienced, I mean, my identity had to change before my circumstances could.
Kristen Wambach (12:16.427) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (12:31.958) Mm-hmm.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (12:43.404) My insides had to change. You know, to go on from the point of you know I was a I was a huge earner of God's love. I would even, you know, later on after that all that stuff, I I would, I would like try to be upright and sit right and say the words the right way and I wouldn't cuss and I wouldn't this and I wouldn't that and I, you all these things that I and I was trying to earn love from God. And and it took a while, it took several years for me to realize I can't earn it.
Kristen Wambach (12:45.952) Mm-hmm.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (13:12.736) It's already there for me, and there's nothing I can do to earn it.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (13:20.268) You know, I spent years believing my worth came from performance and achievement. And what Jesus has been teaching me, that my identity comes from being His, you know, God's son, not from what I accomplished, not for how many hours I work, not for how, you know, all those other things that I so long built into my life. You know, it's trying to trying to be good enough to be loved. And of course, when I'm like that with God, it spoils over into every other relationship I have as well. So now I start blaming relationships and people and this and that, but it was just my own ability to understand and receive God's love and let it grow from the inside out like that.
Kristen Wambach (14:04.321) Yes. And it does it does have to have to grow. It it's it's not something that we can just all of a sudden go "aha" one day and you feel all warm and fuzzy and built up inside. It just doesn't work that way. It takes us even with people, it takes us a while to build a friendship with people and to build trust with people and learn...
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (14:09.240) Does, yeah. Yeah.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (14:15.426) Yeah.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (14:28.066) Yes. Yes.
Kristen Wambach (14:32.491) ...how they respond back and they learn how we respond.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (14:36.620) Yes, yes. And and you know, today, before I even get out of bed when I wake up in the morning, I get God in my head before I I get in there. It's like a race to get God in my head and my thoughts and my words and things like that before I do it. Because one of the major changes I experienced through this, and I don't know if I'm jumping, but we can go back on track if I am, is is is that God changed the way I even pursue success. You know, I used to believe everything depended on me. Today...
Kristen Wambach (14:39.329) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (15:04.597) Mm-hmm.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (15:05.430) I work hard. Yeah, I I tell every business owner, every person I work with, you can't get at you can't get somewhere without putting effort in and and taking actions on it. So I still work hard, but I work from trust instead of fear. I work from it the whole weight is not on my shoulders to make it happen anymore. You know, and and and and so I learning to partner with God rather than trying to control every outcome. So what I do is I get clarity. You know, where it says I can't remember the...
Kristen Wambach (15:22.751) Mm.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (15:34.955) Scripture is, but it says if you ask and you believe that you've received it, it will be yours. So what I do is I get clarity on the ask. What is it that I want? I I do the, you know, I picture being in that situation where I can see myself living that life at that level with whatever it is. And I got a scenario that just happened a few months ago. That's incredible. And I... and then I get out of the way. I do my part, but I let God do His part. I no longer act like I have to do it all in order for things to happen. And that has brought so much ease and peace into my daily existence.
Kristen Wambach (16:17.355) Mm-hmm.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (16:19.234) When I was in my twenties, I was in a marriage where there was really no love in that and stuff. And I think what it was is they wanted to be saved and I wanted to be a hero, what aligned us and stuff. So that you know that doesn't work well. And I came up with this vision of this great love relationship and I'd like so much detail to it to the point that I didn't have to go out and find her. I don't have to go grocery shopping at the perfect times where there's single women and do all that stuff and everything else, the dating sites and everything. And and she'll walk into my life. And about four months ago now, that's exactly what happened. And she is like an angel. And the probably the biggest part of the relationship that brings us together is that it's God centered.
Kristen Wambach (17:00.371) Mm-hmm. I'm looking for a question. You're doing such a good job. You're blasting through my questions already. So I have to roll up and do it. Okay. Okay. I I got this. So I'm this is my this is in a meditative place. So I'm sitting out front this morning, right off the cuff, right? And I went, gosh, this is a good question. But you keep calling, talking about trust. I went, okay, God, I'm just gonna throw it out there. This morning I'm sitting with Jesus, right? And I asked Him, "Why is trust take so long?"
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (17:08.173) Ha ha ha.
Kristen Wambach (17:41.279) And I looked at Him and He responded to me and He said, "Why does trust take so long?" And He smiled.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (17:57.731) That is a great response.
Kristen Wambach (18:01.207) And and I went, well, you know, me and my little kind of with my little head action, I go, "Well, I feel trustworthy." And He looks at me and He goes, "Well, obviously you're trustworthy." You know, it's kind of like, "Well, so what are we gonna do in this," you know? It was so pregnant, it was so full of... and...
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (18:26.924) Yeah, yeah. Well you could do a whole podcast just on that. Cause it's not about our worthiness. It's...
Kristen Wambach (18:32.211) I know I wrote up some I wrote up some stuff and I was like, I'm gonna do this. And I went, but you keep talking, I went, okay, I'm just gonna throw it out there off the cuff and say, hey, you know, cause sometimes trust feels long.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (18:49.836) Yes. And what it is, I mean, with me and God, what it is where the issue is, it's not whether I'm trustworthy or not or any of that stuff. And but that's what I always want to look at. And then I want to be more trustworthy so I can have that. And what I'm doing is I'm spinning my wheels, trying to be trustworthy enough for God and everything else. But really the the the the the core of where it seems like it's like that is me trusting God, me surrendering my life to God, me allowing Him to lead and me, you know, grab and follow and and things like that. That's what it is. So when I s- finally get to the end of that road of exhaustion of trying to be trustworthy enough to earn God's love and realize it's given to me I can't earn it no matter what I do. And then from there, then I can start looking at instances and one of the things that's always been a really big thing in my life, Kristen, is...
I don't see God out. And you know, I have this thing I do, like, you know, if I'm starting to feel anxious or things are happening or things like that, it's like looking out forward, it's that's always what that is, because when we look out there, we don't know. And ultimately what we don't know is what God's part's going to be. But what I can do in those moments is I can look in my rear viewing mirror and I can look at every time how God showed up in my life, even with a with a custody battle to get fifty percent custody of my son. And it went all the way to the end of almost a year in court. And I was in another state at the time, so I kept having to come back for it. And they not only said no to the 50% custody, they took time away from me from what I had already had in the in the parenting plan, you know, and and man, I just left there and I was I was broken. I d- I I I just... and I had the most straight up...
Kristen Wambach (19:54.870) Mm-hmm.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (20:36.626) ...using my Detroit word, conversation with God in that moment. And that was a Friday. In fact, we left the courthouse and my lawyer was just around the corner. And so we went to her place and I was sitting on the back porch and I'm smoking cigarettes and I didn't even smoke. I was just beside myself. And I did all this stuff with the God box to try to hand it over and give it to God every time I thought by wrote a note, put it in there for the for that whole time. And I ended up going home, crushing that box, having a conversation with God. Sunday morning, my son's mom called me and she said, "I'm not sending clothes with him anymore." And I go, "What do you mean?" She goes, "Well, you you wanted the 50% cussing, I'm not sending clothes." So I called my lawyer who answered the phone on a Sunday and said, and I told her, and she goes, "Man, I I just feel so bad for you, Joseph. You're such a good man, but..." you know tell me all that stuff and everything. And and and I said, "No, no, no, you're not hearing me." She said...
Because I wanted like the court gave it to me. She goes, "Meet me at my office at 7:30 tomorrow morning." And I did. And she gave me this paper that was all typed up. I took it to her. She signed it. I brought it back to my lawyer. She took it over to the court building. And by 10 o'clock that morning, I had 50% every other week custody with my son. Now I'm beside myself the opposite way, 180 degrees. I get in my car and I'm leaving there. And I heard God say to me, "Joseph, there is no court, ex-spouse, or lawyer, or anything that will ever get in the way of My will happening in your life. Just trust in Me." Now you would think most people would take that and the rest of their life just flew from that, right? Not what happened, Kristen.
Kristen Wambach (22:24.159) It's the water under the bridge and sometimes it's just like, okay.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (22:25.908) It yeah, exactly. Yeah, hold on, I just gotta put this in real quick. Sorry. There we go. Sorry about that. Yeah, that's not at all what happened. I've ran into struggles at other times as well. You know, and and and even in my business and things like that, like I get a new area where I want to start growing it and such, and something will happen, and all of a sudden it's like... "Well, yeah, I'm spinning my wheels 100 miles an hour here going my own route, coming up with my own plan. I haven't I haven't asked God to for help in this. I haven't leaned on Him. I haven't looked for His guidance," you know, and it's like, okay, good. But the good news about that is now knowing what I know today, I can stop, flip that switch, and turn that back around. I can just stop everything and say, "God, I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry. I want to follow Your pathway in every part of my life. I don't even want to have free will." I prayed well, I prayed for a while for God to take away free will from me. I literally prayed for Him to take it away because if there's no free will, then we have to follow God. So we don't run into all the problems that we create that comes from free will.
Kristen Wambach (23:37.847) I have never heard of anybody praying that.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (23:41.784) Doesn't it make sense though? My the my struggles, my all that stuff comes about based on free will. If I if I didn't have a choice but to follow God from morning to night every day of my life, my life would be absolutely incredible.
Kristen Wambach (23:59.690) No, but your heart wouldn't be in it.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (24:02.562) Well that's yeah, that's the underlying purpose of it and stuff, but...
Kristen Wambach (24:05.579) Your you're you're He wants us to volunteer our heart.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (24:12.172) Yes. He yes. He wants us to choose Him, which we wouldn't do without this. So I understand that completely. But the more I can stay away from free will and what my head tells me is best and you know things like that and I follow God and let Him lead...
Kristen Wambach (24:14.283) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (24:29.589) Yes.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (24:30.668) ...you know, that's the better life it gets.
Kristen Wambach (24:33.683) Absolutely. Hey, I'd like us to unpack a little bit. Your work talks a lot about dynamic visioning. I'm curious from your perspective about that. The Lord opened my spiritual eyes about 20 years ago and everything changed. So this idea of emotionally matching our inner climate to what we want to see manifest what we believe is going to occur. But let's take that high-level theory and bring it right into the living room. What about the leader who is listening right now who's sitting in a severe multi-year resource drought? They could tell you and wear the t-shirt and say, "been there, done that, bought the book." They've done that. Their bank account is bleeding.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (24:43.116) Yes.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (25:01.511) Yes.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (25:12.203) Okay.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (25:16.354) Mm-hmm.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (25:25.826) Done there.
Kristen Wambach (25:32.066) Their body is exhausted, possibly not in health, and their nerves... Yep, they're pure adrenaline, as we call it survival mode. When the physical facts around us are screaming survival, confinement, trying to force a feeling of a present moment, or a feeling of...
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (25:34.253) Yeah. Nervous system is probably haywire. Yeah.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (25:43.798) Yes.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (25:50.252) Yes.
Kristen Wambach (25:58.668) ...who we know we are to be and what God has promised. That is so difficult. How does somebody practically shift when their natural hope is still absolutely zero? They're just hanging on, white knuckling it. How do we get our emotions engaged to feel it?
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (26:17.218) Yeah, so... yeah. Yeah. And one of the things I do with every client I start... now let me say this real quick before I say this. The SMT method, it came through me, but it's not of me. Like God was involved in that, and I was the one that published it and did the things everything. But that wasn't that wasn't my mind built that built the SMT. I had a lot of experiences that lent lent into it stuff. But but God and the one of the reasons I know that every module, every part of the program relates directly with scripture in the Bible. So I wouldn't have known to do that, Kristen. I didn't plan it that way. I seriously, I just I... my mind wasn't there. So yeah, the one every single client I work with, we come out of the gate developing what the SMT method refers to as a dynamic vision. And remember I said about the scripture, I think is it Mark 11:24 or something like that? 11:24 but it says the scripture says if you ask and believe that you've received it, it will be yours. So the asking, the way...
I did this w- the way we do this is we build a vision. We get a lot of clarity. Let's say you're it's a business, because you brought it up as a business. It's your business and you want and you and and it's just in that struggle place and stuff and and it's just whooping your hide and you know, and and and what we do is I work with the client. So everything I do is unique to the individual I'm working with. So I don't have two clients that have the same exact thing happen, you know, for them. I don't work off of the one-size-fit-all model. So...
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (27:56.663) What it is is we start building that dynamic vision. As we start building that dynamic vision, we have to tap into our into our imagination, right? To start tapping into it, which is which is a part of our conscious mind. And we start defining, forget about what's happening right now.
Kristen Wambach (28:06.231) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (28:10.709) Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (28:15.414) The way I do that is I'll look out five years or something. Like what's five years? We know five years our life completely a hundred and eighty degrees different than it is today. So I start building it out based on that some time out there. Cause if we're too close, if we're six months or a year or things like that, you know, it it it the problem, the struggle is so big, we can't see outside of that. But if we look out five years, it gives us open lens to look at that.
So we'll build it, you know, we'll start building it from a five-year period. How do you want your business to be? How do you go to work? Like how do you spend your time at work and stuff? You know, how do you spend your time outside of work? Your health and well-being, relationships, your business, and your time and money free. And we cover the whole gamut because growing your business doesn't just affect your business, it affects your entire life. Struggling in your business does the same, right? So we start building that vision out.
Kristen Wambach (28:42.913) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (29:01.267) Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (29:05.120) And we start making we start like enlarging it, bringing more clarity, things like that. And then, you know, if if if you believe that you've received it, here's where we take a twist now. Now we've got this dynamic vision. It excites us to read the vision. Part of it is we don't even know how the heck it can happen, but we just get excited about it. Excuse me. So then once we have the vision, what we do is we start opening it up.
Kristen Wambach (29:25.685) Mm-hmm.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (29:33.273) We start taking the actions we can take to start. It might be something small here or something small. And we start opening that up to and and and the sooner people get successes and see things happening. And typically the initial successes are coming from a shift in the mind, the shift in in how we think, our perceptions.
Kristen Wambach (29:51.703) Mm-hmm.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (29:52.323) Perceptions determine our results. And our perceptions are coming from the subconscious and programming within that subconscious, which is the core of the SMT. So as we start shifting, identifying and shifting these things, we get a different perspective and perception of what's possible, which leads to greater results.
And so typically people will experience that from a personal level. Sometimes it's business. So I've had people within a couple weeks all of a sudden get this large contract or you know, things turn around and and and you know start turning around, things like that. So, but yeah, we get that vision, and then what we do, here's where the twist comes in, is we start using that vision as our chosen reality that we live. Because we live so much of our life...
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (30:38.850) ...by what we call reality. Right? So we call reality what our eyes see, but we have spiritual sight. So much deeper, more enriched, and more powerful than anything we ever see with our eyes that we can tap into. And so throughout the entire process, that's what we're doing is we're tapping deeper and deeper into that, into, you know, into the spiritual realm where God exists. And that's when we start bringing, get tapping into intuition, which is also from the conscious, but we start tapping into powers that are available outside of our own, what's between our two ears.
And as we do that and as we're identifying and shifting and and using that as the reality we're shifting towards, all of a sudden we start going, "Well, you know, if if if if my business was twenty-five million dollars a year, I wouldn't be dressing the way I dress now. Well, how would you dress at twenty-five... you know, how would you dress at that level?" So go out and get an outfit that, you know, clothes that that match that. "I wouldn't be saying these things. I wouldn't be, you know, v- what do you call that... with Netflix and stuff, you know, I wouldn't be sitting around for a whole weekend just sitting in front of Netflix for the whole weekend, binge-watching or whatever you want to call it. I wouldn't be doing..." and so we start we identify and we start shifting those things. And what's happening is that person is becoming that twenty-five million dollar business owner. And it spreads throughout their whole lives that same way.
Kristen Wambach (32:10.103) Mm-hmm.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (32:10.946) So that's what the vision is. I and it's hard coming from corporate and working with corporate people and stuff like that, but I don't work from goals. Because goals are hit or miss. You achieve a goal, you go for another goal. A vision takes a life of its own. So we're actually living that life before it ever shows up in our existence, which is what accelerates it to show up sooner.
Kristen Wambach (32:35.649) Mm-hmm.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (32:37.198) Does that make sense?
Kristen Wambach (32:38.433) Well, yeah, because that's why well, that's why God changed Abram to Abraham and He started calling him a father of many nations. And it took eleven years for Him to call him by his purpose, his name, Abraham, before it manifested. And right there in the manifestation, I love their story because they're old people. Sarah was like ninety... and her body was dead. And it's kinda like, okay, God, if You can do this, her physical body, their physical body was incapable without God to produce children.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (33:21.622) Right, right. And yet...
Kristen Wambach (33:24.757) He's still calling him Abraham, father of many nations, father of many nations. He was calling him by his purpose, his identity and name.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (33:28.173) Yeah.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (33:33.686) Yes, yes. It's it's some of it it it's really is incomprehensible to me. Mary, the Virgin Mary. Like is it like... and and and what I've realized is I'm not supposed to comprehend it fully. You know, my faith isn't dependent on...
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (33:58.189) My faith is only dependent on my willingness to believe. It doesn't have to even make sense to me. You know, when you talk about when they talk about my God, the whale. Jonah and the whale. A long time I thought, "Well, that's a story they're using as a teaching lesson and stuff." And then I went to the other side and I debated it with friends and stuff like that and everything, and the bottom line I came to is...
It doesn't matter what it's in there for. I learned from it. I can apply that and I can get closer to God through that story there. And that's really my goal today. You know, I no longer live a life I have to prove things right or wrong or anything else. If it adds value to my life... You know, I got this whole thing even with people and stuff I do now is you know, we got the front row people and stuff and and today it's like everybody gets to be exactly who they are. Nobody... I don't want to change a single person. But then I get to choose which of those people I spend time with and which ones I don't based on that. It's that easy.
Kristen Wambach (35:06.422) Mm-hmm.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (35:06.966) All of a sudden it's like when things are happening, it's like, "Man, why do they keep doing that? Why do they keep why don't they stop?" It's like, no, that's that's they're being them. They're being who they are for exactly the right reason. Sometimes I get to learn from people who are like that. A lot of times I get to learn from people who are like that. Like when I'm driving down the two-lane highway and the guy and it's 55 and the guy in front of me is doing 30. That builds my faith because I have to pray or else I just go gonzo in my mind.
Kristen Wambach (35:36.191) Goodness. Now we're not gonna pick up drive start talking about driving habits. You know, it's kinda like that's right up there in the two, one and two between, you know, I've been married for 41 years, my husband grew up in Chicago, he drives. He always tells me, "I drove a flower van with bald tires in the ice."
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (35:50.572) Yeah.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (35:59.361) Nice, nice.
Kristen Wambach (36:01.418) Anyhow, you know, that that driving, but it it's so true how another person's response, reaction, or behavior will actually trigger some kind of little response from us. It triggers it and then there's this power exchange because if you allow the trigger...
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (36:03.724) Yeah. Yeah.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (36:17.762) Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. You're right.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (36:26.264) Right.
Kristen Wambach (36:27.605) ...then it's kinda like, you handed him all the money that was in your wallet. There you go. You have all the power over me because of their behavior.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (36:32.780) Yeah, yeah. Yes. Yeah. Yep.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (36:39.360) Anybody ever asked me like, "you know, how do I know if I have an ego?" You know, and and I go, "You drive much?" And they go, "Yeah." I go, "You ever been behind somebody and they're doing half the speed limit?" And they go, "My God, yes." I go, "Well in that moment, your ego's stepping up."
Kristen Wambach (36:52.172) Yeah.
Kristen Wambach (36:57.370) Yeah. Yeah.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (36:58.092) You know, and so when we but we were talking about that with the vision and everything else. And then so as we move on choosing that that's what we're gonna call our reality, now we start developing systems of accelerating habits that are unique to the individual. And so as we start doing these things, we get greater results from from that as well. And the other thing about the vision is it's as alive as we are.
Kristen Wambach (37:13.813) Mm.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (37:22.134) As long as we're breathing, our vision is breathing. So goals, you hit or miss, you get the goal, you don't get the goal, things like that. The vision is continuous expansiveness, just like we are. So as we start hitting levels of our vision, then we go, okay, now what's the next thing? And it continues to grow.
Kristen Wambach (37:40.856) I have a a a little life lesson, one of Kristen's little life lessons, that helps me with the ego. If I'm I always try to be available to listen, have my heart tuned toward the Lord throughout the day. That that's just ever growing, ever learning to allow Him to be sitting in the driver's seat or the passenger seat, whatever we're doing. What I say is if a thought comes through, I go, "Jesus, did You say that?"
Kristen Wambach (38:20.903) It works beautifully. "Did You say that?"
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (38:22.850) Yeah. Yeah.
Kristen Wambach (38:26.377) And He will just He'll either say no, yes, and just it sifted it sifts that ego right out. Sometimes He says yes, and I just go, "Really? You did say that. Oh my goodness," because sometimes even we will excuse our ego when it's actually...
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (38:33.176) Yeah.
Kristen Wambach (38:50.997) ...God speaking to us to encourage us. "Yep, you're going the right way. Come on, you can do this. This is where I want you to step." But it seems too big or too out of our comfort zone. And we will just go, "Oh, that's just my ego. Just hug it up. Move aside."
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (38:54.188) Yes.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (39:01.132) Yes, yes. And that's... yeah. Yeah and that's a way people can like I learned to tell the difference between if it's my ego, it'll fit along the patterns I'm living in. When coming from God, you know, direction from God through intuition, through the Holy Spirit, it usually has me shifting outside of those patterns for something.
Kristen Wambach (39:34.024) Okay, I'm gonna put a little twist in here. You mentioned, because I've read your book, you mentioned that when we hit an internal brick wall, those friction points are actually points of access for real transformation. For the high capacity leader who has learned to hide their private anxiety...
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (39:52.941) Yes.
Kristen Wambach (40:01.208) ...behind professional achievements. We can just have the best painted masks, can't we? While everything feels like it's shaking underneath us. We have this smile. Hello. What does it practically look like on Monday morning to drop the performance mask, face the raw discomfort, and let truth override the facts?
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (40:08.588) Yes. Yeah, yes.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (40:28.908) I think the first place is is to have a safe avenue to do so. You know, when I was a vice president in Corporate America and leading a sales team or leading a company that was in bankruptcy back to profitability and things like that... If I'd just went in there and and and just, you know, started spouting stuff like that, I would have gotten, you know, I don't know if I'd have even gotten to be there to get the new owners and not that it was good. But anyways, like one of the things I'll give you an example. We would get in these meetings every single day, five days a week, for at least an hour and a half, the whole leadership team would get together in the conference room.
And it was a constant complaint session from everybody. "What's going bad? What's going bad? What's going bad?" So I, you know, believing what I believed, learning what I had learned up until that point, I started bringing in there and saying, "Listen, is there anything going good? Is there anything that we could talk about that's going good?" And the entire place fought me on it. That like the entire team that was in there, even the president of the company started calling me "Mr. Over Optimistic." So now I'm trying to help people to see outside of the problem to start looking towards a solution. And they're going, "Okay, Mr. Over Optimistic." And I'd hear them teasing about me, you know... and like a few times I was like, "I'm not doing this anymore. The heck with it," you know, and I wanted to give up and God wouldn't let me. You know, and finally one day we were in there, and this is like a month and a half into it, Kristen. And I go cons- and I just hit my hand on the table just out of frustration. I didn't plan or anything. And I was just like, "Can we list one thing that's going good in all of this? Just one thing."
And the guy that handles the small parts, he goes, "All right, I'll throw one out there." He goes, "We have we're having like a 30% scrap rate on these parts and stuff. And a couple of my guys got together and they figured out how we can we can process them differently. And it brought our scrap down into the teens." And so everybody's just looking at me like, okay... I mean, to me, that was a success. You dropped it from 30% down into the teens. Well, a guy on the other side of the room, he goes, "Whoa, whoa, whoa."
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (42:33.334) Now this guy managed over the larger parts, like up to 25,000 pound castings, things like that. So he goes, "What was that problem?" And he told him, he goes, "We got the same problem over there. We got a 20-some percent scrap rate." He goes, "After this, let's go out there." So they end up hooking up, they go through the whole thing, they come back the next week, and the guy with the large parts, he's going, "There's something to all this optimism." He goes, "I made the same corrections he told me about, and my scrap is in single-digit scrap rates right now running this stuff."
Well, then people started changing the teasing stuff, but they still it was still wasn't an open thing. Like my office was adjacent to the conference room. And so after the meeting, people would walk out and I'd see them wait until the hallway was clear and then they'd come in my office and shut the door real quick because they didn't want people to see them talking to me and stuff, you know. And and I'm battling with ego through this whole process here because part of me is like, "The heck with you. You know, you don't want to hear it and no, forget it," you know... and and... but...
You know, God is more powerful than I am when I allow Him to be and I want Him to be. And so so I have these conversations and all of a sudden within three months we had a company come in, a private equity group come in, dump twelve million dollars in operation, and overnight took us from a three-day-a-month operation to a five-day-a-week operation. And the whole thing kinda grew from there and then I left, resigned, to do what I do today. So, but yeah, we have those things that happen like that and and it's...
The discomfort level? That wasn't my comfort level back then. The ego I talked about, the way the ego stepped up, the way I'd spend evenings like kind of cursing people and stuff for like the way they were towards me and stuff like that, you know, and feel singled out and all that stuff that hurts the feelings and stuff. But it's really just our ego. Cause if I'm close to God, it doesn't matter what people say about me. One bit. I know how God loves me and that's more powerful than what anybody else can ever have for me. That's, you know, one thing I learned early on I really love is, you know, when you look at a cross, it's got the upright, and then it's got the cross members, and and typically the upright is twice the length of what it is going this way, which I've gotten this thing—I forget where I got from—but it's like I need to focus twice as much on this relationship than I focus on these relationships.
Kristen Wambach (44:40.033) Mm-hmm.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (44:55.776) And when I do that, Kristen, man, it's like somebody put a power pack in through all areas of my life.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (45:07.626) And every client I work with—I work with atheist, agnostic, I work with Christians, I work with non-Christians, I work with, you know, like whatever you could say. I've worked with clients in that. And every one of them, when we get done working, knows God better. Because it's built right into it. And I tell them right up front, "You know, I'm Christian, I call God God. Whatever that is for you, if it's universal, if it's this, that's okay. But I'm gonna say God, because that's along my beliefs. And this is my business, so I get to do that."
Kristen Wambach (45:35.553) Yes.
Kristen Wambach (45:47.254) Yes, you do.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (45:47.457) And they'll laugh and stuff, but as I'm going and stuff, I'll notice they'll start out with "universal" and this and that. And then throughout the process, and I don't push on anybody, but throughout the process they'll start mentioning God. And I've had a number of my clients that start going back to church and they start getting involved and they start growing in that way and stuff. And like I would not have known to do this with my life. And if it weren't for the hardships I experienced and the walls I ran into and the bloody mess I made of myself and everything else, I wouldn't get to live this life and serve the way I do. I'd have been okay enough, you know? Those people that... and I get to talk to a lot, but the people that live on minuscule scraps of what's possible for them.
Kristen Wambach (46:41.547) Have... I'm gonna try to get a question out here.
Kristen Wambach (46:53.555) I observe that many people don't ask themselves what we would call a self-help question. They never ask themselves that. And you know, I I I look at it curiously because... part of my personality is to be focused, to, you know, to run ahead, be a forerunner. I realize that's part of how God made me. But why is it that so many people never question what their status quo is?
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (47:39.225) Fear of what they'll find out. I know for me that's one thing. I know for a lot of my clients what it was. You know, I can tell somebody who's living that way very, very easily. When I ask somebody, "What's causing your business not to grow? What's the problem?" Anytime they blame an outside situation or circumstance like competition, state of the economy, any of those things, I know that it's somebody who hasn't... I don't know if they want to or not, but hasn't looked at themselves, because my problems are always me. And when I can bring it back to me, then I can experience something different. But if I'm blaming you, or I'm blaming this, or I'm blaming that, then I'm stuck in that. There's no better... I can't get any better. Nothing can get better if I have no control over it or anything else. It just is. So when I take this stuff and I look at it and go, "Okay, what is it in me that's going crazy driving 30 miles an hour in a 55?" Then I can remember it's my head. I can pray. I can start noticing, even though I've done the route hundreds of times...
Kristen Wambach (48:43.723) Mm-hmm.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (48:43.776) ...I start noticing new things there and I end up going, "God, thank You. Thank You. I never knew that was there. How beautiful."
Kristen Wambach (48:47.871) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (48:52.269) And sometimes God slows us down to keep us safe.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (48:57.280) It does, yeah. You know, most times when I'm working with an entrepreneur, one of the first things we have to do coming out of the gate... we start the vision, but one of the first things we have to do, and I use the vision as a way of doing this, is we have to throttle back a little bit. They're so used to going running 95 to 100% and going, going, going, and more hours and everything else and stuff like that. I have to get them to throttle back a little bit because here's the thing... You know, like when you look at my understanding... I'll tell I'll tell you my understanding is there's God and there's Jesus Christ who came and died for our sins, but then He left us with the Holy Spirit, which is within us. That's what the Holy Spirit is... what I when I say intuition, what it is to me, is it's the Holy Spirit. And it works perfectly in every single one of us. But it's only as loud as our willingness to hear it. So I have to throttle back, I have to slow down, I have to pause in order to get those directions, in order to hear those, you know, the guidance coming from the Holy Spirit.
Kristen Wambach (49:45.631) Right.
Kristen Wambach (49:59.840) That's a tool that you use to quiet the noise.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (50:06.328) One of the things for me is because of doing so much traveling, like I really used to travel three to five thousand miles a week trying to build territories. One of the things I enjoyed about that was the windshield time. Windshield time for me is sacred. 'Cause I get going and a lot of times I don't have the radio on, I'm not listening to a podcast, I'm not doing things like that. I'm just... I'm just existing while I'm driving. And the more I can exist while I drive, the more clarity that happens. I don't know how many times—I'm gonna say at least three, but I don't know how many times—I'd be driving on the road and developing a territory. As I started understanding these things and implementing it, as I found somebody to help me identify, because I couldn't even identify what the programming in the subconscious was that was causing me to stall. I couldn't... it just it's so normal and natural, I couldn't pick it up. But so now we're starting to do that, we're starting to identify it, I'm starting to come up with ways try to, you know... and again, what took me years to realize, the people I work with today do so in in days and weeks, you know. But so I'm starting to shift it and stuff. And I'd be driving, and all of a sudden I'd get the thought of something, a quote I turned in a while ago, and I'd call the person and I'd go, "Hey, I just wanted to check on that quote." And he goes, "My God, I'm getting ready to source that today. Do I have your quote?" And he'd look and see it, whatever he goes, "Yeah, I have it here." I'd get awarded that business.
That happened numerous times where it was just a spark of a thought that happened. So in in my business, the way I operate that is I find time like that. I find time, you know, being up in the mountains where I live, I go out to a trout stream and sometimes I won't even cast a line in the water. I'll just sit there and talk to God or listen to God. I love motorcycling. I love hang gliding. I love things that allow me to be active but at peace. So when I'm on a hang glider and I'm just, you know, the hang glider does all the work, really. You just kind of tip it and turn it and stuff like that. And so, and I'm just talking to God the whole time. It's like, "God, this is so amazing. It's so amazing. I'm so grateful to be Your child." And I start, you know, I'll start just start leaning into that stuff. The vision is another one. Having a dynamic vision.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (52:15.232) It's always right there with us. You know, I call it spark igniting. Once we have the vision, is I just start saying, "I'm so happy and grateful that I am..." like one of my things is an institute to certify other coaches to expand the footprint of these works in the SMT method beyond what I can do myself now and after I'm gone from here. You know, and so it's like, "God, I'm so grateful that the clients or people are showing up that want to get certified, they want to teach this program and they want to help other people live their lives the same," and I'll just start speaking it until I... I could go, Kristen, at times till I get tears in my eyes. It gets so big. The joy, the excitement, the gratitude, the blessings of... yeah. So there's numerous ways. And what I do is I share these with my clients, but then I help them develop their own ways, their own ways of doing. I have people who go to the gym and work out, and it's a very spiritual time for them. To me, it's not a spiritual time because I still got a little bit of that ego thing going that says, you know, like a few years ago, I was like, "Okay, I want to get my bench press above 300 pounds," and I did that within a few months.
Kristen Wambach (53:24.609) Mm-hmm.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (53:32.985) But then I ended up getting shoulder surgery and stuff like that because everything I tore up trying to do that, you know, it's ego and stuff and I know that. So when I go to the gym, I'm very focused on "I'm just here to exercise my body. I wanna feel the muscle fatigueness when I leave, but I wanna still be able to move," you know? It's just things like that. Pickleball, if I'm having a hard time during the day and so if I play a lot of pickleball, I'll go out and play pickleball for an hour and it just removes all the stuff, all that stuff I don't need that's blocking the way of the thoughts and all that stuff, you know, it just clears the path.
Kristen Wambach (54:05.193) Mm. Pickleball's awesome. I haven't for a while, but I used to compete, yeah.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (54:08.599) You play?
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (54:13.795) Nice, nice.
Kristen Wambach (54:15.063) Yeah. I did a state I did a state tournament.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (54:19.650) Wow, that's impressive. I've done tournaments. My favorite tournament is I did one last year and we ended up taking third place... second place, yeah, third place in the tournament. And it was a higher bracket, it was 3.5 duper, and I'm three... just over three. And so they gave us these gift certificate things for this shoe store, and I'm like, okay, it's probably, you know, ten dollars off or something like that. We go into the shoe store, it was a five-hundred-dollar gift certificate.
Kristen Wambach (54:21.941) Yeah.
Kristen Wambach (54:33.751) Mm-hmm.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (54:49.519) So I go, "Look, pickleball's paying the bills."
Kristen Wambach (54:49.519) Oh yeah. Yay. I love pickleball. I love it. It's good.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (54:54.988) I do too. Yeah. So being exactly where I'm at, my business being the exact size, my this and that and everything else... I've lived miserably and I've lived so blessed that I can't stop talking about it. And the only thing that changed is when I asked God for help, He changed my insides. And then after that happened and I got into that place of being grateful, then the outside results of situation, circumstances started changing as well.
Kristen Wambach (55:36.994) They do. They do. I had a a few weeks a few weeks ago and I was trying to remember the actually the thing that prompted me to ask God, but I had witnessed somebody and they they had a wonderful father-daughter relationship. I remember laying in bed and I was thinking and I asked God, I go, "Hmm, you know... I need more of those experiences because they're not part of my story."
Kristen Wambach (56:21.759) And they started coming out of the woodwork.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (56:25.676) Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. And even even as much as I've studied this stuff, I mean it's over three decades I've been studying this stuff, you know? And and even with all that, like I'm I still haven't arrived. I'm still not there at the end point, you know what I mean, where I'm like the master. I continue to lean into things of growing. I continue... I told you, like, the way I use pickleball and things like that. I told you I, you know, sometimes struggle that I get in my head before God does in the morning, you know, and I love that I can start my day over, you know, and I and I love that ultimately I know that the more I lead, the harder it becomes. And if I just let go and what you were saying earlier, trust and believe... it makes life easier.
Kristen Wambach (57:15.165) Ask Him about that. And then your statement, you said it twice about getting you getting God in your head before you do. Well, if you really think about that, it's it's not actually possible... in your oneness with God, in your oneness with God. It's not possible to...
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (57:34.940) Right, right. But we do have two pathways running, right? We got self-will. Right? That's why people struggle. That's why people struggle is because they we want what we want when we want how we want it. If we if we ask God for it, we don't know how it's going to show up. That's why one of the things... I'm glad you said that, Kristen, because one of the things that's really important about the vision, never ever list how it shows up. Because what reality... From the best we know, we don't know how things like that happen. We don't know how they come about. We don't know. And God does though. So think about what you just said. If I'm living on self-will and I'm figuring it all out and I'm saying the way it's got to happen, I'm this and I'm that, and something doesn't match it, then it's just "I didn't get that. God's not working for me." But it's really me grabbing the reins and kicking God out of the out of the vehicle or whatever, you know, and running with it. When I'm following God, there's unknowns. That's with faith and belief. I don't know how God's gonna show up.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (58:44.866) You know, when I work with other people who have like addiction problems and things like that, I tell you, you know, forget the how. Because does it really matter how? Or do you just want to be clean? Do you want to live life, a good life? You know, and so if that's the case, forget about the how. The same thing with the vision and building a business. The how will show up if we get into alignment between our conscious mind, our subconscious mind, and put that into alignment with the dynamic vision. It's... and that's not philosophy, that's physics. It's all about energy flow. You can prove that with a calculation. I don't know the calculation. I wouldn't know how to figure the calculation out, but I understand the process of how it works.
Kristen Wambach (59:28.055) But don't you think God wants us to know a lot of hows?
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (59:38.391) Not not necessarily. No. Now, one thing I'll tell you, when I get done working with with the with the entrepreneur or business owner, when we're done, they have a roadmap of how to achieve success. It involves God in a lot of the hows, but they have a roadmap for success that they can carry into any other business or adventure, endeavor that they that they go upon. They have that. It's unique to them. They have that.
Kristen Wambach (59:50.455) Mm.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (01:00:05.914) But it's still, you know, one of the things that I finally picked up on after almost a decade of getting coaching and mentoring and all this stuff and everything is is very, very successful people will often talk about their efforts that brought them to that success. But they're not as open to talking about the things that came out of the blue, the coincidences, the God-winks, the whatever you want to call it, the things that just came together perfectly at the right moment. They don't talk about those things. And I don't know if it's because they're not aware of it... I, you know, I haven't studied, but they're not aware of it, or or if it takes away from their success story. But I'd rather live the life that I crave to live and give God all the glory for it.
Kristen Wambach (01:00:49.441) Mm-hmm.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (01:00:52.384) If I could sit here and talk with you on the phone for hours and everything else is like, you know, figuring it out, that's great. I don't need to know the how. I have the rearview mirror I can look into and see how God has shown up. I have the miracles and the things that have shown up in my life and how it's turned around. I'm telling you, me talking to you right now, Kristen, I could not have created the pathway that brought me here and doing this with my life.
My life was meant... at eighteen years old, I was cleaning oil out of machines. I was covered in grease. I had my under my... and not that I not that I knock that 'cause I come from blue collar so I have a lot of respect for it and stuff, but I you know, I was told all through school that, you know, I was I I people are meant to work with their head, people are meant to work with their hands. I was gonna be one of the people that work with my hands because I wasn't that smart, you know, and all this stuff and everything else... to having a doctorate degree and publishing books and and VP of sales, you know, and all the things I... Even now, if if if I had to explain how all that happened, I don't know if I could. But I know it wasn't me. I didn't sit down with a pad of paper and go, "Here's the steps I'm gonna take and I'm gonna be a vice president." No. It just unfolds and it opens up. Do you care about how things come about, the things that you most desire to experience in life?
Kristen Wambach (01:02:15.009) I think on certain things that the knowing how meanings I've experienced the how, that means I can teach and share with another one so it can be multiplied.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (01:02:32.440) See that I agree with. That part of it I agree with. The knowing the how is God. That's the only answer I need. It's God. God does His part always. He's promised us that He does His part. And He doesn't come from man. So He doesn't make the errors that we make as men and women, you know, like mankind and things like that and stuff. He you know, so so His promises always come true if we believe in Him and and and trust Him. And it always comes. There's things I've wanted in life and I want it right now. And this is the best time. And it's never going to be as good a time as this, everything else. And they didn't come. And then later on they showed up and it it was like a whole life change when they showed up. I couldn't have known that. I don't know what's ahead in my life. God does.
Kristen Wambach (01:03:09.311) It's not...
Kristen Wambach (01:03:18.443) Mm-hmm. He does.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (01:03:22.424) For every single one of us, He knows what's coming up ahead. He knows where to insert those things. He knows when to play something on the radio or have something pop up on our phone, or all of a sudden you're in coffee line, you hear two people talking, it's exactly what I've been trying to figure out. And it happens right. I can't plan for those things. What happens if I start looking too deep into the hows and detail them out? I don't even hear that conversation those people are having. Or that thing shows up on my phone and I go, "What's this?" and I just get rid of it. You know, I'm follow- when I'm following self-will with stuff like that and I'm running the show.
Kristen Wambach (01:04:00.246) Well, maybe I would add to the conversation or we might have to add it for another time, but I don't... I'm curious. I like to know the how and I don't always think it's a matter of self-will needing to.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (01:04:22.552) So, so what I'm hearing you saying right now is more how I live today. I used to live where I had to figure everything. I thought I I thought that's what I I thought I was living right by doing that. "I have to figure this out. If I want something, I gotta figure out how to do it." You know, that's even early coaching programs taught me that. "You know, if you want something, find out who has what you want and do what they did." But we never get... it's never the same results for two different people going after the same thing, even going the same way, because we're unique. And so working off that uniqueness... but so I want to know, like I love seeing those things unfold when they're getting that spark of that idea and ended up getting awarded that business, you know, and and doing things like that, you know... like I love seeing how they unfolded. The 50% custody with my son, you know, of having him in my life 50% the time. Like things like that. I I I love seeing how they unfold, but I no longer have to figure it out how things have to unfold. I can trust and believe God in God. And then just be in awe of how He works.
Kristen Wambach (01:05:30.547) And He does work fantastically, uniquely, supernaturally.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (01:05:35.359) Absolutely. Yeah. Yeah. You know, and I said earlier, you know, I haven't arrived yet. I'm not there yet. You know, I still learn every day what it looks like to surrender my plans, to trust God's timing in more and more areas of my life, and to find my security in Him instead of results. You know, one of the things I've studied quite a bit on is source. I used to be the source. My clients were the source. The bank, the money was the source. Like all these things are source. None of them are. God is source. And when I get that into alignment and when I'm coming from there are the best days I've experienced in my life. Understanding He's source, He's money, He's opportunity, He's this, He... all of it is God. Which leads back to something you were saying a little bit a little bit ago.
Kristen Wambach (01:06:26.839) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (01:06:32.597) And what was I saying a little bit ago from my...
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (01:06:34.094) When we were saying that about the... when we were talking about, you know, we we have the self-will and then we have God, where you said, you know, the the the thing in the morning, you know, that getting God in there before I get in there, and you said it's God. It is, but if I don't recognize it as God, it's self-will run riot. Business owners who their business is not growing and they're working fifty, sixty, seventy hours a week... They can't go on vacation without checking their emails and phones all the time. They can't, you know, they can't sit down and enjoy a dinner with their family and they're constantly stressed and worried, even if they hide it and things like that... That's that's somebody that's running on self-will.
Kristen Wambach (01:07:14.175) Yes. I won't argue that. We could attach that same description to many people's lives or a generation of people that... yeah.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (01:07:17.901) And we'll read...
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (01:07:24.428) You're right. And that's exactly what it is. You know, my son has told me before where I haven't recognized it. He goes, "Dad, do you understand that you broke generational chains in our in programming? Like he's telling me... "my son will never have to go through what you went through growing up or your parents went through or things like that. Because you've broken that. You've changed it, you taught it to me different, and now I get to carry that ongoing."
Kristen Wambach (01:07:55.307) Mm-hmm.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (01:07:56.877) You know, and then yeah, so I mean I I it's that ripple effect is absolutely incredible and that's all God's design.
Kristen Wambach (01:08:06.741) Mm-hmm. It is something when we get a hold of the magnitude of His oneness in us. There is no separation. There's a hundred percent God in you and a hundred percent God in me. There's a hundred percent God in the listener. The temple is completely filled.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (01:08:15.438) Yeah, yeah, absolutely. Yeah.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (01:08:27.020) Yeah, yeah. And the whole thing, kinda like what I started with, is nothing changed in my circumstances on the outside till the inside. So one of the things I'd like to say, anybody listening that feeling stuck right now, I'd encourage you to not ask God to simply change your circumstances. Ask Him to transform you and your heart and your thinking. When He changes the person, He changes the way that person experiences everything else in life. And in you know, me, I'm... yes, an example of that. My clients are examples of that. You know, you're an example of that. Jesus didn't simply... God, Jesus didn't simply improve my business. They transformed the man leading my business, which is me. And that ties right back into what we were talking about with that vision. We become that person in the vision.
Kristen Wambach (01:09:26.997) I think that is a wonderful place and a wonderful pause. Would you pray for us?
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (01:09:35.574) I would love to. Father God, I just thank You for this conversation. I thank You for how how the love for You that it brings up in my heart. And I can see that with Kristen and anybody listening to this. Just just touch their hearts. Let them take away from this whatever it was that they needed to have, God. I know that's, you know, on You, on Your docket and not mine. So and and and just thank You. Thank You. Thank You for bringing this life about. From where I've come from and to where I'm at today, and that I get to love and I get to serve and I get to help other people live better lives and and break those, you know, generational chains in their family and and just help every person listening to this have some insight that helps them wanna take a step into bringing about the change in the person to experience and then experience the results that they experience. I love You with all my heart. In Jesus' name we pray. Amen.
Kristen Wambach (01:10:37.757) Amen. Thank you so much, Joseph, for bubbling over...
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (01:10:43.966) Yeah.
Kristen Wambach (01:10:46.017) ...to all of us bubbling over today as...
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (01:10:47.714) Yes. So much appreciated this conversation.
Kristen Wambach (01:10:52.993) Thank you.
Dr. Joseph Drolshagen (01:10:54.168) Thank you.
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Beyond the Mask: How Surrendering Self-Will Unlocks True Kingdom Freedom
We live in a culture—even a Christian culture—that celebrates the hustle. We paint on our best smile, collect professional "attaboys," and stack up our performance scorecards while privately carrying an anxious weight. We white-knuckle our routines, try to force open doors of opportunity, and pray for God to change our physical facts while we stay in total control of the steering wheel.
During a recent conversation on the show with Dr. Joseph Drolshagen—an international coach and former 28-year corporate executive who walked away from the VP ladder to teach Subconscious Mindset Training™—we pulled back the curtain on this exact struggle. We stepped past the resume pages and right into the living room of real life. And a question surfaced that hit straight at the heart of our spiritual journey:
What happens when we stop trying to earn God's love through human grit, drop the performance mask, and actually surrender our self-will?
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The Trap of Earning What’s Already Given
I remember sitting with Jesus in prayer one morning, asking Him off the cuff, "Lord, why does trust take so long?" He looked right at me with that gentle, pregnant smile and asked back, "Why DOES trust take so long?" It was such a profound mirror. You see, the delay in trust is never on God’s end. He isn't withholding His presence or waiting for us to prove our worthiness. The bottleneck happens when we confuse our trustworthiness with our willingness to trust Him. We spin our wheels trying to earn a love that was already freely poured out at the Cross. When we realize that our true identity comes from being a son or daughter of God—not from how many hours we log or how much burden we can carry—everything shifts.
Truth Over Physical Facts
Physical facts are real, but they are temporal. Truth is eternal.
When Dr. Joseph talked about launching off a 2,000-foot mountain peak strapped to a hang glider, or stepping into what he calls Dynamic Visioning™, he wasn't talking about self-help positive thinking. He was talking about operating under a higher spiritual law. In 2 Corinthians 5:17, Scripture declares that if anyone is in Christ, they are a new creation. The old baseline of inherited struggle, scarcity, and anxiety has passed away.
When we align our internal climate with who God says we are, we stop reacting to the physical facts around us and start allowing the Law of the Spirit of Life to overwrite our reality.
Breaking the Chains for the Next Generation
God isn't asking you to manufacture the "how" for your future. He isn't asking you to figure out every step of the roadmap on your own. He is simply asking for a volunteered heart.
If you feel stuck today, don't just pray for God to change your external circumstances. Ask Him to transform you from the inside out. When Jesus transforms the person leading your life, the way you experience every circumstance around you is radically elevated.
Let's drop the mask, step off the porch of self-reliance, and live Spiritually BRAVE!
COACHING CHURCH ACTIVATIONS
Scripture Anchor: "Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new." — 2 Corinthians 5:17
Your Monday-Morning Kingdom Assignment
This week, we are stepping out of the hustle and right into the quiet room of grace. We’re dropping the performance mask and letting the Holy Spirit run a complete overwrite on our internal baseline.
Here is your 3-step practical activation for the week ahead:
1. Take 10 Minutes of "Windshield Time"
Find 10 quiet, unhurried minutes—whether you're sitting in your car before turning the key, taking a quiet walk, or sitting by your morning coffee. Turn off the radio, put away the podcasts, and just exist with Jesus. Ask Him plain and simple:
"Jesus, where am I trying to white-knuckle the 'how' instead of trusting You?"
2. Sift the Ego Response
When an anxious thought or stress trigger pops up about your business, finances, or family, pause and use my simple lifestyle tool:
"Jesus, did You say that?" If it’s rooted in fear, scarcity, or pressure to prove yourself, recognize it as self-will trying to jump back in the driver's seat. Let that thought drop right to the floor.
3. Speak Truth Over Your Legacy
Take one written promise or prophetic word God has given you over your life or family. Speak 2 Corinthians 5:17 out loud over your home, declaring that the old baseline of struggle stops with you. Consciously hand the timing and execution back to the Father, breaking generational chains and stepping into your true Kingdom identity.
Live Spiritually BRAVE this week! — Kristen Wambach
There is no separation. There's a hundred percent God in you and a hundred percent God in me. There's a hundred percent God in the listener. The temple is completely filled." —Kristen Wambach
MEET THE AUTHOR, BLOGGER & PODCASTERHey there! I’m Kristen Wambach—author, podcaster, spiritual investigative journalist, and your host here on the Interviewing Jesus Podcast. My passion and mandate are simple: to help you look past surface-level religion, drop the performance mask, and step into the unhurried, soul-enriching reality of living Spiritually BRAVE! |
Through my books, alignment journals, and deep-dive conversations with global pioneers, authors, and marketplace leaders, I love creating a quiet room for real breakthrough—a space where we can sift through the noise, quiet the ego, and align our daily lives with heaven’s original design.
In this special episode, I sit down with Dr. Joseph Drolshagen to unpack what it really looks like to stop forcing results on self-will, break generational ceilings, and rest in total trust with the Father. Pull up a chair, take a deep breath, and let’s step into the living room of grace together!
Warmly, Kristen
The Final Overwrite: Stepping Off the Porch of Hustle
When you drop the performance mask and invite Jesus into the quiet room of your heart, He doesn't just tweak your habits—He transforms the person leading your life. He shifts you out of the heavy labor of self-will and steps you right into the effortless momentum of His Spirit. Your identity as a son or daughter is secure, your baseline is renewed, and the generational chains of struggle stop right here with you.
Your Call to Action: Take the Next Step Today!If you are ready to stop striving on your own strength and start living from the inside out, here is how you can dive deeper into this week's message:
- Watch & Listen to the Full Masterclass: Catch my complete conversation with Dr. Joseph Drolshagen on the Interviewing Jesus Podcast (and don't miss our special Country Gospel Music Video Anthem!).
- Claim Your Free Strategy Session & Book: Dr. Joseph is generously offering my audience a free 15-minute Stuck-to-Unstuck Strategy Session, plus a complimentary copy of his latest book, Breaking the Attachment Pattern Keeping Your Business Small. Head straight over to the show notes or visit josephadrolshagen.com to schedule yours today!
- Join the Movement: Subscribe to the podcast, grab my daily alignment journals over at KristenWambach.com, and share this post with a leader who needs a fresh breath of Kingdom grace today.
The Resurrected Christ in Your Bones: Unlocking Divine Healing Today with Dr. Craig Demo ❖ 297
8/6/2026
You are not trying to get healing, you're receiving what's already been given to you, just like you would receive a package at Christmas... all you're doing is receiving it and unwrapping it." —Craig Demo
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Welcome to the Interviewing Jesus Podcast. I am your host, Kristen Wambach, and in this episode, we tackle a profound reality that bridges heaven and earth: the release of the "imprisoned Christ" within you. Joining me is my dear friend of 30 years, Craig DeMo, to discuss the literal process of transformation and divine healing.
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We are moving past the Logos mind and shifting into a Rhema mind to give you the practical logic to receive the covenant promises Jesus already paid for. Get ready for a soul-stirring conversation designed to simplify the supernatural, connect you with your God-inspired DNA, and equip you to live Spiritually BRAVE.
Key Takeaways
- You Are the Healed: You are not a sick person trying to get well; you are the healed enforcing a victory over a defeated enemy. Healing is a package already given by Jesus that simply needs to be unwrapped and received.
- The Process of Transformation: You are a three-part being: spirit, soul, and body. Total perfection happens instantly in your spirit when you are born again. True transformation occurs when you align your soul (your intellect, emotions, and daily decisions) with that completed spiritual reality.
- Stop Waiting for a Feeling: Do not wait for a physical or emotional confirmation before believing God's word is true. When a symptom hits, do not accommodate it; drive it back by agreeing with the Word over what your physical senses tell you.
- The Power of Spoken Agreement: When faced with a fractured skull and five broken ribs, Craig and his wife stood in immediate agreement with the Word of God, resulting in canceled surgeries and a 40-hour release from the intensive care unit.
- God's Grace is Personal: Just as the Lord used a specific prayer language to sound like a Cherokee grandfather to intimately heal a woman in a maternity ward, God's grace always knows exactly how to reach and comfort His kids.
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SUMMARY
As a spiritual investigative journalist, I sat down with my dear friend of 30 years, Craig DeMo, to dig into the historical teaching notes of John G. Lake and unpack the reality of the "imprisoned Christ". We bridge the gap between heaven and earth by simplifying how healing actually moves from our born-again spirits into our physical bodies.
- The Monday-Morning Logic of Healing: Craig breaks down the reality that we are three-part beings. When you are born again, your spirit is instantly made perfect. The daily work is aligning your soul—your intellect, emotions, and decisions—with that kingdom reality, rather than the physical symptoms you feel.
- Raw Stories of Transformation: Craig shares his own miraculous testimony of surviving a severe bicycle accident. Faced with a fractured skull, five broken ribs, and scheduled brain surgery, he and his wife chose to speak the Word over his physical body. The result? Canceled surgeries and a miraculous release from the hospital in just 40 hours. I also share a deeply personal story from a maternity ward, revealing how God's intimate grace met a desperate mother through a simple prayer language.
- Shifting Your Mindset: We tackle how to move from a logical, sense-driven mind to a Rhema mind. You are not a sick person trying to get well; you are the healed enforcing a victory over a defeated enemy.
The same spirit that raised Jesus from the dead quickens or makes alive, or heals, or rejuvenates, regenerates our mortal bodies." —Craig Demo
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Welcome back to Interviewing Jesus Podcast. I am your host, Kristen Wambach, with over three decades in spiritual leadership and coaching. I have learned some of the most profound kingdom wisdom comes from relationships and deep roots. And my guest today is a dear friend from 30 years ago. My goodness, we have some history here, and we're gonna get to dig up that history because back then we attended church together and found ourselves serving side by side at a defining conference, absorbing the newly unveiled healing notes of John G. Lake. And there is so much more. We were both hungry to simplify the supernatural and to press into what truly means to carry Christ within us. Since those early days in the trenches, Craig Demo has stepped fully into a God-inspired DNA launching out to build a powerful global healing ministry. Today he is joining me to unpack what it actually takes to get healing out of our spirits and into our physical bodies. That is just my passion for today's episode. We're talking about the reality of kind of like how Christ gets imprisoned in us. Versus moving from a logical mind to a Rema mind and giving you the practical Monday morning tools to receive what Jesus has already paid for you. Get ready. Hello, get ready, get ready for a soul-stirring conversation that will challenge you to live spiritually brave. Please welcome my friend and guest, Craig Demo.
Dr. Craig DeMo (01:56.698)
God bless you. Praise God. Kristen, I cannot tell you how honored I am to be with you on the podcast today. And I know there's a lot of hungry hearts and you know, as well, a lot of people that feel frustrated about things that really God has met their need, but there's a disconnect somewhere, and usually it's something very, very simple. And so I am just privileged to be able to serve God's people by bringing the word of God to bear on whatever situation that people are facing, knowing that the Spirit of God will illuminate the understanding that we need on the scriptures so that we can rightly divide and correctly apply the Word of God. Because faith comes by hearing, hearing by the Word of God. Praise God. We've heard that over and over and over and over and over and over and over again. And yet we need to stay in the fight. So praise God. That's what we're committed to do. Thank you, Kristen.
Kristen Wambach (03:02.601)
I agree. Yes, yes, yes. Now, Craig, before we dive deep into the waters of transformation, unlocking the supernatural, I want to make sure that our listeners know exactly how to find you because I know by the time we are finished with our conversation, they're going to want to glean more from you. Where's the best place for people to connect with ambassador ministries and get their hands on the practical Monday morning kingdom wisdom?
Dr. Craig DeMo (03:33.400)
Well, I'm gonna start with actually I'm gonna put I think four resources before everybody and I hope that's okay. But our website is ambassadorministries.org. Ambassadorministries.org. Now if you by mistake, put a dot com, it'll still get there. So praise God. That works too, but it's ambassadorministries.org. And also if you want to communicate with me directly. My email is craig at ambassadorministries.org. C-R-A-I-G. And so they can get me that way. That's perfectly fine. Praise God. I'm not going to tell you that I'm going to, you know, respond within 30 minutes, but I will respond. So praise God. You can also go to our YouTube channel. Now I'm on YouTube, I'm on Rumble, I'm on BitChute. However, really where a lot of people follow me, well, not a lot of people, relatively speaking, but some people do follow me on YouTube. And my handle is just Craig Demo. And De Mo is like Demo D-E-M-O, and it's easy to remember because the more you see him, the more you like him. But I have over 500 videos there. And a lot of them deal with the subject we're talking about today, which is divine healing. And so just go to youtube.com for I think it's forward slash Craig Demo or something of that nature, but you can find me there. So just search for me if you don't see me right away. And then also on Facebook. I can be found there. and facebook.com forward slash ambassador ministries. So praise God. And we just love being in you know serving the people of God. So praise God. Don't want to waste your time. I know you don't want to waste mine. Let's get to business. We have a lot to do here in the last days.
Kristen Wambach (05:46.550)
Amen. Amen. And also, listeners, just a reminder, all of the links that Craig just shared with you, I will have in the show notes. So if you're driving, keep your hands on the wheel. We'll take care of it for you. All right, we're jumping in. So, Craig, 30 years ago, you and I we served together at a Curry Blake conference, diving into the teaching notes of John G. Lake. In the beginning question, some people might need to know who John G. Lake is. I have stumbled upon a few that don't know who he is. But thinking back to those foundational days, how did that early exposure to the supernatural and our oneness with Jesus shape the DNA of your healing ministry today, which you hear so many signs and wonders and miracles?
Dr. Craig DeMo (06:43.521)
Yeah, a lot of people today sort of claim Dr. John G. Lake as their spiritual mentor, or even they say that they, you know, they're spiritually sort of a descendant of John G. Lake. And there's a reason why people refer to him. The reason is is because if you look at Pentecostal history, you look at the healing revival movement the late 40s, 1950s, and 1960s, with great people like A.A. Allen, William Branham, Jack Coe, of course, you know, full gospel businessman came out of that. The, you know, healing ministries like Katherine Kuhlman came out of that, and so forth and so on. John G. Lake was a little bit earlier. He lived from 1870 to 1935, but what he did that was pretty much different than most others was that he didn't just minister healing himself. He was noted for teaching others how to minister healing to the sick. And you know, we are not just to be able to propagate the gospel, that's what we do when we minister to the sick, we lay hands on the sick and see them recover, yes, but we are also called to disciple people. So that people know exactly what to do. And I've learned that you can learn the healing ministry, you can receive instruction in it, you can be coached in it, just like you can be trained how to win souls. There really is no difference. But you need a new mindset, just like when you're stirred up about evangelism and you take an evangelism course, however that expresses itself door to door on the street, whatever it is. And you learn to practice, you can do the very same thing with ministering healing to the sick. But like I say, it takes a new mindset. I'll come back to John G. Lake in just a moment. It takes a new mindset. And what that means is you have to understand what you said at the beginning of the broadcast, Kristen, and that is that you have to grow up in Christ, which means that you know you have Christ in you the hope of glory. Now that's Colossians 1:27. The way I like to say that scripture is this: that the anointing of God in you, Christ in you, is the hope that this world has to see the glory of God. And yeah, people need to be forgiven of their sins, they need to be delivered. But if you look at the ministry of Jesus, what you find is that Jesus preached and he taught the kingdom of God, but the way he expressed the kingdom, what he did more than anything else was to minister healing to the sick. Do you know that five and a half times you actually go through, and I've done this with a harmony of the gospels, you lay out all the things that Jesus did. I'm not talking about what he preached now, not what he taught, what he actually did, and you look at all of his acts, all of the supernatural things that he did and everything that he performed, how he functioned and so forth, what you find is that five and a half times more than he forgave sins he healed the sick. And eleven times more than he cast out demons, he healed the sick. What Jesus did in his earthly ministry more than anything else was to heal the sick. And it seems to me that if he has imparted to us, if he's imputed to us the healing ministry for us to carry that on today, that what we ought to be doing more than anything else is to heal the sick. You say I can't heal the sick. Well, you can't in and of yourself, but it's not by human might, not by human power, but by his spirit. And he has put that spirit in you. Romans 8:11 says that the same spirit that raised Christ from the dead. And if you really think about the implications of that, okay, we're talking about somebody we're just going to just talk about the physical side for a moment. Not the soulish side, the spiritual side. There's a lot in that too. But you have to remember Jesus' body was completely flagellated, taken totally apart. All right. And then all of the beatings and the abuse that he suffered, and carrying the cross all the way to Golgotha's hill, and then being crucified, and then he died many hours later. And he went through all of that abuse and suffering for us. Then he was mummified, all right. Three days later, okay, after all of that, the spirit came and raised him from the dead. Well, the same spirit, not a different spirit, not part of that spirit, but the same spirit that raised Jesus from the dead, quickens or makes alive, or heals, or rejuvenates, regenerates our mortal bodies. Okay? So no matter what physical problem that anybody ever comes up with, okay, doesn't matter if it is an organic disease, doesn't matter if it's a result of an injury, doesn't matter if it's a scandemic okay it does something that was put on us, manufactured to weaken humanity. It doesn't matter. The same spirit that raised Jesus from the dead, your situation, it doesn't matter if it's stage four cancer, doesn't matter if it's the advanced stages of dementia. It doesn't matter. It doesn't even pale in comparison to what that spirit did for Jesus when he was resurrected. All right. So praise God. And Jesus doesn't have any physical problems today. And as a matter of fact, he doesn't even look old. So that's pretty amazing. I would say that on that basis, if Jesus gave to the church and he did the power to heal the sick, remember we can lay hands on the sick and they shall recover. Praise God. You know, and by the way, just a little side note here, he didn't say well they'll lay hands on the sick and they'll be healed. No, it's greater than that. They'll recover. Why? Because just like everybody's sins in the whole world have been forgiven. All we have to do is receive it. Everybody's sickness has been healed. We just need to receive it. We need to appropriate it. That's really it. Now, by saying that, I'm saying this is simple. Now it may not be easy, but the only reason it's not easy is because we need a new mindset. We need to be trained a different kind of way. I'm still gonna come back to John G. Lake, but let me just share this. You know, for anybody that thinks that, you know, well, you don't understand my situation. Let me tell you what happened to me. Okay. My accident was on this day. I didn't even think about this, Kristen, but it was on this day four years ago in 2022. I was out riding my bike, having a wonderful time. It was a very hot summer evening, and I was going down one hill, back up another, having a grand old time after dinner. And you know, I was coming up one hill. And I didn't see a little concrete embankment. I was going over, I was navigating over from the side of the street over into an additional sidewalk there, and I didn't see there was a concrete barrier. Well, I toppled my bicycle end over end, hit that pavement so hard, and I won't make a very long story short. I was brought up to one hospital and then they transported me to another hospital that had a better trauma care unit. And my diagnosis here's what happened. I had fractured five ribs on my right hand side and if that wasn't bad enough I also fractured my cheekbone and if that wasn't bad enough I fractured my skull. Okay, now I needed to be in Atlanta, Georgia to preach in two weeks from that time. All right. But the doctor gave me first the diagnosis and then he told me what they were going to do. He told me what was going to happen. He said, first of all, we're gonna have to do surgery on your skull to relieve pressure on your brain. Okay, then you're gonna have to be in the hospital here for weeks, possibly months, and then after that you're gonna have to go into physical therapy. Well, you know, I arrived 11 p.m. at this hospital on a Tuesday night and so here I am at 11 o'clock Tuesday night and I got that news later than that. Well my wife Terry was with me at that time we agreed in prayer. And you know something? There's something about agreement. There's something about being able to speak the word, knowing that you already have your answer. And so then what happens is, you know, they were taking me down and scanning what was going on in my body every three to four hours after that. But they took me down for one scan. And by the way, when I got that diagnosis and they told me what was gonna happen from then, you know, that I had to be woken up and they did not want me to sleep. They were afraid I could die. And so anyway, they didn't want me to leave the hospital that way. So keep me, you know, as a customer for longer. But at any rate, I come back from a scan early in the morning and doctor comes in. Starts poking at me while I wake up again. I wasn't afraid of falling asleep. I felt like I needed it. And so at any rate, he starts poking at me. I woke up, and then he just kind of goes, hmm, hmm. And he's writing on his clipboard and he says, Well, Mr. Demo, the surgery has been canceled. So what I said was, praise God. Well, this was in the intensive care unit, right? Or critical care unit, I think they call it. And so I'm there and there's only ten beds in this unit, and I've got one of them, and it kind of startled the doctor a little bit. I don't think he's used to anybody praising God in the critical care unit, but at any rate, he said, What? I said, Well, praise God. And he said, yeah, praise God. And so anyway, it was kind of so I already knew that it was canceled. And then I go through the next day, and they were not gonna allow me to have anything to eat either, by the way. And I was gonna go to my surgery first and so forth, but they canceled the surgery, and after a little while they allowed me to eat something, and so anyway, then on Thursday morning, they told me, Well, you know, you seem to be progressing really well. And I said, Well, praise God. And so they said, Well, we're gonna what we're gonna do is you know, we kind of need this space, so we're gonna move you up on the tenth floor. And so I said, Well, whatever. But then a cognitive specialist came in, and see, they were expecting me to lose a lot of cognitive ability. So by the time she came in, my wife was back in the room again. And so you know, the lady has me, you know, draw pictures and solve puzzles. And you know, I thought this is silly stuff, this is for a grade school child. And then she starts asking me a bunch of questions. And we were joking back and forth, and then this cognitive specialist says to my wife, she says, is he always this way? Or is this normal for him? And she says, Yeah, he's always this bad. So anyway, she says, Well, you know, I don't really make the final decisions around here, but I'm gonna recommend releasing you. And so they kept being delayed on getting things ready for me to move upstairs. And finally they came back in the afternoon and they said, Well, we're gonna release you to go home. And so anyway, didn't have the surgery, wasn't there for weeks or months, didn't go into physical therapy, none of that by three o'clock in the afternoon, do the math. It was 40 hours between the time I entered the hospital with a fractured skull, fractured cheekbone, five fractured ribs. I go home and two weeks later I was on the plane going to Atlanta. So now I'm not special. It's not about that. See, God is no respecter of persons, but he is a respecter of his word. And what we did was we spoke his word. We did not allow, I mean, it would have been real easy to just go along with everything they had to say because I mean, after all, they're the specialists, they're the pros, they know what they're doing, and they know how to diagnose these things and how to give you the kind of treatment that you need. But you see I knew I needed to be somewhere. Number one. And number two, look, I was in need of the grace of God. Whose fault was it I got in this accident? Mine. See, but that's what the grace of God is for. You know, and look, we all need it. It is not about how good you've been. You can't qualify for this by what you do. Jesus pre-qualified you, right? It's like if you get one of those pre-qualified cards in the mail and I always throw them away, but I could sign the thing, send it in. Hey, they're gonna give me some amount of money if I want it from them, which I don't. But the point is, when you receive the gospel, you've been pre-qualified for everything that's in the kingdom of God. Praise God. So anyway, glory to God. What Dr. John G. Lake was somebody that was well noted for teaching people how to minister healing to the sick, understanding that as a child of God, you have resident within you the Holy Spirit, which when released will always heal the sick. Always. Now, sometimes it's not received, but it will always heal the sick. And so we can have confidence, knowing that just like if somebody prays a prayer and they confess Jesus is Lord, confess that God raised Jesus from the dead, they shall be saved. That if we minister the healing virtue of the Holy Ghost, that people will be healed. And that's why we've seen thousands of people healed in Asia, in Africa, we've seen that in Mexico, we've seen that here in the United States of America, because God is a respecter of his word. And I'll tell you what, sometimes I've ministered healing to the sick, and I've not been on my best behavior, but God still honors his word because it's not about me. It's not about me, it's about what Jesus did for us. He's the one that's qualified you to receive everything that's in the covenant. And you see, you can't even mess up the covenant because the covenant is not between you and God, the covenant is between the Father and the Son. It's just that you've been made a joint heir with Christ. Now, when Dr. John G. Lake would help people understand a different kind of way of thinking about sickness and disease that it's already defeated completely. And I don't just mean conceptually. I don't mean, as we often say, positionally. There's truth in that, but the reason I don't particularly care for that word is because people still tend to separate themselves from what they have by saying, Well, yeah, in my position I have healing, but in my reality I don't, and I'm trying to get it. No, you're not trying to get healing, you're receiving what's already been given to you, just like you would receive a package at Christmas, and all you're doing is receiving it and unwrapping it, and then you take the benefit of whatever it is that's been given to you. So we find out what's in our new covenant. Now, how do we know if we have a new mindset? I say this, one of the best ways to find out is what's the first thing you think about? What's the first thought that occurs to you when you have a symptom of sickness and disease? You wake up in the morning, you have a headache. What's the first thing you think about? Is it, well, I wonder if I ought to call in sick today, I need more time in bed. I wonder if I have any aspirin in the medicine cabinet. I wonder if I can get in to see my doctor today. Or do you understand that the enemy has launched an attack? Let's not even focus on how it got there right now. The enemy's launched an attack. And because you know you're under attack and you might have even opened the door to it, doesn't matter. Okay, you can repent. All right. However it got there, the enemy has launched an attack, and what you do is you drive that back. Okay, you act like you're healed, you speak like you're healed, and you know, everything changes. Praise God. And the first thing that ought to occur to you is Satan, get out of here in the name of Jesus. You treat that just like a snake has just entered the front door of your house. So you don't accommodate it, but often what we do is we accommodate it, and then we think about well, I should pray, you know, and you know, so forth. Listen, my primary care physician is Jesus Christ of Nazareth. That's my doctor. Okay, he is the great physician. So I, you know, I have not seen a medical practice, well, except for, you know, there's a guy that's a chiropractor, he checks me out once a month and says, you're good, you know, and then I come back next month. And it's helpful, okay. Praise God. And he does that just as a gift to me, and I appreciate it. And it's a real blessing. But the point I was making, you know, other than that, I had that accident four years ago. And before that I had another accident on a motorcycle. These two wheelers, right? On a motorcycle when I was over in Thailand. And I fractured, well, actually broke two, fractured two ribs on this side. So I've done it on both sides. I'm a balanced man, praise God. But God delivered me in both cases. And in both cases, I was at fault, all right. But by the way, I was over in Thailand to minister. I was getting ready to teach in a Bible college over there for an entire week. My ministry schedule didn't skip a beat, all right? And I'll just leave it at that. You see, healing is available, but you need to understand that you are not the sick trying to get healed, you are the healed. And the enemy sometimes tries to launch an attack against you. You are dealing with a defeated foe. And that's the way, you see, that's how I teach it. That's how Dr. John G. Lake taught it. And if you go back and you read the things that he had to say, they're very instructive in a mindset of healing, health, and wholeness. Plus, it helps, you don't wait for an attack before you launch an attack yourself and go look for somebody that's sick and you minister healing to the sick. And by the way, just like you know, you give money, you reap money, right? You give love, you reap love, you give friendship, you reap friendship, you start sowing healing. You will reap divine health in your own body. Praise God. And so amen. I'm looking for long life and length of days and not just to live long, but to live strong because there's a lot that we have to do and a lot to enjoy of our covenant you know before Jesus comes. So praise God. I'm ready to go or I'm ready to stay. I'm good either way. Praise God.
Kristen Wambach (31:01.363)
Yay, yay, yay, yay. So I'm listening to you, and I my job is to help people get into the anointing. Obviously, the anointing is flowing. Yeah, it is flowing. So I'm gonna propose this question here, this story from Dr. Lake, because I know that it will help assist us. His story is written, it's called Christ Imprisoned. And Dr. Lake shared a beautiful story about a woman who had Christ imprisoned in her spirit. We can all agree with, yeah, 100% of Jesus lives in me, but she was waiting for God to show up in her bones, for what is inside of us, the full covenant promise inside of us to leak out. Out, leak out. So how do we practically unlock the reality on a Monday morning all the way to Sunday evening so that people can fully receive their healing? Because a lot of times we know it's in here. People agree with you and go, yeah, and he blesses my soul, but sometimes there's a wall or a blockage to get it to leak out into our physical bodies. Would you help us with that?
Dr. Craig DeMo (32:26.734)
Yeah, listen, I one thing I love to teach on is the process of transformation. If you don't understand this, and I've got four hours of teaching recorded on that very subject, and you know but the process you can find this by the way, some of it in my on my YouTube channel. So anyway, praise God. And it's filed I think I have a playlist called the Process of Transformation, but it's important to understand. It's one thing to acknowledge something, but it's an entirely different thing for it to have the impact to change your circumstances, change your body, change what's going on around you. Sometimes there's so much of a disconnect. Here's the real issue. Remember that we are spirit, soul, and body. Now, before you were born again, here's how it really went is that you were body, soul, and spirit. Okay? Your spirit was suppressed, your body was in control, and your soul basically just went after whatever the flesh wanted to do. That gets inverted at the new birth. So now your spirit, soul, and body. And remember in 1 Thessalonians 5:23, Apostle Paul says, I pray your whole spirit, soul, and body be preserved blameless under the coming of the Lord Jesus Christ. So here's what happens: you get born again by receiving information, but you have to do something with it. Remember that the soul, basically it's that your spirit is Heaven-bound. Okay. It's in alignment with Heaven already. You really can't improve the spirit. We talk about growing spiritually, but in reality, it's not that we grow in our spirit, it's that we grow in our soul to function in terms of our alignment with the spirit. All right. Oftentimes what we're doing is we're sort of switching back and forth between following the dictates of the body and the dictates of the spirit, depending on what we're mature in. And what information we agree with in our soul. Okay. The soul realm is where we make decisions about which way we're going to go. And that's what you're addressing right now. How can we get what's already true in our spirit? Remember, in our spirit, we're already complete, we're already whole, we're already perfect. All right. Now, that helps us understand scriptures like 2 Corinthians 5:17. If any man be in Christ, he is a new creation. All not some, all the old things pass away, all things are become new. And then verse 18 says, And all things are of God, letting us know the substance of all things. If you want to know what your new man is like, okay, look at God. As matter of fact, over in 1 John 4:17, it says that as Jesus is, so are we in this world. You are in your spirit, man, exactly as Jesus is. Okay? No less at all. And by the way, because you're an heir of God and a joint heir with Jesus, you have everything he has. See? You're not a sub-heir, you're not a partial heir. It's not like he has an estate and he subdivided it between all of his children. That's not how it goes. He's given all of it to all of us, and we will receive all of Jesus that we want to. All right. And the thing is, we have to want to. Now, here's what happens. When you're born again, what happens is that you receive information about the new birth. All right. What happens? It affects you in your emotions. Okay, so we have the intellect, we have the emotions, but there's another part to it. You followed through by making a decision. And you did not revoke that decision. You stayed with it. Therefore, you received Christ and you are born again. Okay. Because it affected all three parts of your soul. You receive the information with your intellect, it made a difference to you emotionally. The emotions are designed to respond to information that comes into your mind. But then there's action, there's follow-through. Now, here's what happens oftentimes as far as people are concerned relative to healing: they receive the information they know. Isaiah 53:4 and 5, surely is borne our griefs and carried our sorrows, our sicknesses and our pains. Yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God and afflicted, and that's how we appropriate it, is by esteeming him stricken, smitten of God and afflicted, not us. Okay. But he was wounded for our transgressions, bruised for our iniquities, the chastisement of our peace was upon him, and with his stripes we are healed. Praise God. We know, amen. As a matter of fact, you go over to 1 Peter 2:24, and it says, who his own self bore our sins in his own body on the tree, that we being dead to sins, should live under righteousness. How do we live under righteousness? By whose stripes you were healed. Were because Christ already paid the price, and because you have already received it. So you know you were healed. And we say, Praise God, I was healed. And somebody preaches that from a pulpit somewhere or hears it on a podcast like this, and we say, Amen, that's mine. Okay, so you have the information, and it makes a difference to you emotionally. But here's what has to happen is that when you are presented with something in the sense realm that tells you, I'm sick now, but you have information that is entered your mind from the spirit realm because remember, Jesus said the words that I speak unto you they are spirit and there are life. So the way he gets across what the spirit says is by giving it to us in his written word, right? And it makes a difference to you emotionally. You get excited about it, but now I have information that mitigates against that, telling me that's not true. That's where the decision has to be made. Regardless of how I feel, I feel that pain, I feel that stiffness, I feel that tightness, I feel that restriction. Nonetheless, I am healed by the stripes of Jesus, and you go with that. And many times we're not willing to do that because you know what are people going to think about us? Well, they're going to think we're crazy. Okay. Get over it. Okay. you know, seriously. Just get over it and listen: the more you decide to go with what information you receive from the spirit, the more success you'll have in terms of your experience. That's where you want the word of God to work, is not just positionally somewhere, up in the ether somewhere, and you know it intellectually and you say yes, amen about it, but when that pain hits, or when somebody in your family comes down with a serious illness or they have an injury, you know, you might break a bunch of bones like I did. Well, praise God. Psalm 34:20 says, He keeps all my bones, and none of them is broken. So therefore, I command every bone to get back in place in Jesus' name. You see, you know, we have so many great and precious promises that by these we might be partakers of the divine nature. We have the divine nature, but we need to partake of it. We need to experience it. And we do that by agreeing with God all the way, not just in our intellect, not just in our emotions, but the way we act, as we walk it out. See, that's why James told us that faith without works is dead. And we need to stop using scriptures like that as some kind of cudgel, some club to beat people over the head with and say, Well, see there you don't have faith, or see there you're not really a Christian. That is not true. Okay? Somebody's doctrine can be messed up. Somebody could have problems and hang ups that they have not yet overcome, and yet they're born again. But they need for the word of God to have preeminence in all areas of life as part of their experience. If they'll do that, that addiction will go, that sickness will go, that financial problem will go, and I've experienced lots of them. But nonetheless, those things have to go if we agree with the word over and above whatever we see in our experience in our body in our family in our relationships in our day-to-day habits in our bank account no matter what the word of God is true Jesus said John 17:17 sanctify them and this scripture by the way is for you for everybody under the sound of our voices. Sanctify them or set them apart through your truth. And Jesus was praying to the Father. Set them apart through your truth. Your word is truth. That's the truth. Everything else, you know, as far as we're concerned, we treat it like it's a lie. And we're not saying it's not real, but we treat it like it's a lie. Another translation of that word truth there in John 17:17 is the word reality. In other words, Jesus is praying that you would be set apart in your reality, not just intellectually, not just in your emotions, but in your reality, in your experience. Set he wants you set apart in your reality so you stick out like a sore thumb. Amen. To be set apart in your reality and his word is your reality. And if people say, Well, you act like you live in a different world entirely, you could tell them, Yeah, I actually do. I mean I do. I live seated with Christ in Heavenly places. And not only that, but you know what? I'm here too. So praise God. We could go on like this forever, but I know we've got some limits.
Kristen Wambach (44:12.477)
Yes, yes. I know. I'd like to share a testimony that just shows just the grace of God, where he moves on our behalf and he gets way past our thinking and he just initiates his goodness. Years and years ago, my husband Don had an auto repair business and one of the guys that was in the industrial shop like where he had a shop, they used to have lunch together. Well, over a period of time they got to be friends and Don had come home and I'd hear about Dave and Dave and his wife Pat and then Pat got pregnant and you know, you hear the stories through your spouse of the people they hang out around with in their workplace. And so all of a sudden I heard one day that Pat's pregnancy went fragile and she was up at OHSU, the big hospital up in Portland. And but what Don, my husband, told me, he says what was really upsetting is that even though she was at the hospital and been there for a month, none of her friends went and saw her. So Don knew me, and Don knew that if he told me that, he knew that I would go. Of course I'd go. So we hooked it up. Don told me, then I told Don. Don told Dave. Dave told Pat and I arranged to go up, you know, by the end of the week. And I drove up there and I entered into the maternity ward and there were all these bored very pregnant women who had fragile pregnancies everywhere. And I went and I introduced myself to Pat and was talking to Pat, da-da-da-da. And she was very nice. And she was telling me about all these women that she had met on the floor that she was at. And every time she mentioned this one woman, my ears would almost burn. And I went, that's so interesting, God. And so I talked with Pat and she told me stories. My ears would burn when I heard this one lady's name. So I laid hands on Pat and blessed her and you know what we do. It wasn't anything fabulous. And she goes, Well, you know, I'm kind of tired. I'm going to take a nap now. Thank you for coming and visit me. And I just felt Holy Spirit prompt me and I said, Pat, would you introduce me to your friend that you were talking about? She goes, sure. So she got a wheelchair and she rolled down to the room, and we went in, and her name was Jackie. And she introduced me to Jackie. And of course, these mothers were all extremely bored. And so any guest, they were just delighted to see. And so Pat said, I'm gonna take my nap. You just talk to Jackie. And so I chatted with Jackie, and then I asked if I could pray with her. And so I laid hands on her and was trying to be kind of gingerly, you know, she just met me and she says, Of course she can pray for me. And she was in there, and what was going on with her pregnancy, they told her if she didn't stop hemorrhaging, she was gonna lose her child in 24 hours. And so I prayed for her, and it was nice and polite in Jesus' name and everything. And I was moving away from praying, and I heard Holy Spirit absolutely goes. Pray for her in your prayer language. What? What, you know, in your prayer language, just kind of like I'm having this silent argument with Jesus, saying, Are you nuts? Here's all the scripture that says I can't pray for her in public, you know, in your prayer language in public places, da-da-da. But of course, you always lose arguments with the Lord. And so I said, okay. So I gave her a little bit of a mini teaching, you know, about my prayer language, that it was this divine language from Holy Spirit given to me to help bless and build up your most holy faith. And she goes, Okay, cool. She was very lighthearted about it. And I said, May I pray for you again? And she said, sure. And so I laid my hands on her, took a deep breath, like, help me, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus. She's gonna think I'm that, right? And I prayed for her in the Holy Ghost. Maybe forty five seconds. I just let my prayer language come over and bless her. And then I opened up one eye and I was peeking, like, what's going on? And all of a sudden she's weeping, weeping. And all of a sudden, God, I broke her. What did I do? You know, what did I do? You know, I broke her. And she's just weeping and crying. And I'm, are you okay? Are you okay? She goes, Yeah. And she's crying and then all of a sudden when she composed herself, she said to me, She goes, My father was full blooded Cherokee Indian. And when I was a little girl, he used to pray for me. And he used to tell me stories in native tongue, and you sound just like him. She was healed instantly and delivered what in a few weeks, a healthy baby boy. And that was just like that. Is the grace of God? God the Father brought in this crazy woman with this special prayer language, and he talked just like her papa, and that healed her, that intimate just healed her. And I am so glad that I didn't argue with the Lord and I followed through. But isn't that just the grace of God? He makes it easy. He knows how to talk to his kids. It's his responsibility as the author and the finisher of our faith, as the guarantor to bring forth the good work through us.
Dr. Craig DeMo (50:26.370)
Yes, yes. Amen. Praise God. That's exciting. Praise God. Listen, if we'll just do this, if we'll just do the stuff, put ourselves in a position where God can use us, He will. Glory to God. And a lot of times he'll tell us to do something that doesn't make a lot of sense. But you know, listen, something else too. If you don't know what to do, just do what you know to do from the word. You can share the gospel. You can encourage somebody. You can minister to the sick. You can help somebody. You have the ability. And praise God. So thank the Lord. Amen.
Kristen Wambach (51:07.797)
Yay, yay. This is just so awesome. And listeners, we know that through the sound of our voice, I mean, yes, maybe this is a podcast. Maybe you're going to hear it in three weeks from when it was recorded. The anointing is live. Heaven, there's no difference in time frame in the Heaven of God. There's no difference, and God has you on his mind right now. And Craig, would you please just pray as God has called you and as God has anointed you to release healing.
Dr. Craig DeMo (51:51.168)
Amen. Amen. A couple things real quick. There's people that their not just interest, but their motivation to minister healing to the sick has really been increased during this time. And God has something very special for you. And listen, I know you got a lot of questions. You know, we have only spent about 50 minutes together. And, you know, we haven't answered every question. We haven't gotten into every objection. We haven't looked at every circumstance, but just the fact that you are beginning. You know, you learn to drive a car, you learn to ride a bicycle or bake a cake without knowing everything about it. You just follow the instructions the best you knew how. And the more you do it, the more natural it becomes. This is no different, not at all. So praise God. Thank God for you. God sent you here today so that your desire would be increased. It's Christ working within you both to will and to do of his good pleasure. Praise God. But in addition, I even felt before we started the recording today that there was people that are listening today, at whatever time, and it doesn't matter whether it's the first time it's broadcast or three weeks later, it doesn't matter if it's three years later. People listening, many of them are discouraged right now. You're expecting God to do something for you, but I'll tell you the picture I get in my heart right now, Kristen, is this it's like you're holding up the shield of faith and you feel like you can't hold it up any longer. It's full of so many fiery darts. You don't know if you can take another incoming. And you're getting weary. And I want to just say to you: God has not forgotten you, but God has also given you what you need to endure this time, and you'll be able to look back on it, and it'll seem like no time at all, even though right now it seems like, I've been standing forever. And that's not really true, but I have certainly been there too. So I understand what that's about, but that's not even the point, is whether we understand it or not. The fact of the matter is, you have a savior that is touched with the feeling of your infirmities. And we glory in those infirmities so that the power of Christ may rest upon us. It is not about you, it's not about me, it's about Jesus and the price that He paid for us. So with that in mind, let's pray right now. I'm also going to pray for those that are in need of healing today. So praise God. Can't be real lengthy about this, but we're just going to minister. And the power of Jesus is here. It's present to heal the sick. Father, you might want to just if you can, not if you can't, but if you can, hold your hands toward whatever kind of screen you're looking at right now. In the name of Jesus, Father, I just thank you for everybody that's listening to this broadcast. And I thank you, Lord God, that there's been truth imparted, revelation that's come forth, Lord, that will cause them to never be the same from this time forward. Not because of even the forcefulness of the revelation, and there is power in it, Father. We want to thank you for that anointing, which produces that power, but it's also because decisions are being made to move forward in the right direction with information that has been imparted by the Spirit of God and that it's not just animated emotions today, but there is follow-through. And we just thank you, Lord God, for lighting a fire underneath our saddle, so to speak, or underneath where we're sitting, so that Lord, we will move forward. We're moving in the right direction. We are making decisions today to go with the word. And to disallow circumstances that should not be in our life to be there any longer in Jesus' name. Praise God. And for those that are discouraged today, I just speak encouragement. I speak for there to be a boldness in spirit that would come upon each and every one of us so that we would do what we know to do. And Lord God, in terms of techniques or exact steps to take or this and that. Father, well we know it's not about that, but we are moving in the right direction, doing as we know to do, knowing that you will give us the next instruction, you will show us the next step, and we will go forward with the things of God. Now, Lord, for those today that are afflicted in their body, they are suffering and Lord, it doesn't matter if it's a headache, doesn't matter if it's stage four cancer, doesn't matter if it's liver disease, if somebody's on dialysis right now, doesn't matter if it's a cognitive decline issue, doesn't matter if it's a problem with the eyesight, with the hearing, doesn't matter if it's a lung problem, doesn't matter if it's a heart problem, does not matter. Doesn't matter if it's something to do with the muscles, with the bones, with the feet. Father, we just praise you in the name of Jesus. That Lord, as the word tells us in Proverbs 4:20-22, that your word is health, it's medicine to all of our flesh, every part of our body. So, Father, right now in the name of Jesus, we take that medicine, we speak it out in Jesus' name. We declare in the name of Jesus that He has taken our infirmity and borne our sicknesses, and what He took, we're not gonna take. What he bore, we're not gonna bear. So that not only do we receive the benefits of the salvation that Jesus bought and paid for, but he is honored by our taking it in Jesus' name. We receive healing. We declare to every sickness, every disease, every infirmity, every weakness, every malady, every pain, in Jesus' name. Go! Now go in the name of Jesus. Never to return. Never to return in Jesus' name. Praise God. Lord, your word tells us in 1 Peter 2:24 that by his stripes we were healed. We acknowledge that we were healed. And Lord, we choose to walk in divine health every day, in every way, in the name of Jesus. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. I want to challenge you today, those that have received healing, you know something's changed already, but even if it isn't fully manifest yet, get to Kristen your testimony. That would be a great blessing to this podcast and to the listenership. And I just want to thank God for this platform in Jesus' name. Amen.
Kristen Wambach (59:20.341)
Thank you so very much. Thank you, Craig, for sharing. And I just thank God that, you know, what we experienced together 30 years ago has just grown. It is just grown. Thank you so much for spending this valuable time with us. Remember, listeners, that you can get a hold of Craig, his YouTube channel at ambassadorministries.org. And your YouTube channel is again
Dr. Craig DeMo (59:52.684)
Yes. It's my name, Craig Demo. Yeah, so hey, I wanna just say this too, and you could send me an email or you could actually go to my Facebook page and request a copy right there. But you can get I have a book called Seven Secrets of Divine Healing. And Seven Secrets of Divine Healing, you can get that for free in digital format. And it's an easy read, but it will get you to thinking about some things that will help change the mindset. And we'll give you an opportunity in that book, Seven Secrets of Divine Healing, to study with us if you want to do that. And you can do that online. We are setting up another session of the Divine Healing Boot Camp, which we'll bring you through, and that will be available in the future on our website so praise God we will show you how to be a part of that and we have some other materials too like if you join the Divine Healing Boot Camp which is our study group you'll receive with that a copy of the Divine Healing Training Manual and this is over a hundred full-size pages you know eight and a half by eleven of study material that as you dive into that, you know, every day and just put yourself in a saturation learning environment over a period of time, it will ruin you for anything else than walking in divine health and imparting that to others. So praise God. I just wanna say that to you, but go ahead and avail yourself of whatever materials we have online and believe that all of this will be a blessing to you.
Kristen Wambach (01:01:53.461)
Thank you, thank you, thank you so very much for joining us.
INTERACTIVE WATCHING PROMPTS FOR YOUTUBE LIVE
- THE FIRST THOUGHT PROTOCOL (Timestamp ~26:22): Drop in the chat if you have ever immediately reached for the medicine cabinet instead of recognizing an attack against your completely healed spirit! Let us know how you are choosing to actively drive back the enemy with a Monday-morning mindset today.
- THE IMPRISONED CHRIST (Timestamp ~31:28): Type "I AM THE HEALED" in the comments if you are ready to stop waiting for a physical feeling and let the completed covenant promise already inside your spirit leak right out into your bones!
- THE INTIMATE GRACE SHIFT (Timestamp ~49:45): Tell us in the chat: What is one old religious "rule" or striving mindset you are taking a sledgehammer to this week so you can walk in the easy, intimate grace of a Father who knows exactly how to talk to His kids?
You are not the sick trying to get healed, you are the healed. And the enemy sometimes tries to launch an attack against you. You are dealing with a defeated foe." —Craig Demo
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THE RESURRECTED CHRIST IN YOUR BONES.
If you have been feeling frustrated, waiting for a physical sign that God is moving, you are not alone. In my recent conversation on the Interviewing Jesus Podcast, I sat down with my dear friend of 30 years, Craig DeMo. We rolled up our sleeves to unpack the Monday-morning logic of healing, bringing Biblical insights and divine wisdom right into our daily lives. This is a healing and transformation podcast episode designed to bridge the gap between Heaven and earth. This isn't about striving or begging God to come down from Heaven. It is about understanding the reality of the resurrected Christ who already lives inside your bones.
Unlocking the Imprisoned Christ
This is a profound Christian life lesson for all of us navigating our Christian personal development. As believers, we often hit a wall because we rely on our physical senses to discern kingdom realities. We think, "I feel pain, so I must be sick." But true Christian spiritual growth requires a mindset shift. You are a three-part being: spirit, soul, and body. When you were born again, your spirit was made instantly perfect. The daily work is aligning your soul—your intellect, emotions, and decisions—with that completed spiritual reality. You are not a sick person trying to get healed; you are the healed enforcing a victory over a defeated enemy. This is the core of Spirit-led living.
The Power of Agreement
God is a respecter of His Word. When we apply biblical principles and agree with Heaven over what our physical senses tell us, we open the door for miracles. This is what it means to transition from a logical mind to a Rhema mind, making conversations with Jesus our absolute baseline for daily spiritual wisdom.
Isn't that just the grace of God? He makes it easy. He knows how to talk to his kids. It's His responsibility as the author and the finisher of our faith, as the guarantor, to bring forth the good work through us." —Kristen Wambach
Intimate Grace in the Maternity Ward
God knows how to talk to His kids. He makes it easy. Understanding the Holy Spirit means recognizing that His grace is deeply personal.
COACHING CHURCH ACTIVATION
RELEASING THE IMPRISONED CHRIST.
The Payoff
- Week-one outcome: You will stop waiting for a physical feeling to confirm your healing and begin actively driving back symptoms using your Rhema mind.
- Month-one outcome: You will establish a Monday-morning habit of walking in divine health, enforcing the reality that the exact same Jesus who saved your spirit is already possessing your blood and bones.
- The First Thought Protocol. When a physical symptom or pain flares up, pay attention to your very first thought. Do not accommodate the sickness. Instead, recognize it as an attack against your completely healed spirit and immediately agree with Heaven over your physical senses.
- Speak to the Bones. Place your hand over the area of your body that needs healing. Remind your soul that you are a three-part being. Speak out loud: "The Maker of Heaven is already beating in my chest. The same Christ that dwells in my spirit is now released into my blood and bones."
- The Agreement Prayer. "Father, I trade my logical mind for a Rhema mind today. I am not a sick person trying to get well; I am the healed enforcing a victory over a defeated enemy. I give the Christ imprisoned within me full permission to manifest in my physical body right now. In Jesus' name, Amen."
MEET THE AUTHOR & PODCASTERHey there! I am Kristen Wambach, your host and spiritual investigative journalist. With over three decades in spiritual leadership and 20 years of coaching experience, my mission is to create a safe path for your heart to experience the supernatural in your everyday life. |
Whether you are seeking deeper spiritual truths or just looking for a practical path with raw stories, prayer, and simple activations, I am here to help you live Spiritually BRAVE and step fully into your God-inspired DNA.
Call to Action : Living Spiritually BRAVE
Take this as your empowering faith message for the week: The healing is already inside you. Let it leak out into your physical body today.
If you are looking for biblically sound teaching and inspiring Christian content, catch the full conversation on the Interviewing Jesus Podcast. As an ordained pastor Kristen Wambach and experienced spiritual coach, I am so honored to guide you on this long-running spiritual podcast as your trusted Christian voice. Keep connecting with God, and I will see you on the next episode!
It wasn't God who distanced himself from us, it's us who distance ourselves from God. And we no longer believe how much he loves us and how much he delights in the idea of having a relationship with us." —Rick Osborne
Beyond just Your Spirit: His Work WithinHave you ever felt completely exhausted trying to perform your way into God's presence, hoping you are finally doing enough to hear His voice?
In this episode of the Interviewing Jesus Podcast, host Kristen Wambach sits down with bestselling author Rick Osborne to completely dismantle the religious striving that keeps us stuck. |
We are diving deep into the profound reality of the New Covenant, exploring how God didn't just save your spirit, but completely redeemed your spirit, soul, and body. Learn how to step out of the exhaustion of performance and into a comfortable, continual, face-to-face conversation with the Father. Plus, get the exclusive details on Rick's upcoming free Ultimate Hear God's Voice Workshop.
It is time to drop the heavy religious scorecard and realize that the Creator of the universe is actively living inside you, causing you to desire and to do His will. Let's bridge the gap between heaven and earth together.
- The Fullness of Redemption: God did not just save your spirit; your soul and your body are also filled with the fullness of the Godhead.
- Inside-Out Discipleship: True transformation happens without striving when we realize Jesus (Philippians 2:13) is actively "at work within" us, causing us to desire and to actually do His will.
- Effortless Access: You do not have to ask permission to enter the Father's presence. Just like a child opening the refrigerator in their own home, He expects you to come freely and boldly!
- The Great Exchange: Stop operating under the Old Covenant of exhausting works and step into the New Covenant of grace, resting entirely in His completed work.
- His Faith, Not Ours: We do not have to struggle to drum up faith on our own; we are operating in the faith of the Son of God.
- 🎶 Music Video: At Work Within: Spirit, Soul & Body by Kristen Wambach
SUMMARY
In this episode of the Interviewing Jesus Podcast, I am sitting down with bestselling author Rick Osborne to completely dismantle the religious striving that keeps us stuck. For ten years, Rick was sequestered in the secret place, being personally taught by Jesus. What he discovered will completely rewrite your reality: you do not have to beg for access.
We are taking a sledgehammer to Old Covenant thinking and diving deep into the profound reality of the New Covenant. We explore how God didn't just save your spirit, but completely redeemed your spirit, soul, and body. It is time to drop the heavy religious scorecard and realize that Jesus is actively "at work within" you, causing you to desire and to actually do His will.
You don't have to ask permission to enter the Father's presence. Just like a child opening the refrigerator in their own home, He expects you to come freely and boldly! Let's step out of the exhaustion of performance and into a comfortable, continual, face-to-face conversation with the Creator. Let's bridge heaven and earth and rewrite your life together.
He's at work within you, causing you to want to do and causing you to do." —Rick Osborne
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[0:00] Kristen Wambach Have you ever felt completely exhausted trying to earn a word from God? Like you are constantly striving, waiting for a rare visitation or hoping you are good enough to finally get an answer. What if the exact face-to-face intimacy Jesus had with the father—I'm going to say that again. What if the exact face-to-face intimacy that Jesus had with the father is already yours right now? As a spiritual investigative journalist, I'm highly curious and I'm here to tell you that the days of pleading with a distant god are over. Today, we are taking a sledgehammer to religious striving. Yes, a sledgehammer. We are unlocking the raw week one reality of a new covenant where the creator of the universe is actively and living inside you causing you to desire and to do his will. It is time to step out of the exhaustion and into the comfortable continual conversation with the Lord that changes your Monday morning and is still there at the end of Sunday evening. That is what we're all hungry for. Let's bridge the heavens and the earth and rewrite your life right now.
[1:39] Kristen Wambach
Hello from the Pacific Northwest. I'm Kristen from kristenwak.com and you're listening to the Interviewing Jesus podcast. Answer me this. How does a Baptist farm girl from Oregon stumble into the mystical nature of Christ? The love of God. If you're like me, Jesus has redefined everything you used to say yes to. Join me and my guests as we step into a mystical journey. But before we touch the spiritual woo woo, know this. I'm 100% sold out to Jesus. It's incredible what the love of God reveals.
[2:33] Kristen Wambach Welcome back to Interviewing Jesus podcast. I'm your host, Kristen Wombck. As an ordained pastor and a spiritual investigative journalist who likes to ask really good questions. My mission is always to bridge the gap between heaven and earth, bringing you supernatural wisdom that rewrites your life. I mean, really, what's the point if we're not rewriting our lives? Amen. Today I am sitting down with a truly profound guest. Rick Osborne is a best-selling Christian author of over 10 million copies of his book sold worldwide. But his true authority doesn't come from his resume. It comes from that secret place. For 10 years, Rick was literally sequestered with the Lord where the Lord walked with him, taught him the scriptures, and radically transformed him from the inside out. He's an author of At Work Within and the visionary behind Transformed You. He is also launching a highly anticipated free ultimate Hear God's Voice workshop on August 7th. Today we are taking a deep dive and we're going to jump into those essential life style tools to experience the exact same face-to-face intimacy with the father and advance in the kingdom in your everyday life. Rick, it is an absolute honor that God would connect us and put us in the same room. Welcome to the show.
[4:12] Rick Osborne
Amen. Thank you for having me. It's an honor to be here. I really appreciate it.
[4:16] Kristen Wambach
Yes. Now, Rick, you spent 10 years sequestered in that secret place, having a face-to-face encounter with the Lord. But your message isn't that this level of intimacy is just for you. It is for absolutely everyone. And I totally agree. To prove that, you opened the doors to a free ultimate Hear God's Voice workshop on August 7th. Before we get to the deep waters of your testimony, tell our listeners how this workshop is going to demystify hearing God's voice for their own everyday life.
[4:59] Rick Osborne
Well, thanks for having me on and that's a great question. If you look at John 10, right, and the times that Jesus said, "My sheep will hear my voice, my sheep hear my voice, my sheep listen to my voice," and what we've done in the body of Christ is we've taken those scriptures and we've—and I'm using the term because everybody recognizes it—"hear God's voice." The problem with that is that we've kind of made it into a visitation kind of thing cuz we haven't understood the context of the verses. In other words, I'm waiting to hear... like I'm going to get quiet and I'm waiting to hear God's voice. There's an event that is hearing God's voice. What I didn't realize because I did the same thing decades ago. I taught classes on hearing God's voice based on that same kind of idea. When Jesus taught me his word, he taught me that every time he taught something, all his words were the father's words. Yes, they were his father's words, but that he was also our example. He used the word of God, the Old Testament, how we have it now cuz God's always been on plan A. Ephesians 1:4 says that he saw us in Christ before the foundation of the earth. So nothing has changed. So all the prophets prophesied about us in Christ. They look forward to this time. Right? So if you look at what Jesus was in John 10, he's actually quoting from all the prophecies about the good shepherd. He's quoting from all the prophecies of hearing God's voice, of Israel hearing God's voice or not hearing God's voice, listening to his voice and what that means. And so what happens is all of a sudden you put that in the context of the new creation, right? And the fact that we are filled with all the fullness of the Godhead bodily, that we in him, that we are now the temple of the Holy Ghost. We don't realize that God has returned us to conversation. And that's what he's talking about in John 10. A face-to-face intimate relationship with the father. Whereas we've been taught in a way that it's almost like we got to earn it. And I love what you said about that. You don't have to earn it. You don't have to struggle. Jesus said it's finished. And the relationship with the father was already done.
So when I was away for the 10 years, he started teaching me more about this because for decades, Kristen, for decades, literally my whole thing... when I was a young Christian, I had an experience in a pre-service prayer meeting where it hit me that knowing God would be the ultimate thing. I spent decades saying, "God, I want to know you. God, I want to know you." Over the years being an author, a pastor, a counselor, an itinerate speaker, etc. I felt constantly growing. I did all the spiritual disciplines. I mean, I prayed every day. I studied the word. I did all of the stuff, right? But I felt like I was still hearing his voice clearly and I had great experiences to tell. But I always knew in my heart I was only like that far along in actually really knowing him.
And when Jesus walked in the room and said, "Okay, I'm going to start teaching you directly and personally from my word from like that day forward." And good thing he didn't tell me how long it would take cuz it was 10 years cuz I don't know if I could have had the faith to go for that, to just actually close down all my publishing, all my book writing, all my ministry tours, speaking everything. But that's what he had me do for 10 years. And one of the things that he taught me was the reason why I wasn't getting there is because it's like healing. I was crying out for something I already had in Christ.
And then he started to teach me. How many times do you think Christians have read John chapter 10? If you read your Bible regularly, you know, hundreds, possibly thousands of times. Same thing with me. But he stopped me on John 10:14 and 15. And I'm surprised I had never seen it. This is what Jesus said. Take the number 15 out. Pretend there's no split in there. Okay? And just read this one sentence cuz that's what kind of slows us down and we don't see it. Jesus said exactly this and you can go read it in your Bible everybody. Okay? He said, "My sheep know me and are known by me in the same way that I know the father and the father knows me."
When Jesus showed me that and it's like stop son, read it again, and the revelation came... I realized that just like he's given us his life—we don't have the Adam life anymore, we have the Christ life—he's given us his life, he's given us his joy, he's given us his peace, he's given us his mind, he's given us his righteousness... he gave us his relationship with the father. We have it already and yet we run around wondering if God's not listening to us or he's taking us through a quiet time where he's not talking to us. The prophet Ezekiel said that when I pour out my spirit, I will no longer hide my face from my children. Promise done. And yet we're still walking around like we're living under the old covenant and waiting to hear a voice every once in a while as opposed to learning to walk in conversation with the father.
And that's what I want to do in this workshop is I'm going to open up what the word of God says where Jesus was quoting from. Go back to the original scriptures, bring the scripture out and show people how to actually walk in a face-to-face relationship with him and in conversation with him constantly, where hearing from him is not a struggle because Jesus already paid for it and he put us in that situation. So I don't cry out for it anymore. I don't fast for it. I don't try and perform for it with spiritual disciplines. I don't do anything like that. And I love the way you focus on that Kristen in your podcast. It's by grace. Why is it by grace? The old is gone. The new has come. Our Adam life we're no longer connected to it except for you know if we're not renewing our mind we tend to go back there into the echo of that. All the new has come. We have the Christ life and we have to learn to walk in the Christ life and everything he's given us. Now that's a from glory to glory process. You know, you don't just get there all at once, but I'll cover that with everybody as well.
And over 10 weeks, 10 sessions, I'm going to teach people what the Bible really says, change their expectation, and get them to the place where they're just walking in a everyday normal regular conversation like we saw Adam and Eve in the garden before the fall. We're returned to a double portion of that. I mean, even Cain and Abel. Cain killed his brother Abel and the Lord God's standing there next to him having a conversation with him about it. Like you and I are talking. Hello. And sin was already in the world. It wasn't God who distanced himself from us. It's us who distance ourselves from God. And we no longer believe how much he loves us and how much he delights in the idea of having a relationship with us. So I'll stop because I got 10 sessions to do. I could go all day.
[12:47] Kristen Wambach The connection for people to sign up for your workshop that is just around the corner. So I'm publishing this next week. So it's the next week that you go live. Where do they sign up for it?
[13:04] Rick Osborne
They go to hear God's voice now. That's heargodsvoicenow.com and I literally mean now. There's so many people that say everyone else hears God's voice. How come I can't? It's probably a good thing that you haven't under the old rules done that yet cuz it's going to be easier for you to not have to unlearn. So, if you're one of those people who struggled about hearing God's voice, this is perfect for you. If you're one of the people who heard like I was hearing God's voice in instruction and leading and in a ministry and all that kind of stuff, but you're ready to go to that next level where just having a comfortable conversation all the time, you're ready for that, then this is for you as well. I mean, Paul said pray continuously. Under the old idea of prayer, under the old covenant idea of prayer, pray continuously... Well, I better set my smartphone to go every hour so I remember to talk to God and I got to stop and pray about everything. And it's this great big wait and this works thing because we're trying to figure out how. Pray continuously just means walk in a continual conversation with him and he's at work within us. And I'm going to teach that too because Jesus is our teacher and he is our master or shepherd now. He's the shepherd. It comes John 10. He's the one who teaches us how and causes us to walk in it. All the stress is gone. And I'll teach everybody how to do that as well. What that new covenant promise is and how you can have Jesus walk with you and beside you and teach you how to grow in this and perfect it.
[14:43] Kristen Wambach I'm just gonna say amen. Yay. It is so good. There's a metaphorical picture I use from technology. So, regarding praying all day, we carry around these very expensive cell phones that can connect us anywhere to anyone in the world in nanoseconds. Whether it's voice, whether it's texting, whether it's the FaceTime with the picture, you know, technology simply is a prophetic picture of what our relationship is with him. We never needed phones to talk to God. And you think about it, that's what the praying without stopping is, that you're always hooked in the same frequency. He's always right there, but it's constant. We put our cell phones down and we function in that. And a lot of times you don't even see Jesus's lips move because it's here. It's this conversation that's going back and forth between you.
[15:48] Rick Osborne Amen. That's exactly it. Smartphone. God's a lot smarter than that. You got a smart God. Yes. And think about this. Solomon's temple, he built it. The glory of God showed up. Everybody got knocked over. Why? Because they're still in Adam. They couldn't take the presence of God. It had to be in a temple, which represented where God's presence was going to be and where he wanted to be in his own children. So now we're the temple of the Holy Spirit. 1 Corinthians 6 tells us that we're one spirit with him. Now in Solomon's temple, God said, "Okay, anybody who has anything to talk to me about, just go to the temple and talk to me and I'll hear you and grant your requests." Or what they started doing too was just facing the temple and praying where they were. Well, you don't have to go anywhere or face the temple. You are the temple. That was all a picture of you.
[16:46] Kristen Wambach Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. I'd love to hear the story again or with a new twist. When Jesus walked into your room and revealed himself to you, how did that intimate moment rewrite your understanding like of Ephesians 3:20? How did it shift your focus from pleading for a distant God versus helping you to realize the power was already at work within you? It was already functioning and moving and placing you in that intimacy.
[17:22] Rick Osborne Yeah. Well, what people need to realize too is I had been running after God, walking with God, ministering, writing books, you know, I've written over 60 and co-published with some pretty big authors and stuff like that, right? And everybody who knew me would say, you want a question about God, you go to Rick. Everyone would say I knew my Bible better than anybody. Right? So people need to understand that I was the guy who thought I knew my Bible but it turns out I knew it a mile wide and an inch deep. And everybody would have said like for instance you know as an itinerate speaker you're looking for you know two major revelations from the spirit of God from the word like a year or whatever. You write a book on that, you go on a speaking tour, you bless and change the lives of people. That's the way it works.
Jesus walked into the room and he very casually walked into the room kind of just to the side of me and then turned a bit and said, "Son, I am going to start teaching you personally and directly from my word." And it happened so quickly. And then he left. And the thing was he didn't go ta-da, he didn't go this is a moment from God. He very casually, like him and I just finished Sunday brunch together and he was leaving and just saying goodbye on his way out the door. It was very casual. Always got me why it was so casual like that. And sometime later he showed me why. I mean, John 14 says that Jesus says that if you love me, you know, and do what I command, which in the new covenant, we automatically do because we're reconnected to his nature. It's the new covenant. He's at work within us, right? He says, "I will love him or love her, love them, and I will manifest myself to them."
We have a story in Acts chapter 9, I believe it is, where Jesus walks into the room basically in a vision, starts talking to Ananias about going to see Paul. If you read it, there's no ta-da. There's no anything like that. Ananias just goes, "But Lord, isn't he the guy who's killing Christians?" It was normal. Luke, who recorded it, didn't put any pizzazz in it when he recorded it. That's just the way it is. Jesus said he'd do that. Do you want to learn how to trust Jesus for that? You know nowadays it's like you say Jesus walked in the room and people go oh this Rick must be somebody. No. The Lord showed me well what I just did should be normal with my children, son.
So it took me and let me say this I'll qualify that he always is talking to us from right in our heart, we're one spirit with him, he's not going anywhere, he's always right here but he'll do things like that like an open vision or him actually manifesting himself or whatever to punctuate the conversation right? In this particular case, he was punctuating the conversation cuz he knew I had some tough decisions to make as we move forward from that moment. Letting go of everything else, stopping everything, even that meant much of the revenue stopping all of that kind of stuff and just focusing on him for 10 years. But man, you ask me now, would I change those 10? Not in a moment. Here's the guy who thought he knew God's word. And you know, like I said, two major biblical revelations in a year, I was getting a dozen or 20 of those a day.
He just opened the word to me that night, Kristen, that night, okay? I was all excited about this vision. I wasn't sure exactly what it meant or how it was going to happen or anything like that. My wonderful wife, Luba, had crawled into bed ahead of me and said good night, and she was already asleep. I was still feeling awake and I felt that I should, you know, maybe study the word for a bit. So I grabbed my iPad, opened it up, sitting up in bed and suddenly the presence of God in the room was amazing. And it was like Jesus was sitting on the bed beside me and he started... I'm a cross reference nerd, okay? I've got every cross reference Bible there is and every cross reference system, okay? And he started giving me cross references that aren't in any of those books. He started showing me where to go. He showed me the first place he took me. He gave me chapter and verse. And then he would say, "Okay, now go look at this." And I'd say, "I've never seen it before. It's like John 10." He's saying the same thing there is what you said, Lord Jesus. And it's like all of a sudden, one of the things he taught me, which I teach in the school, is how Jesus teaches us to read the word. Like people who go through my school, they come out at the other side say, "I've been reading my Bible for whatever years or decades and always kind of struggling to get what does this book mean and how does that apply to me and is that an inspirational thing or whatever." They come out of our school and you can't get them to stop reading their Bible because they understand the whole thing because they got Jesus beside them teaching them and Jesus is the word. So every time he quoted from the Old Testament He was teaching us how to interpret it.
It's like the stuff he just started teaching me. And again, I was the guy who everyone thought knows the Bible. And I'll tell you what we have in the word. It's truly it is the life of God. It is the key to everything we do. and we've come to the place in the church where it's almost like, well, everyone's heard the story of David and Goliath and the exciting Bible stories. So, you know, let's talk about something else. Now, everything in the Bible applies to every part of our life, so we should be talking about something else. But I'm talking about sort of the boredom factor. Yeah, we know the Bible. No, you don't. Trust me, I thought I did. And no, I didn't. So I went through that Kristen, my wife's nickname for me became Weepy Boy. And if you ask her now why she called me Weepy Boy, she said because my husband wept for 10 years. Yes. Yeah. Just the presence of God and his presence and him taking me in the word every single day and the visions and the dreams... But here's the thing. Now with what he's taught me, no one's got to spend 10 years because I can teach what he taught me in a fraction of the time. And what I recognize now is that knowing of his presence, that knowing of his love, that constant revelation knowledge flowing through you is something he has for all of us. It wasn't Rick being a special guy. It was a grace put on Rick so that I could teach everyone how to experience what I experienced.
[24:55] Kristen Wambach I agree. I agree. So I'm such a visual person and you're talking and there is a vision of Jesus standing right behind you and he's got this little notepad. He's taking notes and then he shows me the notes and he goes, "Remember this and remember this." And I go, "Okay, okay." And so a metaphorical picture because when I get the picture then I get the tangible. Oh, this makes it really easy. As parents, you know, if you have adult children or you know they're in middle school, junior high, whatever, and they came over with the kids, we wouldn't think twice about just walking into the house and opening up the refrigerator. We as parents, we wouldn't think anything about our kids just coming in and open up the refrigerator. That's how wonderfully available it is. God doesn't mind us coming in. We don't have to ask for permission to open up the refrigerator. He expects it of us.
[26:02] Rick Osborne Exactly. and your grandkids wouldn't come into the house or your kids wouldn't come into the house and think mom's in the inner sanctum. Maybe she's quiet right now. Maybe she doesn't want to talk to us. It's like, okay, my grandkids are here right now with me in town, right? We live a distance away. They're here with me right now. And my grandkids when they come in the door, they're not wondering whether granddad is going to spend some time with them or not. No, the smile on my face and the strength of the hug and the gladness over seeing them and the pouring out of joy tells them everything. And the Bible so clearly says this and I teach this on my podcast about relationship with God and all the scriptures that say he delights in his children. He delights in being with us. One time when I was sitting with the father and just having a chat and talking to him as we've been going through the word and everything like that just this really close intimate time and he says son I did this for you for my children because I want you to know me I want you to have access to live life with me and everything that I've blessed you with but he says I also did this for me... He says, "This is my delight." He says, "You being here right now and us talking and this me doing this with my children," he said, "this is my delight and I've looked forward to it for such a long time."
[27:45] Kristen Wambach I'm going to I'm going to jump in there because that just the atmosphere totally changed at that. Woo! Yeah. And right there, listen to what I say. Reward it. Or actually, Rick, would you pray for us right there with what just happened? Would you pray for us, please?
[28:07] Rick Osborne Yes. Father, that is your delight. And you've shown it to me so much. And I'm just going to simply ask you cuz I know it's your desire that you would demonstrate to everyone who hears me praying right now and in the future cuz Holy Spirit might be a recording but you're still here. I just ask that you would show them how much you delight in a relationship with them. How much you delight in them. how much you delight like a father with his children, no matter where they're at, no matter how young they are in the Lord, that you delight in them and want to take them from this point and move them forward lovingly hugging them, holding their hands, having them on your lap. You just delight. Let them from this point forward see you with that smile of delight on your face every time they turn their face towards you. Thank you, Father, in Jesus name. Amen. Yay.
[29:14] Kristen Wambach Good stuff. Good stuff. I know. Get the Kleenex box out. Yeah. I am guilty of being one of those super motivated, focused, in your face. Well, he made me that way. There's purposes for it, but some just the reminder of that he looks forward that I'm going to be purpose focused and in his face for the day. You know that he's just that desirous to sit down with me any at any portion of the day whether it's in the bathroom, the shower, whether we're taking a drive to the grocery store does not matter the location. It just matters that we keep our heart just turned aside, just tuned in. It's just our heart is available for all the lovely whatevers of life.
[30:14] Rick Osborne Amen. And God invites us in. 2 Corinthians 3:18 says that we're beholding the Lord as in a mirror. Why? Because we're being changed into his image. We're beholding it as in a mirror. It's his love, his life, his grace, his joy, his righteousness, his mind, his intellect, his spirit of wisdom, his spirit, his anointing, all that stuff, his relationship with the father. So it says that as we behold him as our example and as our teacher moment by moment who takes us into it, our covenant, our guarantor, as we allow him to take us deeper and deeper and we keep our eyes on him, what happens is it says we are transformed from one level of glory to another into the same image. So when we see before us the ability that we have the gift that we've been given to have this everyone who's listening have you ever thought about the kind of relationship that Jesus had with the father? Do you think it was probably like really intimate and really close? Do you think he had any trouble hearing God's voice or he had to wait for the occasion to happen? No. He's given you that same thing. Do you want to walk in that? Now that doesn't mean you're going to start today and all of a sudden you're going to be there. Right? It's from glory to glory. But the thing is is if you understand where you're going and how to get there...
When I went through the 10 years, the Lord first wanted 3 hours a day for me. Then he said now six. Then he said now 12. By the end of the 10 years, there was days I was spending 16 hours a day with him. And you know what? That was all by grace. I understood enough by grace that when God said it to me, I said, "Okay, well, if you want it from me, I know you're going to do it in me." So, he did. It was by his grace. But you know what? I was never looking at my watch. I was never thinking, "What do I do with 6 hours or 3 hours or 12 hours in the word and with prayer?" when you start to know him and how gloriously amazing he is, the Holy Spirit just with his sense of humor and the way he is and Jesus as the most wonderful grace filled truth filled teacher on the planet who loves us so much and loves being with us and teaching us and the father who has been just looking forward to this time where he can delight in his children. When you start walking in that and no longer being confused about your Bible because you know you know exactly well you're reading it and he shows you how to read it. He shows you how to understand it. He takes you through it. No more confusion. You're with the author. That's great. So when you get that and it took me a while to get there. I didn't start there. That's why I started at three hours. But I'll tell you people are going to have to pry you out of the secret place. You won't have to worry. God, I really mean to pray, but I keep on getting interrupted. If those interruptions weren't there, you'd be out in an hour. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
[33:30] Kristen Wambach Rick, there was a phraseology that you used that I'd like to unpack a little bit. You said in that when he was sequestering you, you said if you want it from me, then you have to do it in me or through me. We need to unpack that.
[33:54] Rick Osborne Okay, this is one of the main things that Jesus taught me in depth that a lot of the church... I don't know why, but we've kind of lost track of it. It's something that the early church and different branches of the church taught at times, but for the main sort of circles that you and I run in, it's kind of been forgotten. And that is what is the new covenant? Well, this one's by grace and this one's, you know, not this by law. Really? What does that mean? Where are the scriptures for that? Right. Philippians 2:12 and 13 changed my life. It says, I'm skipping the first phrase because Paul's talking about in his absence and in his presence. But he said work out, and the word there isn't works, isn't work out. In the Greek, it's bring to completion. Bring to completion your own salvation. What is our salvation? Being transformed into the image of the Lord Jesus Christ fully walking in the life of God in the life of Christ. Right? So much to unpack there, but he says bring your salvation to completion starting in verse 13. For. The conjunction's really important. For or because you can bring it to completion because he's at work within you causing you to want to do and causing you to do.
Are you kidding me? That verse has been there all along. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me because he's at work within me causing me to want to and causing me to do. God, I know I'm supposed to do that, but I just can't bring myself to do it. Well, get out of the new Get out of the old covenant. You are a partaker of the nature of God. He's inside of you. He's with you. He's your father. He's fathering you. He's Jesus, your master, your Lord, your teacher. He's teaching you. The Holy Spirit is taking what you're being taught and causing you. He's writing it on your heart. Paul is quoting from so many prophets there like in Jeremiah which is quoted in Hebrews 8, right? That in the new covenant, he will teach us from within. No one, it says no one will say anymore, know the Lord. Know the Lord, you know, get your Bible study done, those spiritual disciplines, you know, make sure you do the things. Make sure you memorize the Torah. He says, no one will say that anymore. For they will all know me from the least to the greatest. For they will all try to know me. For they will all struggle to know me. So they will all eventually know me. Some of them may not. No. For they will all know me from the least to the greatest. In other words, he's teaching us from the inside. He came back. He's one spirit with us. When we were in Adam, we were born in sin and we shared the Adam life. The curse, the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. We were born in that. Guess what? We became sinners because we were born in sin. Why does it shock us that now that we're in Christ and we have his righteousness that we wouldn't do the same thing but in the other direction?
We're partakers of the divine nature. And Jesus is our guarantor, which means just so much in the new covenant. He's our guarantor. Which means if you look in Timothy, 1 Timothy, the Bible says that he is the mediator, one mediator between God and man. And it says the man Christ Jesus. There is one God and one mediator between God and man. The man Christ Jesus. In other words, when you have a covenant, you usually have two mediators, one that represents either side. Jesus was both God and man. Therefore, he is our covenant. He is the mediator. And what he did on the cross is and this is why the Old Testament says we boy again just like this is so cool. Okay. In the Old Testament, God said, "I will be your God if you are my people." In other words, if you obey me, if you obey the law of do all these things, I will be your God. Which means I'll protect you, I'll heal you, I'll keep you, I'll do all of the promises. I will be your God if you're my people. In Jeremiah and in Ezekiel and all the prophets looking for the new covenant, he doesn't say that anymore. Looking for the new covenant. He says, "I will be your God and you will be my people." Hang on a second. No more if. No more struggle. No more if. No more if. He just made an eternal in Christ an eternal unbreakable covenant with us. And Jesus is a guar the mediator in the center between he turns to the father. He turns to us and says to us, I guarantee you that the father will be your god. My sacrifice guarantees it. All the promises are yours. Yes and amen. And he turns to the father and says, "Father, I got this. They will be your people. I'm going to teach them truth and grace. I'm going to love them. I'm going to walk with them. I'm going to take them from where they are and get them there. And he's your guarantor. And he hasn't gone anywhere. He's right there with you. I'm telling you this when you take the new covenant and you could write four books on it when you start studying it. The amount of what he's guaranteed to do like 1 Thessalonians 5 is 22 and 23 says that he sanctifies us wholly completely spirit, soul, and body. Right. Completely. In other words, we got it in our new creation, but he takes us there and that's in the body. That's complete healing and divine health as well. And when he makes this outrageous promise and then right in the next verse, it says, "And he who is faithful will do it." Doesn't say, "He who is faithful will do it if you do your part." There's nowhere in there cuz Jesus has taken on the responsibility of the new covenant to do our part in us and to release God to do what he always wanted to do is to be our father and let loose on us. People in the body of Christ, Kristen, and I know this is not you, but there's so many people in the body of Christ that just have like myself who just have had no idea how good he is.
I mean, think of it. Think of all the verses you know. Okay. Philippians 2 says that he who begun a good work in you will take it to completion. Yes. If you apply yourself, if you do this, if you do that, if you got all your spiritual disciplines in heroics, now I'm not saying anything about don't go to church and don't have spiritual disciplines and all that kind of. No, I'm saying you're not doing that to perform. You're doing that in your relationship with him. And he even works that in you. He's the guarantor. He said he'd take it to completion. And then think what Paul said to the Galatians. He says, "Having begun in the spirit, do you think you're made perfect in the flesh?" In other words, having begun by his motivation and his grace and his action, do you think that you're going to finish it? And yet so often we hear that preached. No, Jesus died for you. You really should do something for him. The verse after verse some of the the benediction in Hebrews, okay, says that he equips you with everything good for doing his will and works in you that which is pleasing in his sight. Do you know the word pleasing there is the same Greek word that Hebrews also uses when it says it's impossible to please God without faith. He works in you what is pleasing in his sight. He even in in Timothy it talk oh no sorry Thessalonians he says this the joy and faith that's in Christ Jesus. For so many years Kristen I struggled for faith like I got to have faith I got to I got to believe this I got to get my mind I got to then he showed me I have his yes it's his faith it's his faith all of a sudden I'm off the hook.
[42:41] Kristen Wambach Yes, it's his faith working in and through us. It's his faith.
[42:45] Rick Osborne He works it in me. I am a I am a man of great faith. Not because I did it. Cuz he gave it to me.
[42:50] Kristen Wambach He did. Yeah. So we don't have to pump up our arms and Yeah. There is this place that I amongst. You know, we have our places of habitations with him that he's really teaching them all, but we go into those little secret places and that we we sit with him for a period of time and some of them are longer than others. This is places. So, it's not the body us we we we say we know we know that God lives in us. He lives in our spirit. And some of us have grasp well our spirit flows into our body. It flows into our soul that there's a flow. But I guess the language the one of the thing is is that that place a lot of times I'll see that there is a wall between the spirit soul and into the body to into that body to allow that fullness that we know that is in us to flow into our body to change and eradicate the decay and the death that he so clearly overcame for us.
[44:07] Rick Osborne Amen. And again, something that just Jesus teaching us shows you, okay? It says he's one spirit with us. That's the connection. But the Bible says we are the temple of the Holy Ghost. God made you. Last time I checked, God made me spirit, soul, and body. I'm going to be spirit, soul, body all eternity. That's Rick. Spirit, soul, and body. Okay. He's one spirit with me. That's where the connection is. But the Bible clearly says Jesus said again quoting from Isaiah 55 and the prophets and everything like that and you start looking what where he's quoting from the picture gets huge. Okay. And you really understand it. But the fountain of living water. Well, let's go with probably a lot of your audience understands the river. The river of living water flows out of you to everybody else. Is it flowing just out of your spirit? Is it just or are you consumed with it when it happens? Was the temple when the cloud came on the temple, did it fill the temple, the walls, everything else like that, did it fill the temple? We're filled with all the fullness of the godhead bodily just like Jesus was. Colossians 1 and Colossians 2. Say it. Okay.
So, and the other one is he says there's a fountain inside every there'll be a fountain inside of every believer. A fountain that springs up to eternal life. That's the fountain that's in our that's where we have the mind of Christ. That's where we have the health of God. That's the sanctification. It's for too long we haven't understood things like healing and divine health and and even having the mind of Christ and the body of Christ. So we've done this thing to sort of make an excuse of not seeing any of that happening by saying it's just your spirit man. Just your spirit man saved. Sorry. In the garden of Eden, God said with the day you eat of the fruit, you will surely die. Right. They stepped they spirit, soul, and body stepped outside of the father. They died spirit, soul, and body. When God came to talk to them in the garden, he didn't say, "Adam, when you die, you're going back to dust." He just said from you are dust and you will return to the dust. Cuz they were already dead. spirit, soul, and body. When we're born in Adam, we have just this life here on this earth that the breath is keeping us going. That's not the life of God. In Ephesians, Paul says that we are alien before coming to Christ, we are alienated from the life of God. That's what happened in the garden. They were alienated from the life of God. Not just in the spirit, spirit, soul, and body. That's why healing is ours. That's why the mind of Christ is ours. We've got to renew it. We've got to go from glory to glory. But we have the life of God. The whole fullness of the Godhead bodily dwelt in Jesus. Dwelt in him bodily. Bodily mentioning body. And we are complete in him. And I love what Colossians 1 says because Colossians 1 says that it was the father's delight or good delight. The Greek word there is wonderful that the all the fullness of the godhead bodily would dwell in him. Then you go into chapter two and it says and you are complete in him. Why was the father delighting in that? When Jesus came back from here, he was going back to be one with the father, right? Why was the father delighting that Jesus was filled with the whole fullness of the godhead bodily? Cuz he knew he was going to exchange places with us. Yes. And the reason why he had that was cuz the father was looking forward to it being in us. It's like boom.
So this idea when the Lord start when you start letting the word interpret the word, you know that plan A has never changed. He's always been looking forward to us in Christ and all of these other things. You start understanding and studying the word of God the way Jesus demonstrated every time he taught it and quoted from it and all the it's there. Like I could write books on this. Every single time he quoted from the word of God, he wasn't just teaching something. He was teaching you how the word works. And when you do it his way, the understanding, the spirit of wisdom and revelation goes along with the correct interpretation. And it just starts changing you. And that's why I was weepy boy for 10 years. Because get this people, there was nothing not a thing he taught me that didn't change me. I'm being transformed into the image of the Lord Jesus Christ. I was a people would have called me a man of God with signs and wonders and stories and all that kind of stuff and books and that all that stuff before I went into the 10 years. I came out a totally completely different person at that 10 years. And that's why I was weepy boy because the spirit of God in me every time he taught me changed me. And I'll tell you, you want that. You want that with all your heart. Cuz can you imagine? Let me It's one thing I like saying saying to my people, can you imagine love, joy, peace, fruit of the Holy Spirit? You know what that means? The nature of God. It's the fruit of the spirit of God being one with you. In other words, it's yours. Your love, joy, peace. You are love. Can you imagine living 24/7 with your internal atmosphere including your thoughts and your emotions always being love, joy, peace? That's one thing that we have. And yet we argue about well the fruit of the spirit is that your spirit or the holy spirit or how does that work? And I got to remember to be patient and you know don't pray for patience because you know Yeah. Don't pray for patience because yes his patience the patience of the almighty God that Jesus walked in is yours. You have to learn to walk in it and he teaches you. And when you start doing that your life changes from the inside out. You're marked forever by the spirit when you allow the spirit to do what he's there to do, which is transform you.
[50:40] Kristen Wambach Thank you for giving us a taste of what the workshop will include. Would you tell us again how to connect and sign up for the workshop, please?
[50:55] Rick Osborne Okay, you go to hear God's voice.com. Heargodsvoicenow.com. Now, it's free. I do want to add a caveat there because I'm always upfront about this stuff. It's free. It's also going to be on my YouTube channel, so everybody can watch it there for free. But if you sign up, you get alerts when we go live, right? If you register, you get alerts when we go live. You also get we're creating the ebook from the webinar as we go with all my notes and all the speaking and stuff like that. And everyone who registers gets a copy of that so they can walk away with it. They can continue to watch the videos cuz they're on YouTube. But you can walk away with the some people like to have it there with the notes and everything like that. Now we have a just like YouTube channels do. We also have a what we call behind the curtain where all of our students are and the people who want to go deeper and all that kind of stuff and they're going to be getting the worksheets for every single day. They're going to get more out of the thing, right? And that just requires somebody signs up to our behind the curtain, right? And that's not expensive and you can quit anytime. It's a subscription. So that's 20 bucks a month. But not everyone's going to want to do that, right? Most people are going to want to hear me the first time around and see, you know, check that out later. And I'm completely okay with that. So, it's totally free. 10 weeks. We start August 7th. All you got to do is get the link and come to the YouTube channel and watch it. Watch it live and it's recorded. And on the YouTube live channels, you go, I can't show up at noon Pacific every Friday. I'm working or I'm in a different time zone. Right? That's okay. It's recorded. Just keep up because it's a course. So, number two builds on number one. Number three builds on number two and number one. It's a course which is the way Jesus taught me to teach cuz he says and he said it to me this way. He says the whole idea of buffet style learning. He invented learning. The fact that we randomly learn a bit of this and a bit of that and a bit of this and a bit of that. He says my children need to understand the foundations and move so that they get it right. So I always teach in a course. So, you want to hear all 10 episodes, be there. So, man, I'm just thankful that you had me on and I would be pleased to welcome everybody who wants to come and join. Tell your friends it's YouTube. We got lots of room.
[53:26] Kristen Wambach Thank you.
[53:29] Rick Osborne It's also I should say it's also on Rumble. Live on Rumble and YouTube's on YouTube, but we also flow to Rumble.
[53:38] Kristen Wambach I'm doing my listening here. I'm listening for that because I sense that there's another deposit of confidence and courage and I'm trying I'm listening to what a listener would be asking like if they were asking me or you Rick and say we have so many been there done that walk through it been there done that walk through it been They're done in that walk through it. And the Holy Spirit just wants to reach out to each individual and say, "Trust me on this one. Trust just trust me on this one." Because that trust, that's the power of him inside of you. Yeah. And would you pray for us one more time for that confidence that I won't put any more parameters around it?
[54:50] Rick Osborne Well, in the workshop, we're going to give out homework and do activations as well. So, this is not just listen to the sermon and go and forget it by Sunday night. This is a course and I'm giving you the stuff you need to actually practice because the Bible tells us to practice our faith, but we get to practice it by grace. So, that's a wonderful thing. I teach you how to do that as well. So, I'm going to be giving you the Bible verses. I'm going to be giving you the book at the end. I always say this to my students. I'm the small tea teacher. Jesus said to his disciples who were expecting to be the rabbi next after him because that's the way the system worked. He announced and he says don't call anyone rabbi. You have one. And you can see Peter and James and John going, "What do you mean?" The reason why they were fighting with each other all the time about who was the greatest is because it was which one of them was going to be the primary rabbi when Jesus died because that's the way the system worked. So they're arguing over that and Jesus all of a sudden says, "By the way, guys, I'm not going anywhere." Jesus told his disciples when he's on the earth, "It's better for you if I leave cuz the father's sending the Holy Spirit." There was through the Holy Spirit, he's teaching us every single day. And so I always let my I didn't know this would stick when I first said it by the spirit. I said, "I'm the small tea teacher. He's the big tea teacher." I said, "My job is to teach you how to learn from him. I'm supposed to put myself out of a job." Right. And I said, and ever since then, of course, my students call me little tea teacher. I didn't know it was going to stick, but it's always a constant and great reminder. But that's what I'm going to do. Yes. This is why the depth of teaching through the word is going to help you understand it. my confidence and my trust every time I teach is that even before coming on here I said Lord Jesus thank you the teacher you use my mouth but you're writing it on their hearts you give them the spirit of wisdom and revelation and I'm trusting God for you to hear to know to understand because the teacher is right there with you so that you come out of this and I give you the tools that you need so that you come out of this with your life changed, not knowing more information. Like in our school too, it's like this is not about information cuz my 10 years with him was not about information. There's a lot of information in revelation, but it's for the purpose of transformation. That's what we do. That's what we're all supposed to be doing, right? So hopefully that as well as the prayer gives you some confidence that this is different. And I know because before my 10 years I taught the other courses on hearing his voice and I saw people change and blossom and stuff like that but now understanding the fullness of it I see people blossom in the fullness of it. So that's what we're doing.
[58:01] Kristen Wambach
Yes. Let's pray.
[58:02] Rick Osborne
Can I pray what I feel the spirit of God is showing me to pray?
[58:06] Kristen Wambach
Yes.
[58:07] Rick Osborne
Okay. Father, first and foremost, I know there's a lot of people that are hearing me that won't necessarily come, but you still love them so much. And I'm just asking, like Kristen just asked me to do, I'm just asking that you would take them to the next level. that you would take some of what they learned here today with some of what they heard and bring it to you and that you Lord Jesus would just start to teach them and their level of confidence in hearing your voice would go way up. Their level of understanding of the new covenant would go way up. Lord, in 2 seconds you changed my life with Philippians 2:12 and 13. You can do that right now with a spirit of wisdom and revelation. And everyone who hears this, Lord, I ask that from this point forward, they would sense you with them, teaching them, instructing them like you did with me, cuz it wasn't special. You were showing them what you want to do with all of your kids. And I trust you for that, Father. And those that you know are going to benefit from this, just give them a little nudge. Bring them along. And Father, I know that you're going to cause me to be faithful to teach what you've given me to teach and their lives will be changed. We trust you for this, Father. And a blessing on Kristen as well. I thank you that she does this. She faithfully does this. This is what you've asked her to do. And she's spreading your word. And I, Father, I just sense your absolute undying love for her and see the big smile that you have on your face for her. I thank you for her and for her husband and her kids. And I just ask, Father, for another level of blessing and revelation on her whole household in Jesus' name. Amen. Amen. Yay. Yay.
[1:00:08] Kristen Wambach So, I encourage you listeners, as I always do, just remain in that pregnant pause. Just remain there. Don't rush it. Allow him to continue to speak to you. Rick, thank you so much for sharing and dumping. I love it. I love it. This has just been a tremendous honor. Thank you for joining us.
[1:00:36] Rick Osborne Thank you for having me. I really appreciate it and I honor you. I honor you for having me and for doing this.
[1:00:42] Kristen Wambach You are most welcome. My goodness. You know, I love those pregnant pauses. I encourage you just to remain right there. Don't rush it. Just stay in the moment. Allow Holy Spirit to continue speaking directly to your heart. There is nothing more important than doing that. Now, let's lock in the supernatural wisdom we just unpacked today. The struggle is over. Amen. You do not have to perform to hear from God. Jesus is the mediator of the new covenant that guarantees you are his people. The guarantor has signed his name to it. Amen. He is the big T of the teachers. You have the life of Christ inside you. He is at work within you causing you to desire and to actually do his will. That power is in you for that to occur and to happen, to transform, to change. The fruit is yours. You do not have to beg for patience or joy. You don't even have to pray for patience or joy. You are a partaker of the divine nature. Meaning his patience and his joy are already yours. His joy is already alive 100% in you. Amen.
Here's your action step. Do not miss out on Rick's free ultimate Hear God's Voice workshop. It is an interactive 10-week course starting August 7. That's next week. streaming live on YouTube and Rumble. He is giving you the practical tools and homework activations to walk in a continual everyday conversation with the father. Go secure your spot right now at heargodsvoicenow.com. And yes, I will have all those connections available to you in the show notes. I realize some of you are driving now. May you walk confidently this week. Confidently and bravely knowing that the father absolutely delights in you. He has a big smile on his face just looking at you. And if you're driving, he's sitting right there in the passenger seat. Yes, he is holding your hand. He's taking you from glory to glory. Step boldly into the kingdom knowing you are deeply loved. Until next time, this has been such a treat. I encourage you to live spiritually brave. Bye now.
Interactive Watching Prompts for YouTube LIVE
- The Refrigerator Protocol (Timestamp ~25:00): Drop in the chat if you've ever treated prayer like asking permission rather than simply opening the refrigerator in your own home! Let us know what you are choosing to freely access today.
- The Great Exchange (Timestamp ~34:00): Type "AT WORK WITHIN" in the comments if you are ready to let Jesus do the heavy lifting and trade the exhaustion of your own performance for His completed grace!
- The Sledgehammer Shift (Timestamp ~48:00): Tell us in the chat: What is one old religious "rule" or striving mindset you are taking a sledgehammer to this week so you can walk in continual conversation with the Father?
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BEYOND JUST YOUR SPIRIT: EXPERIENCING FACE-TO-FACE INTIMACY THROUGH HIS WORK WITHIN
In this episode of the Interviewing Jesus Podcast, I sit down with bestselling Christian author Rick Osborne. For ten years, Rick was sequestered with the Lord, experiencing a profound season where Jesus walked with him and taught him the scriptures. What he discovered during that decade completely changed his understanding of what it means to be a disciple. He learned that the face-to-face intimacy Jesus shared with the Father wasn't just reserved for the Son of God—it is the exact same relationship we have been given.
When Jesus went to the cross, He didn't just forgive our sins; He brought us into the New Covenant. We often talk about how our spirit is saved, but Rick profoundly reminds us that God made us spirit, soul, and body. In the Garden of Eden, humanity was alienated from the life of God completely, and in Christ, we are restored completely. We are filled with the fullness of the Godhead bodily.
This changes everything about how we approach our daily walk. You do not have to beg for access or try to perform your way into His presence. As I mentioned in our conversation, it is like being a child in your parent's home—you do not have to ask for permission to open up the refrigerator. God expects us to come to Him boldly and freely.
The secret to this transformation is understanding Philippians 2:13. We are able to bring our salvation to completion because He is at work within us, causing us to want to do His will and causing us to actually do it. When you grasp that the Holy Spirit is actively working inside your entire being, the striving stops. You realize that you are a brand new creation, and your only job is to stay in constant, flowing conversation with the Teacher.
If you are ready to step out of the old covenant mindset and experience the delight of the Father in your everyday life, this episode will give you the practical path and raw stories you need to get there.
The Fullness of Redemption
Rick points to 1 Thessalonians 5:23, which states that God sanctifies us completely—spirit, soul, and body. When the cloud of God's presence descended on Solomon's temple, it didn't just hover in one corner; it filled the entire space. You are that temple. The life, joy, peace, and mind of Christ aren't just abstract concepts; they are the active atmosphere within you.
The "At Work Within" Reality
Philippians 2:13 says, "For it is God who is working in you, enabling you both to desire and to work out His good purpose." This is the core of inside-out discipleship. Jesus isn't just handing you a textbook and grading your progress. He is actively moving within you, changing your desires and empowering your actions. The pressure is off. Your only requirement is to yield to the Teacher and rest in the finished work.
Coaching Church Activation
We’ve all had those moments where we stand on the outside of God's presence, hoping we’ve done enough "right things" to earn an audience with Him. We wait for a booming voice or a profound visitation, exhausting ourselves in the process.
But Jesus is not a distant landlord; He is the Guarantor of a New Covenant, and He lives inside you.
This week, we are going to drop the religious scorecard and practice effortless access. I call this The Refrigerator Protocol.
- The Trigger: Sometime today, when you feel the sudden urge to "perform" spiritually—whether it's guilt that you haven't prayed enough, frustration over a mistake, or exhaustion from trying to manufacture faith—stop.
- The Metaphor: Imagine yourself as a child in your own home. You are thirsty. Do you knock on the kitchen door and submit a formal request to your parents for a glass of water? No. You walk right in, open the refrigerator, and take what you need, because you belong there.
- The Shift: Relocate your perspective. Say out loud: "Jesus, You are at work within me right now. I don't have to perform to hear You. I am stepping into the Father's delight."
- The Action: Ask Him a simple, everyday question. Not a theological debate, but a genuine question about your day. Then, trust the first peaceful, loving thought that crosses your mind. That is the Teacher, guiding you from the inside out.
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Let's bridge the gap between Heaven and earth together. Live spiritually BRAVE this week!
God's primary instrument of speaking is the increase and the withdrawing of His presence—and it's mediated by righteousness, peace, and joy in the Holy Spirit." —Pastor David Chotka
Together, Kristen and David unpack how Holy Spirit uses the ebb and flow of Righteousness, Peace, and Joy (Romans 14:17) as an internal compass. You’ll discover why God’s peace isn't just an emotion—it is an active "referee" (Colossians 3:15) that sifts your decisions, gives loving warnings, and confirms when you are standing on solid ground.
- The Anatomy of the "Tap on the Shoulder": How God primarily speaks through the increase or withdrawal of His presence in your spirit.
- Decoding Romans 14:17: * Righteousness: A sweet, un-distracted walk with Jesus.
- Peace: Internal serenity acting as the arbiter and referee of your soul.
- Joy: An explosive internal celebration alive inside you, regardless of external circumstances.
- The Greek Lexicon Discovery (BDAG): The Greek word behind "rule" in Colossians 3:15 (brabeuō) and how ancient referees, arbiters, and judges blow the whistle on our choices.
- Stories of Divine Accuracy:
- How David learned discernment after walking away from a job with no peace.
- The miraculous story of the $108 cash gift given to two friends at 4:00 PM on a Friday.
- Kristen’s $800 farm debris pile and the precise ways God meets personal needs.
- The Banks of the River (Practical Activation): How building a simple 5-minute daily devotional habit creates the structural riverbanks for living water to flow without overwhelm.
SUMMARY
In this powerful episode of the Interviewing Jesus Podcast, I sit down with author, international speaker, and founder of Spirit-Equip Ministries, Rev. Dr. David Chotka, for a deep, honest dive into the practical mechanics of hearing God’s voice. Moving past sterile academic theories and rigid church formulas, Pastor David shares how ordinary believers can recognize the gentle "tap on the shoulder" from the Holy Spirit in their everyday lives.
We unpack how Holy Spirit uses Righteousness, Peace, and Joy (Romans 14:17) as an active internal compass. David breaks down his groundbreaking doctoral research on the Greek word behind Colossians 3:15 (brabeuō), revealing how Christ’s peace serves as an internal "referee" or "arbiter" that sifts our decisions, signals yellow-flag warnings, and confirms when we are standing on solid ground. From raw stories of walking away from wrong doors to miraculous $108 cash provisions and $800 farm debris piles, this episode equips you to drop religious performance, simplify the supernatural, and live Spiritually BRAVE!
Let the peace be the referee that tells you if you're in or out of the game. When the peace waxes large, that's the referee saying it's fair ball. When the peace diminishes, he's saying you're on the edge of a penalty." —Pastor David Chotka
The River, The Referee, and The Voice By Kristen Wambach
For years, through my own walk with Jesus, my podcast, and my published books and prayer journals, my heart’s mission has been singular: to strip away the complex theological jargon and help everyday believers access the raw, supernatural heart of Jesus. We don't need high-tech church programs or high-pressure formulas. We need relational simplicity.
That is precisely why my recent conversation with Rev. Dr. David Chotka resonated so deeply with me. David holds a doctorate from Gordon-Conwell, studied under giants like Gordon Fee, and has trained leaders across six continents—yet the second he sits down, his academic titles melt away into the heart of a gentle, humble practitioner.
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Kristen Wambach (00:01.849) Welcome. What happens when an expert in biblical scholarship steps out of the seminary classroom and into a decades-long journey of learning how to discern the gentle tap on the shoulder from the Holy Spirit? Think about that. What happens?
You get a man who doesn't just study prayer. He lives out in the raw, messy, everyday moments of life. Welcome to Interviewing Jesus Podcast. I am your host, Kristen Wombeck, and today we are looking past religious performance and high-tech church formulas and programs to explore what it practically looks like to hear the voice of Jesus. Let me ask you this.
To hear the voice of Jesus today for that situation, circumstance, that love hug that you are just so hungry for. What does that look like in the middle of your normal Monday morning all the way to Friday night? What does that look like? Joining me today is author, international speaker, and founder of Spirit Equipped Ministries, Reverend Dr. David Chatka and David holds a doctorate from Gordon Cronwell. He taught leaders across six continents and studied under giants like Gordon Fee, but more than his degrees. David carries raw personal stories of miraculous healing, navigating heavy grief, and learning how to sift through the noise of life. To recognize when the Lord is getting your attention. Get ready to simplify the supernatural. Can I say that again? Get ready to simplify the supernatural. Drop the religious routine and live spiritually brave. Welcome to the show, Pastor David.
David Chotka (02:11.103) Well, I that's very impressive in pr introduction. You actually pronounced my name correctly. And so I'm very thankful for that. And you know, I'm just an ordinary guy. We hear all that funny stuff about who I am. It's it's almost embarrassing. At any rate. Yes, I I I I I've studied hearing the voice of Jesus for a very, very, very long time, and I think it's the most important spiritual discipline. In fact
Kristen Wambach (02:15.786) Woo.
David Chotka (02:37.715) I believe that it's the primary spiritual discipline that Jesus of Nazareth practiced all through his and if you get this right, the rest will fall into place. If you don't get this right, you're gonna be stumbling and bumbling and fumbling and mumbling. And
Kristen Wambach (02:42.730) I agree. I agree. Yeah.
Kristen Wambach (02:51.834) Yeah. And we're here, David and I agree, we're here to just erase that hopscotch path of bumbling and stumbling to help you. So jumping right in, David has provided us with a fabulous resource. It's his number one best selling book. Hey, are you there? It's me, God. What a perfect title. You offer a practical guide for recognizing when God gets our attention. We're putting the links to your book and Spirit Equipped Ministries right there in our show notes. So turn in your ears, people, because I have taken really good notes for you, making it easy for you to connect with Pastor David. But right now, I want to take us past those published pages and into that quiet room where we just listen and hear Holy Spirit. David. Take us into that exact second when you stopped running on that religious routine and felt that gentle tap on your shoulder for the very first time. What did that very first time?
David Chotka (04:01.569) Very first time. listen. The first time I got it wrong, the second time I got it right. So the first time when the Holy Spirit tried to talk to me, I was just a young man trying to f to get a job, to pay the bills, that kind of thing. I was a university student, new to the Lord, and my was a first believer in my family. And I remember the moment I was trying to get work and I had lined up working with a great big organization. I had slam dunked the interview. I'd got the I did the interview in January for a May start as you know for for summer, that kind of thing. And two weeks before May the first arrived, I got the phone call from the company because there was a big depression going on in the economy. The job was gone and I couldn't have that job. So I remember panicking. My parents ran a diner. We had enough to eat, but there wasn't enough to pay me a real living wage or to make savings for future education and that kind of thing. And it was a really kind of how do I say this? The scripture says if a man doesn't work, neither let him eat. And I was eating and I was working in the restaurant, but I wasn't making it enough to be able to pay for my future education or things like that. And I remember this moment. So I was in the restaurant working away with my parents, and I was, you know, I had two jobs at that point. Here's what it was. Number one job was trying to find a job.
Kristen Wambach (05:15.962) Okay.
David Chotka (05:18.209) Because the scripture says you need to work. The number two job was helping my parents in the diner during rush hour, right? So I was doing I was doing that and this customer came in. And in those days, you had to have a resume typed out on a piece of paper. You had to shine your shoes. You had to have a white shirt, had to look attractive. You know, you had to comb your hair the right way. I haven't got any hair left, but in those days you had to do this. And I was but in the diner, you you have an apron on, you're serving customers, you're taking orders. This guy always came in at the same time every day. He came in for 10:30 for coffee and 1:15 for my mother's homemade soup. So this guy's name was Stan, and I'd known him for years, and he'd watch me work. Anyway, he looked at me and he said, David, I heard you lost you the opportunity to go to work for that big company. I said, Stan, it's terrible. I won't be able to go to school if I don't earn the money. And he said, Well, I can't offer you a good job, but I could offer you a minimum wage job. And there was at that point in my city, it was a General Motors city.
Kristen Wambach (05:59.910) Yeah.
David Chotka (06:12.811) And there was layoffs happening, twenty two and a half percent unemployment in that city at that time. It's the what we call the rust belt now. Anyway, nobody was hiring anybody, and this guy was offering Miss Job. And I What is it? He said, It's delivery truck driving. Would you do that? And by the way, it was delivering pantyhose and greeting cards. Now you want you to know it was store to store, not door to door. Okay, you need to know that. Anyway. So this guy offered me this job and he said, Look
Kristen Wambach (06:17.583) Hmm.
Kristen Wambach (06:37.221) Separate like opinios, yes.
David Chotka (06:41.047) F for this to work, it's simple. You just go to this address, you walk in and you you just sign the form with the work form. You have to be bonded for three months if you're gonna take this job, because I have to know that when I train you, I got three months of work coming out of you. And I said, Okay, that's good. And so my father looked at me and I looked at him. He gave me the keys of the car, I started to drive. And here's what happened, and this was the defining moment where I first recogni I didn't recognize it the first time. As I was driving along the road, my peace vanished. I went from being joyful and bubbly and happy and delighted. And as I was driving along in the car, I began to feel uneasy at first and I thought it was nerves, you know, and then all vestiges of joy and peace and my walk with Jesus was distracted and I couldn't think straight. And I show up at this address, and there's a big red brick building with Ivy all over the the sides of the building, and there was a loading dock with a small door. And I walked up to this company and I knocked on the the loading dock door and there was no other doors that I could see. And I looked around and there was nobody who answered the door. I got back in my dad's vehicle, having not succeeded in getting inside that building. And I drove back. And as I drove away, the peace returned, the joy returned, the laughter returned. And I thought, my dad's gonna think I'm an idiot. I couldn't find the door to get into I wonder if I got the address wrong. So I walked back into the restaurant. He said, Well, son, when do you start? I said, Dad, I couldn't find the front door. I will not tell you what my daddy said. It would imperil your sanctification. But he was not impressed. He was not impressed. So so here's what happened. That was the 10 30. Then the guy comes back for soup in the afternoon. And he said, David, you didn't come to the to the shop. I said, Stan, it's the craziest thing. I I saw a loading dock. I saw vines on the Did I get the address wrong? And he started to laugh. He said, no, no, I should have told you. You got to go all the way around to the back of the building, and the vines have overgrown a trellis, and you got to go around the trellis to get to the office. All of our business is by phone and by by work order. So that's where the office is. I said, okay. My dad gave me the keys, and I started to drive. And as I was driving, once again my spirit turned to lead. Now I didn't know that was how God speaks. I had not a clue. I got myself to the place where that where this place was. I walked into the back door. I found the trellis.
David Chotka (09:00.651) I went inside and there was a lovely secretary, middle-aged lady, English accent. She looks at me and said, you're Mr. Chotka. here is the work order. Mr. Shepherd said you have to sign here and you can start tomorrow. And I held the pal the pen in my hand and I almost threw up. I mean, it was that uneasy. And because the scripture said, if a man doesn't work, neither let him eat. I signed the form, I forced myself, I got back in the vehicle, I drove home. And here's what happened. I was supposed to start when he came for his coffee the next day at 10 30. He was going to bring the vehicle. We're going to drive over. I didn't sleep that night. I felt awful. I felt terrible. And the phone rang first thing in the morning at eight o'clock in the morning when the company opened. It was another job for the Department of Highways offering twice the wage with a return policy and a health care package and a dental care package. And I had given my word to a family for So with great reluctance, I said no to the other job because I'd given my word and I I I I did this thing. And then the Lord called me to the ministry. That was the first time I realized that God doesn't always speak with, you know, a vision or a dream or a scripture leaping off the page. It was, it was no peace. My my presence to the spirit was completely gone. But the second time was the fun one. Okay. So this is two weeks later. Two weeks later.
Kristen Wambach (10:20.183) Okay.
David Chotka (10:21.261) Okay, so I had I was going to three different Bible studies because I was a brand new Christian and I wanted to learn scripture as much as I could. I couldn't get my nose out of the Bible. So I went to it, I went to a Tuesday noon, a Thursday noon, and a and a fr a Thursday night. There was a Friday night prayer and praise and then church on Sunday morning and Sunday evening. I was doing that because I wanted to learn the Bible. Anyway, in three of those studies, the theme was the same: tithing, giving 10%. Now I was a cheapskate and I didn't have any money.
Kristen Wambach (10:45.115) Mm-hmm.
David Chotka (10:49.933) But you know, three different studies. And I remember saying to the Lord, I don't want to give 10%. What are you going to do with my money? Eat it? You know, God, you don't need money. I need to eat. You don't need to eat. What's the big deal? So I get to the third study, and I have just said to the Lord, What do you I need to eat? You don't need to eat. I I so God, what are you gonna with why I why should I give you money? And I walked into this study and I sat down with the guy who was the it was a brethren elder, he was teaching, and I said, What's this thing about practicing the tithe? He said, What are you gonna do with the Lord's money? Eat it. So here's what I did. I started to set aside, I had a part-time job and I had my diner with my parents, and I'd just begun at this company. We're paying the minimum wage. I put the 10% inside an envelope and there wasn't much there. Anyway, after a few weeks, I got to $120 in the tithe fund. That's what I had. And I didn't know about the hot the storehouse. I didn't, I was so new to the Lord, I simply didn't know.
Kristen Wambach (11:34.521) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (11:48.271) Yeah.
David Chotka (11:48.481) So I remember though feeling prompted that I should give the money away because it was God's and I'd spend it if I kept looking at it. So I knelt beside the bed and I said, God, who should I give the money to? I belonged to a Bible study university, and there was a couple going to go overseas. They were going to go to Southeast Asia and they had to clear up some debts to get there. And as soon as I knelt, I thought of them. It was a Friday at four o'clock in the afternoon. You need to know this. Friday at four, that detail is really important.
Kristen Wambach (11:59.173) Mm.
Kristen Wambach (12:17.679) Mm.
David Chotka (12:18.016) So as I prayed about what I should do with this, I said, Well, Lord, I don't want to give the whole bunch away. how about 110? And I'll have a little 10 bucks left or something. And the only thing I can say that happened next was the piece diminished and got smaller. And I felt in my spirit that I was to try again and it was supposed to be lower. I said, 109, and the piece got bigger. And then I said, How about I give Derek and Deb 108 dollars? And suddenly the fire of the spirit rose inside of me. The joy exploded. And I jumped to my feet and I said, Yes, yes, yes. I'm going to give Derek and Deb 108 bucks. You gotta know something. I was I was a I was a tightwad. So this is a miracle. And I even wanted to do this. So I took a scripture verse, and I my God shall supply all your needs according to his riches and glory in Christ Jesus. I shoved it in an envelope. I put $108 in cash. And at seven o'clock that night, I got myself over to where Derek and Deb lived. I've been to their home many times.
Kristen Wambach (12:58.159) Mm-hmm.
David Chotka (13:18.060) They didn't. So here's what happened. The porch light was burned out and it was it was dusk. It was getting it was getting dark. And I snuck up to there and I opened the mailbox, put the money in, quietly closed it, and I ran away because I didn't want them to know I was giving them money. Right. It was Friday at seven o'clock when I did this. Anyway, two weeks later, I'm curious. I really want to know what's going on. Cause I gave 108 bucks to Derek and Deb, and they were friends, and I used to walk my dog up and
Kristen Wambach (13:25.083) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (13:32.730) Right.
Kristen Wambach (13:40.571) Uh-huh.
Kristen Wambach (13:43.961) And that was huge. That was huge.
David Chotka (13:45.487) Yeah, I used to walk my dog up and down that street. It was three blocks from my friend's home. So anyway, I was walking down the street hoping that Derek and Deb would see me. I kept walking up and down. Derek stuck his head out and said, Hey David, David, come over here. Our God has supplied all our needs according to his riches and glory. We just had a miracle. And I thought, man. And I was feeling so smug. my heavens. It was obnoxiously smug. And I go into this place and he sits me down and I said, What happened, Derek? thinking that, you know, I'm I'm, you know I'm I have knowledge he doesn't have. And he looks at me and he said, David, two weeks ago, on Friday at four o'clock in the afternoon, my wife and I made the decision that I would have to finish my degree. I was shy two courses before we went to Southeast Asia. We both worked at that hotel over there. They pay Wednesdays on the 15th and 30th. And the 30th was the fifth was going to be the Wednesday night. And the course was to begin on Monday. And we had to pay it in cash, and we couldn't get either of our parents on the phone. We had fuel in the car, we had food in the pantry, but all that we had was $50, and the price of the course was $158. So on Friday at four o'clock in the afternoon, we knelt down and said, God, would you raise up someone to give $108 in cash to us? So that we can pay for the course that we have to pay for on Monday, so I could complete my degree. And here's what happened: I snuck up in the mailbox on Friday night. I put it in. Of course, no mail happens on Saturday. And so they spent the whole weekend not looking in the mailbox. And the money's sitting in the mailbox. They're crying out to God. They're praying. And on Sunday afternoon, the man gets assurance in his heart that the money was there, it was going to be taken care of. He says, I we don't still don't have it, we don't get paid till Wednesday. And as he was going out, he decided that he would write a check for the whole amount, even though he didn't have it. He opened the mailbox and found the money and was exact. Now I'm sitting in the room and I realized two things. Number one, they had a need at Friday at four o'clock in the afternoon and they prayed. Number two, I heard that I was to give to them $108 in cash, and it was specific, and the Lord wouldn't let me give 110 or 109.
Kristen Wambach (15:55.513) Hey.
Kristen Wambach (16:01.083) Yes, you did. Okay.
David Chotka (16:05.218) He made me give him 108 bucks. And the thing that was amazing to me, I heard it precisely and I got it completely correct. And I obeyed and I received joy as I did that. I also learned that sacrifice is part of service and that God would supply. All that came together in those two moments, one where I failed and the other where I succeeded. And so began the journey of attempting to understand.
Kristen Wambach (16:17.551) Yes.
David Chotka (16:33.368) How God speaks. And here is what I learned through those two events. God's primary instrument of speaking is the increase and the withdrawing of his presence. And it's mediated by righteousness and peace and joy in the Holy Spirit. Now, listen, I believe in miracles. I believe in angels showing up and giving you divinely appointed guidance. I believe in prophetic utterances, and I believe in miraculous divine, you know. angels appearing and telling you what to do and that kind of thing. I believe the star moved in the sky for the magi and that the big angels appeared to Mary and Joseph and told them they're going to carry the Messiah and the burning bush happened for Mo when he was hearing the voice. And those events are real and from time to time they happen in current current current life. But I believe that the primary means by which God speaks is the increase of the withdrawing of his presence and there are scriptures that speak to it.
Kristen Wambach (17:21.263) They do.
Kristen Wambach (17:29.827) Mm-hmm. Yeah.
David Chotka (17:31.082) I usually go to Romans fourteen, seventeen, and I go to Colossians three, fifteen. Now do you want me to unpack that or you want we you got a different question for me?
Kristen Wambach (17:35.685) Yeah. Actually I I wanted to I wanted to piggyback on what what you said, the 'cause some we have a lot of people that have different learning applications, different teaching way that they understand what is being spoken. So when I hear that and in my experience the drawing and the increasing of the spirit literally changes like a vibration within my body. So I w wanted
David Chotka (18:07.340) You know
Kristen Wambach (18:08.185) to point out the different ways that tangible touch or or sometimes you know you can feel you can feel the spirit over the top of your head. There's so many different ways that you can sense the spirit increasing or decreasing. And it doesn't mean that Holy Spirit went anywhere, but it's from within you like if you just you know, walked briskly back and forth down your street, your b blood pressure would be going and if you checked your pulse, it would be increased. So it's the same type of thing when you feel the spirit increase or di decrease.
David Chotka (18:50.786) Yes. Now here's the issue. there have been times where I've felt something and I was wrong. And there have been times when I felt something and I was right. And so, and there have been times when I have had a bias. You know, let's say for example, I don't know about you. I am always at odds with some politician somewhere sometimes. Okay. And sometimes people that I love say something bad and I believe them, and people that I distrust say something good and I don't trust them.
Kristen Wambach (18:56.153) Hmm. Mm-hmm.
David Chotka (19:20.236) And so there's this process of trying to know how God is speaking when. And here is the principle that I teach in the Hey, Are You There It's Me God book. I say, number one, I won't teach something unless it's clearly in the scripture. And whenever I tell a story, I will anchor it in the scripture. And by the way, here are the marks that the scripture says what it feels like when the voice speaks. Now you just named one right there that I hadn't considered here.
Kristen Wambach (19:24.634) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (19:28.206) Mm-hmm.
David Chotka (19:45.547) If you think about Luke 24, where the two disciples on the first resurrection day are going down the road. Of course, you know, listen, if if you lose someone, do you pray? Well, the answer is, of course, yes. What do you do if your God is dead? I mean, your God is dead. And these two guys were walking down the road on two days after the crucifixion, day number three has just started to dawn. They're going down the road and they they can't talk to their God. And so they're talking to each other.
Kristen Wambach (19:57.391) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (20:00.822) Mm.
David Chotka (20:16.556) And Jesus of Nazareth shows up. You know, and they have this vibrant
Kristen Wambach (20:18.329) Yeah. But y I mean we could jump in there. Why is it that they thought they couldn't talk to him?
David Chotka (20:25.068) Well, because he was dead. He had they hadn't he th this is the first resurrection appearance. It that he'd been crucified on Good Friday.
Kristen Wambach (20:29.059) That's right. They hadn't experienced him as spirit.
David Chotka (20:34.262) Yeah, well, they they were in desolation on Saturday because they didn't know what was going on. They're in anguish, they're in hiding, they're walking down the road on day three, and they don't know it. But Jesus of Nazareth is beside them as they're talking. And so here's what now this is a very, very important text for for for discernment. This is a very important one. So they walk down the road. He's sharing scripture with them about the two things the Messiah was supposed to do. He was supposed to die, and then he was supposed to rise again.
Kristen Wambach (20:38.436) No.
Kristen Wambach (20:46.437) Yes he is.
Kristen Wambach (20:58.743) Mm. Mm.
David Chotka (21:01.674) And there were two Messiah theories in Judaism. There was a suffering servant material that you find in in the servant songs in Isaiah, particularly Isaiah 53 or Isaiah 49. You have this language about sure man of sorrows and acquainted with grief and so on. And you have Jewish scholars saying, Is there going to be one Messiah who suffers? Is that Israel who suffers? What about this conquering this conquering guy who's gonna raise the righteous dead? And and they they didn't understand.
Kristen Wambach (21:04.955) Hmm.
David Chotka (21:31.747) That those two Messiah scriptures were actually one Messiah. And so Jesus starts to explain to these two guys, Cleopas and his friend, whoever he was. And as he's talking about this, that it's evening, they're supposed to walk short because it was a Sabbath day. He looked like he's going to go away. He they invite him in for dinner. He breaks the bread, and suddenly they recognize that it's him and he vanishes. Now, then they say this phrase. Now, this is the important phrase for discernment. They said,
Kristen Wambach (21:56.101) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (22:00.107) Mm-hmm.
David Chotka (22:01.912) Did not our hearts burn hot within us while he was speaking to the script from the scriptures to us along the way. So there's four marks that show up in that passage that have to do with hearing the voice. One is the is the heart of flame, the burning heart. And so that's a classic mark of evangelical Methodism. was not our hearts strangely warm, is what John Wesley said when he got saved. The second thing is he was speaking about.
Kristen Wambach (22:20.250) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (22:27.875) Yeah.
David Chotka (22:31.528) Scripture while they were experiencing this internal testimony or witness of the Spirit with a heart of flame. Thirdly, it pointed to Jesus. And fourthly, two guys experienced it at the same time. Okay, so you have four marks of what it means to hear the voice together. The internal fire, the scripture, pointing to Jesus together.
Kristen Wambach (22:32.751) Mm.
Kristen Wambach (22:45.477) They did.
Kristen Wambach (22:51.983) Mm-hmm.
David Chotka (23:00.450) That's amazing. Now that's one of the scriptures that I unpack in the book, Hey, Are You There It's Me God book. The other ones that I think are really important to bear recognize. Now, scripture has all kinds of accounts where it says the Lord spoke. You know, God appeared to Abraham and God spoke to him, or God spoke to Moses, or whatever. And we have this external observation thing, but we don't have very many scriptures that speak about what it feels like inside the internal breast of the believer. And so the study that I did in my doctoral work.
Kristen Wambach (23:12.937) I know.
David Chotka (23:30.572) was to look at each of the scriptures that spoke about what it felt like and then try to give language to describe it so the Georgian average believer doesn't think they're idiots or or recognizes when this is happening to them, right? So
Kristen Wambach (23:46.588) Share with you an experience similar, unique to that. So years ago, God pointed out a house for us for John and I, a house for us. And you know it's like, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, are you sure? And da-da-da-da. And where he came in and actually confirmed it was his. Is that all of our very dear friends and community started having dreams about our house? They had dreams about them being in our house. They could describe that house to us. It was the coolest thing. That community, what'd you call that? You called the the the the the together. We talked about it briefly.
David Chotka (24:31.724) Yes, now you
David Chotka (24:36.738) Yes. I I do believe that discernment, hearing the voice of Jesus, is always better when there are multiplied witnesses who are saying the same thing. And here's the reason why. Every now and then God will speak through someone that I don't like and I will disregard it because I don't like it. Yeah. Or listen, every now and then somebody that I love will say something dumb and I'll listen.
Kristen Wambach (24:47.055) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (24:54.696) W Really? we could we could hang out on this one.
David Chotka (25:05.614) Because I love them, right? And so here's what you need when you're in the middle of the discernment process. I was speaking to a youth group about this, and of course there's young girls and there's young guys and they're looking at each other and they're trying to figure out whether or not the pink cloud is going to descend and cause their heart to thump. Anyway, what I said to them is if you're trying to discern something, you and you need somebody unbiased in this matter. So if you're going to ask the girl out, don't pray with the boyfriend.
Kristen Wambach (25:13.743) Uh-huh.
David Chotka (25:29.868) It's not gonna work. There's bias there. This is not a helpful thing, right? And so here's the here's the bottom line. You always need to make sure that when you're in the middle of a discernment process, that you are recognizing that everybody's got biases. Everybody's got sin patterns. Everybody's got e issues. Everybody has people that they love who are unwise, and everybody's got friends who they don't like who are wise. And every and now every now and then you're gonna get hoarse sense from a good friend.
Kristen Wambach (25:34.821) Goodness.
Kristen Wambach (25:55.291) Mm-hmm.
David Chotka (25:59.009) And that's a marvelous thing. Horse sense. Yeah, God, God speaks through horse sense. And by the way, God spoke through Balaam's donkey, too. And so the bottom line is you don't need to be a Bible scholar to hear the voice. God spoke through Balaam's donkey. And by the way, Pharaoh, king of Egypt, was not a Bible scholar. You know, he he wasn't. And God spoke to Pharaoh, king of Egypt, and raised up a slave boy to tell him what was going on. And actually, at that point, Joseph didn't have a Bible, right?
Kristen Wambach (25:59.814) Horse since? Hor did you say horsein? Okay. yeah, yeah.
Kristen Wambach (26:12.367) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (26:26.681) Yes. No.
David Chotka (26:26.744) There was no Bible because Moses hadn't been born yet, and he wrote he wrote the first five books. By the way, God spoke to Nebuchadnezzar, and by the way, God spoke to the king of Nineveh, you know. I have to tell you something. When Jonah went to Nineveh, he didn't want to go because Nineveh's people had fought his people, and he probably had relatives get killed by that guy. He hated Nineveh. And God wanted to speak to someone he detested. And so
Kristen Wambach (26:36.869) Yes.
Kristen Wambach (26:46.715) Probably.
Kristen Wambach (26:53.819) Yeah.
David Chotka (26:54.122) In the discernment process, when we are attempting to hear the voice, God may use you to speak to someone you detest because the Lord's calling all of us to know him. God is calling all of us to walk in righteousness, and God is calling all of us to walk in radical forgiveness, and he's calling us to love our enemies. He's calling us to do that. When it gets to the practical application of how this works.
Kristen Wambach (26:57.659) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (27:01.444) No.
Kristen Wambach (27:14.958) Mm-hmm.
David Chotka (27:18.434) You need to make sure that you are putting multiplied testimonies alongside yours and that none of them are directing you away from the clear teaching of Scripture. And so you need to be word saturated and you need to be spirit infilled. And you need to be in submission to other people who are Bible saturated and spirit-in-filled. In fact, there's three foundations in Jesus' ministry. He was number one Bible-based. He was number two prayer saturated. And he was number three infilled by spirit and led by spirit. And when when guidance comes, it will include all three elements before you are directed into what it is that Jesus wants you to be, do, or become. And it doesn't matter if you start with the Bible while you're praying, or if you have an experience of the Spirit that drives you to prayer and you find a scripture, or if you are led by the Spirit to a scripture while you're praying.
Kristen Wambach (27:58.349) It will.
David Chotka (28:13.324) It doesn't matter which one is first. All three of them will be the footsteps that will lead you into hearing the voice. Word, spirit, and prayer in combination. Those three spiritual disciplines. And here's what I have discovered. It is very easy to train the Bible. You can get six thousand studies on any kind of book of the Bible off your phone if you need it. But there aren't many books that train people to listen to the spirit. And there's only a few.
Kristen Wambach (28:20.015) Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. Yeah. Yeah.
David Chotka (28:39.960) That actually give people steps to pray when they're reading about prayer. And so we need to train what it is to be prayer saturated. We need to train what it is to be spirit-led. And we need to train what it is to be Bible-based. One of them is taken care of beautifully. I don't need to write books on Bible-based. But the other two, we don me not have much. Now, the culture we live in isn't prayer saturated. The culture Jesus was born into.
Kristen Wambach (28:44.303) Yes.
Kristen Wambach (29:00.643) Hmm. Yeah. Yeah. Pastor David. Mm-hmm. Yes. They did.
David Chotka (29:09.910) He prayed, Jews prayed three times a day. And Jews memorized scripture. And so Jesus was Bob Nazareth, was born into a prayer-saturated, Bible-believing culture. The only thing that was missing was being spirit-led.
Kristen Wambach (29:20.261) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (29:24.227) Yes. I am the type of I am the type of person and you described it in your eloquent points there is I usually have an encounter, you know, I feel the spirit and I'm showing something in the spirit, and then I'll go, Hello, excuse me, can you explain that please? And then I will be directed to Jesus' humanity and the experiential part.
David Chotka (29:25.336) So he gets in for it.
David Chotka (29:45.570) Yes, exactly.
Kristen Wambach (29:53.561) that he lived that says this will help you understand what I just showed you.
David Chotka (29:59.725) Yes, and so what I look for, and I honestly when I'm trying to discern the voice, I am not settled until I have word and spirit and a communal affirmation of word and spirit that is identical to what I've received. Every now and then you haven't got time to wait for that and you have to stick your neck out. But usually when you're in a discernment process, trying to understand what God is saying, you can take your time. Job A, job B, job C. Church A, Church A, Church C. Do I move to this city? Do I stay here? do I go to that university or this college? what about job you know, th these are the things that are before most people most of the time. In fact I just had to I just had to make a decision.
Kristen Wambach (30:40.795) Question for you because I have a story rumbling around in the back of my head, but your original story that you told about accepting this job, yet the the next day, a different offer that was more prosperous came round. How did God work you through that? I mean, you gave your word to a gentleman, and did you did you continue on with that?
David Chotka (31:03.906) Yes, I did.
David Chotka (31:07.680) I kept my word and I was short the money that I needed to go to school. Here's what the Lord did. when I got I got called to seminary, and when I got called to seminary, I realized that there was actually a a two friends of mine that had moved from my hometown just north of Niagara Falls to the city of Toronto where the seminary was. And they said to me, You can stay with us just for the cost of your food. And so other friends sacrificed and God paid the bills. You see what I'm saying?
Kristen Wambach (31:37.647) Yes, he did.
David Chotka (31:37.827) The original intention was that I would receive more than enough with an offer to be to be able to come back to work the next year with a med thing and dentist thing and that kind of stuff was all in that package. And when I kept my word, he honored that, but other people sacrificed so that I could get there. Then I found a part time job four hours a week, and the four hours paid for my food, and I got myself through that year. And then the next year the Lord opened other doors. There was
Kristen Wambach (31:52.431) Yeah.
David Chotka (32:03.202) There was a scholarship that came to me and there was a bursary that was for students from my region and so on and so forth. And I actually left seminary not owing a dime. And that was now I didn't own anything. I didn't have a stick of furniture. I had bought my first car, you know, on credit because my daddy co signed that kind of thing. But you know, I didn't I got to the place where the Lord met my needs. And this is the most incredible thing. Jesus I wanted that seminary season.
Kristen Wambach (32:11.653) Good.
Kristen Wambach (32:27.323) Mm-hmm.
David Chotka (32:30.774) was a season of testing and endurance and suffering and learning to give and so on. I wound up becoming a national director with the Renewal Society, but in the middle of it, I was as broke as broke could be. And in order to become that director, guy didn't know this. I went to a renewal rally. I was sitting in the renewal rally where they were talking about the Lord and talking about generosity and talking about giving. And they passed out commitment cards and they said, you don't have to have the cash in hand. But can you trust God to put the money in your hands to give to us? And I made a commitment in those days. This is a big commitment. 20 bucks a month over and above everything because I had no money. I was broke as broke could be. And other people were paying my freight. And I remember getting letter of the Lord to sign that card, and I did. And I sent the card off to them. And every month I would say, Okay, Jesus, I need that 20 bucks. Where are you going to send it? And one day I didn't have it. It was the last day of the month.
Kristen Wambach (33:02.682) Yes.
Kristen Wambach (33:09.691) Mm.
David Chotka (33:27.468) And I had just enough to pay for my food. And I sat down on a park bench in a busy traffic area next to the bus stop. And while I was sitting there, I looked down and underneath the park bench was a twenty dollar bill. I picked up the twenty dollar bill and I said, I'm gonna use this for rent. And the Lord said, You gotta keep your word. And I popped the twenty dollars in the envelope and I sent it to the Renewal Society. And what I didn't know was that God had a plan. The next year.
Kristen Wambach (33:41.701) Yay. Yes, yes.
Kristen Wambach (33:55.725) Yes, he did.
David Chotka (33:57.303) I became a national director with the Renewal Society, and the precondition for it was that you have one year of consistent giving. They wanted their board members to be consistent givers. And I had paid twenty bucks a month for a whole year. And then I wound up going to this renewal meeting and somebody nominated me from the floor and I became a national director. Anyway, that's
Kristen Wambach (34:04.731) huh. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I'm an Yeah.
Kristen Wambach (34:19.886) I'm
David Chotka (34:20.748) This intertwined thing about discernment, obedience, and yielded submission to the voice is just intertwined with everything I think, say and do.
Kristen Wambach (34:25.623) Mm-hmm. Yeah. I'm gonna just share because all those those learning and and and allowing the the ebb and flow, we learn the spirit within us. The very first time I wasn't a new Christian, but I was what what I would classify as new baptized in the Holy Spirit, right? just tongue talking, fire, breathing, just I've got so much to learn. Help me, Jesus. And I had, we were living in Aurora and we had a small farm there. And I had four sons under the age of six. So as a busy person. And we were going to a Bible study, my husband and I. And so at this Bible study, one of the leaders took me out into the garage and she was selling this really cute kitchen cabinet. I mean, it was darling. It was so cute. I just loved it. It looked like me and my heart just wouldn't leave alone. And I remember going home and asking God and I never asked him for something that felt alike. You know, I like this. This feels like me. This this feels I and you know we're we're raising a small family. That wasn't something you put on the table. And I remember
David Chotka (35:47.330) Four boys is not a small family.
Kristen Wambach (35:50.756) And she wanted she wanted 800 bucks for that. It's kind of like, where would we squeeze the eight hundred bucks? And and it felt sacrilegious for me to ask God for money, especially for something that wasn't, you know, groceries or diapers or any of that stuff. And so I did. I just went, I I just feel God, like this is important between you and I. This is a personal moment. So I asked God for the money for this kitchen cabinet. And a couple weeks later, I'm doing something in the house, dishes something, and I get a knock on the back door. And I open up the the back farm door, and there's this guy there in well-used uniform clothes, and he was from the railroad, where our our original farm lived, right on the switch track. For the railroad because the farm was put there before 1873 when the train came through. So he walked up to us and he said, You know, we're coming in, we're redoing the tracks and the line there, but we need a di debris pile. Would you happen to let us put a debris pile on your farm for you to burn? And guess how much he was willing to pay us?
David Chotka (37:12.684) Go. Yeah. Exactly.
Kristen Wambach (37:14.657) Eight hundred dollars. Eight hundred dollars.
David Chotka (37:18.284) Actually, I haven't thought this story is not in the book. This is a fun one because here's what happened when I was I was a seminary student. And I needed so I'm a Greek scholar and I have you have to you have to have a a book called The Bauer Bauer Art Gingrich Danker Lexicon, which is you just wouldn't even know what that is. Most people don't care, right? But if you don't have it, you can't do your research. And it was a it was an expensive tome back in the day, and it was
Kristen Wambach (37:22.391) Okay. Uh-huh.
Kristen Wambach (37:41.836) Uh-huh.
David Chotka (37:46.447) Yeah, it was that one of these thick things that only some niche scholar would have to have or you can do study the Greek. And I remember I no, because all the other students had bought up the used copies, right? And so and I don't I don't have the money to do it. So here's what it was. I remember walking into the bookstore, and I still have the Bauer Art and King. I still have it to this day. And in those days it was 3795. And that was like about a hundred and thirty bucks, 140 bucks now, right?
Kristen Wambach (37:50.427) And you can't find it used anywhere.
Kristen Wambach (37:59.420) Kristen Wambach (38:04.197) Uh-huh.
David Chotka (38:15.842) Very expensive volume, and I didn't have the money. And I remember I had to give my 20 bucks to this organization, and I did. And it meant that I couldn't purchase the Bauer Art and Gingrich and I was gonna always have to go to the library and hope the other students weren't using that volume. It was in the reference section. You couldn't check it out. Everybody had to have access to the same volume. That meant that I had to organize my study times around a very narrow window, and it was hard to do.
Kristen Wambach (38:23.771) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (38:41.499) Uh-huh.
David Chotka (38:41.942) And of course I was working and I was trying to do my papers and so on. So so I said, God, I need the Bauer art in Gingrich. It's thirty-seven ninety-five. I need the Bauer. I said. Now it was not something I wanted. It was something I needed for me to be able to succeed in my courses in studying the you know, the Gospel of John in Greek. That's what it was. Introductory Greek is usually the Gospel of John. It repeats itself.
Kristen Wambach (38:50.819) Ha ha.
Kristen Wambach (38:57.733) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (39:02.245) Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.
David Chotka (39:08.142) by the way, it repeats itself. Anyway, getting back to this. So I remember the moment I prayed the prayer and I walked in to the coffee lounge in the school, and there was an envelope in the mailbox. And I grabbed it and it was $37.95 inside the envelope to the change to the penny. And then I said, Lord, I believe in practicing the tithe.
Kristen Wambach (39:12.921) That's good.
Kristen Wambach (39:29.187) Yes. Come on, Jesus. Uh-huh.
David Chotka (39:34.511) And so somebody wrote a note, said, The Lord has told me to give these to you. I have practiced my tithe, and the tithe goes to you today. It was $37.95. That was the exact price of this book. So I start walking toward the bookstore and I realize, I haven't paid the tithe and there's tax. All right. So I so I said, Okay, God, here's the tithe. And I took the tithe off with me. And I didn't have enough to pay for the book. And I walked into the bookstore.
Kristen Wambach (39:43.130) Yes. Mm-hmm.
David Chotka (40:03.788) And they were having a sale. And the bookstore had the book on sale. And when it was all calculated, I had enough after I paid my tithe to pay for the book and to pay for the tax. And it was to the penny. I mean, this is the Lord. He does what he does and he guides as he goes. So there's this thing called crying out in the middle of distress. But there's this, there's this other thing.
Kristen Wambach (40:05.700) Yes.
Kristen Wambach (40:21.868) He does.
David Chotka (40:29.250) Where you need to be aware that there is there are signals when God speaks. His tap on the shoulder comes like and he the anchor texts that I use for this are found in in Paul's writings. The first is Romans fourteen, verse seventeen. It says this. And I don't know if you know this, the book of Romans is not really centered on justification. Justification is an illustration of the primary theme of the book. The primary theme of the book is that Jewish Christians and Gentile Christians were arguing and not fellowshipping together.
Kristen Wambach (40:34.159) There are
David Chotka (40:59.948) And I'll tell they had such varied backgrounds. One would and they were arguing about eating and drinking. And so after Paul goes all the way through the book and says to the Jew first, also to the Greek, you both got to get justified by grace through faith. And by the way, you gotta get infilled by spirit. That's chapter eight. And then nine to eleven is about Jews and Gentiles and how they relate to each other. By the time he gets through all of that, you come to chapter 14 and he says this. Would you guys please accept each other?
Kristen Wambach (41:14.703) Yes. Yes.
David Chotka (41:29.288) Stop the fighting. And then in verse 17, he gives he gives the code to hear the voice. He says this the kingdom of God is not about the things you're fighting about, eating and drinking. The kingdom of God is about three things: righteousness and peace and joy in the Holy Spirit. Now, let me define them. Righteousness is a sweet walk with God.
Kristen Wambach (41:55.608) Okay.
David Chotka (41:58.735) Peace is internal serenity and joy is internal celebration despite external circumstance. Now, if something distracts you from Jesus, that's God saying no. If your peace leaves, that's God saying no. If your joy diminishes, that's God saying no. If while you are praying through something, the peace rises, your joy increases, and your walk with Jesus becomes focused. Odds are that God is talking to you.
Kristen Wambach (42:27.275) Yes. Yeah.
David Chotka (42:28.748) Now you need other people to tell you as well because we have biases. But my favorite one on this one is to go all the way to Colossians chapter 3, verse 15. And this is where the doctor work came in healthy, came in handy. There is a phrase in 315 that goes like this: Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called into one body. The word rule, let the peace rule. I circled that word.
Kristen Wambach (42:36.921) Mm.
David Chotka (42:55.926) And I went into that Bauer art art gingrich danker and I went into Bolton. I did I did the research on this, and here's what I discovered. That word was always used for people who were making decisions that were important. It was used for referees in a sporting match. It was used for arbiters in business decisions.
Kristen Wambach (42:59.323) yeah, you had the book now, yeah.
David Chotka (43:20.694) And it was used for judges who were trying to weigh facts to determine whether or not the person making their claim was telling the truth or telling a lie. And so when you when you put that understanding back into Colossians 3:15, it says that Let the peace be the determining factor in your decision-making process. Let the peace be the judge that tells you yes or no. Let the peace be the arbiter. That sifts and discerns the decision. Let the piece be the referee that tells you if you're in or out of the game. Here's how it works. When the piece, well, when the piece waxes large, that's the referee saying it's fair ball. When the piece diminishes, that's the referee saying you're on the edge of a penalty. If the piece vanishes, he's saying that's a penalty kick. That's you, you you cross the line. Now.
Kristen Wambach (43:59.398) That's really good. That's really good. Mm-hmm. Yeah. Yeah. Mm-hmm.
David Chotka (44:20.536) Here's what it boils down to. If we can understand that the peace of Jesus is to rule, then our battle is to abide in the presence so we can be conscious of the peace. And while we are in our decision making processes, the presence rises or diminishes and it rules in our hearts, but it calls us into one body. So here's what it means it doesn't just say one person gets the peace.
Kristen Wambach (44:31.632) Yeah.
David Chotka (44:46.988) I listen, when when guys look at pretty girls, they always have peace. Even if the character is terrible. So when girls look at pr handsome guys, it's the same thing, they always have peace, right? But when the day is done, it doesn't say you have it by yourself. It says let the peace rule in your hearts, plural, to which indeed you were called into one body.
Kristen Wambach (44:53.817) You're gonna do with you, yeah.
Kristen Wambach (45:11.717) Mm-hmm. Literal. Mm.
David Chotka (45:16.386) The intention here is that you are mutually submitted to people who are people of peace, and you all together cultivate an awareness of the presence of the Spirit of Jesus, who mediates his presence by the increase or the withdrawing of his peace, and that's how God works.
Kristen Wambach (45:33.564) Good. Yeah. Pastor David, I'd like to put this into a practical application. I I am going to pull that one, the the how your description of the righteousness, peace, and joy, the way that you pulled it from the word rule. People, I'm gonna pull that out. That text will be present because it it is so well spoken and easy to be entreated. So easy to hear. Thank you for sharing that with us. So For the person listening who feels like God is distant because they haven't prayed enough, read enough, all those legalities that we put on ourselves, how can they activate that oneness with Jesus right now in the in the simplest of ways? You know, right where they're sitting, if they're driving their car to the to work, and we just don't want any more performance. We just want to feel that presence. Would you help us with that?
David Chotka (46:33.506) Well yeah, straight up here's the bottom line. The question you have you asked is not a simple one, it's a complex one because the person might be in a sin pattern, or the person might be in the wrong fellowship, or the person might not know that there's a post to experience, the person might not know the Holy Spirit, the person might not be aware of X factors that are getting in the way. If the piece withdraws, something's wrong. Now listen, I don't know what your spiritual gift mix is. Every Christian gets a different gift of c selection.
Kristen Wambach (46:57.859) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (47:01.591) Mm-hmm.
David Chotka (47:03.048) I am principally a teacher, in case you didn't notice. Not even I just called my admin to get to order my books on Amazon because I didn't know what I was doing, right? Anyway, getting back to this. so I all of us have different gifts, but every Christian has as his or her heritage, righteousness, peace, and joy in the Holy Spirit.
Kristen Wambach (47:07.547) Really?
Kristen Wambach (47:22.885) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (47:27.373) Easy to wait. Yes.
David Chotka (47:29.386) Every Christian, I don't care if you're just getting started, if you're as mature as the day is long. I don't care if you are whatever your denominat is, every kind of Christian is guaranteed those three factors. And the apostle constantly prays that those three things would increase in every Christian life. So if it's not happening, you stop the car and you ask this question Is there something that I need to be doing to get myself back to the place where the peace is restored?
Kristen Wambach (47:46.619) Mm-hmm.
David Chotka (47:58.701) And so you you look at your sin issues and you and now if you if you've made a clean slate and there are no sin issues that you're conscious of. If there, by the way, if you're if you're a lion to your boss, you better repent of that. If you are in a position where you're trying to hide something and you don't want to face some issue in your life, you better deal with that, et cetera, et cetera. So this is a more complex answer than I would. It's not just this a quick little fix. You do a fearless moral inventory to determine whether or not there's a barrier between you and God on sin issues. If there's none there.
Kristen Wambach (48:20.827) Mm-hmm.
David Chotka (48:29.400) Then you need to see whether or not your church is feeding your spirit. You need to be in fellowship with other believers who understand that the Holy Spirit imparts righteousness, peace, and joy with the Holy Spirit. And by the way, you're not going to be satisfied until it returns. If you are not reading your scripture the way that you need to, then you need to make a fresh commitment to return to saturating your heart and mind and soul in the scripture. But I will say this I don't want to give you a reading program.
Kristen Wambach (48:40.505) Mm-hmm.
David Chotka (48:58.358) What I want to do is to have you encounter the Lord while you're reading the text. And if one verse does that, park on that verse while the waves of the Spirit's presence and pleasure rule over you. Okay, now here's the bottom line. Reading programs help, and I use one myself. In fact, I I my my I have seven markers in my Bible. Here's what I do when I read the Bible. I read the I read the Law of Moses. I read
Kristen Wambach (49:09.211) Absolutely. Yeah. Okay.
Kristen Wambach (49:25.989) Uh-huh.
David Chotka (49:26.846) Histories, I read the writings, I read the prophets, I read the gospels, I read the epistles, and I read the the pastoral epistles in Revelation. I have seven markers in my Bible and I read all of them quickly and I narrow in on one text that I soak in. And I let myself be saturated with that one text while I am aware of the great overview of the great themes of scripture. If I don't do that, something's wrong. I will be distracted.
Kristen Wambach (49:34.491) Mm.
David Chotka (49:56.877) So listen, if your righteousness is distracted, you ask this question. Jesus, what is distracting me you from your presence? It could be a relationship, it could be the job you're in, it could be some circumstances that are beyond your control. If if your peace is gone, ask the question. Jesus, what is it that is getting in the way of my godly walk with you that produces peace? If you if you are have no joy in the middle of what you're doing, ask the question, Jesus, show me.
Kristen Wambach (50:21.903) Mm-hmm.
David Chotka (50:25.804) The quick fix is read the scripture until you encounter those three things. Get yourself to a godly fellowship where you're surrounded by believers who understand those three elements and let yourself be part of a praying small group cluster that will not be satisfied until you all of you together are understanding that God is speaking to you.
Kristen Wambach (50:49.057) Absolutely. Absolutely.
David Chotka (50:51.886) That's a complex answer to a simple question, but I it's not a simple answer. No one one, two, three, now you're free thing with this. There's there's there's a whole series of complexities in every life. And you know this. You just told me about having four kids and not having time to breathe. There are other ladies out there, they got four kids too. And some of them got six and seven.
Kristen Wambach (50:56.409) Mm-hmm. Mm mm.
David Chotka (51:13.568) Right. And they're trying to get to church and they're trying to pay their tithe and they're trying to read the Bible. And the kid throws up while they're reading the scripture. Right. And then they have to clean up the mess and they don't get their time in. So listen, ever there's somebody else who's a business executive and he's got three contracts on the line, and one of them is tenuous, and he's trying to talk to this one guy while the other two are wondering where his service is. He wants to do the job, he tr he wants to get it done. And the complexities and the stress of his business are are making him
Kristen Wambach (51:22.598) yeah.
David Chotka (51:43.084) have no margin to do what he wants to do to serve Jesus. These are very different lives, but they're real. So you have to create your own spiritual rhythm around the rhythms of your own life.
Kristen Wambach (51:49.207) Mm-hmm. They are.
Kristen Wambach (51:55.769) Ooh, I like the way you said that. That was lovely. Mm-hmm.
David Chotka (51:57.995) Here's the reality. I remember somebody said you got to have a morning quiet time. Well, before 10 o'clock in the morning, that doesn't work for me. So so later on, and then sitting still to pray. No, I gotta walk. No, I had a buddy who said he couldn't do a morning quiet time and he couldn't he couldn't think clearly until 11 o'clock in the morning. And by the way, he couldn't sit still. And so he would take a Bible verse and he would go for a walk.
Kristen Wambach (52:01.947) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (52:11.983) There yeah.
David Chotka (52:25.504) And while he was walking, everybody would leave him alone. He would reflect on the Bible verse and he would talk to Jesus while he was walking. That was his devotional life. Other people need silence. They got to sit still. They don't want clutter. They don't want noise. So they gotta try, they gotta shut the door and hide in the prayer closet. Somebody else can't worship because they can't sing to save their soul. Well, you can put a worship tape on and listen to the music of somebody else who's gifted while you would labor it, making a joyful noise.
Kristen Wambach (52:35.631) That's great. Yeah.
David Chotka (52:55.820) You listen, you create your own rhythm, your own pattern, but it must be consistent. You want consistency in your devotion. So I would say to anybody who doesn't have consistent devotion, I want you to make me a promise. Can you give God five minutes a day? I'm not looking for five hours. I'm looking for five minutes. When they say, Well, I can always do that, then I'll say, Well, five minutes won't be enough.
Kristen Wambach (53:01.701) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (53:14.843) Mm.
David Chotka (53:24.834) But if you promise God you're going to give them five minutes a day and you can be consistent, make it the same five minutes. Which five minutes will it be with expandable time? And they'll tell me I can do that at seven at night, or I can do that at six in the morning, where the number happens to be. I said, now listen, can you expand half an hour? And they'll look at me like they just don't believe it's possible. Their eyebrows will push their hairline back. Okay. Then I'll say, Listen, if you get this part right. The habit is more important than the time. I want the habit. Can you promise me and can you promise the Lord you're going to give them five minutes a day at the same time each day with expandable time up to half an hour? And if they say yes, I will say, All right, now that you're going to give God five minutes, what Bible book are you going to read in case you run out of words? Or they'll say, Well, I don't know. I'll say, Well, why don't you start with something that's simple?
Kristen Wambach (54:15.748) Mm-hmm.
David Chotka (54:21.484) Linus and Christmas story. Luke chapter two. Start with Luke. It's stories. And go Luke and John and Acts in a row. And give God five minutes. And if you run out of things to say, read the scripture and then pray what comes out of the scripture. I can do that, Pastor. Well, listen, why don't you get a devotional book and put it beside you too? There's all kinds of good ones out there. Sarah Young's great, you know. And and if you want to go old, if you want to go old school.
Kristen Wambach (54:27.131) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (54:37.925) Yes.
Kristen Wambach (54:44.030) yes. Yes, she is.
David Chotka (54:48.524) You can go my utmost for as high as Oswald Chambers, right? If there's okay. There's another one. Okay, that there's there's fifty of them. Pick one. Okay, pick one. Okay. So here's what you're gonna do. You're gonna give God five minutes every day at the same time. You're gonna read the devotional book, you're gonna read the Bible, and you're gonna tell God. And here's what they will discover. For the first week, they will struggle with five minutes. And in the second week, five minutes won't be enough.
Kristen Wambach (54:51.205) There we go. Or streams well, streams in the desert, that's another good one. I know. I know.
Kristen Wambach (55:07.642) Mm-hmm.
David Chotka (55:18.454) And it'll be seven or eight minutes. And in the third week, they're going to discover that one day they're so fascinated by what they're reading and praying, and they're so caught up in the majesty and glory of God, they're going to go half an hour. Now it's going to be a one-off the first time, but then they're going to go back to five minutes the next day and they're going to feel like they wolfed a sandwich instead of had a feast. But at least they got the sandwich. The kid's going to throw up or the phone's going to ring and the business executive is going to have to leave his devotional time to take care of the client.
Kristen Wambach (55:28.165) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (55:37.211) Mm-hmm.
David Chotka (55:46.723) But the he can always do the five minutes. He can always do that. And so when you develop against the grain a habit that is consistent for every day at the same time, in the same place, with a plan B, and you have a Bible, you got a devotional book, and you're talking to God, by the time you get to the end of a month, you'll be praying 15, 20 minutes, half an hour, and then there'll be days when all that you can do is praise him.
Kristen Wambach (55:50.137) Always. Yeah.
Kristen Wambach (56:01.083) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (56:15.183) Mm-hmm.
David Chotka (56:16.078) Establish the habit. And the habit always now here's what's happened to me. I usually pray 45 minutes to an hour a day. Sometimes I go as long as three hours. And every now and then life gets away from me and I am required to do five minutes. It feels like I'm wolfing a piece of pizza while I'm on my way to a meeting. But but at least I got the nutrition and God is God is five minutes. And my habit
Kristen Wambach (56:32.379) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (56:44.314) Yes.
David Chotka (56:46.806) It makes me yearn for more. So you create the devotional habit so that you can fill the habit with the glory of God. That's called Yes, but you gotta have banks for the river to flow. And so the banks for the river is the habit of five minutes a day.
Kristen Wambach (56:49.701) That it does.
Kristen Wambach (56:55.919) Yes. So those rivers of living water flow. Ha ha ha
Kristen Wambach (57:08.844) Yay. Pastor David, would you do us a favor? How can again, how can readers or listeners connect with you and hear more about because you have several books. Yes.
David Chotka (57:21.846) Yes, I do. I've been talking today about the Hey Are You There, It's Me God book, which is which actually is a six week process, five days a week, to teach people about twenty five different ways that God speaks. The way you can get that, you can just Google my name, Chatka, but listen, that's hard. If you go, if you take the word Holy Spirit and take the word spirit, you take the word equipment and cut it in half and just put the word equip, put spirit and equip together. Spiritequip.com. That's my website.
Kristen Wambach (57:25.113) Yes, yes. Uh-huh.
Kristen Wambach (57:48.229) There we are.
David Chotka (57:48.311) And there you will find ways to invite me to your church. I do three-day seminars. In fact, I travel internationally and I give away resources at no charge. I'm going to be going to Nigeria in about three weeks. And I'm going to be giving two of my books away to seminary students who have nothing. And so my ministry, for its charitable purposes, equips the poor and the persecuted church. And people can donate if you want to do that. I have an American thing and a Canadian thing. And I travel to churches and I teach and do local events.
Kristen Wambach (58:00.186) Wow.
Kristen Wambach (58:05.168) Mm-hmm.
David Chotka (58:17.698) But you go to spiritequip dot com and you will find everything that I've written and all the links.
Kristen Wambach (58:23.289) That's wonderful. Thank you. Now, we had talked about this briefly before, because my listeners know that I love the call to action. I love the prayer. I love the tangible where in the spirit you are literally exchanging the culmination of what you've shared with us today. But the interesting thing is I asked Holy Spirit ahead of time, well, what does this look like? Do I And I felt more of like of a prayer, like maybe part of the banks of the river. And I'm sure that you will change it. But this is the scenario that I heard from Holy Spirit. This special request. This morning, Jesus shared with me a profound metaphorical picture. I see a well-seasoned gardener pushing a single-tired wheelbarrow across a field. The load in the wheelbarrow consists of a person who was curled up sleeping or being carried in the hands cart. There are two perspectives of prayer here. I feel our listeners can place themselves. The first one is maybe they are the individual in the wheelbarrow and they need to be carried in this season of life. And the second one. They find themselves as the seasoned gardener doing the pushing and caring in prayer and intercession for loved ones around them.
David Chotka (01:00:02.473) Yes, and what are you asking me?
Kristen Wambach (01:00:05.691) I think that's the the prayer picture, the metaphorical picture. Would you pray for us? Would you release the anointing that's upon your life for hearing God, for for hearing a teacher? Because you you are teaching us, and we need to take what a teacher says and be able to assimilate that into our life.
David Chotka (01:00:31.790) Now listen, the one who's in the wheelbarrow and the one who's pushing the wheelbarrow both need the same thing. Both of them need to be aware what God is saying to them. And if the person in the wheelbarrow is worn out to the place or in grief or just devastated because something in life has caused them to be in that place, they need to know that God has not abandoned them. And if the intercessor who is carrying that person as they're bearing their burden for another is doing this, he's going to grow weary. That person or she, that person needs to know that the Lord has given them a word to carry them for a season, but it's not going to be forever. So here's the prayer I would pray for both people in the wheelbarrow, whether they're the one carrying this thing or whether they're the one being carried. Lord Jesus, the prayer I would pray is that you would impact Heart and awareness of how you speak to both of them. For the one it's Sabbath rest until they're well, for the other it is pace while they do their ministry. I would pray that the one who is receiving the intercession and the one who is carrying the burden would know beyond all knowing that the peace of Jesus is increasing and leading them into fullness of life. Let the peace rule in both sets of hearts. And let them understand together that God has placed them in this circumstance until they know that the assignment is completed in Jesus' name. Amen.
Kristen Wambach (01:02:06.967) Amen. Thank you. I could feel the expanse of peace that you released. I could feel that. And yes, listeners, I always say this. Hang in that pregnant pause. Hang. Pastor Dave went over and over again to share with us about letting it marinate. So allow that to marinate the tangible touch of Jesus encouraging you. Hmm. Pastor David, thank you so much for sharing your your valuable wisdoms with us today. Your unique sense of humor. my goodness.
David Chotka (01:02:58.488) I love to laugh. I laugh when I pray. And every now and then Jesus teases me.
Kristen Wambach (01:02:59.896) that's good. And so does Yes, he does. He does. And we at his kids, we make him laugh. We make him thank you for joining us today and sharing with us just your valuable wisdom. Thank you.
David Chotka (01:03:12.162) Yes.
David Chotka (01:03:19.518) It's been a delight and I hope that your listeners are all blessed as they partake and learn the word and grow.
Kristen Wambach (01:03:26.009) Yes. Amen.
You create the devotional habit so that you can fill the habit with the glory of God. You gotta have banks for the river to flow, and the banks for the river is the habit of five minutes a day." —Pastor David Chotka
When you join us for the YouTube LIVE broadcast, don't just watch—participate with us in real-time! Grab your coffee, open your heart, and drop your thoughts in the chat as we journey through these moments together: Welcome to "Ask," just right of the share button!
- The Peace Check (Timestamp ~08:30): Drop in the chat if you’ve ever felt that sudden "drop in peace" or uneasy stomach nudge when driving toward a decision, before you even understood why.
- The $108 Miracle (Timestamp ~15:30): Type "PRECISE" in the comments if God has ever met a financial need down to the exact penny or specific dollar amount in your own life!
- The 5-Minute Commitment (Timestamp ~53:00): Tell us in the chat: what specific 5-minute window in your day can you protect as your daily "riverbank" for meeting with Jesus?
The Internal Compass: Righteousness, Peace, and Joy
David defined these three spiritual markers in a way that makes immediate sense for your daily life:
- Righteousness isn't about legalistic perfection or maintaining a spotless moral scorecard to earn God's favor. It is simply a sweet, un-distracted walk with Jesus where your focus remains firmly fixed on Him.
- Peace is an internal serenity that functions as your spiritual gauge.
- Joy is not shallow, external happiness that changes with the weather. It is an explosive internal celebration of God’s presence alive inside your spirit, regardless of what your physical circumstances look like.
The Peace Referee (Colossians 3:15)
Digging into BDAG (the gold-standard Greek lexicon), David discovered that the ancient Greek word translated as "rule" (brabeuō) was used specifically to describe referees in athletic matches, arbiters in business disputes, and judges in courtrooms.
When Paul tells us to let peace rule, he is saying: Let the peace of Jesus be the official referee of your soul. When you are considering a business deal, a relationship, or a life pivot, and you feel God's peace wax large inside you, that's the referee calling "fair ball". But when you feel an unexplainable knot in your stomach or a sudden drop in inner peace—like David experienced when driving toward a job that looked good on paper—that is Holy Spirit throwing a loving yellow flag. He is blowing the whistle to protect you from stepping out of bounds.
CONNECT WITH DR. DAVID CHOTKA
Can you actually manage to “Listen, Test and Know When God Speaks?”
David Chotka’s answer to these questions is an emphatic “Yes!”
If that is true, then:
- What is it like to hear that voice?
- What are the indicators that we are “on track” rather than “in left field”?
- How can we know we are actually hearing God, and not merely our own thinking?
Building the Banks for the River
His answer was wonderfully simple: Establish the habit, and the habit will hold the glory. You don't need three hours in a monastic quiet room to start hearing God. Start with just five minutes a day at the exact same time. Think of those five minutes as constructing the dirt banks along a riverbed. The banks aren't the water itself, but without them, the living water spills everywhere and gets lost in the mud. When you build those consistent five-minute banks, the river of Holy Spirit has a clear structure to flow through your life.
Stop striving to perform for a God who already loves you unconditionally. Listen for the referee’s whistle, guard your peace, build your five-minute riverbanks, and live Spiritually BRAVE!
Coaching Church Activation: The 60-Second Peace Referee Alignment
- Pause & Breathe: Close your eyes (if safe to do so) and take a deep breath. Quiet the noise of your pending to-do list and bring your mind into full awareness of Jesus’ loving, un-distracted presence right beside you.
- Bring the Decision to the Bench: Think of one specific decision, conversation, or situation currently causing you internal friction or second-guessing.
- Consult the Referee: Hold that situation before Jesus and ask: “Lord, where is Your peace in this?”
- Notice your spirit: Is His peace expanding and waxing large like a green light?
- Or do you feel an internal knot, a drop in peace, or an uneasy yellow flag?
- Notice your spirit: Is His peace expanding and waxing large like a green light?
- Release & Rest: If peace is present, step forward boldly. If peace is absent or diminished, pause, yield, and wait until His clarity returns. Declare out loud: “I let the peace of Christ rule as the referee in my heart today!”
MEET THE AUTHOR & PODCASTERHey there! I’m Kristen Wambach—author, speaker, seasoned podcast host, and founder of the Interviewing Jesus Podcast. For years, my life’s passion has been helping believers step out of stale, exhausting religious performance and step directly into intimate, conversational Oneness with Jesus. Through my books, interactive prayer journals, and deep-dive podcast conversations with world-class scholars, leaders, and practitioners like Dr. David Chotka, I focus on turning complex theology into simple, Monday-morning lifestyle tools. |
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- Moving from Religious Striving to Identity: Unlocking effortless Oneness with God without performance anxiety.
- Simplifying the Supernatural: Transforming biblical truths into actionable, everyday lifestyle activations.
Final Summary & Call to Action
Take time today to guard your internal peace. Pay attention to those gentle interior nudges, build your 5-minute daily riverbanks, and step forward with confidence.
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It’s a constant daily recognition of what in me needs to die in order for me to follow Him more closely... and the reason that this is important, and it's not exhausting, it's actually the most freeing thing I've ever done in my life." —Jessica L. Morris
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Are you secretly exhausted from trying to get an "A" in your spiritual life?
In this laugh-filled reunion on the Interviewing Jesus Podcast, host Kristen Wambach welcomes back theological researcher and spiritual director Jessica Morris to dismantle the performance-driven engines of modern devotion. Together, they dive into Luke 9:23 to help you trade the legalistic courtroom of religious perfectionism for the effortless living room of grace. Pull up a chair to learn how to drop the burden of striving, step into a continuous spiritual flow, and find radical peace by unsubscribing from urgency. |
- The Mirror of Spiritual Direction: We break down the quiet mystery of holding space, revealing why a spiritual director isn't there to fix your behavior but to help you drop your guard and rest in the Father's presence.
- Balancing Trauma Excavation with Grace: We wrestle with inner healing, sharing how to prevent deep soul-work and "dying to self" from becoming a performance-based chore, anchoring you in wholeness instead.
- Moving from Broken Cisterns to Absolute Peace: When people inevitably fail us, we explore how to anchor your inner stability solely in the unshakeable nature of Jesus.
- The Paradigm Shift: From "Use" to "Flow": We challenge the idea of being a tool "used" by God, shifting instead to a blueprint of becoming open channels for the Holy Spirit to flow through effortlessly.
- Luke 9:23 and Your True I Amness: Leaning into the Mirror Translation, we explore the liberating truth that His cross is your cross—fully finished so self-effort can finally stall out.
- Jesus Isn't Grading Your Faith: Jessica shares a personal story that shatters her own religious scorecard, offering the profound relief that God isn't grading your performance.
- Unsubscribing from Urgency: (Music Video) We unpack a live testimony from a recovery circle that redefines what it means to live in the "now." Learn how to identify frantic timelines as a trauma response and step firmly into the unhurried timing of a gentleman Savior.
SUMMARY
Key themes explored in the episode include:
- The Reality of Holding Space: Demystifying spiritual direction as an unhurried environment meant for vulnerability before God, rather than a workspace to fix behavioral flaws.
- Dismantling the Spiritual Scorecard: Confronting the exhaustion of religious perfectionism. Jessica shares a liberating realization from her own training: Jesus is not grading your faith.
- Shifting from "Use" to "Flow": Challenging the terminology of being a tool "used" by God, pivoting instead to a healthier framework of becoming open, relational channels for the Holy Spirit to flow through effortlessly.
- Luke 9:23 in the Mirror Translation: Exploring our true "I amness" by recognizing that His cross is our cross. Because the heavy lifting of absolute redemption is already finished, self-striving can finally stall out.
- Unsubscribing from Urgency: Identifying frantic timelines, the pressure to instantly heal, and forced spiritual breakthroughs as trauma responses. By stepping out of manufactured panic, believers can realign with a gentleman Savior who operates simply in the peace of the "now."
Our Question...
The Mirror of Luke 9:23 and the Finished Cross
The text reveals that His cross is actually your cross. It is pre-picked up, fully dealt with, and finished. You do not have to carry a heavy burden of self-induced suffering to prove your sonship to the Father. Instead, when you see your cross mirrored in His, the exhausting performance of "dying to self" transforms from a legalistic chore into a celebration of your permanent wholeness. This shift immediately changes how you wake up on Monday morning. You are no longer trying to achieve victory; you are living and resting in a victory that has already been won.
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Chapters & Transcript Unsubscribing from Urgency: Why Jesus Isn't Grading Your Faith with Jessica Morris ❖ 294
00:00 Kristen Wambach welcomes listeners to a brand-new episode of the Interviewing Jesus Podcast, setting an intimate atmosphere around the kitchen table for a high-warmth reunion conversation.
04:39 Jessica Morris explains that a spiritual director sits with you and holds the space so that you can get completely vulnerable with God, pointing out the beautiful things you are missing simply because you are too close to your own situation.
10:10 Kristen Wambach asks how we prevent the daily practice of inner healing and dying to self from turning into an exhausting, performance-based chore, to which Jessica Morris responds that it requires a constant recognition of what needs to surrender to follow Him, which ultimately brings radical freedom rather than exhaustion.
18:15 Kristen Wambach brings up the relational disappointment that happens when leaders or mentors fail us, and Jessica Morris offers a stunning pivot, sharing that relying on a single human being will always lead to disappointment, but Jesus is the only source you can completely rely on every single day to fill you with absolute peace.
22:20 Kristen Wambach challenges the traditional religious language of being a tool used by God, prompting an upgrade in vocabulary to seeing ourselves as open, willing channels for the Holy Spirit to flow through effortlessly.
32:16 Kristen Wambach reads Luke 9:23 from the Mirror Translation, highlighting the companion walk of union where our self-effort stalls out once we realize His cross is our cross, fully picked up and finished.
43:12 Jessica Morris shares a breathtaking personal story from her training when her supervisor stepped in during a moment of self-doubt to ask if she could recognize that Jesus isn't grading her performance, instantly taking the wind out of her religious sails.
50:12 Jessica Morris recounts a powerful testimony from a newcomer in a recovery circle who declared they were unsubscribing from urgency, reminding listeners that God is a gentleman who never pressures or panics because He operates entirely in the peace of the now.
58:00 Kristen Wambach shares her closing thoughts, wrapping up the conversation with a descriptive studio outro and inviting the community to continue living spiritually brave.
God doesn't pressure. He's a gentleman... It's not urgent, it's just now." —Jessica L. Morris
Exposing the Lie of Being "Used" by God
During our reunion, Jessica shared a stunning blueprint of how to see ourselves not as mechanical tools, but as open, willing channels for the Holy Spirit. A channel does not strive to pump water; it simply stays open and allows the living water to flow through effortlessly. When you drop the heavy expectation of being used, you unsubscribe from the manufactured timelines of religious urgency. You realize that God does not pressure you. He is a gentleman, and His timing is never frantic. This is the foundation of waking up to your permanent, unshakeable kingdom identity.
CONNECT WITH JESSICA L. MORRIS
How did a scared, insecure, but outwardly successful little girl find the courage to grow up, recover from addictions, and then walk away from a 30+ year career to blindly follow the call of God on her life? After growing up hating her alcoholic, abusive, and hypocritical minister father, and therefore being more than suspicious of God's love for her, Jessica plummeted into the hell of her own addictions and ran away from organized religion. Then, through her denial of a spiritual experience with Jesus, she entered into a 6-year hell-on-earth bottom which led to the desperation that made her willing to attempt recovery. It was during her first years of recovery that Jessica crossed paths with two extraordinary men who helped her to overcome the trauma of her childhood and young adult life so that she could begin to truly live a life of meaning and purpose. First, she met Steve, a certified addictions counselor, who helped her dig up and get rid of the past abuses that had been holding her hostage in victimhood; and second, she met Paul, a workplace chaplain, who shone a light on the Truth of Jesus. Through work with these two wise souls, Jessica started to heal from all that had been holding her back from living the life she was meant to live. These two men, along with the many fellows she met in recovery, gave Jessica a safe place to become who she was created to be. Because of that recovery process, Jessica felt more and more pulled to learning whatever she could about God, Jesus, and everything related to the Bible. It was in her third year of part-time studies at seminary, when she tripped over "eschatology" and "spiritual direction" at the same time, that she was catapulted into a whirlwind that would forever transform her spiritual journey. Through the research into, and study and writing of both topics, Jessica discovered the essentialness of dying to herself (her whole self) in order to truly become Higher Powered by surrendering her whole self to following The Way of Jesus Christ. Jessica writes about her recovery and spiritual awakening to the Truth that is Jesus in her books, on her blog, and through the poetry that God gives her during her morning quiet times with Him. She also practices spiritual direction with individuals and groups, specializing in those who have experienced childhood and religious trauma, as well as those in recovery from addictions and/or the family disease of alcoholism. Jessica's goal in this life is to get everyone to notice that it is in taking continuous action on a daily basis to die to oneself and live in The Way of Jesus Christ that we will open the space for everyone in this world to plug into a personal relationship with Him - which, in Jessica's opinion, is His 2nd Coming that we have all been promised.
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From beginning to end, the reader is given the opportunity to look within in order to clear away the internal debris that blocks receptiveness to and comprehension of the One Truth that gives eternal life.
Anchoring Your Stability in the
Face of Relational Failure
Over my years of coaching, I have found that religious disappointment is one of the quickest ways believers get pulled back into performance. Out of fear, we begin striving to control our environment and our spiritual progress. But the key to surviving relational failure is learning to anchor your inner stability solely in the unshakeable, finished nature of Jesus. When your identity is tethered directly to Him, human inconsistencies lose their power to derail you. You can love people deeply without demanding that they be your ultimate source of life.
Step Into the Living Room of Grace
It is time to pull up a chair to the kitchen table, drop your scorecard, and let yourself rest in the unhurried warmth of the Father's presence. Step out of the courtroom, leave the checklists behind, and learn what it truly means to live Spiritually Brave.
COACHING CHURCH ACTIVATIONS
Focus: Dismantling religious perfectionism.
- The Step: Hand out small index cards or a piece of paper to everyone in the room. Ask them to write down the one spiritual area where they feel they are currently struggling to earn an "A" (e.g., consistent morning prayer, managing a trauma trigger perfectly, or feeling like they aren't reading enough scripture).
- The Shift: Read Luke 9:23 from the Mirror Translation aloud. Instruct them to flip the card over and write in large letters: NOT GRADED. * The Climax: Have them physically rip the card in half, letting the pieces fall as a declaration that they are stepping out of the transactional courtroom of performance and completely unsubscribing from religious urgency.
- The Step: Have everyone close their eyes, place both hands out in front of them with clenched, tight fists, and think about their calling, ministry role, or spiritual giftings. This clenched posture represents the mechanical tension of trying to be a hard-working tool "used" by God.
- The Shift: On a count of three, instruct them to slowly open their hands flat, palms facing upward toward heaven, and take a deep, unhurried breath.
- The Climax: Guide them in a collective, spoken echo activation: “Holy Spirit, I lay down the burden of being used. I am an open channel. Flow through me effortlessly today.” Allow 60 seconds of complete silence for them to experience the change in pressure.
- The Step: Set an intentional, absolute timer for exactly 2 minutes. Dim the room lights or project a simple, warm, still image of a living room or an unhurried outdoor sunrise.
- The Shift: Tell the community that for these 120 seconds, they have strict permission to do absolutely nothing for God. They cannot pray in tongues, they cannot review their behavioral flaws, and they cannot ask for a breakthrough. Their only job is to sit quietly and "sonbathe"—letting the warm, finished work of the cross wash over their identity.
- The Climax: Close the timer by reading Jessica's breakthrough truth over the microphone: “God doesn't pressure. He's a gentleman. It's not urgent, it's just now.”
If we do not actively transition from the courtroom of performance to the living room of grace, our spiritual disciplines quickly transform into a grueling chore." —Kristen Wambach
MEET THE AUTHOR & PODCASTERIf you have ever felt completely exhausted by the quiet, heavy pressure of trying to perform for God, you are in the right place. As a spiritual investigative journalist, author, and coach, Kristen Wambach has spent decades helping believers break past the rigid, checklist-driven cycles of modern religion. |
In this episode, Kristen brings her signature "Monday-morning" logic and deep scriptural insight to the table, partnering with spiritual director Jessica Morris to help you unsubscribe from the frantic timelines of spiritual urgency. Kristen’s life mission is to help you drop the religious scorecard, pull up a chair to the Father's table, and discover what it truly means to live Spiritually Brave.
Final Summary: Trading the Scorecard for the Flow
What We Gained: A New Blueprint for Rest
- A Shift in Vocabulary: We traded the heavy, transactional expectation of being a tool "used" by God for the relational ease of being an open channel for His Spirit.
- Scriptural Relief: We gained a fresh, liberating perspective on Luke 9:23, recognizing that our identity is already secure, whole, and fully realized in Christ's finished work.
- Freedom from Urgency: We stepped off the treadmill of manufactured spiritual panic and learned how to unsubscribe from the frantic timelines of self-induced healing.
Your Turn: Pull Up a Chair and Join the Conversation!
Are you ready to officially drop the heavy burden of trying to get an "A" in your spiritual life? The kitchen table is open, and we want to hear your heart.
- Leave a Comment: Scroll down and tell us—where have you been white-knuckling your devotional life lately? What is one area where you are choosing to declare “not graded” today? Let's talk about it below!
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Because you are a created being, you are subject to, not central in, your own life." — Mick Wienholt Famous Historical Themes
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- Ditch the Metric Matrix: True sonship means your internal value on a Monday morning is entirely detached from your performance, correctness, or executive status.
- Postures Precede Power: Surrendering your physical alignment changes the internal veracity of your prayers.
- The Script is Already Won: The Father’s original creative blueprint is always miles ahead of the avalanches we trigger ourselves.
SUMMARY
In this powerful episode of the Interviewing Jesus Podcast, host Kristen Wambach sits down with international podcaster Mick Wienholt (host of Coincidence or God) to confront the hidden exhaustion of performance-driven faith. Mick unzips his personal history—from a miraculous survival of a severe avalanche in 2000 to the devastating full-term stillbirth of his first-born son, Luke, in 2012. He reveals how those raw, crushing realities shattered his self-made identity and forced a total surrender to King Jesus.
The core of the conversation centers on a radical shift that disrupted Mick's walk in 2023, when the Holy Spirit delivered a jarring pattern interrupt: "Because you are a created being, you are subject to, not central in, your own life." Mick details how this word completely dismantled his corporate performance engine, transforming his prayer life from a target-driven metric matrix into a lifestyle of total postural surrender.
Through real-time prophetic moments, a deep dive into the eternal legacy of his son Luke (meaning "Light-giving"), and a visceral, face-to-the-floor prayer activation, this episode provides a practical blueprint for moving past religious checklists. Listeners are challenged to stop functioning like a "bucket" trying to hold onto validation, and instead become a "pipe" that effortlessly lets the Father's grace flow through to the world.
We assume a lot of times we forget how human that Jesus was... He had to apply himself to actually learn and know the Father in relationship." — Kristen Wambach
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Kristen Wambach (00:02)
Every day we ask ourselves, what would Jesus do? What would Jesus do? What would Jesus do? But what if the deeper life-altering question is actually, who does Jesus say that I am? Who who am I? And knowing who am I, how can I change the way that I talk with him? Welcome to Interviewing Jesus Podcast, where we bridge the gap between heaven and earth.
Kristen Wambach (00:31)
To get exclusive access to the heart of Jesus for supernatural wisdom that rewrites your reality. Raise your hands or two of them. Who wants their reality rewritten? Amen? I'm your host, Kristen Wombach, and today's guest is a powerful high-energy storyteller who wears his Jesus Passion right on his shirt slave. He is the host of Coincidence.
Kristen Wambach (01:01)
Or God. An international podcaster, a brother in faith who understands the difference between surviving a crisis and being completely rewritten by the goodness of God. After a miraculous survival of an avalanche in 2000, it was a heartbreaking loss of his full term stillborn son Luke in 2012 that
Kristen Wambach (01:28)
Utterly shattered his old identity and brought him into an authentic, raw relationship with Jesus. Then in 2025, Jesus pulled him out of a multi-decade high-level corporate sales career overnight to live a life of total radical financial dependence and surrender. I know your ears are perked up, aren't they?
Kristen Wambach (01:55)
Please welcome to the show a trusted voice who knows exactly what it means to live spiritually blave. Welcome, Mick Weinholt.
Mick (02:08)
Mm. Kristen, super grateful to be here. Thank you so much for the opportunity to have a great conversation with you. Really excited about our time.
Kristen Wambach (02:16)
Thank you. Thank you very much. And just the clue here, listeners. Start writing your Holy Spirit questions out. We have our ears open to hear what Jesus has on the heart for everybody today. Amen.
Kristen Wambach (02:34)
Mick, Mick, you mentioned, and yes, I've done my homework. You mentioned in our connecting, when you and I were connecting through PodMatch, you wanted to anchor our conversation in Ephesians 2:10, that we are his workmanship created for good works. When you were standing at the peak of the avalanche.
Kristen Wambach (03:00)
Or standing at the peak of the international corporate sales career as an SVP. I should probably ask what an SVP is, but your identity was naturally tried to per from performance and provision. And when the door slammed shut for eight hours, how did Jesus redefine your understanding of workmanship apart from a paycheck?
Mick (03:28)
Mm. Man, what a wonderful question. Yeah, I think it actually goes back a little bit before that, Kristen. And you've done a wonderful job truly of setting it up in terms of this is what life was like for me, you know? And SVP being senior VP, just meaning, you know, we're talking the executive levels of sales, right?
Kristen Wambach (03:48)
Mm-hmm.
Mick (03:48)
And you know, I'm the sole breadwinner in my household. And that was always by design. We have three living children that we raise and we homeschool. And so the primary distribution of work was in large part as you had described, right? This is breadwinner, provision, those types of things. And then my wife is the primary educator. But it was actually a handful of years ago while I'm still in the workforce that.
Mick (04:18)
God really began to give me clarity on things. And I was listening to a sermon by Pastor Matt Chandler out of Texas, and Matt described it ever so slightly differently. But what the Holy Spirit told me in the moment as I was listening to this particular sermon was he said, quote, because you are a created being.
Mick (04:46)
You are subject to not central in your own life. And Kristen, this is this is 2023, I believe, when I have this super clear deposit from the Holy Spirit. Because you are a created being, you are subject to not central in your own life.
Kristen Wambach (05:09)
Mm-hmm.
Mick (05:14)
Now, up to that point, I'm thinking I'm I'm now a decade into a real relationship with Jesus Christ because as what you described, it is the death of our son Luke, who was full term, exactly as you had described it, right? He's 39 weeks. My wife delivers a six-pound, eight-ounce dead baby as our first pregnancy.
Mick (05:39)
And weeks before that, two-ish, three-ish weeks, the obstetrician had said, You guys are good to go. Everything's good. Mom's healthy, baby's healthy, all of that. So this fully came out of nowhere and really rocked our world. that's kind of an understatement. Truly rocked us for eternity. And by God's grace, we get to say that because we were not in relationship with Jesus Christ. Okay. And it's Luke's death that humbled us.
Mick (06:09)
Crushed us, brought us to our knees, to then we cried out in surrender and said, This is beyond me. This is beyond us. We need you. So that's 2012, right? And here we are in 2023, then when the Holy Spirit says to me, Because you are a created being, you are subject to not central in your own life. And what that began to do, sorry, go ahead.
Kristen Wambach (06:37)
need some help on the words used there. Okay. You said because we are created beings, we are not subject or central to finish the your your life. So what does that mean? And central not subject to or central to those I I need you to unpack for me.
Mick (06:48)
Yeah. Yep. Absolutely. So he Yeah, so
Mick (06:57)
Okay, let's definitely unpack that. So the Holy Spirit is saying to me, okay, this was during Chandler speaking, all right, but I hear directly from the Holy Spirit, where he says, because you are a created being. Okay, we'll just pause right there, right? So he's like, You are created. I created you is the message that he is communicating to me. Okay. Then he says, because you are created, right?
Kristen Wambach (07:02)
Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (07:05)
Right.
Kristen Wambach (07:13)
Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (07:20)
Mm.
Mick (07:25)
You are subject to, meaning him, subject to the king, right? Not central in your own life. Okay? Yeah, absolutely. And I really appreciate the fact that we do get to spend a a bit of time there. And the what's particularly important, I think, is that
Kristen Wambach (07:30)
huh.
Kristen Wambach (07:38)
Okay, thank you. That helped me.
Mick (07:49)
I'm I'm 11-ish years into a real relationship with Jesus Christ, okay? One in which I am endeavoring to honor him in the way that I carry myself. Okay. My salvation and the entering into relationship with Jesus Christ cause things to change immediately and instantaneously.
Mick (08:15)
And then also started for me this long progression that you and I in the modern church call sanctification, right? So there were things that just immediately were totally different. For example, just so that all the listeners know what I mean by this, I went from listening to Tool, Rage Against the Machine, you know, Nine-inch Nails, this harder kind of rock space, okay, to overnight.
Kristen Wambach (08:39)
Mm-hmm.
Mick (08:42)
Only being interested in Christian worship music. And that has remained the case for 13 years. And it's 14 years at this point. And it and it's just wild to see how like it was that then and it is this now, right? And yet the way in which we handled our finances.
Kristen Wambach (08:49)
Okay.
Mick (09:02)
Is different today than it was back then. We couldn't even afford to do a tithe, okay? And God literally helped us get out of debt, blessed us through that process when we said, Hey, we've screwed up, we're doing this all wrong, let's do it your way. You know what I mean? But I'm highlighting that because there's been this progression and I want people to understand that, right? So
Mick (09:26)
That progression at this point in our conversation in the story is about a decade long. And so when the Holy Spirit says you are subject to not central in your own life, I'm thinking, man, up to this point, I've been trying my best not to be central in my own life, right?
Mick (09:51)
Well, what was really being revealed there was without question, it still was about me. Yes, I took care of my husbandly duties, my fatherly duties as provider, caring, loving, all of those things. But my prayer life looked like
Mick (10:09)
Hey, Lord, what about this? Hey, could we do this? Could we have that? Will you make this deal happen? You know what I mean? Those types of things. Will you show me who to contact? Will you have these people answer my emails? Those types of things that are serving me. And all of this is happening in my mind, in my life, in the context of well, if I'm successful at work, then
Kristen Wambach (10:27)
Uh-huh.
Mick (10:36)
Able to provide, this is what I'm supposed to do, these types of things, right? Well, when the Holy Spirit goes, you are subject to not central in.
Mick (10:46)
It really began to radically change things. And I'll give you an example of what I mean by radically change things. So I was just talking about how my prayer life was this litany of things that we wanted. Okay. And I don't, I don't, I I wanna be clear here, okay? Some of it was akin to what maybe people have heard of as this
Kristen Wambach (10:52)
Mm-hmm.
Mick (11:11)
Genie in the bottle, kind of Jesus, you know, like you get three wishes, right? Meaning we would ask him for certain things. But on the whole, I want to be very transparent here that our heart was desiring to to truly serve him. Okay. But what he began to show me here was that I wasn't sold out for him. And that's the beginning, really, of where.
Kristen Wambach (11:27)
Mm-hmm.
Mick (11:38)
He began to change my understanding and my being and me sort of at a soul level of where he goes, you are subject to. And so the prayer life goes from, How about this, how about that, to your will be done.
Mick (11:56)
It literally changed overnight because my wife and I pray every single night. We're good, we're good for probably like 360 nights a year. Okay. Someone might be super sick, somebody's on the dark side of the moon with no cell service. You know what I mean? So we're we're like 360 out of the 365. But my point in saying that is that we would pray every night for all kinds of different things. You know what I mean? Pray for people that we love, pray for people that need are in need, all of this. And then it was
Kristen Wambach (12:06)
Okay.
Mick (12:26)
Your will be done. And then the prayer life began to be more of Lord, this is our heart's desire, but not our will, yours. Because we began to realize okay, we can have this back and forth with Him in relationship on purpose. He already knows it.
Mick (12:52)
It's important for us to pour our hearts out and tell them, we're asking for healing for this person. But we don't, we don't, we don't begin to believe that that is ultimately the best thing for them. We think it is, but we know from Isaiah 55 that his ways are higher than ours. They're not our thoughts, they're his thoughts. And so
Kristen Wambach (12:54)
Mm-hmm.
Mick (13:17)
Whatever's going on with that person, maybe for their growth, maybe for somebody else's growth, maybe because he needs to give that person's organ to somebody else. We have no idea about these things. So we would pray our heart's intent and our heart's desire, and then submit all of that to him with, but not our will, Lord, yours for each of these types of things.
Mick (13:41)
And then it began to also progress, and I love your your nonverbals here as you're l listening so intently. You know, we began to ask him to give us the prayers to pray.
Mick (13:57)
And that was a whole nother level and a whole nother level of cool relationship. I'm literally gonna use that word, like cool relationship, and then also deeper relationship, because then when he would give us the prayers to pray, a lot of times we didn't have any context, didn't make any sense why we were praying them.
Kristen Wambach (14:00)
Mm.
Kristen Wambach (14:08)
Yeah.
Mick (14:20)
And then other times we did or just had every little bit of context that we needed, but no matter what, it was a scenario, Kristen, where we knew that what we were praying was completely aligned with his will because he'd literally given them to us. And so it was awesome. You know, I'll pause there.
Kristen Wambach (14:39)
Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (14:42)
Yeah. Okay. Okay. I agree with you because a lot of people say, not my will, but your will, and they and and and I and I always put a little highlight here in that part that that, you know, his ways are higher than our ways. Well, I understand that now today it's not that I can't be aware of his ways. It means come up here and sit in my presence to know what my ways are.
Mick (15:12)
Mm. Yeah. I can see that.
Kristen Wambach (15:13)
We are supposed to know his ways.
Mick (15:19)
I track with you on that. I would say it ever so slightly differently for me personally, in that I've I have really been attracted to the character of God that He has revealed to me through reading the Old Testament. We certainly get that in the New Testament as well. I don't want to dim diminish that in any way, but it was really neat how God revealed it to me as walking through decade after decade of the Israelites.
Kristen Wambach (15:21)
Yeah.
Mick (15:48)
And at one point I'm like, man, what's wrong with these people? Like, why don't they just, why don't they just serve the Lord and everything goes well and fine? And then I had this, this like OMG moment where I was like, that's me. That's literally me. When things are going great, I don't cry out to God. This is sort of an older version of me, you know, as God revealed it.
Mick (16:17)
Because I'm like, yeah, things are good. What do I need God for? And and and it was a it's a subtle thing. I'm not suggesting that this was, you know, a a very cerebral decision that was made of like, great, things are great. I just got a good commission check or something. I don't need God, right? But when the screws in life are not being turned against you, if you're not in it for him, and if you're not sold out for him, at least in my experience, it was easy for me to pray.
Mick (16:46)
Every couple of days, myself, right? Again, my wife and I still praying at night, but sometimes those prayers would be more rote than others. You know what I mean? Sometimes it's a 20-minute prayer session. Sometimes it's a two-minute prayer session. There's a big difference between those, you know? so yeah, and and and and how he revealed his character to me was the following. Not only did he show me that I was the microcosm of the Israelites, they're a couple of million people.
Mick (17:16)
I'm just one, but our behavior patterns were the same. But then he also showed me that every time that they turned back to him, he's like, I've been waiting for you this whole time. I've loved you this whole time. All I want is for you to serve me, worship me. I have the best in mind for you if you will just do it my way.
Kristen Wambach (17:19)
Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (17:31)
Mm-hmm. Yes.
Kristen Wambach (17:40)
Mm-hmm.
Mick (17:43)
And so coming back to what you opened with about Ephesians 2 10, as I began to see that like God was this loving God, that love was built into his character. Because anytime they went back to him, he loved them and he was like, Watch me sprinkle some blessing all over you, people. You know what I mean? Like massive blessing. I began to then see.
Kristen Wambach (18:07)
Mm.
Mick (18:10)
Man, every time I've run back to Jesus, it's been the same character that I have met, right? Meaning, I have met the same love. Absolutely, God has disciplined me over time. And scripture talks about that, right? He disciplines those that he loves and like a father that his children respect for actually doing that.
Kristen Wambach (18:19)
Mm-hmm.
Mick (18:35)
But at the same time, it's all been out of love. And that is so different from the God that I was aware of growing up. I understood God, if you can even use that phraseology, okay? I understood God as a kid.
Kristen Wambach (18:46)
Mm-hmm.
Mick (18:55)
To be this distant God, to be this disciplinarian, because he was frankly very much my father's behavior in my mind. I didn't have a relationship with my father. I had a loving household that I grew up in that still had chaos and those types of things. But I didn't have a lot of relationship with my father. I had support from my father. He drove me to every soccer game on planet Earth, but he didn't take an interest in soccer. That's kind of the distinction that I'm trying to make, right? Like there was support.
Mick (19:25)
But there wasn't a lot of intentional relationship there. And so growing up, I'm like, this God of the universe that supposedly created everything is distant and disciplinarian. And I'm not interested in that because I got a huge ego.
Kristen Wambach (19:42)
Hmm. I have a few questions rolling around in some of the things that you have shared with us. I c to say curious is not the right word because it doesn't seem honoring enough.
Kristen Wambach (20:04)
So in my personal testimony and
Kristen Wambach (20:12)
when I I I I just wanted to to ask you the story b behind when did you name Luke? At what point in time? And do you know the meaning of his name?
Mick (20:26)
Yeah. So this is go ahead.
Mick (20:32)
So I would say yes and no. Okay. So I welcome you to add some more insight to this. but my wife and I named our son Luke before we were Christians, okay? so he was in utero, and we like the name Luke. Full context.
Kristen Wambach (20:37)
Okay.
Kristen Wambach (20:54)
Mm-hmm.
Mick (20:56)
We were super big on two things, okay? We wanted to name our kid the name we were gonna call them. So meaning like we actually thought about naming our son Pete instead of Peter. It was gonna be like, this is whatever we're gonna call him, we're gonna call him that, name him that kind of thing, right? And then we also really liked one syllable names.
Kristen Wambach (21:00)
Yes.
Kristen Wambach (21:10)
Uh-huh.
Kristen Wambach (21:15)
Okay.
Kristen Wambach (21:19)
Mm-hmm.
Mick (21:20)
And so Luke fit into that really well. My wife was watching a movie. She was home super pregnant. We hadn't figured it all out. She sends me a text message and is like, how about the name Luke? And I was like, done.
Kristen Wambach (21:34)
Yes.
Mick (21:36)
But tell us about the meaning, because I think I know where you're gonna go with this.
Kristen Wambach (21:41)
Ooh i Well, his name means light giving.
Kristen Wambach (21:51)
And I I that just seemed I almost as if I could see the purpose behind father writing his name, but it was we would call it cursive. It was a fluid signature that the signature of of his blueprint for what he brings heaven and earth currently and forever eternally is still being written.
Kristen Wambach (22:20)
In your life.
Mick (22:23)
Yeah. I track on that. thank you for for sharing that. I understood it to be more on the healer side. I'm thinking of Luke the physician. but I really appreciate how you just defined it as life-giving. And I will I
Kristen Wambach (22:40)
Yeah. Light g L-I-G-H-T light giving. So you were naming him in his original creative being as a light giver. So not only is he a light being, he actually has the ability to give light.
Mick (22:44)
light giving. Okay.
Mick (23:02)
I'm really smiling for this because God has to get all the glory for that. Because what Luke's life did was change my life, my wife's life, and the lives of our three living children for eternity. Eternity.
Kristen Wambach (23:22)
Yes. Yes.
Mick (23:24)
And we see that we look at Luke's death as the single greatest, most tangible blessing that we have in our lives because his death brought us into relationship with Jesus Christ, right? We get to testify that King Jesus is the way, the truth, and the life. And as a result of all of that.
Mick (23:51)
the environment with which our three living children were born
Mick (23:56)
Is so dramatically different than what it would have been. And our oldest is almost 13. She accepted Christ a c a couple of years ago. And our younger ones are identical twins. And they're seven, as you and I are having this conversation. And so they have not yet accepted Christ. But we pray for that regularly. And sort of back to what you and I were talking about a few minutes ago about like his will being done. We're like, look, we we know you desire this, we desire this.
Mick (24:27)
But let it be in your timing. You know what I mean? Because my conviction cannot be my son's convictions as much as I would love to impart that. You know what mean? Our kids' convictions are just not.
Kristen Wambach (24:38)
Yeah, I'm gonna change her wording, is that your sanctification journey is not the same as your children's. But they they they never fall out of sonship because the father is so brilliant and when he created, he got way ahead of his kids, so we couldn't outthink it.
Mick (24:45)
Yeah, well said.
Mick (25:01)
Yeah, that's awesome. Well, there's no question that Luke brought, or I should say, God brought light through Luke.
Kristen Wambach (25:01)
Yeah, yeah.
Kristen Wambach (25:11)
Yes, yes, and
Kristen Wambach (25:16)
I am gonna send you my book to read 'cause I have a story in there about a huge mistake.
Kristen Wambach (25:29)
And the blueprint behind that huge mistake. And yeah, it it it will just tie in some very important details with Luke from a heavenly perspective. How God call calls calls children to the generation of their parents. So
Mick (25:46)
Amen. Yeah, wow.
Kristen Wambach (25:57)
Very much so. So since we're being prophetically here and stirring up the the
Kristen Wambach (26:05)
the atmosphere, being should I say, more aware, even more aware of what Holy Spirit's doing and that, you know, we are ever surrounded with the angelic. Busy, busy, busy, busy, busy. When you and I were praying before this episode, before recording, I just was smiling. I just saw a picture. There is a laurel wreath.
Mick (26:27)
Yeah.
Kristen Wambach (26:34)
Or I might say if it's not a laurel wreath, it's an olive branch leaf because it's got brand new white flowers on the wreath, the head. So I look at that in you know, all the times that I have seen that, it is an award that's been recently given you. And so my question is.
Mick (26:56)
Wow.
Kristen Wambach (27:00)
It shows me that you have recently come through a victory. Are you able to share what that is?
Mick (27:12)
Well, I'll do my best because I'm not entirely sure. But as mentioned, you know, I continue to ask God to give us the prayers to pray, right? Meaning for my wife and then also for me. And one of the things that he had communicated was that the promised land that he has promised, and it has been very undefined.
Mick (27:41)
Okay. I'm saying that for everybody that's listening because he's been really clear that he's gonna do something, but he hasn't been very clear with what. And so he said to me, I want you to fight for that in prayer while fasting. Okay?
Mick (28:03)
Prayer and fasting, fasting and prayer, normal occurrence for me by God's grace, normal practice and behavior. And I sought him very earnestly. And essentially was just sort of declaring what he has said to be true, right? Not with much more context. This is like, I don't really know what we're talking about. What does this promised land look like? But I could declare, and this was truly.
Mick (28:32)
Kristen, one of those things where my faith was at an eleven for this. Okay. You know, like we know in Mark where
Mick (28:43)
the father is like, I do believe, but help my unbelief, right? I think that that faith, I used to look at it as like an on-off switch. I think it's more of like a a scale a little bit. You know what I mean? Sometimes it's a two, sometimes it's a four, sometimes it's a 10. This was an 11. Like I knew that what God said was going to occur was going to occur. And so I could declare that basically back to him. And this is not some name it and claim it thing. This is just he had given me.
Kristen Wambach (29:03)
Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.
Mick (29:12)
The faith to believe it, period. And so I'm just declaring like whatever this means, I know you're gonna do it. You're gonna do it in your time, but like you've said it, it is it is a yes and amen. I stand on that. So I seek him in prayer over many days, seek him in fasting and prayer over many different days. And then I asked him, is this
Mick (29:39)
The fighting, like, am I fighting the way you want me to fight? Okay. And his response was, yes, the victory is his, but he's given it to me. Now, I truly have no idea what the rest of that is or what the other details are. And and because of that, this sounds quite nebulous. So I would have otherwise never been sharing that. But you asked, you're like,
Mick (30:06)
There appears to be in the spirit realm a victory that has just occurred. And that's it. Because I mean, we're talking inside of the last, I guess, two weeks, because we were on vacation the last week, you know, and so there wasn't a lot of the prayer and fasting specifically because he had told me the prior week that it's done. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God.
Kristen Wambach (30:33)
So your wife hasn't been seeing or feeling it? You don't have pictures of it, journals of it? Okay. All right.
Kristen Wambach (30:44)
You're right. Yeah. Yeah. You do. You do.
Mick (30:50)
Sounds like you you have some awareness there.
Kristen Wambach (30:53)
Yeah.
Kristen Wambach (30:57)
graciously on my journey many times I have been allowed to see what was in the future and walk into it. And yes. And that changes that changes
Kristen Wambach (31:21)
all the time. That that changes, meaning that you don't again, because it's through relationship and my dependence on him to always go
Kristen Wambach (31:34)
Well, how'd you do this? Can you show me how to do this? And where does it where did it say that you experience this Jesus in your hundred percent humanity? Because I'm all over it. Cause I that I'm just all over it. If you experienced it, then you have the raw knowledge to be able to tell me in our humanness how you figured out how to, I'll say the change the molecular substance of it.
Kristen Wambach (32:04)
So that you could encounter it. We just assume a lot of times we forget how human that Jesus was. We assume that, he knew how to lay hands on the sick, he knew how to see Nathaniel under the tree. He knew how to walk on the water. No, he didn't. He had to pray fast. He had to apply himself to actually learn and know the Father in relationship. Yes, he could.
Kristen Wambach (32:31)
read about himself and the Father in the scrolls that are before him?
Kristen Wambach (32:39)
But you know, when he came up to the scrolls that he pulled out, you know, this day, you know, I am anointed to bring forth and heal the broken and bring forth sight to the blind. He had to agree with that so that when he came with the timing of that day, so he'd go, I am talking about me here.
Kristen Wambach (33:03)
We assume, we assume that he he kind of like God gave him a little bit of sticky note for the day, and this is what's going on, son. No, no, no. He had to already know and come into agreement so that he could recognize himself on that day when the timing placed his scroll right in front of his people, the people who he's called to. That gives me great courage.
Mick (33:03)
Pretty wild.
Kristen Wambach (33:33)
To teach me. This is the reason why I want to sit at your feet because I want you to teach me this stuff. Yeah.
Mick (33:40)
Yeah. There is something powerful about sitting at his feet. And you know, a year ago I didn't have a great sense for what that meant. But the more that I have done it, meaning for me, it's been in scripture and on my knees in prayer at the same time.
Kristen Wambach (33:45)
Mm-hmm.
Mick (34:09)
And then asking and waiting and praying and waiting and being quiet and waiting and asking and praising. You know what I mean? And not trying to get through, I got I got seven minutes before I gotta go do something, you know what I mean? And and just being there and waiting.
Kristen Wambach (34:31)
Yeah.
Mick (34:37)
And there's been times when he's taken me into Deuteronomy 28, and I'm like, what? Like then you just see stuff totally differently, or Exodus 12, you know, like just and and then I'm reading it again. And I'm like, man, I've read this many times before. Many times. And then all of a sudden you're like, whoa, wait a second. It says that. This is an Exodus. It says that.
Mick (35:02)
I'm gonna have you go over so that your back is up against the Red Sea because I'm gonna get glory. And this is where I'm thinking, this is God, God talking in my paraphrase. I'm thinking he's gonna say from the Israelites. Like his, you know, like I'm gonna deliver you. You know what mean? But he goes, I'm gonna get glory from the Egyptians. And I'm like, wait a second, what? I've read this countless times before.
Mick (35:31)
But it's the revelation, right? And then he helps me understand why. Well, because they're the literal superpower of that time period. And that country is filled with nothing but gods, up to and including their king. And God's going, These people have nothing on me. And I'm gonna show them that.
Kristen Wambach (35:44)
Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (35:58)
Mm-hmm.
Mick (35:59)
I'm God. And it's going to be so incredible. They're going to glorify me. And I'm like, whoa. And so that helps me then, as you and I have talked a tiny bit about like sonship. And it's like, okay, he is fully God. And I am so not. You know what I mean? Like that fear of God just being the beginning of wisdom is so wonderful for me to just go, I don't know, but he does.
Mick (36:25)
And I'm gonna ask him, I'm gonna trust him, and I know that he's got it. And then it also allows me to look at my life in the context of Ephesians 2:10 and go, You created me. I must automatically have value to you. I mean, think about it. Let let's just have fun here for a second, okay? Because I got seven-year-olds. They love Lagos, okay?
Kristen Wambach (36:40)
Mm-hmm.
Mick (36:51)
They're not gonna create something out of Legos that they're not interested in. You know what I mean? They're not gonna create something that they think is totally meaningless. Because we've all know, like you get an a you get a Lego kit, you get 10 Lego kits, and then eventually what do you have? A giant bucket of Legos, right? So you don't build the kit anymore.
Mick (37:12)
You then begin to build out of your creativity. You're not gonna build something and create something from essentially nothing that you don't care about. You just don't do it, right? And then I know even further from the way Ephesians 2.10 is laid out, right? That not only was I created, but I'm created as his handiwork. Some other translations talk about it as his masterpiece. So then I know, right? I this is literally where I get my identity from. Like Ephesians 2.10 is huge for me.
Mick (37:42)
Because I'm created and I'm created beautifully, right? As handiwork, craftsmanship. And then it tells me I'm created on purpose to do things that he is prepared in advance for me to do. And so then I'm like, then truly my question began to be to him: what are those things? What are those things?
Kristen Wambach (38:01)
Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (38:08)
Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.
Mick (38:10)
Because I'm like, he'll reveal them to me. And that's where the coincidence or God show came from. Because he moved me out of the workforce and was like, go do that. And admittedly, I think there are many people that don't have the degree of clarity that I have. Okay. And it is entirely by God's grace that he made it that clear. Right? But
Kristen Wambach (38:15)
Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (38:20)
Absolutely.
Mick (38:36)
There's plenty of things that we do on a daily basis that are still absolutely the things that he prepared in advance for us to do, like being his hands and feet, right? Treating people with love, treating people with respect and with kindness, right? Disciplining with love, all right. All of these types of things that might seem to be just normal for a Christian, right? It still all has value.
Mick (39:02)
And I'll just kind of close out my thoughts here on Ephesians 2.10. So I I love this verse, as hopefully you can see coming through with my my emphasis. But what is so neat to me is how it sits at the bookend of Ephesians 2, 1 through 9, where the context of this is hey, buddy, you're a sinner.
Kristen Wambach (39:14)
Mm-hmm.
Mick (39:27)
And there's nothing that you and your ego and your pride and your works could do to save yourself. You are saved by grace through faith in Christ Jesus. And so I'm like, man, it's so sobering to look at one through nine and then to get there, and it's just like, wow, the the 10th verses. And despite all of that.
Mick (39:56)
I created you on purpose because I love you. And I'm like, man, that that just literally speaks to my soul, that block of text. And I'm so grateful that God has given us scripture and and me that particular because he gives other people other text that is like that speaks to their DNA. You know what I mean? And and this one does for me. And he gets all the glory for that. It's so wonderful to look at that for me.
Kristen Wambach (40:15)
Mm-hmm.
Mick (40:26)
And be humbled and gracious and filled with gratitude because of how good he is.
Kristen Wambach (40:34)
So when you're you have listeners, Mick has a little signboard back on his bookshelf that I can see here as we're talking on this video recording and it says pray, wait, trust. Do they ever change places?
Mick (40:57)
Hmm. Yeah, there's probably some times where it's it's more weight, you know, and trust.
Mick (41:06)
And a bit more of wonder. And sometimes the wonder turns to another W word. It turns to worry. And then I'm like, wait a second, I gotta go get back at his feet. And I mean, we're the this could be app happening in the midst of a five-minute period of time, right? Or a five-hour block of time, or over multiple days. I find myself occasionally, I used to do this much more consistently, but I find myself now, Kristen, occasionally.
Mick (41:36)
Thinking versus praying. I used to think all the time and not pray. And I even thought that because I was thinking about stuff that would matter to God, I was almost praying. And then it was like close enough. And it totally wasn't close enough. Because the praying in the way in which I pray has really been dramatically different for me in my relationship with Jesus Christ.
Mick (42:05)
Let me explain that so that that does not sound egocentric, prideful, or anything other than those things. Okay. What I mean is that I used to do nearly all of my praying seated. And what I found was most of the time, it just felt like words. But when I got
Mick (42:32)
On my knees, and I put my face into the chair or into my couch, it changed everything in terms of like the veracity of my prayer, like how earnestly I was seeking him. And it also put me into this physical position of where I'm like, I'm surrendered to you.
Mick (43:01)
You know, and and and I've been so grateful for that. And then as with sanctification and growth and continuing to seek him, that progressed to where I just started praying in public on my knees. And that was like a big step. But we happened to be on a mission trip in New York.
Kristen Wambach (43:01)
Mm-hmm.
Mick (43:24)
And we went to Manhattan for one of the evenings and I'm standing in Junior's, which is this cheesecake place, and we're inside and I look out and there is a Muslim man in the middle of the street praying.
Mick (43:44)
And I thought to myself, if he can do that, I can pray to the God of the universe too in public. And so it's just been this progression of more submission, including in the physical position of like, I'm literally on my knees. And the prayers for me are different.
Kristen Wambach (43:51)
Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (44:03)
Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (44:14)
I love it.
Kristen Wambach (44:17)
I get I get inst I I I cued a very famous song on my phone yesterday. And my phone is over there on Do Not Disturb I was kind of like, okay, I need help remembering. What was the song? I need to help remembering. I I'm gonna go get my phone here for just a second here. Cause I I don't remember it.
Kristen Wambach (44:48)
But it just it feels highlighted for me to to share a a prayer point that I asked God last night I I need more of this. And I hope it's still cute right there. Where is she? I gotta get to the words. I don't remember.
Kristen Wambach (45:17)
Just second. I'm gonna get to the words.
Kristen Wambach (45:27)
Yeah, there they were. Ooh, yeah. It still has it queued in my Huh.
Kristen Wambach (45:37)
So the song, the song was, and I'm I don't remember. I was sitting outside. I don't remember what the the Holy Spirit avenue of how he he brought it to the forefront of my attention yesterday.
Kristen Wambach (45:57)
But I kept looping it, this one section, and I know all the listeners would be very familiar with it. And the song is The Truth by Megan Woods. And it's just wonderful, her deep voice, but there was a line in there that says, The truth is I am my father's child. I make him proud and I make him smile.
Mick (46:08)
Mm, yeah.
Mick (46:22)
Make him smile. Yep. I was ri made in the image of the perfect king who looks at me and wouldn't change a thing.
Kristen Wambach (46:27)
Unless I I was laying there in bed and I I said the father and I said I need more experience with that.
Kristen Wambach (46:41)
'Cause I I don't have the the natural story.
Kristen Wambach (46:49)
to have that as a natural a natural journey in my life. So all of a sudden I was aware of it, wow, I I I need more of this story, need more of witnessing you and your pleasure and being proud and smiling at me effortlessly. So I I just felt like that was just
Kristen Wambach (47:18)
Really important to share. Because not all of us, you know, had a tremendous racial relationship with a father figured. So sometimes we is we don't know what we're missing. We don't even know how to ask for it or even have the expectation in our listen listening.
Mick (47:32)
Right.
Kristen Wambach (47:42)
To hear him sing how proud he is of us, and that we make him smile.
Kristen Wambach (47:59)
How does that make you feel?
Mick (48:01)
You know, the first time I heard that song, I can actually remember exactly where I was because I hadn't heard it and it was so powerful to me. I literally was taking my three kids to art and art art class, and I was literally crying as she's singing the song because it is exactly the title of.
Mick (48:28)
And the phrase she uses over and over again, the truth. It is the truth. And you talked about it, I've experienced it. That this idea that our earthly fathers and the relationship that we have had with them may have never revealed any of that character of the king, right? God the Father may have never been revealed to them.
Mick (48:55)
In that way, just with the behavior, you know? And so it brings me to tears because one, I know it to be true. And then two, I'm so blessed by how he's given me some of that to give to my children. What I mean by this is because I didn't come up with this. I'm the only one that I know that's ever said it because it's come out of my mouth, but it wasn't me. For whatever reason, God has literally told me or given given me these words, which is, and I say it to my children.
Mick (49:25)
And regularly, I have loved you from the moment I found out about you. That's what I tell them, to the extent that they can complete the sentence. Meaning, you weren't even born yet. You were in mom's belly, and I loved you. We loved you. And now that they're all old enough and really can understand God to the degree that we can, right?
Mick (49:53)
I'm like, and think about it. God has literally loved you for eternity. I'm like, and that's incredible. That's amazing. Like, we can't even wrap our heads around that. He's known us forever, loved us forever. I have loved you from the moment I found out about you. And when they do something good, I'll oftentimes remind them that their value is not based upon the fact that they did something good.
Mick (50:23)
I just love you inherently. So congratulations, but this doesn't change my love for you because I just love you, you know? And when I'm disciplining them because they've done something that they shouldn't have done, I mean, my kids all get along really well, but they totally have their moments, you know? And so it's like, look, I love you. And your behavior is never gonna put our relationship at risk.
Mick (50:52)
But there are consequences for your actions. And so I'm saying all of this just because when we as the adults get to experience God's love as the father that you're talking about, I think it makes it a lot easier for us to behave as a pipe.
Mick (51:18)
And not a bucket, and to let that grace flow to us and through us as opposed to just to us. And I can give him all the credit for that because, Kristen, I didn't learn that except from him. You know what I mean? And I was just asked this question. It was rhetorical, so it came to me rhetorically as part of a conversation that I was having. But the the question that was being asked was: how do you see God?
Mick (51:48)
And I started to to conjure that, like the actual image, like, what do you think of? And I was like, I see him as my dad. Like, crawl up on his lap. And that's so different than how I described earlier in our conversation, where I'm like, distant, disciplinarian, you stay up there. I'm down here. I'm gonna do my thing with my pride of my ego. And as long as we keep our distance, everything will be fine.
Kristen Wambach (52:00)
Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (52:05)
Mm-hmm.
Mick (52:17)
And what he has shown me over the years is exactly what I tell my kids. It's like I've I've loved you forever. And the way he's revealed that is by showing me that from that avalanche that you talked about back in 2000, so I hated him then actively. Like this was not passive, I'm not in a relationship with God. No, no, no, no. Wanted nothing to do with him. Make no bones about that.
Kristen Wambach (52:34)
Mm-hmm.
Mick (52:46)
We need to be clear about that. I hated him. And my ego and my pride drove me into a position, literal position, physical position, where I should have died. Okay. I trigger the avalanche that will kill me. And he saves me from that. And 24 and a half years later, he revealed to me.
Mick (53:14)
Helped me see, helped me to understand. Because that even when you hated me, I still loved you. And that just wrecked me. And by wrecked, I mean it just literally brings me to this like empty, humbled-out space of like, what do I have left to give to you because of how gracious you have been to me, other than my entire life? Like you have.
Mick (53:44)
You have created me. You have saved my physical life. You have saved my soul for eternity. What can I possibly do in response to that than just give you my entire being? So I didn't deserve any of that.
Mick (54:14)
He's loved me. He's loved me. Even when I've hated him. And that is true for everyone that hears this. That's not just limited to me.
Mick (54:33)
If you don't have a relationship with Jesus Christ, know that he loves you. He loves you.
Mick (54:42)
No matter your sin, no matter how bad you think it is,
Kristen Wambach (54:57)
Before we start tying our time together, can you share with us another personal aha moment? I mean the avalanche is something. You are the actually the person that triggered it?
Mick (55:12)
yeah.
Kristen Wambach (55:17)
Yeah. Tr triggered it of your awareness that God never said your correctness of life changed any of the value that you are. Those are high high paraphrased from what you said about your own kids. Then he never did that to you. That's why now because you know him, you can express that to your children.
Mick (55:49)
Yeah, do I have other examples of that? you know, I I don't think that I have a specific example that is perhaps that episodic, you know, but yeah. Yeah.
Kristen Wambach (56:01)
Can can I change my request then? Would you lead us in prayer to release the depth of that?
Mick (56:18)
Sure.
Mick (56:21)
Yeah, wow. That is quite the invitation, Kristen. Praise God. Let's do it. Man. Father God, King Jesus, Holy Spirit. We are seeking more of you. We are seeking more of you.
Mick (56:44)
We recognize that you are holy. Father God, hallowed be your name. Hallowed be your name.
Mick (56:52)
We fully see you as God and that we are not, that we are created and subject to you, and yet we know that you created us in love. And so we are coming to you earnestly desiring to understand the way in which you look at us as your children who are loved. We want to know this more. We want to feel this in ways that we have never felt it, in ways that we have never experienced.
Mick (57:22)
It. And so, Holy Spirit, I ask that you would speak to everybody that hears this prayer. Speak it into their minds, whisper it into their ears. Father God, if you would be audible with them, have it be your way, the way that will impact them, Lord. But we ask that that you would allow us more of your depth here and the depth of your love.
Mick (57:48)
As it relates to the daughters and the sons that are coming after you in this prayer, we want to experience you and your love in a deeper way and a more full way than we ever have before. Literally, God, as if we can crawl into your lap as a four-year-old and you can tussle our hair or squeeze us tight.
Mick (58:16)
And look at us and smile. And just let us know and experience the love that we know you have for us. We ask this in the name of Jesus. Please, Father, please give us more of you. And thank you for giving us life. We give ours back to you in Jesus' name. Amen.
Kristen Wambach (58:47)
Nick, I'm going to ask I'm going to give you a prompt on your own prayer.
Kristen Wambach (58:55)
Would you lead us through a type of repentance or forgiveness part? Because I sensed that there are many times in our own lives where we're triggering our own avalanches. And that needs to stop. And I I I saw you on your knees, and if you would.
Kristen Wambach (59:25)
Help us to walk through that forgiveness of how many times we trigger our own stuff.
Mick (59:35)
Okay. Man, what a wonderful opportunity. Praise God. Praise God. Father God, King Jesus, Holy Spirit, we are back from more of you. Man, we are we are coming to you with the expressed intent, Lord, for the forgiveness of our sins.
Mick (01:00:05)
Father, I ask that for all of those people that hear this prayer, myself included, Kristen included, that the blood of the Lamb would wash us clean of our sins. Lord, we repent, we repent from our sin. We repent from the behaviors that
Mick (01:00:29)
You know about where we continue to return like a dog to its vomit, where we go back to the things that we know we shouldn't, and we are crying out now for your
Mick (01:00:44)
Direction to move us away from that and for your forgiveness and redemption of that terrible behavior and a washing of that sin in Jesus' name. We plead the blood of the Lamb over this current generation with the sins that we are asking to be forgiven. And we plead the blood of.
Mick (01:01:09)
Over the generations of sin that have come before us. We repent of prior generations worth of sin, and in Jesus' name we ask for the breaking of strongholds.
Mick (01:01:24)
We ask for the redemption of those generational sins in Jesus' name and we repent in Jesus' name and we pray for the blood of the Lamb to be washed over all of that and of all the space that has been cleansed out. Holy Spirit, we ask that you would go into that space and fill it. Fill it with your presence, fill it with your goodness.
Mick (01:01:52)
And have us in this current generation experience that change, experience the washing of our sins. What can wash away our sins? Nothing. Nothing. Nothing but the blood. And so we plead the blood in Jesus' name.
Mick (01:02:12)
Over our sins, and we receive your forgiveness in that. We receive your forgiveness. And if there is any forgiveness, Father, that needs to occur, Holy Spirit, I ask that you would prompt those that are not forgiving. Prompt those that are not forgiving to humble themselves, follow Jesus' instruction, and forgive.
Mick (01:02:41)
Forgive so that the Father forgives. Let us all forgive since we are forgiven in Jesus' name. Amen.
Kristen Wambach (01:02:58)
Thank you. Thank you. And so I bring I bring my my prompting of the song because this is our reward for when we do something that feels like it's hard. Sometimes it's it's hard to give up a trigger or behavior that hasn't been serving us very well. And this is our reward, this is our gift.
Kristen Wambach (01:03:27)
The truth is I am my father's child. I make him proud and he makes me smile. I was made in the image of a perfect king. He looks at me and he wouldn't change a thing.
Kristen Wambach (01:03:57)
Listeners, you you you know what I call this. This is one of those pregnant pauses. Please you have permission to just put it on pause and hang with what it feels like, what you what is being immersed in you, what is being washed through you, the giggles, the laughters. Thank you.
Kristen Wambach (01:04:27)
Thank you so very much.
Kristen Wambach (01:04:33)
And I think when I'll just keep the music going in this particular portion. Thank you, Mick, for
Kristen Wambach (01:04:46)
Allowing me to pull the anointing that's on your life.
Mick (01:04:54)
Wow. It's been a pleasure, Kristen. Thank you.
Kristen Wambach (01:05:02)
Now listeners, I will I'm I'm gonna ask him how remind us the name of your brand new branded show.
Mick (01:05:14)
Yeah, coincidence or God. And you can check it out on YouTube or any of the other platforms where you would grab your podcast.
Kristen Wambach (01:05:16)
Yes.
Kristen Wambach (01:05:23)
Yes. And they can connect with you on social media and your website is
Mick (01:05:30)
Yep, website is coincidence or god dot com, and we're on all of the social handles as well.
Kristen Wambach (01:05:37)
That's wonderful. Hmm. Thank you. There just there just aren't words for when we just need to go shh.
Mick (01:05:44)
Truly a pleasure.
Kristen Wambach (01:05:54)
I bless you.
The Performance Trap of Modern Faith
But what happens when the sovereign God of heaven decides to dismantle the performance engine entirely?
In this raw, uncompromised conversation on the Interviewing Jesus Podcast, host Kristen Wambach sits down with international podcaster Mick Wienholt to peel back the layers of religious striving and explore what it truly means to live subject to, not central.
The Phrase That Undid an Executive Mindset
Then came 2023. While sitting in a church pew, the Holy Spirit dropped a jarring, disruptive pattern interrupt into his spirit: "Because you are a created being, you are subject to, not central in, your own life."
Human Logic: My effort + God's backing = My success. Kingdom Law: God's sovereignty + My submission = His glory
This single deposit completely re-educated Mick's entire operating system. He realized that even his well-meaning, structured prayers were completely centered around himself. True alignment required a total dismantle. The transactional "What would Jesus do?" mindset had to die so that the deeper, outcome-focused reality of sonship could take over.
CONNECT WITH MICK WIENHOLT
Posture, Post-Trauma, and the Family Tree
They didn't know that Luke literally means "Light-giving."
Though Luke was delivered as a full-term stillborn baby, his brief assignment permanently altered the trajectory of their entire family tree. His death shattered Mick's pride, brought him to his knees, and opened a safe path for his three living children to grow up in a household entirely saturated by the presence of God. The Father’s cursive signature was being written over their lives long before they ever knew how to read the scrolls of Scripture.
Noted Song: The Truth by Megan Woods
Moving From a Bucket to a Pipe
Mick shares how this absolute security changed the physical cadence of his life. He stopped praying from a comfortable, seated position where words felt empty, and began putting his face directly into the floorboards. That private, physical surrender unlocked an uncompromised freedom—allowing him to drop to his knees on a crowded sidewalk in Manhattan, completely unmasked before the world.
When you step into true sonship, you stop functioning like a "bucket" desperately trying to hold onto validation, and you become a "pipe" that effortlessly lets grace flow through your life to the world around you. The pressure is completely gone. The victory is already won. You can finally put down your corporate targets, crawl right onto your Father's lap, and rest in the fact that He looks at you and wouldn’t change a single thing.
What can wash away our sins? Nothing. Nothing. Nothing but the blood. And so we plead the blood in Jesus' name." — Mick Wienholt"
COACHING CHURCH ACTIVATIONS
The "Face-in-the-Floorboards" Audit
This week, you are getting off the treadmill of self-sufficiency. We are moving from a seated, cerebral religion into a visceral, postural encounter with the King.
Step 1: Identify Your "Central" Engine
Take an honest look at your current prayer requests, your business targets, or your family anxieties. Ask the Holy Spirit to shine a flashlight on where you are using human grit to protect your own outcomes.
- Are your prayers a list of directives asking God to fund your goals, or are you genuinely waiting to receive His?
Find a private space this week. Do not sit down. Do not stand up. Explicitly get flat on your knees, slide your face directly down into the floorboards or the couch, and physically throw your hands out in complete, unmasked surrender.
Step 3: Release the Script
While in that physical posture of absolute submission, pray this specific script out loud to break the background anxiety of control:
"Father, I am a created being. I am entirely subject to you, and I refuse to be central in my own life anymore. I stop trying to fix the facts of my environment with my own grit. I put down my performance metrics, I tear up my checklist, and I crawl right onto your lap as your child. I am a pipe, not a bucket—let your grace flow through me effortlessly today. Your will be done, Lord. Give me the prayers to pray."
Step 4: Sit and Wait
Once you have prayed, remain quiet in that posture for five minutes. Do not manage the clock. Stop thinking, stop scheming, and simply allow the background settings of your mind to settle into His absolute goodness. Write down any precise, raw promptings or scriptures He deposits into your spirit.
MEET THE AUTHOR & PODCASTERHey There!Welcome to this space—I am so incredibly glad you are here. I’m Kristen Wambach: an author, podcaster, experienced spiritual coach, and ordained pastor, but most of all, I am a spiritual investigative journalist on a mission to bridge the gap between heaven and earth. If you are a seeker of deeper spiritual truths, an aspiring entrepreneur, or someone who is simply bone-weary from trying to navigate life under your own strength, you have found your room. |
On my podcast, Interviewing Jesus, and throughout my books, we move past the traditional pews to get exclusive access to the heart of Jesus for supernatural wisdom that completely rewrites your reality. My ultimate goal is to empower you to connect with your God-inspired DNA calling and strip away the hidden anxiety of performance so you can live a life of authentic, divine wisdom.
It is time to stop striving, step beyond the gates of survival, and discover just how ridiculously good God is. Grab a cup of coffee, dive into the activations, and let's get ready to live Spiritually BRAVE!
Blessings,
Kristen
FINAL THOUGHTS & SUMMARY
Mick unzips his profound personal journey—from causing a catastrophic avalanche in 2000 to navigating the deep grief of losing his full-term stillborn son, Luke, in 2012. He exposes the exact moment in 2023 when the Holy Spirit broke through his self-made identity with a single, disruptive phrase: "Because you are a created being, you are subject to, not central in, your own life."
This episode bypasses shallow, polite religious checklists to reveal a deep-dive blueprint for true inner transformation. By exploring the mathematical wonder of a redeemed timeline, defining the eternal legacy of a child named "Light-giving," and modeling real-time postural surrender, this conversation proves that when our earthly frameworks are shattered, the resulting void is never empty—it is entirely full of the effortless goodness of God.
Call to Action
If you are bone-weary from trying to fund your own spiritual provision, check performance boxes, or protect your own outcomes, it is time to dismantle the engine of religious striving. The pressure is completely off, the victory has already been won, and your true identity as a son or daughter is securely held by the King.
Step beyond the gates of survival and truly experience heaven on a practical Monday morning:
- 🎧 Listen & Subscribe: Tune into the complete, mind-bending conversation on the Interviewing Jesus Podcast via YouTube or your favorite podcast platform.
- 📖 Dive Deeper: Grab your copy of Kristen’s newest book, How Good is God! Coaching Church: Beyond the Gates of Hell to Truly Experience Heaven, and begin applying these raw activations to your daily template.
- 🎙️ Explore More Stories: Subscribe to Mick’s powerful international show, Coincidence or God, on YouTube or at coincidenceorgod.com to watch ordinary people share their extraordinary encounters with a sovereign Savior.
Awareness is not the problem. The problem is that we don't know what to do with what we are aware of." — Heather O'Brien
- The Mask of Spiritual Performance: Dismantling the unvoiced shame of loving Jesus while privately fighting daily emotional overwhelm or numbness.
- The Feral Cat Compromise: How small identity compromises multiply like country stray cats and grow into roaring tigers loose in your living room.
- The Exploding Milkshake Reality: A gritty, hilarious real-world look at why lingering bad behavioral fruit proves there is a hidden root that still needs an investigation
- The Root-Bound Reset: Shifting from surface adjustments to pulling up the roots below ground, drilling open waterways, and freeing your taproot connection to Jesus.
SUMMARY
Prayer has been ineffective because you've been praying generally when God wanted to lead you specifically." — Heather O'Brien
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289 GOD What am I Missing- with Heather O’Brien
Chapter 1: Introduction to Inner Healing and Spirituality(00:00 - 04:18)
Kristen Wambach (00:02): What happens when a believer who knows all the right spiritual language, serves faithfully, and smiles from the front row is secretly battling a roaring tiger of anxiety inside her own living room? Today, we are pulling back the curtain on the silent epidemic facing Christians who love Jesus deeply but still feel completely stuck. Get ready to move past safe church theories and step into a practical, Spirit-led path of raw, permanent breakthrough. Welcome to the Interviewing Jesus Podcast.
Kristen Wambach (01:01): Welcome back. Today, we are engaging in a conversation designed to simplify the supernatural and strip the performance out of our inner healing. Come with me today as we strip away the performance out of inner healing. Our guest is a Spirit-led healing coach, Bible teacher, and the host of a globally top-ranked Heal with God Podcast. She's a spiritual investigator of the heart who went from hiding an internal battle with trauma and fear on a church pew to answering a direct, whisper-quiet commission from Holy Spirit: "Will you purify my bride?" Please help me to welcome the wonderful Heather O'Brien.
Heather O'Brien (01:55): Yeah. Wow, thank you so much. I'm like, man, I'm gonna write this down. That was a beautiful bio. You're so eloquent.
Kristen Wambach (02:09): Yay, yay. So just to let you know, listeners, we have been partaking already. So just jump into the water. The water is fine. Don't you just love running into a kindred spirit? And it is so easy to commune and have that conversation. So I honor you, Heather, for bringing that to the table today.
Heather O'Brien (02:22): Come on. It is good. It really is. Thank you, thank you. Yeah. I've already asked if you'll be my new weird best friend. I'm like, it's hard to come by someone who is in love with Jesus and doesn't think it's weird.
Kristen Wambach (02:53): No, not at all. Not at all. Yes, yes, yes. In our jumping in, all right, we've already dove into the pool. Now we can just hang out and ask some really good questions.
Chapter 2: The Struggle of Emotional Pain and Spiritual Performance(04:19 - 06:36)
Kristen Wambach (04:19): So, listeners, I know that you can relate with me on this: the exhausting good Christian. Okay? That paradox. We know scripture while privately experiencing a visceral, daily emotional overwhelm or numbness. Like, sometimes doesn't it just slap you in the face when you put your feet on the carpet in the morning? You just feel overwhelmed. Heather, you've shared so vulnerably that for years you knew the right spiritual language and you served faithfully, yet you were privately fighting cycles of emotional pain that you couldn't break. In our culture, there's a heavy, unvoiced shame around being a mature believer who is still secretly terrified or stuck. How do we help the person listening right now? How do we help ourselves? Let's just include ourselves into that conversation right now to dismantle the religious performance mask so that we can finally admit to ourselves and to God that we really need deliverance.
Heather O'Brien (05:26): Mm-hmm. You know, a lot of us Christians, we know something's wrong. That's not the problem. We know that we've just had an anxiety attack. We know that we've been crying and we don't know why. We know that we're overweight, we want to lose weight, and somehow we can't. We know that we—I mean, we know we're stuck. We know that we're praying and yet we're stuck. And so addressing the problem is not really the issue. We know there's a problem. Maybe saying it out loud is part of the problem. But the real thing is, it's not awareness. The problem is you don't know what to do with what you're aware of.
Kristen Wambach (06:04): Ooh, that's good right there. Can you say that again, please?
Heather O'Brien (06:08): Yeah, the awareness is not the problem. The problem is that we don't know what to do with what we are aware of.
Chapter 3: The Importance of Effective Prayer and Hearing God's Voice(06:37 - 11:43)
Heather O'Brien (06:37): We have been praying prayers. The struggle is we keep praying the same prayers. And I might hit a chord here for you for just a minute. Like, a lot of people know how to pray. And a lot of people I'm talking to, even among my students—I think it was the other day I was just talking with a student—she was telling me the beautiful prayers that she was praying. They were eloquent. They were scripture. Yes! But also, how are they working for you? And that's where we really have to kind of say, "Huh, I haven't really analyzed that. I'm just gonna do it because this feels like the right thing to do. This feels like the right prayer. This feels like the right scripture. So I'm just gonna keep praying it."
The moment that I really found the best help for myself and for other people is when I stop and say, "How's that working for me?" and just really be honest. Can we be honest for a minute? That prayer's not working. It might work for some other people. For instance, I was helping this one student, Emily. She wanted to know how to get free of this one struggle in her life. And that one struggle didn't make sense because all the prayers worked for every other struggle. She had all these kinds of addictions in her life; it was just crazy. But why wouldn't this other addiction go?
So I said, "Well, what prayer have you been praying?" And she said, "Well, I just asked God to take away that desire." Huh. And that actually worked for all of the other addictions, but not this one. And so doesn't that just ruffle your feathers just a little bit? Like, God, come on! What the what? And so I just had to plainly say, "Well, how's that working for you?" And she's like, "Well, it's not." And I'm like, "Okay, so can we do something different? Do we have permission to just start fresh here?" Prayer is the answer. Hearing God's voice is the answer. Talking to God is the answer. But sometimes He wants you to say something different.
Kristen Wambach (09:13): Amen. Amen.
Heather O'Brien (09:14): And so knowing the something different is the struggle. That's why we're stuck—we don't know the different thing to pray. And so we're continuing, basically, maybe it's like what Jesus said about babbling. He says, "Stop babbling." And I think sometimes our prayers are babbling because we're just repeating and we've got the repetition going on. And you know what? It's not working. He really wants an effective prayer. Prayer's just communication with God. And so if it's not effective, what's the point? It's like me and you just babbling. I mean, I want to get to know you. But if I already ask you where you're from and I keep asking you, "Well, where are you from? Well, where are you from? Well, where are you from?"—I mean, that's gonna get old at some point. I'm not gonna be interested in this conversation anymore. I don't think God checks out; He's way more patient than we are, but He would like a different question.
And so that's when—I love how you introduced me, you said the Spirit-led investigator. I'm like, ooh, I might need to put that on my badge right here! But that's where we can be an investigator that says, "Okay, when did this start?" We assess the situation. What's really here? What am I feeling? What am I believing whenever this thing happens again? So maybe your struggle is procrastination. Okay. Instead of just saying, "God, help me to quit being a procrastinator," how about you think about, "Well, God, when am I procrastinating? Around what?" Is it house cleaning? Is it doing that menial task that you don't want to do, like laundry or dishes? Are you procrastinating going to the dentist? Are you procrastinating going to your annual visit? Like, I bet it's more specific than you've ever given yourself permission to even think about. So when you think about it and you assess the situation—not to condemn, but to really investigate—ask: "When am I procrastinating? Is it just around certain tasks, or is it around certain people? Is it around certain times of the year, or certain times of the day?" Because when you start assessing the situation, you can really find out, "Okay, I can ask God a few more questions, like, why am I procrastinating this particular thing?" And then you start digging a little bit deeper. We can go from there. You can ask me some more questions. I know I've been like yapping for a hot minute, but--
Kristen Wambach (11:07): Yeah. There were a couple of things that seemed highlighted in that, Heather. So when we take the word prayer, there are some connotations there that we should probably just shake off. You know, if we open up the box of what we thought prayer or that communication with God is—how we've done it before, how we were taught to do it, how our parents taught us to do it, or what we understand—let's just open up that box, take the word prayer out, and allow it to be refreshed. Refreshed. And then the other word that seemed to be in this box that you were opening up was that word permission. I love that word. I love that word. And I get into that place where—the times that I know that prayer word, that conversation word, that listening architecture in my own spirit—I have to go, "Wait a minute." And I go, "Holy Spirit, I give You permission to communicate this to me."
Chapter 4: Permission and Conviction in Healing(11:44 - 16:09)
Heather O'Brien (11:44): Yes. Yes. So important. Permission's so important. You know, one of the best prayers to pray is Psalm 139, verses 23 to 24. It's David's prayer, and what he's doing is giving God permission to convict him. He says, "Search me, O God, test me and know my anxious thoughts. Point out anything in me that offends you, and lead me along the path of everlasting life." So what he did was give God permission to convict him. And conviction seems to be this, you know, naughty word. And I'm like, why? Well, I want to be pruned because pruning—okay, it hurts for a second, and then you repent and you grow exponentially farther. So you want healing with God? It takes a little bit of pruning sometimes. It takes a little bit of conviction, a little bit of repentance, a little bit of forgiving. Because all of that just stifles your growth. And so when you cut that off—you cut off the unforgiveness, you cut off some bitterness, you cut off some bad agreements—what have you got left? You've got growing, beautiful fruit, an abundant life with God. So permission's really important. It's a key. It's actually one of the number one things I would tell you to do today for your inner healing. Give God permission to convict you.
Kristen Wambach (13:07): Mm-hmm. I will agree with you. I will agree with you. One of my favorite nuances or personalities about Father God is Father God as a righteous judge. You go before the courts of heaven and you stand there where accusations are just, you know, called forth. And at that point, I love it because I go, "I'm sorry. Yeah, I agreed with that. Father, I'm sorry. Yes, I did agree with that." And that wonderful, wonderful place of—I've just given the Judge permission to sift out everything, every lie that the enemy has tried to attach to me. And the beautiful part of David's prayer there that you mentioned is let's go to the end of it, "so that he can live in everlasting life." So if we went here with everlasting life, which Jesus paid for for us to begin the eternal now, that's what we get by allowing Him to convict us. We get the fruit of that. It's so good.
Heather O'Brien (14:24): Yeah. Come on. It is good. It is good. And if you go back to John 10:10, the thief came to steal, kill, and destroy. But Jesus says, "But I came that you might have a rich and satisfying, abundant life," depending on what translation you listen to. I'm like, I want them all! I want all of those activities going on. A rich, satisfying, abundant life is what He wants for you. But the thief wants the opposite. He wants to steal your joy. He wants to deprive you of any peace. And he wants to kill you. He wants to kill your joy. He wants to kill your life. He wants to kill your marriage. He wants to kill your family relationships. He wants to kill your finances. He wants to kill every part of every nook and cranny of your life, and then ultimately, you. And God came to do the opposite. And so all you have to do is take on a sweet little posture: "Holy Spirit, I give You permission to convict me, to prune me, to trim me, so that I might have the abundant life." Yeah, why wouldn't you take that exchange? It's a beautiful exchange.
Chapter 5: Overcoming Fear and Shame(16:10 - 20:37)
Kristen Wambach (16:10): It is a beautiful exchange. And let's—we're gonna unpack that. Because there are times where fear will say, "Ooh, that isn't a beautiful exchange." For some odd reason, we might have relational issues with other people or some of our, you know, parental personalities in our life, and we take on those personalities, and that's not who God is. So when we give permission and engage in that pruning, sometimes the pruning is the personalities that aren't supposed to put labels on your life.
Heather O'Brien (16:48): That's right. That's a good point. Yeah, fear—and sometimes we let fear protect us. And we don't—I mean, saying that out loud is like, "No, we don't." But I'm gonna push back a little bit. I know I have. I know I've let fear keep me in isolation. I know I've let fear keep me small. I know I've let fear shut my mouth. I know I've let fear do a lot of things to, quote-unquote, "protect" me. However, it wasn't protecting me; it was keeping me small. It was keeping me in a little box. It was keeping me tidy. If you knew me now, I'm not the one that's gonna be tidy. I'm gonna scream to the rooftops, "Jesus loves you!" But fear says, "You're not safe over there." Guilt says, "You did something wrong. You can't move forward." Shame is gonna tell you, "You are what went wrong." And unforgiveness is going to tell you, "Well, if I release this, then justice might not ever happen."
And these are the things that we want to protect ourselves with because these are voices that we've been listening to, but they don't really define a child of God. I mean, Second Corinthians 10:5 says to take every thought captive and make it obey Christ. And that means that we don't let fear, guilt, shame, and unforgiveness preach to us all day. We bring those thoughts to Jesus and we ask: "Is this true? Should I be silent and go sit in the corner? Is this from You, God? What do You say instead, God?" So if you eliminate guilt, shame, and fear—don't pretend like they aren't there, but you bring them into the light, you repent, you renounce false agreements, you forgive where you need to, you declare God's truth—you're gonna find that you're living the abundant life that God intended for you to have.
It's not supposed to be so hard. However, if you're stuck, that's when I would say, "Hey, come along with someone who can point these things out to you." Because a lot of times we have voices talking to us that feel really reasonable. I know shame sounds really reasonable. I think I coached some students yesterday, and it was like, when the Holy Spirit revealed what He did, the whole group had our mouths wide open, jaws dropped, like—but that seemed so reasonable two seconds ago! And when the Holy Spirit exposed it for what it really was, and showed it wasn't twisted up in what felt like justice, it was like, "I've been holding on to that, and that's really gross." But now I can let it go because now I can see how gross it is. But you can't see that without the Holy Spirit shining His beautiful light on it. And sometimes you need someone else to come alongside you to do that. So, you know, get around the Body of Christ to help you do this. You don't have to do this alone. And sometimes you can't do it alone, and that's actually okay. God never meant for you to do it alone.
Chapter 6: The Spiritual Pet Compromise(20:38 - 27:09)
Kristen Wambach (20:38): Heather, I'm going to ask you some questions about your metaphor, your spiritual pet compromise—settling for hidden identity shifts or treating old anxieties or coping mechanisms like house pets, those familiar spirits like house pets that we feed rather than strongholds to break. You have a brilliant and highly out-of-the-box analogy about those spiritual pets—the stray compromise, the identity thieves that move into your internal house and multiply like wild country cats, feral cats. I just love the metaphor. And eventually, they start growing up to be like roaring tigers in our living room. Why is it so incredibly easy for believers to domesticate their trauma and make excuses for anxiety, and how do we practically stop feeding the spiritual pets before they take over the entire temple, which is ourselves?
Heather O'Brien (21:35): Yeah. Yeah. Well, okay, so here's my analogy. I had no pets before, and we live out in the country. We had a couple of cats come by, and my husband's like, "Let's get some cat food." And I didn't know any better. We started feeding some cats outside. The two cats—we looked at them one day and were like, "They're both pregnant." And then they both had babies on the same day. So I went from never having a pet before to 22 cats that I had to figure out how to feed. And they were all outside cats. And I use this analogy for the spiritual compromise in our life because, what's up? One: I compromised my porch, my driveway, because we had 22 cats. Guess what came whenever I fed them outside? Ants and their mess! There were paw prints all over my car. There was a lot of mess going on. And then I had to buy the food. Can you imagine the bags of cat food that I had to buy? Like, they were bigger than me! And so the money—there was money involved. And you think about that, and it's like, okay, I stepped in their mess, I had to clean up their mess, I had to feed their mess. Like, it was a continual process.
And compromising our life spiritually looks like—well, let's just go with a lie. Like, "Well, I just kind of gave a little white lie," but then someone asked you a question, and you had to take that white lie and turn it into a green lie, and then it folded over into a pink lie. Like, there was just this big ball of mess until you didn't even know what the truth was anymore, and you were just stuck. That's what compromise is. One compromise equals a ton of sin. It just builds. It builds and builds and builds. And that's what we do with fear. One little compromise over this identity shift, like: "I should go sit in the corner and be quiet. I should feel guilty. I should be afraid of what other people think about me. I should be afraid that they're abandoning me. Or, you know, they haven't messaged me back, they probably hate me. They probably are mad at me. Maybe they died." Like, there are just all these "what-ifs" that go on in our mind.
And what those are are little, tiny identity shifts, like: I should be afraid of abandonment, I should be afraid of loneliness, I should be afraid of XYZ, whatever it is. And so we take on this guilt, the shame, and the fear as identities at some point. They turn into our identities. And until you clean up that mess a little bit at a time, a little bit at a time, it's going to overtake your life. It'll affect how you respond to people, it'll affect your finances, it'll affect your work situation. I had someone come to the workshop recently who was dealing with outbursts of anger. And even her workplace was experiencing this, and they asked her to come to my workshop. They said, "Would you please take time off and go?" And I'll tell you, when we get down to the bottom of it, it's maybe not what you think. It's not really these little things—what is it, the things that spoil you? It's not the little things. It was—yeah, she had a ton of little foxes in her life.
Kristen Wambach (25:26): The little foxes, that one.
Heather O'Brien (25:32): But really, the truth is, it came in at a very, very young age. So it seemed like there was this big, giant tiger in her life that she let loose, but it started with the tiny cat that she fed outside. I don't know if that makes sense. But she got a letter when she was a really, really young little girl, and her mom had just decided to abandon her and leave her. That's a terrible story. She took on the fear of abandonment. And then from there—I mean, can you imagine how much sadness is there? And then you don't grieve it, and you don't know what to do with it as a young child, and then it turns into anger, and then it turns into bitterness, then it turns into rage. Right. So this is what it looks like to have compromise in your life. It's like feeding this outside pet, and it turns into an inside pet, and then it turns into a roaring tiger that's just roaming loose in your house. And so if we don't deal with these little identity compromises, we end up affecting everything. And this story is all in the No Fear Allowed book. If you want to grab that book and workbook, that's all in there. If you really are dealing with fear, I'd say go check out that book, No Fear Allowed.
Kristen Wambach (26:40): Mm. Mm-hmm. I love that. Great answer. I love the cats. And we forgot about all the fleas and the other stuff that they bring into the house. The fleas not only attach themselves to the cats and you, but anybody else in the house. So it's a metaphor that keeps on giving.
Heather O'Brien (27:00): Oh my goodness, yeah. Come on, that's it!
Chapter 7: Experiencing God's Love and Healing(27:10 - 28:18)
Heather O'Brien (27:10): It keeps on going. It really does. And especially if you've ever had a cat, you really get it. They can tell you a lot about what a spiritual pet is doing in your life. And it might even seem like—I have an inside cat now, and she's like, nonchalant, doesn't do anything but sit in the sun and bother you occasionally. But you think about that spiritual pet in your life—it only bothers you when it's hungry. It only bothers you when it needs a little pet. And when is that? Is that when you get a financial bill and you're like, "I can't pay this"? Is that when your one friend does this one thing that you wish they would never do, but they did it again? Here they go. It only hits occasionally, but still, it's still bothering you. It's still in there.
Kristen Wambach (27:55): Yeah. Yes. Yes. Yes. Uh-huh. Yeah, that's a great story. That's a great story. Yeah. Yeah, because I love metaphors and I love the visual. I was going, and it was hidden in the sunshade, you know. And I was thinking, the sunshade is what blocks you from the heat of the day. So, okay people, you can just run with that one on your own.
Heather O'Brien (28:16): Beautiful visual, right? It was the grossest thing. Come on now, it was hidden. Uh-huh. Uh-huh.
Chapter 8: Navigating Religious Legalism and Emotionalism(28:19 - 29:39)
Kristen Wambach (28:19): Okay, I'm going to drive this a little bit more personal. Let's take a little bit of a turn here and kind of address religious legalism. You know, we have rules, no spirit, we get freaked out about the supernatural. Sometimes we have like a hyper-emotionalism. Sometimes the church says, "No feelings, squash them, you're not to feel." But the feeling, the experiential things, like you just said—you heard God because you experienced the vibration moving in your body. So you could feel the atmosphere, that you were technically seated in heavenly places, feeling. That's where you were. But sometimes legalism doesn't allow us to have that relational anchor—an anchor in the supernatural, or maybe our physical eyes can't see but our spiritual eyes can see quite clearly.
Chapter 9: Hearing God: The Equation of Truth(29:40 - 30:26)
Kristen Wambach (29:40): You teach a unique equation for hearing God clearly: 10 plus seven equals 17, where the 10 laws of Moses meet the seven spirits of God, meaning the Word plus the Spirit equals absolute Truth. He is just welcomed into the room right there. For the individual whose brain is constantly buzzing with confusion, spiritual static, or a bit too much scrolling on their phone, how does this formula act as a hard defensive shield against deceptive, lying voices of the enemy?
Chapter 10: Skepticism in Prayer and Healing(30:27 - 32:50)
Heather O'Brien (30:27): I guess really the root of it is you might be skeptical. You might be skeptical of that prayer, or ask, "Was this God's voice, or my voice? Or how does a formula really work?" And I'm like, well, let's talk about that for just a minute. I really get it because a lot of people have prayed. I prayed, I read the books, counseling, you tried to forgive. A lot of people say, "I've already forgiven. What else you got?" I get that. And I'm never going to tell you just get over it, because that's not the answer either. So if someone's saying prayer can bring healing, and you're saying that sounds too simple, I'm going to say this: Prayer has been ineffective because you've been praying generally when God wanted to lead you specifically. And you might be skeptical of the feelings and things, and maybe that's fair. Maybe that's fair. Feelings don't define that God's there. He might actually enhance your feelings and things like that, especially at the very beginning of your relationship with Him, because He wants to confirm it. But also, He might pull back a little bit and see if you still believe by faith, because isn't that the foundation of our faith? We believe by faith that Jesus is who He says He is, and that He died on the cross for us.
And so, what I'm saying is, instead of saying, "God, just take this anxiety away," for instance, and then hoping something happens, why don't we just change the prayer and make it more specific? Right? And then it's like, well, what is this anxiety connected to? What belief is underneath this? When did this begin? Well, God, do I need to repent of anything, forgive anyone, release anything, declare something? Because there is a next right step. But the Holy Spirit wants to show you what that next right step is instead of you just throwing out all the prayers that you need to pray, basically. And so, I understand the cynic, I understand the skeptic, I understand that you've already tried it. But have you tried to be more specific according to what God is saying? Not according to what you've already done, but according to what God is saying now. Have you tried what He's saying now? Do you know what He's saying right now?
Chapter 11: The Journey to True Healing(32:51 - 34:41)
Heather O'Brien (32:51): And I guess I want to go a little bit deeper because a lot of times people say, for instance, like, "I've already forgiven, I already did that thing." And I get that. But what if there's another layer? Is God allowed to point out anything else? Because when you say you've already done it, it's almost like a slap in the face, like, "Well, I'm already done. Let me close that box right now." And God's like, "I really want to help her heal, but she won't even open the box back up." And maybe we're scared of that box. Maybe we're scared of opening that box again.
But true healing means there is no more fear. True healing means I can open that box anytime. I can talk about it, I can testify about it, because it's all about Jesus giving glory right now. You want to open that box and give God glory. That's what—the testimony of Jesus is the spirit of prophecy. So if I want to prophesy to you, I'll tell you, man, Jesus radically saved me, healed me, and delivered me, and I can tell you all the nitty-gritty details. And so when you can't tell the details, I'm going to say, why are you afraid of that? And God wants to heal that. So yes, you can be skeptical, but also, can you be open-handed a little bit more? Can you let God back in just another minute and say, "Okay, I think I forgave, but God, is there anything else I need to forgive?" Can you say, "God, I feel like this anxiety doesn't mean anything, I'm just anxious. But also, Heather said I should ask You some more questions. So, is there something specific I'm afraid of?" Would you just go a little bit deeper? Because I think that God wants us to just be a little bit more open-handed. He's not afraid of your skepticism. He's not afraid of your questions. He's not afraid of a few more questions. Could you just be in a conversation with Him and just ask Him some more questions about it instead of acting like you've already got it figured out? Even if you still have the struggle, you're not done.
Chapter 12: Investigating the Root of Issues(34:42 - 37:38)
Kristen Wambach (34:42): I do have my phone on do not disturb, so—it was my ch-ching from my Etsy store! It was right there, so I'm thinking, that was a prophetic ch-ching.
Heather O'Brien (34:58): That was on the money! That's what that was—on the money. Come on. Mm-hmm. Okay.
Kristen Wambach (34:59): To piggyback around around that again—not behind it, around it—because I have heard that in my own life and with other people who I mentor and encourage: "Been there, done that, already did that," you know. But if it's still manifesting in your life, you're not finished.
Heather O'Brien (35:29): Uh-huh. Yeah. You know, I got a funny story about this. Like, this is literal, this just happened a couple of weeks ago. I was smelling this rotten milk smell in my car. And I went fishing—like, what happened? No, I still have young kids. Okay. Well, I had dropped off a kid at camp, and we had picked up lunch on the way, and I forgot to check back there. He's not even in the car, he's not even at home. Well, he had chicken nuggets and a milkshake back there. Okay. So I throw that out. A couple of days later, the smell is still there. And this goes back to your point. The smell is still there. There's still rotten fruit. And so I investigate. And I investigated about three more times, and that smell was still there and getting grosser. But I couldn't find anything, couldn't find anything. And so I really understand your pain when you're saying, "I've already forgiven. I've already done deliverance. I've already been to the altar. I've already prayed the prayers. I've already done it." I really feel your pain.
But I prayed and I was like, "Holy Spirit, why is my car smelling?" And He revealed it in the most crazy way. I pulled out the back sunshades to my car. And when I pulled them out to put them over my windshield, I smelt the smell even stronger. So guess what? There was another milkshake. There was another milkshake that had exploded in the pocket of the passenger seat—my little kid's. And I—so there were two milkshakes. Do you get it? There was a milkshake from Chick-fil-A, and there was a homemade milkshake from a protein shake. I'm like, I don't even know when I made it! It had exploded, it was rotten, and it was the grossest mess ever. And I'm telling you, the smell is revealing there's rotten fruit. And so you keep saying, "I've already done it, I've already done it, I've already done it," and I'm like, but is the smell still there? Can you investigate a little bit? There's probably another milkshake.
Chapter 13: Resource Drought and Spiritual Abundance(37:39 - 39:11)
Kristen Wambach (37:39): Yeah. Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. Uh-huh. Yeah, that's a great story. That's a great story. Yeah. Yeah, because I love metaphors and I love the visual. I was thinking, and it was hidden in the sunshade, you know. And I was thinking, the sunshade is what blocks you from the heat of the day. So, okay people, you can just run with that one on your own.
Heather O'Brien (38:20): Beautiful visual, right? It was the grossest thing. Come on now, it was hidden. Uh-huh. Uh-huh.
Kristen Wambach (38:24): Okay, I'm going to drive this a little bit more personal. Let me give you a scenario. If we're navigating a severe resource drought where you've been a faithful, raw kingdom worker, but it's not matching up with the external financial facts. And we know what Paul talks about, being in that oneness, yet he was still in prison. So sometimes it leaves us waiting on—I'm not going to say just a word from God. It means the manifestation of the word from God that you have been stewarding and holding. So leaving the asset completely, like we put it up on the Judge's bench. We have gone after it, taken care of the accusations, and it's there just waiting. And there's like this white-knuckling of a performance engine.
Chapter 14: Questions that Uncover Spiritual Roots(39:12 - 40:39)
Kristen Wambach (39:12): I'm moving on here. Heather, I want to bring this straight into the courtroom of real life for all of us listening who are caught in that intense, high-pressure standoff. The subject matter could change, but we know that there's abundance there, but we're right there in that high pressure. And sometimes that pressure cooker is just trying to get some of those triggers to jump back on us again. We love Jesus deeply. We're fearlessly tracking with our sovereign assignments. Yet on a practical Monday morning, the kingdom platforms are producing zero revenue. External facts look like financial prison cells. They're physically and emotionally exhausting, and wrestling with that false baseline belief—we're just wrestling with this. You teach that God reveals roots through questions. When a leader is sitting in that exact resource drought—and that word resources is very open, whether it's healing, whether it's financial release resources, whether it's connection, open doors, we know that the resource word is pregnant—what are the three deep questions that need to be asked to Holy Spirit to expose the root of the exhaustion, to be able to leave our concerns sitting safely on the Judge's bench right there on the mercy seat, and let God take total responsibility for His own promise?
Chapter 15: The Importance of Being Open-Handed(40:40 - 43:08)
Heather O'Brien (40:40): Okay, so that's deep. That's deep. And I'm imagining several scenarios over here. Personally, I know what it feels like to have that oxymoron. I'm a Jesus lover, I'm doing exactly what He said, yet I don't see the fruit. And I have felt Him kind of come back and say, "Okay, is the fruit up to Me or not?"
Kristen Wambach (41:04): Yes.
Heather O'Brien (41:05): "Okay, so if the fruit's up to You, God, why aren't You showing it?" And He's like, "Well, there are some blockages." And I know we always think we're done, but if there's not fruit, there's proof that you're not done. And I guess I've just got to go back to that perspective of, like, I know you think you already did it, but a lot of times the Holy Spirit shows me there's one more thing holding up the line. And sometimes there are many things. And I think we're too scared of that. We're scared of it feeling so overwhelming. And so God knows that, and He takes us down a journey. He takes us down a journey of one thing at a time. And I'm like, "God, I did everything You said. I did this, I did that, I did that." And He showed me the whole plan. And then I say, "What am I missing?" That's one of the best questions you can ever ask God. "What am I missing?" and sit there and let Him tell you. I have found so much fruit from that one question: "What am I missing?"
Now, I know a list of things that I could be missing. I mean, it could be, do I need to forgive anyone? Have I come into an agreement that I shouldn't be in agreement with? Is there something, you know—so what am I not aware of? Like, sometimes you just don't know what to pray. And that's the best place to be, if I could be honest with you. "God, what am I missing?" And if you can sit still for a minute, He's gonna show you something that's gonna be like—and then, if I could be so bold, the next question would be: "God, would You help me to be open-handed with this and be able to come back to You and ask You again, what am I missing?" Because we often think we're done and we just run with it, and we're like, "Okay, where's the fruit?" And He's like, "I wasn't quite done talking. I just gave you the one thing because I didn't want to overwhelm you." And we ran with it. We ran with it. And so if you could go back and you could do some more investigative work: "God, when did this start? What am I believing? What do You say is true?" There are a lot of good, great questions, but one of the best questions that you could ask three times is: "God, what am I missing?" and continue to be open-handed with it. You're really gonna find that God loves to continue the conversation later instead of you saying, "Okay, I'm done." And when you start seeing the fruit, don't think that you've got it all figured out, because you probably don't. Just keep asking, "How can I optimize this?" especially when it comes to finances, because He wants you to live an abundant life. So if you're just now being able to pay the bills, now it's like, "Okay, God, how do I pay the bills and add to savings?" Right? So it's like that with our healing journey. It's like that with our finances; it's like that with our relationships. "God, we're not arguing anymore, that's great. But how can I, like, fall back in love with them again? And how can we stay in love again?" Like, you can keep building with God. It doesn't have to be just this mediocre, "Okay, I've arrived," and let's move on from there. Like, keep building.
Chapter 16: Connecting with Heather O'Brien(43:09 - 45:22)
Kristen Wambach (43:09): Thank you. I have a couple of things cooking in the brain. I'm going, okay, do we do both things, God, or do—yeah. So, I have a prophetic idea for us, but I'd like you again to share with our listeners about your workshop, your book, remind us again where can we find you? Would you please let us know how we can connect with you?
Heather O'Brien (43:42): Yeah. Yes, yes, yes, yes. Okay. So sometimes you just need help slowing down to hear what God is actually saying and get down to the root of the struggle, and then you want to know what to pray. You want to do what we're talking about. That's why I created the Heal with God Workshop. So go to HealWithGodWorkshop.com. It's a free online event that happens every month where I give you a Spirit-led framework to help you identify what's really underneath the symptom, hear God more clearly, and then know the next right step to take in your healing journey. Because the symptom's not your identity, the struggle's not the whole story, and God's not confused about how to heal what you've been carrying. Go to HealWithGodWorkshop.com, you can sign up for that. And you can find the Heal with God book and the Heal with God podcast anywhere that you look for books and podcasts.
Kristen Wambach (44:53): Mm-hmm. And your main website is what?
Heather O'Brien (44:59): Yeah, HeatherOBrien.net.
Kristen Wambach (45:01): There you go. Yay. Wonderful. And yes, listeners, as you know, if you've been listening for a while, all of those links and goodies will be in the show notes. Because some of you are driving to work and you can't just log those things down, I have everything for you in the show notes. Just click on over and it'll be so easy to connect with Heather.
Chapter 17: Pruning Roots for Spiritual Growth(45:23 - 54:13)
Kristen Wambach (45:23): Now, Heather, this is what I saw in the spirit, and I'm going to lay down the prophetic thing that I thought because I feel you praying through that. What I saw—because we've talked a lot about, you know, pruning and forgiving and all those wonderful inner healing and deliverance things that we already know to do and have done, been doing it for years; we're mature people walking in loving Jesus—but what I saw is, I went, "Ooh, it's been a while." So sometimes we assume pruning happens above ground. But we forget sometimes we have plants that have been in a pot for such a long time they become root-bound. And any master gardener at some point in time would pull the plant out and prune the roots and put it back in fresh soil. And that's what I am pulling from you in the gold as an activation. Would you lead us through pruning some of those actual roots that are below ground?
Heather O'Brien (46:37): Wow. Yeah. All right, Holy Spirit, show me what to do. God, I just thank You. I thank You for the listeners. I thank You for the warriors who are root-bound—and isn't that all of us at some time? I just thank You for what You're doing in each and every one of the listeners right now. I ask that You would show them the names of the roots, that they would be able to identify the name of the struggle, because sometimes naming the thing is the hardest part of it. They only see the fruit, but they don't know the name of the root. And I'm asking, God, that You would give them the name of what they are afraid of. They know it's the spirit of fear, but of what? What is really underground? Is it fear of abandonment, fear of loneliness, fear of the unknown? There is a specific name that's gonna untap the mystery that they have been seeking. And once they have the name of the thing, then they can actually prune it with You. Thank you, Jesus. Thank you, Father. Thank you, Holy Spirit, for that name.
Yeah, that's usually the investigative work that I do with each and every person that works with me—naming the thing. And it's not always something that you just don't know. I just don't think that we know it apart from the Holy Spirit. I'm often amazed, and my jaw is dropping like, "Whoa, what was that?" I mean, yesterday we had students, and every single one of them left with a very specific name for the root that made no sense until the Holy Spirit connected it. I must say, unless the Holy Spirit reveals it to you, you might not know this, but I'm praying right now the Holy Spirit will. And take time to listen, 'cause He'll show you. He'll show you.
Kristen Wambach (48:47): Absolutely. Absolutely. I'm going to add another couple of metaphors to that root-bound pot while we're sitting in this pregnant moment where what Heather just released is working. It's working. So I encourage you, listeners, just put your hand on your heart. Let me just talk metaphorically so that Holy Spirit uses this time, this quiet place, this listening place, so that Heather's word and her faith can go forth and the anointing that's on her life will rake it through.
So, I have citrus trees that are on my pergola right now, and I replanted them a couple of years ago. But remember, when we have pots, sometimes the roots can be overgrown and root-bound. There are times that your pot gets so full that literally you need to take a drill and open up the waterways, because some plants hate to have wet toes. You've got to get the flow going so that the water can go through instead of holding in and becoming stagnant. I have a very large potted tree—it's a curly willow—and it's terribly due for me to go in and prune its roots so that, in the pruning of the roots, it allows the resources from the soil to actually feed the mass of the tree that we enjoy seeing above. And I wanted to point out in this metaphorical picture that when you're allowing Holy Spirit to prune some of the roots, what it does is it takes away the fight from stealing resources from the taproot. And that taproot is where you're connected to Jesus in the spirit. So you've got your spirit, your soul, and your body, and it just opens up the flow—that taproot. Anything else you want to piggyback on that, Heather?
Heather O'Brien (51:05): Wow. That was deep. That was deep. I think, you know, the deeper the roots go into Jesus, the more you can have more and more abundant life. I think that we have to remember that. You're allowed to have more. You're allowed to have more. You're allowed to go deeper with Him. And everybody listening already loves Jesus, they already know all this stuff. But I'm saying, dude, there's more! There is more. And the trimming really brings the more.
Kristen Wambach (51:41): It does. It does. Heather, thank you for spending this time with us. Thank you for opening up the vat of the well of who you are and sharing yourself with us today.
Heather O'Brien (51:54): Yeah. This has been an awesome, awesome, Spirit-filled conversation. I'm so excited that I got to meet you and got to have this time together with you. I pray that the listeners are blessed as much as I've been blessed.
Kristen Wambach (52:07): Thank you again.
Chapter 18: Outro and Spiritually Brave Closing Thoughts(54:14 - End)
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The Silent Epidemic of the Front Pew
Heather O’Brien lived this exact paradox for years. She knew the vocabulary, she was a dedicated homeschool "boy mom," and she never missed a service—yet she was secretly fighting brutal cycles of internal panic. The turning point arrived when she dropped the exhausting performance mask and answered a direct, whisper-quiet commission from the Holy Spirit: "Will you purify my bride?"
The breakthrough began the moment she realized that awareness of a problem isn't the same thing as healing. We know when we are anxious; we know when we are procrastinating or burning out. The real barrier is that we don't know what to do with what we are aware of. Instead of moving into specific communication, we tend to throw generalized, repetitive phrases at the ceiling, turning our prayer life into ineffective babbling that yields zero real-world momentum.
Domesticating the Tiger: The Feral Cat Compromise
The mess was everywhere—paws on the cars, fleas, tracking in dirt, and a massive financial bill just to keep them fed.
This is precisely how compromise functions in our spiritual architecture. It starts with one tiny, seemingly harmless identity shift: I should probably just sit in the corner and stay silent. I should feel guilty. I am probably going to be abandoned. We feed these minor anxieties and coping mechanisms like little house pets, thinking we have them under control. But compromise multiplies exponentially. Before you know it, those tiny outside cats have moved into your living room, completely untamed, roaring like wild tigers through outbursts of anger, road rage, or paralyzing fear. You cannot domesticate your trauma and expect to live in an abundant home. You have to stop feeding what is actively trying to destroy your temple.
CONNECT WITH HEATHER O BRIEN
Heal with God is here to help you finally break free. This book isn’t just a collection of ideas. It’s a faith-filled, step-by-step framework that teaches you how to hear God’s voice clearly, find emotional and spiritual healing, and walk in lasting freedom. Inside, you’ll discover practical guidance for
- Breaking cycles of shame, guilt, and self-doubt
- Overcoming anxiety, depression, and mental fatigue
- Forgiving those who hurt you or left before giving closure
- Rebuilding confidence in your identity in Christ
- Walking in peace, purpose, and a consistent connection with God
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Whether you’re seeking clarity, freedom, or a stronger connection with God, Heal with God offers hope for your heart, a roadmap for your soul, and practical ways to walk in victory every day. Your healing journey doesn’t have to wait. God is ready to meet you where you are, and this book will show you the way one step, one prayer, and one truth at a time.
The Hidden Milkshake and Root-Bound Faith
Days later, the stench was even grosser. She prayed, asked the Holy Spirit to show her the source, and pulled down the back sunshades. There, hidden deep inside the passenger seat pocket, was a second, completely forgotten protein shake that had exploded in the heat.
The spiritual lesson is uncompromised: the lingering smell proves there is still rotten fruit, which means there is another milkshake hidden in the shadows. True healing requires us to be open-handed enough to let the Holy Spirit shine His light into the boxes we think we’ve already closed.
During our conversation, this revelation triggered a profound shift. True inner healing isn't just about trimming dead leaves above ground. Often, high-capacity leaders become completely "root-bound," like a plant that has outgrown its pot. The roots become so tightly wound and congested that stagnant waters back up, choking out the main taproot. When you allow the Holy Spirit to prune those roots below ground and drill open the waterways, it eliminates the exhausting internal fight for survival and clears the flow so your spirit can drink deeply from Jesus again.
The Strategy for the Resource Drought
The antidote is to step squarely into the courtroom of heaven, leave the asset completely on the Judge’s bench, and implement Heather’s primary strategy. You must sit perfectly still, remove all distractions, and ask the Holy Spirit three times deep:
"God, what am I missing?"
Stop trying to manufacture the emotional high or manage the execution of a vision that belongs to the Father. When you ask Him what you are missing, He will bypass your surface symptoms, identify the specific name of the root under the soil, and take total responsibility for His own promise. You are allowed to have more than a mediocre, surviving faith. Give the Righteous Judge permission to prune the background static so you can step into the rich, satisfying, effortless momentum of the eternal now.
The deeper the roots go into Jesus, the more abundant life you can have. You're allowed to have more." — Heather O'Brien
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The pain I have experienced has given me a heart for those who have experienced trauma and pain.” —Kate Massey
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What do you do when your internal world doesn't match your Sunday morning theology? You love God, but trauma, anxiety, or deep pain leaves you feeling stuck. Many of us have been taught to "suck it up" and rely on willpower, but that approach often leaves us spiritually malnourished.
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- Redefine Your Architecture: Past pain shapes your choices. Invite God into the raw truth of that ache to stop trauma from holding the steering wheel.
- The Blueprint of Surrender: True humility is accepting that you aren't the painter of your life. Your worth is an immutable reality already settled by the Artist.
- Gifts and Resilience: Unresolved friction often signals undeveloped spiritual gifts—like mercy or discernment—that require a mature community to anchor.
- The 18-Inch Journey: Head knowledge cannot heal a broken heart. Use the Free PDF Listener Guide to bridge this gap and move kingdom truth into your physical body this week.
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You do not have the authority to tell the Artist what He created. You do not get to define your worth; Jesus already settled that on the cross.” —Kate Massey
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Kristen Wambach (00:01.922) Welcome back to the show, everyone. You know that on this podcast, we are all about—you know that in this podcast, we are all about stepping into a space where we can live spiritually brave, engaging in those soul-stirring conversations that bring heaven's perspective right here down to the earth. Today I am so incredibly honored to welcome a truly kindred spirit to the microphone.
Kate Massey is a licensed professional counselor, a gifted storyteller, and now the author of the beautiful new debut book, Purpose in the Pain. Kate brings this gorgeous rare combination of clinical expertise and deep unfiltered Christian faith. She operates as a real investigative journalist of the heart.
Taking us through her own survival of trauma, her education at Liberty University, and the moments where Holy Spirit met her on the bathroom floor and in the revival pool to change everything. Kate, I have just finished reading Purpose in the Pain and your vulnerability broke my heart wide open in the best way possible. Welcome to the show.
Kate Massey (01:14.115) Okay.
Kate Massey (01:24.355) Thank you so much. That means a lot. Thank you.
Kristen Wambach (01:29.364) Yay, yay! Now, listeners, because I just finished reading Kate's book, I thought it would be fun if I just set up the questions right from her quotes, right from the time the—the quotes that I highlighted in the book that I wanted to talk to her about. So our first quote, this is just so cute and the metaphor is so deep. It's wonderful.
She says, "The pain I have experienced has given me a heart for those who have experienced trauma and pain. In the Lion King, Rafiki hit Simba on the head with a stick. And Simba looked at him asking, 'What was that for?' And Rafiki said to Simba, 'It doesn't matter, it's in the past.' Simba says, 'Yeah, but it still hurts.'" Mm mm mm mm mm. That's such a great metaphor, Kate.
You use this brilliantly to illustrate from the Lion King show how we try to minimize past trauma. As a counselor, you see people trying to move on while their bodies and minds are still screaming that it hurts. How do we stop running from the stick? Stop pretending it doesn't hurt, and actually invite God into the raw truth of that ongoing pain?
Kate Massey (02:59.725) First thing is we have to be honest with ourselves. There are a lot of times when we've gone through pain or traumas, it's tough for us to bring it up. There can be very many reasons for this. A lot of times we don't want to admit what we've been through to ourselves. And we think it's a whole lot easier if we just shove it to the side, but that's not the case. And when we do that, it's still affecting us day in and day out, right?
It affects how you interact with other people and things like that. And a lot of times we're like, no, that's not affecting it. But if we really look at our responses and our actions to things around us, we see where our past, no matter what your past is, whether it's pain and trauma or whether it's, you know, rainbows and unicorns, whatever it is, it still affects how you process the world around you. And having that truthful moment and saying, okay, these are some areas where I see where I need growth, right? And that's a hard conversation to have with ourselves. But it's so necessary because it impacts everything. The decisions you make, how you interact with others, what you believe, everything stems from that.
Kristen Wambach (04:22.582) Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. I recently shared on another podcast a moment that Holy Spirit said, "Kristen, would you stop doing that? Would you stop saying sucking it up?" Because that was the language I told myself. I just sucked it up. I was raised with three brothers. I'm the parent of four sons. So, in all that testosterone, tell me, I'm kind of used to saying let's suck it up until another time. And Holy Spirit got in my face and said, "Don't do that anymore. If you do that, you keep me from being the comforter in your life."
Kate Massey (04:49.951) Yeah.
Kristen Wambach (05:06.264) Changed everything for me. Changed and--
Kate Massey (05:08.865) Yep. And a lot of times when we're looking at those instances, it's not just that He wants to be our comforter because that's who He is, but it's also protection. When we've gone through pains and we've gone through trauma, our initial response is, I've got to protect myself. And news flash, that's not your job.
That's God's job. And that's a hard truth for us to admit to ourselves. But with that, like if we just took a split second and recognized that God was there in the pain, in the trauma with you—He never left you. He might have allowed it to happen, but if He's allowed it to happen, there's a reason that He allowed it to happen. How would our thoughts and our beliefs shift if we focused on: "Okay, this is what He was trying to teach me in this moment," instead of "how dare He let this happen to me."
Kristen Wambach (06:08.236) Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. Can you help us to unpack? Because sometimes I notice with myself those self-coping skills will just jump in there, you know, like, and they just look so much like Kristen. Sometimes it's hard to recognize them because they just jump up. How have you learned in your relationship with God to allow him, give him the permission to say hello, that—that's a Kristen or that's a Kate coping skill? Can we talk about that? How has He unpacked that for you?
Kate Massey (06:45.804) For me, I do daily declarations. And one of them is that I am open to Holy Spirit coming in and showing me through other people, through situations, where I need to grow. And it's every day laying that down, saying it verbally, it's just a symbol of me laying it at Jesus' feet and saying, okay, show me where I need to grow.
Kristen Wambach (07:11.15) Mm-hmm.
Kate Massey (07:14.794) What are the areas where I'm still messing up? Because we're all human. You're never gonna not mess up. That's not going to be possible. And so if we went to God and we said, okay, show me what you need to show me. Show me the next thing that I need to work on. Because we all have a lot that we need to work on. But there are things that are going to be more priority for you than it would be for me. And vice versa. So if we allowed God to show us what He wants for us to work on first.
Kristen Wambach (07:36.994) Agree.
Kate Massey (07:50.391) Because if we're able to do that, we're able to walk in our calling. Until we allow him to come in and heal that and show us areas where we're not where we're supposed to be, we can't fully walk where He wants us to walk. But I think it's just so important for us to recognize God is not forceful. He's not going to make you see anything.
There has to be a willingness on our side to say, okay, God, I want to be more like you. What do I need to do to get there? And if you start asking yourself that and asking him that, I'm telling you from experience, it shifts your life.
Kristen Wambach (08:37.12) Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. Yes. And she's prophetic because she was reading my little notes here that I was taking down. That okay, what happens if you struggle with feeling safe with God? I mean, we—we can actually have those difficulties of: God, I just—I don't feel safe with you. And it's not because His nature has ever done anything or stepped down the line. It's how we learned about him. What—what's a little tool that we could apply to get that—that safety shored up?
Kate Massey (09:18.528) The biggest tool is going to be His word. And so looking at who He is in scripture and seeing how that correlates with your life, right? In the book, I talk about a bunch of traumas I've been through. And it is very easy for us to sit there and say, You allowed me to go through these things. How dare you? Right. But when we shift that perspective of--
Kristen Wambach (09:21.474) Mm-hmm.
Kate Massey (09:48.886) He was with me in those moments. The moments that I cried, that I was feeling tortured, He was right there. He never left me. He never looked at that and said, that makes you unworthy of me.
Kristen Wambach (09:57.389) Mm.
Kristen Wambach (10:01.966) Mm-hmm.
Kate Massey (10:03.403) Instead, He welcomed me in at that time, even if I didn't realize it. And shifting our perspective of—ask him. He'll answer you. If you ask him questions like that, He will answer you. Ask him to show you himself, who He really is.
Kristen Wambach (10:22.441) I agree.
Kate Massey (10:24.288) And writing it down too is a huge thing of when you're—because we all have those days where we're like, God, why did you make this happen? Why are you allowing this to happen? You know, and we just get so frustrated with God. But if we allow ourselves to sit there and say, okay, today might not be going the way that I think it should, or the way that I would hope it would. But in the past, this is where God has provided for me. This is where He's taken care of me.
Kristen Wambach (10:51.374) Mm-hmm.
Kate Massey (10:53.811) Use your own life as evidence for where He has been.
Kristen Wambach (10:59.928) Mm-hmm.
Kate Massey (11:01.108) He's been there the whole time.
Kristen Wambach (11:03.232) Agree with you all the time. Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. And in—in my agreement with Kate, in all the different modalities of inner healing that I have had the privilege to receive and then turn around and actually administer--
Kate Massey (11:04.778) It's our perspective shift.
Kristen Wambach (11:24.218) I ha—have seen countless times where Jesus shows the person going through the inner healing that He was right there all the time. All the time. Over and over and over again. Now I—I'm gonna to take what you shared with me there because I just went, I'm gonna ask her perspective on this. What I'm more the A personality in your face. I'm very focused person. But what I find a struggle for me is I don't say, God, why are you allowing this? I sometimes get caught in the, I must be missing something. I must be—you know, I—I'm—I—I'm missing something. And then I put that on myself. Ugh.
Kate Massey (12:17.281) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (12:20.62) Yeah, I—yeah, that's just a—a struggle that—that I see. Well, I know God is good. This is not him. And so I go, okay, what do I do so that—because if I take on the absolute responsibility, then I'm not surrendered. And then I go round and round and round. Have any suggestions for me?
Kate Massey (12:45.055) With that again it is using Bible verses in that moment to say, okay, God, I surrender. I'm laying this at your feet and choosing—a lot of times when we don't think about it this way, but when we're turning it on ourselves--
Kristen Wambach (12:52.034) Mm-hmm.
Kate Massey (13:01.409) Who are you focusing on? Are you focusing on God or yourself? So who are you expecting to fix the situation? And a lot of times we don't see how, you know, humility is talked about in the Bible. But part of humility is us accepting that God is in control. He has the ultimate control.
Kristen Wambach (13:13.634) Yep.
Kristen Wambach (13:20.088) Mm-hmm.
Kate Massey (13:28.895) And us holding on to that is a huge, huge aspect for how we walk our lives. If we get so focused on ourselves, whether it be positive or negative, you're not able to live and see things the way that God wants you to.
Kate Massey (13:51.553) And that can be hard for us to accept.
Kristen Wambach (13:54.572) Mm-hmm.
Kate Massey (13:55.99) But we need to realize that if we're focusing on ourselves, we're gonna miss so much.
Kristen Wambach (14:07.246) Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.
Kate Massey (14:08.617) If you're beating yourself up in those moments, what if God has something for you to do and you're not able to do it because you're so focused inwardly?
Kristen Wambach (14:17.61) Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. I wrote something down here while you were talking. Because I—listening. So a couple questions ago, I shared the story about how Holy Spirit got after me for using the term sucking it up and not making it important. When you were talking there, I just went, this kind of sounds like a familiar spirit that just comes in wearing a different mask.
Kate Massey (14:45.867) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (14:48.554) A different mask. So it's not—it's not sucking it up. So if you wear a different mask, it means that I'm—I'm still dampening. They're still trying to dampen it, dampen the importance and that love relationship with God. Whew. I'ma have to think on that one some more.
Kate Massey (15:09.665) And it is. A lot of that is it's switching the focus from God to ourselves.
Kristen Wambach (15:14.264) Mm-hmm. Yeah. Yeah.
Kate Massey (15:17.601) And that's hard for us to realize sometimes. But if we aren't focusing on God, are you focusing on where you need to be focused? Are you gonna get where you need to go?
Kristen Wambach (15:29.059) Mm-hmm.
Kate Massey (15:31.157) And the answer is no.
Kristen Wambach (15:32.738) Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. I have another one of your quotes from your book. It says, "When someone is living out of their trauma, they tend to make decisions that they wouldn't normally make. Having this knowledge and experience has helped me, Kate, connect with clients in a different way." You noted that trauma changes our decision-making architecture. When we are stuck in that survival mode, we often build up walls. We get too close to those familiar spirits, those unhealthy coping habits just to survive the night. How can someone listening recognize if they are making life choices from a place of current wisdom or if their past trauma is actually holding the steering wheel?
Kate Massey (16:30.721) Again, it's gonna go back to having that conversation with God, right? A lot of times we're not gonna notice our own issues. If we go to counseling, that can be one way because a counselor's job is to help you assess areas in your life that need to be adjusted, right? And when I say that, I mean they help you identify patterns that you're falling into. And so having someone who can help you with that is huge, but also having people in your life—you know, I talk in the book about the importance of community.
And your community should not be just anybody, right? When I say this community that I'm talking about, I'm talking about your inner, inner circle. But having those people who you can go up to and you can say, "Hey, I want you to be honest with me. If you see me falling into certain patterns or if you see something that you feel like I need to pay attention to, please come up and share that with me." And when we open ourselves up to that, to that conversation, it allows them—now obviously when you hear something from them, you take it back to God and you ask him, okay, is there truth to this? But He'll show you those patterns. And a lot of it boils down to us being open to it.
Kristen Wambach (17:43.662) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (17:52.878) Mm-hmm.
Kate Massey (17:54.271) A lot of us have been closed off, especially in the church, of where we are in the wrong. We're so quick to point fingers at other people and not recognize the part that we play.
Kristen Wambach (18:10.272) I'm gonna ask you to say that again because that is so important.
Kate Massey (18:16.49) So in the church, we a lot of times are sitting there and we're not able to see the role that we play. We need to play that role, right? We need to understand what we're doing to affect other people. And it doesn't mean when I say this—I'm thinking about there are sins that we know God does not approve of, right? But there's a difference in condemning the sin and condemning the sinner.
And if we look at Jesus and how He walked through His life, every person who was a sinner—He didn't sit there and just start berating them. He built a relationship with them, built that trust, and then He corrected it. And I think a lot of times I look at the woman at the well and thinking about her situation, right? Like for God to have known, or Jesus to have known, everything that she had done, and yet He still showed her kindness.
Kristen Wambach (19:12.332) My favorite.
Kristen Wambach (19:16.334) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (19:28.12) He did. Mm-hmm.
Kate Massey (19:28.18) He corrected her, but there was kindness. It was not out of hate. It was not out of proving her wrong. It was not out of pointing out where she disagreed with him or wasn't living the lifestyle that He approved of. But there was a relationship that He built there in those moments before He started speaking to her about her sin.
Kristen Wambach (19:56.334) Mm-hmm.
Kate Massey (19:57.3) And we as the church need to do a better job of that.
Kristen Wambach (19:59.841) Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. And and in that relationship, one of the things that I so appreciate what Jesus—how He communicates with this woman in well, who went back into Samaria and she was like one of the first huge evangelists. He spoke to her from who she was, who He saw her. He spoke to her—didn't get offended by her questions. And that—I love that. Does it help me so much that, you know, we can be bold to lay ourselves and our life out before him and He doesn't get offended by it or why we ask it in a certain way. Hmm. Hmm. My next little quote here, because this is called interviewing Jesus and everybody knows that I love talking about being spiritually brave. Yay. Kate says in her book, she said, "The first was the first meeting with Holy Spirit-filled prayer lady. And during this meeting, I felt something leave my body. I know this sounds hoaxy, but I'm telling you, I could feel it moving through each layer of my skin. The next deliverance episode was getting baptized at the North Georgia Revival." I love how honest you are, how you—I love to ask questions right in here. You literally say, "I know it sounds hoaxy." That's my cup of tea. I love the spiritual side of the spirit realm. We could just talk about this forever, I'm telling you. But the fact that you could feel it, you—as a clinically trained therapist with a master's degree, you openly testified the physical reality of demonic spirits, demonic spirits leaving your body. Can we demystify this for the church, please? How do mental health counseling and supernatural deliverance work together as a holistic path for freedom rather than opposing forces?
Kate Massey (21:52.874) Yeah.
Kate Massey (21:54.6) Amen.
Kate Massey (22:30.75) A lot of that is having counselors that are spirit-filled and have discernment because that is one thing. Like in my practice, I have clients who ask for spirit-filled counseling. And in that, there are moments where God will show me, hey, this spirit, you know, is coming at this person and things like that. And in those moments, we're able to attack the problem head on.
Kristen Wambach (22:59.448) Yes.
Kate Massey (23:00.554) Because we're acknowledging it from the start. And I think there is a lack personally of Christian counselors who are trained in deliverance and understanding that yes, there are people who it is just mental health issues that they're going through, right? A chemical imbalance, things like that. A hundred percent. I'm not discounting that. But there are also some people that it's a little bit deeper than that.
And looking at what they've been through and seeing, okay, where is this coming from? When you have someone who is trained in that and is able to walk through that with you, there's a different level of healing that you will reach. Unfortunately, and I can say this as a Christian counselor, there aren't a lot of trainings for Christian counselors on this.
Kristen Wambach (24:01.006) Hmm. Hmm.
Kate Massey (24:02.27) And part of that is, and this is my personal belief, the church, a lot of the capital C church doesn't want to acknowledge supernatural things. Because we don't understand it. It doesn't make sense to us. And so we're like, I don't want to go there. I don't have all the answers. Well, you don't have all the answers on anything. So, how would it shift if we were trained in that and better knowing Holy Spirit, how He works, what He's doing, and showing people what that is.
And a lot of times, I've seen this and I saw a post about it the other day from another Christian counselor I follow, but people don't realize how your spiritual gifts can affect your mental health. If you have certain spiritual gifts and you don't know how to deal with them, if you don't understand them, they can negatively impact--
Kristen Wambach (24:35.372) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (24:59.915) Mm-hmm.
Kate Massey (25:13.321) Your life. I know personally, for me, one of my gifts is mercy. And so I can feel what other people are feeling. And as a counselor, that can be very challenging. In some of my sessions, that can be super challenging for me. But before that, before I understood the gift of mercy—because I didn't grow up in a church that talked about spiritual gifts. I grew up Methodist and we mentioned Holy Spirit, but we didn't really mention Holy Spirit. You know what I mean? Like we knew He was part of the Trinity, but like we didn't go any further than that. You know, because that's scary and we don't want to go there.
Kristen Wambach (25:41.634) Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (25:47.854) Ha ha ha.
Kate Massey (25:55.316) But for me, when I started to understand Holy Spirit and understand that gifting and how it can be used, it didn't impact my mental health as much. Because instead of holding on to those feelings that I was having that were other people's feelings, I was able to release them to God. And He started to help me identify when it's my feelings or when it's someone else's feelings that I'm feeling.
Kristen Wambach (26:14.574) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (26:24.12) Mm-hmm.
Kate Massey (26:24.233) Because sometimes the enemy, especially with that gift, will make it seem like it's your own feeling. Or will get in your head and say, that's you. But it's not you. And if you have that discernment, you're able to figure that out.
Kristen Wambach (26:33.006) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (26:36.462) Mm.
Kristen Wambach (26:43.084) Yes. This is very important conversation. And my goodness, you are such a wise young lady. I am totally impressed. Good for you. Good for you. I'm gonna lay myself here on the—on the spit here for a minute so we can actually get a life application to it. So my redemptive gift is Prophet. That's a redemptive gift, that's not an office gift. And every one of those redemptive gifts is first and foremost for us individually for our complete and full transformation. A redemptive gift is different from a mercy gift or a ministry gift.
Kate Massey (27:30.313) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (27:34.282) So the—the prophet redemptive gift is very black and white, supposed to run ahead to see what's going on. And as you study the redemptive gifts, prophet redemptive need to hang out with mercy people to help keep them soft.
Kate Massey (27:55.977) Uh-huh.
Kristen Wambach (27:56.751) The flip side of that. I have so many friends that are mercy, it's not even funny. But the—the flip side of it is the—the prophet helps the mercy to discern where their—their help is actually helping or—or when it's time to pull—to pull back. Very important. So here I am, myself on the spit, when I was a young, undeveloped woman, I was challenging to my parents.
And I'm talking about—Kate just talked about when it's undeveloped. She felt that her mercy was undeveloped and she could feel people's feelings and they could stick on her. Sometimes in the church, we use the word we feel slimed. And she had to develop the skill to be able to actually discern the difference. And that is so important in the counseling field for counselors. Huge.
So here I am as a—as a young adult. And my mom, her only way to deal with me, because here is a gift, a gift of a leader, a gift outspoken, I'm supposed to see ahead, but it's undeveloped. So the only way that she could cope with me was to give me the silent treatment. Absolutely hated it.
But—but now I can look back now and I can—I can see the undeveloped person. So yes, you know, we were young, if we don't ever develop like my father, years and years. So I am a seer. God opened up my spiritual eyes about 20 years ago. And what I later figured out is that my dad was also a seer, however, it was undeveloped, it never was developed. It wasn't ever thing anything talked about in his life, yet it—it actually caused him more trauma because he used to wake up at night and see people in his house and that kind of stuff, but he—he—it was undeveloped.
Kate Massey (29:06.143) Yes.
Kate Massey (29:33.354) Hated it.
Kate Massey (30:32.915) Right.
Kate Massey (30:35.544) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (30:35.603) So I'm just using myself and some of my family instances so that we can give a life application with what you just shared with us about the importance of knowing our gifts, knowing who we are, and allowing Holy Spirit and that spirit-filled community to draw them out and help us mature.
Kate Massey (31:01.246) 100%. And I'm with you on that one too. I have the gift of seeing. And it when you first start seeing—for me, there were years where I denied that I would experience it. And it's interesting because my parents would always make comments to me about—and I still do this to this day, even though I know now my gift of sight and I understand it better—but when I was younger, I used to always sleep with all the doors closed, like a closet to the hallway, whatever it was. I had to have those doors closed. And my parents were like, why? And as a young child, I foolishly believed that if I had the door shut, that those things couldn't get to me.
And so it was something that I had created as a pattern of, okay, I can shut this, because again, I grew up in a church where we didn't talk about that stuff. And so you're not gonna sit there and say that to somebody because a lot of people aren't gonna understand—unless they live in a spirit-filled world, they're not gonna understand that. And so having that understanding of people who have been there with you and understand that when your gifts aren't developed, you don't know how to handle them.
And I've had conversations with people from my church, and they'll ask me questions about things that I've seen and all that. And there's one story where it was a spirit that was actually attached to a trauma that I went through. And I was sitting there in my bed, and I rolled over, I was ready to go to sleep, and all of a sudden I see this face. And it looked like Venom from Spider-Man. But--
Kristen Wambach (32:42.286) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (32:55.822) Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.
Kate Massey (32:57.04) It was—the mouth is what looked like Venom. So it was like this face and it had really dark holes as the eyes, and they looked really deep. And I'm sitting there and I see that, and I open my eyes, and nothing's there in the physical, right? And so I close my eyes again, and all of a sudden that creepy smile of Venom's comes on its face. And in the split second, I cast it out and I said, "You're not welcome here. In the name of Jesus Christ, I command you to go." And it was gone in that split second.
And I rolled over and I went to sleep. And I'll have people from church that have heard that story and they go, You just went back to sleep. And I was like, yeah, I removed its access. It didn't have access to come back in. But part of that was when I was younger and when I didn't understand my gifting, I didn't understand how to deal with it.
Kristen Wambach (33:32.685) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (33:48.13) Mm-hmm.
Kate Massey (33:55.858) When I would see those things, I didn't realize that I had authority to tell it that it had to leave. And I realize that now.
Kristen Wambach (34:00.995) Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.
Kate Massey (34:05.736) And it shifts how you're able to live with your giftings.
Kristen Wambach (34:09.836) Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. And I'm going to interject in here with young children and parents. If you happen to have a child who is a seer, there are so many parents that don't understand how to develop that particular gift in their child. And if it's not understood within the home, the sad thing about it is once a child enters the—the educational system, usually for their own self-protection, they will turn it off.
Kate Massey (34:55.102) I did that. I was one of those children. And my mom makes comments now because she was introduced to Holy Spirit really before I was, and she pulled me into Holy Spirit. But she'll look at me and she'll say, "I'm sorry, I didn't realize that you were actually seeing things." Because when I was younger, I was adamant that there was something in my room. And she was like, "Nothing's here. We've searched and we've searched." And she couldn't figure out what it was. And it wasn't her fault. She didn't have that gifting.
Kristen Wambach (35:14.542) Mm-hmm.
Kate Massey (35:28.862) So I also want to take a moment here for the parents who don't have that gifting to recognize it's not your fault if it's hard to understand. Even as someone who has that gift, it is hard to understand sometimes. And so if you haven't been around that, understanding like it—it's okay for you to have questions. It's okay for you to not understand. But also finding people who understand that gift. I remember there was someone who encouraged me to read the book The Veil. I don't know if you've ever read that. And--
Kristen Wambach (36:07.366) Yes. Yes, I have. He just—He just, I think He just did the second—second book. I think it just came out. I was trying to remember his—are there—okay. But yes. Yeah. I—I will link it, I have a couple of things. I will link it in our show notes. I know exactly what you're talking about. Mm-hmm.
Kate Massey (36:15.838) Thought there were three. I can't remember his name. I know I can't remember his name.
Kate Massey (36:28.894) Perfect. And he's a pastor in Atlanta and he talks about how he had that gifting and what that was like for him. And he talks about it as a child who, you know, a lot of people didn't understand it. And when you have those experiences, you're like, okay, am I crazy? Am I the problem? But it takes trusting God and leaning into him to better understand what was going on. And I will say that when my gift came back as an adult—because I did, I shut it down for years—but when I opened myself up to Holy Spirit, it came back to me. And with that, when I was able to understand how that gift is used, it shifts things.
Kristen Wambach (36:35.95) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (36:41.454) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (37:25.42) Definitely. Definitely. There—I have several resources that I will put in the show notes since our lovely episode has veered that way. So I did an—an episode that's something titled About Monsters Under the Bed that we actually talk about childhood stuff. I will put that in the show notes so that people can have that as a resource.
One of the best resources that I ran into literally—because during that period of time when God opened my spiritual sight, I literally—and you couldn't talk about it because the church was ignorant about it. There wasn't—leaders had no idea. Oh, my goodness. And so, you know, you go to this—this place of, you think, I must be crazy. So God got a really good book. It's called The Seer by James Goll. One of the best, most biblical, informing books out there. So I will put that link in the show notes as well. Woo! This is so good. Huh? It's excellent. It's excellent. Yeah, yeah. Now I will—I will add this to our conversation because--
Kate Massey (38:41.405) I haven't read that one. I'm gonna have to read it. I haven't read that one. I'm gonna have to read it.
Kristen Wambach (38:53.792) It's been one of my investigations that I have received an answer: We all can see. I'm not more super spiritual. Kate's not more super spiritual. We can't use those labels about, well, they're just a prophet, or they're just an evangelist, or they're just a super spiritual, or you could say they're a nut, fruit, and flake. No, no, no, no. God gave all of us those gifts, those spiritual senses. What we do in the body is first in the spirit. So we can develop them. So my eyes—my spiritual eyes were developed more than my spiritual feelers. There are some people that are stronger as feelers than they are seers. But absolutely everybody can develop the gifts. There is nothing—there's no truth in being spiritually blind.
Kate Massey (39:55.326) Yep. And as you open yourself up to Holy Spirit and educating yourself on the gifts, you'll notice that He pours those gifts out to you a little bit more and a little bit more. And it's—there has to be a willingness. But I think there's also, you know, I've had a few people who ask—have asked me, "I've wanted this gift, but..." you could tell that they were closed off to other gifts. And they were like, "I just don't understand why I'm not getting that gift." And I feel like it's important to note, if you are only open to one part of Holy Spirit, you need to be aware of that and maybe consider that of: how would you feel if someone came up to you and said, "You know what, I want to be friends with you, but I only want to be friends with this part of you."
Kate Massey (40:51.709) How would they respond to that? Because God is the same way. He wants that relationship with us. And if you are acknowledging, "Hey, I'm okay with this area of you, I don't want that area,"--
Kate Massey (41:07.889) He can't fully work in your life if you're shutting him down.
Kristen Wambach (41:14.764) I'm going to put a life application here with exactly what Kate said. So Jesus' humanity, His hundred percent humanity that He walked on the earth so that He could be an example for us as 100% human gives us no excuses. So Jesus went up on the mount of transfiguration and saw and experienced His immortal self. Cool thing. He also was able to take Peter, James, and John with him. Jesus learned how to walk on the water. Jesus learned how to be in one place and actually move to another place. Remember, when He was in the angry crowd, and then He also left? There are many portions in Jesus' humanity that teaches us these really cool things, and they're not new. Go back two, three hundred years and look at what the—the priests and—and the nuns and the—what are they called, the—I don't remember. They were moving in these things. So they have been—we have been distracted as a church. When you had mentioned, Kate, the Methodist Church. If you go back to the—their founding forefathers, they're the ones who brought in some of the hugest revivals, were the Methodists. Hello, people. Okay.
Kate Massey (42:07.741) Mm-hmm.
Kate Massey (42:43.601) Yeah. Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (42:48.778) Moving on. I think we're both gonna have—can we both have our soap boxes out here today? I think so. All right. This is really important. Kate said this in her book: "Unfortunately, head knowledge is not enough. You must get the knowledge from your head to your heart. Speaking what God shows you about your identity over yourself helps you to get the knowledge." I will put a question with that. So many believers are stranded right here between their ears in their heads, and they quote scriptures about being more than conquerors or “Holy Spirit, open the eyes of my heart so I can see,” or “I'm seated in heavenly places,” but their hearts still feel broken and abandoned. What was your personal process for moving God's truth down those heavy 18 inches from your analytical mind into your actual heart and body?
Kate Massey (43:55.025) People aren't gonna like this response. So I apologize in advance. It is a choice.
Kate Massey (44:04.893) Part of it is it's a choice and you have to be willing to accept that choice that you can quote whatever it is, but do you believe it? Do you honestly believe what the word says about you? That is God's honest truth. And if you believe the Bible, you believe the whole Bible. You can't pick and choose which parts you believe. And you have to choose to believe every part of it.
Kate Massey (44:40.548) It's there waiting for us. But a lot of times we can't understand, especially when we've gone through traumas. You know, in my book, I talk about different things I've been through. And one of them is sexual abuse. And when you go through something like that, it is hard to sit there and think that you are worthy and that you are valued. But the good thing is I don't get to define myself. That's not my job. My price was set thousands of years ago. It doesn't matter what I say. I have to trust that the one who speaks true life is the one that His words about me matter. Not what I say. And if my words aren't in alignment with what He says, I'm the one that's in the wrong, not him.
Kristen Wambach (45:41.25) Mm-hmm.
Kate Massey (45:41.372) But it's your choice. Who are you gonna listen to? Are you gonna turn the volume up on what Jesus says or what culture says, what people say about you? I don't know about you, but when I get to heaven on judgment day, I want God to say that I was living for him, living for His approval, not for the people around me.
Kate Massey (46:09.969) I did that for years after going through trauma. I lived for the approval of other people, but they're not who I'm accountable to. It might make life easier while I'm here, but what does that do for my afterlife? For eternity. Am I willing to give up a potential eternity just to have peace for this short period of time on earth? And if you're not receiving pushback in some area of your life, are you living how Christ has called you to live?
And that's hard for us to ask ourselves. But if you are living a godly lifestyle, there's gonna be pushback from culture. There's gonna be pushback from individuals. People aren't gonna understand it because our world does not flow the way that the heavenly kingdom does.
Kristen Wambach (47:14.509) Very well.
Kate Massey (47:14.8) And so we need to take a deep look at ourselves. Who are you living for? Why are you living for them? And who are you gonna ultimately let define you? Because those people that I tried to people-please all those years, they don't have a say over who I am. They didn't create me. When you go to an art show and you look at the art, if it's an abstract piece of art, you can't always tell what it is. But the artist knows what they were painting.
Kristen Wambach (47:18.574) Mm-hmm.
Kate Massey (48:02.374) I might look at it and say it's a tree, but it could be something completely different. I didn't create it, therefore I don't get to say what it is. That's not my job. I don't have the authority to tell the artist what they created.
Kate Massey (48:25.85) I can have my opinions, but they don't hold the same weight as the artist's opinion. And so with that, how would our lives shift if we allowed the artist who created us to be the sole definer of who we are?
Kristen Wambach (48:52.442) Okay, listeners, can you feel that? You can feel the anointing on that. It was absolutely beautiful. And it gets tender. And I apologize, I usually ask this ahead of time. But would you pray for all of us? Our listeners, me, you, and pray. And right in there, because I just felt like when you were describing this beautiful metaphor of this canvas, this masterpiece, and the contention that we put on it, usually self-choice, to remove the name from that beautiful masterpiece of the artist. I just felt like, would you pray for us? And—and we need like a forgiveness prayer. We need to repent because--
Kate Massey (49:47.036) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (49:48.929) We have all said, God, I just don't believe this masterpiece, or I think it should be this way. And now I'm going to take my mouth off of it and let the anointing carry the prayer from you, Kate.
Kate Massey (50:05.988) Heavenly Father, we come to you and we thank you that you had a plan. When you started this universe all those years ago, you knew that each of us would be created just the way we are, Father. And you have an intended plan for each of us. We come to you and we ask for forgiveness for allowing others and ourselves to define us in ways that you never meant for us to be defined, Father. We have accepted those and allowed them to become a part of our identity when they were never meant to be a part of our identity.
And Father, I just pray over the individuals who, as they're watching you paint the canvas of their life, Father, they might not understand where you are in the painting or where you're going, but help them to know that that's not their job. Their job is to follow your lead and lean into you and allow you to do what you do best. We see all this creation that you have placed in this world around us, and we're able to see the awe and the beauty. Father, I just pray right now over each listener that they're able to see that within themselves.
That the same artist that created all the beautiful sunsets and sunrises also created them. Allow that to take deep root in their heart. Allow the truth of who you define us to be, Father—I just pray that that is deeply rooted in their soul, that anything else that is there that the enemy has tried to place, Father, I pray that you highlight it for them and help them figure out the process to remove it, Lord. Whether that be confessing to you or whether that's seeking counseling to help figure out how to get rid of it, Father, we just pray that they are able to come to you and understand that those thoughts are not their truth.
They don't define them, and allow them to lean into you to better understand their identity and authority that only comes from you. And there's no other identity or authority that could be placed on them that carries the same weight, Father. And we just praise you that you have made them uniquely as they are. That when you saw them, you--
Kate Massey (52:33.477) Were creating them just for a specific purpose. And if they don't look like how other people think they should look or act, Father, that they don't need to be focused on that. Allow them to focus on you and your truth, Father. And we just pray that in this time that you comfort them and allow them to have supernatural knowledge of where you're moving in their life and where they are blessed, because each person is blessed in their own right, Father. And I just pray that they are able to feel and know just how important they are to you. It's in your heavenly name we pray. Amen.
Kristen Wambach (53:16.27) Jesus. Amen. Woohoo. That's good stuff. And listeners, you know we hold, we just hold that pregnant pause. Sit in the quiet peace. Ooh, good stuff. Super, super good. Kate, would you please share with our listeners how they can find you, how they can find your book, and the other resources that you have available?
Kate Massey (53:55.855) Yes. If you want to follow me, all my social media is @KateMasseyWrites, my counseling page is Finding Joy Counseling. And if you want to reach out to me through there, I would love to hear from you. I love having a conversation with people about how they have been impacted by different things and just helping people discover where they need to be. If I can get you to resources or whatever it is, I would be honored to be a part of your journey. And I also would say if they want to—I'm sorry, mind blank—if they want to get in touch with me, just reach out through there. That would be the easiest way. And my book is on Amazon, Barnes and Noble, and Walmart online.
Kristen Wambach (54:48.364) Yay, thank you. And yes, listeners, I will have every link in the show notes. So it's easy for you to go click, click, click and find Kate today. And I took notes here of all the other resources that we spoke about. This was a full meal deal. Amen. Thank you, Kate, for just--
Kate Massey (55:08.12) Amen.
Kristen Wambach (55:13.13) Letting those living rivers gush right out of you today and sharing your heart with us.
Kate Massey (55:20.763) Thank you so much for having me. It was an honor.
Kristen Wambach (55:23.64) Thank you.
Trading the Canvas of Trauma for the Masterpiece of God
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The Deception of Self-Protection
When we step into the role of our own protector, we construct a faulty decision-making architecture. We begin to make major life choices out of survival mode rather than current wisdom. Even worse, we lock out the Holy Spirit. Kristen shares a raw account of the moment the Holy Spirit got in her face and told her to stop using the survival language of "sucking it up." Why? Because when we minimize our own wounds to survive the night, we actively block God from acting as the true Comforter in our lives.
When Clinical Skill Meets Supernatural Deliverance
“The capital C church often doesn't want to acknowledge supernatural things because we don't understand them,” Kate notes. The truth is that clinical counseling and supernatural deliverance are not opposing forces—they are a holistic pathway. When spirit-filled counselors utilize godly discernment, they can see where a chemical imbalance ends and a spiritual assignment begins.
This is incredibly vital for individuals with undeveloped spiritual gifts. Kate and Kristen discuss how a child or adult with an open gift of spiritual sight (a seer) or an intense gift of mercy can easily internalize the spiritual atmosphere around them, mistakenly believing they are suffering from severe mental health crises. Without a tight-knit, mature spiritual community to help train and mature these senses, these gifts become weights instead of tools for the Kingdom.
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- How does visionary revelation happen? Can it be trusted?
- Where does it fit into your life and today’s church?
- Can any believer become a seer? Is it a prophetic dimension reserved for the spiritually-gifted?
Shifting the Weight of Worth
Kate’s answer is direct, clear, and challenging: It is a radical choice of surrender.
When you look at an abstract piece of art, you might have opinions, culture might have opinions, and critics might shout their definitions. But your opinion does not hold the same weight as the one who held the brush. You do not get to define yourself. Your price, your beauty, and your structural worth were permanently settled thousands of years ago on a wooden cross.
If your personal narrative or your coping skills are out of alignment with what the Master Artist says about you, it’s time to turn down the volume of a demanding culture and surrender the canvas back to Him. Let the King of the Universe step onto the field of your pain and show you what He was painting all along.
If we just took a split second and recognized that God was there in the pain and the trauma with you—He never left you. If He allowed it to happen, how would our beliefs shift if we focused on what He was trying to teach us in that moment, instead of 'how dare He let this happen to me?'" —Kate Massey
Coaching Church Activation: The 18-Inch Journey
Head knowledge is not enough—truth must travel the heavy 18 inches from your mind to your heart.
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God experiences our life with us. He does not watch us from a distance; He enters into the canvas of our suffering to rewrite the final portrait." — C.S. Lewis
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All the things that the Lord had been teaching me... just unraveled. I was like in a burrito, and I unraveled and I fell to the bottom. And I was at the bottom going, 'Wait a minute. Do I still believe in Jesus?' And he goes, 'I'm right here.' And I'm like, 'Okay, we're good.' Everything else was gone." —Bracy Wevers
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We do not do "Sunday-only" spirituality here. When you turn off this audio, you are walking away with three unmistakable, empirical truths to run your life and your business by this week:
Episode Takeaways: The Monday-Morning Payoffs
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- The Power of Forced Rest: Sometimes, the absolute most spiritual thing you can do for your calling is to lie down, stop talking, and let the Holy Spirit wash over you in the uncreated darkness.
- Ride with Wisdom: You are legally designed as a son to ride straight into the heavens alongside Jesus—and you have the authority to pull other broken people up onto the horse with you.
But what happens when the wheels completely fall off? What do you do when your career pivots, your body collapses, and you find yourself lying flat on your back in a pitch-black room, wondering if you even know who you are anymore?
My guest today, Bracy Wevers, lived that exact nightmare. She didn't just study spirituality in a textbook; she survived a literal four-month physical and mental "death spiral" where standard, polished religion completely failed to comfort her. If you are currently exhausted from playing a part, managing an identity that feels like a counterfeit, or running on empty, do not turn this off. This conversation is the exact green light your soul has been begging for to finally stop performing and start living.
The Relational Core: Pulling Up a Chair
Look, I don’t bring people onto the Interviewing Jesus Podcast just to read their bios or help them sell books. I hold space for people who have been through the fire and have the scars to prove it. Bracy is a long-time friend of mine, a brilliant painter, and a walk-in paintbrush who has spent 30 years learning how to hear the exact frequency of heaven.
In this episode, we aren’t trading theology—we are letting you listen in on a raw, unfiltered conversation between two friends who know what it looks like to hit rock bottom and find Jesus waiting right there on the floor. We talk about escaping the rigid religious "matrix," entering literal heavenly art rooms, and learning how to love the dark, messy pieces of your story just as much as the light ones.
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When you sit with us for this episode, your perspective on faith will be completely rewritten. You are going to receive:
- The Blueprint for Holy Surrender: A clear understanding of how to let your life completely unravel without losing your faith.
- Validation for Your Burnout: Absolute permission to admit that you are overwhelmed, disqualified, and tired of white-knuckling your survival.
- Spiritual Senses Reawakened: The keys to shifting out of your logical, noisy brain and moving into a cellular revelation of Oneness with God.
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If you don't have a revelation of oneness, you can't grow into a son. That's what I think... I started to understand I'm him. Like I stood up and my church was called the portal... And I said, 'I'm him and he's me.'" —Bracy Wevers
Pulling Up a Chair Between Friends
Bracy has just released her debut book, A Mystic’s Journey: A Life of Encounter. Far from a simple collection of theological concepts, Bracy is a walk-in paintbrush who doesn't just create art—she actively lives it.
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Kristen Wambach (00:00): Hello and welcome back to Interviewing Jesus Podcast, where we get access to the heart of Jesus for supernatural wisdom, and come He completely rewrites our lives. I'm your hostess, Kristen Womback, and today's conversation is going to be incredibly special and a whole bunch of fun. My guest today is someone I've had the joy of connecting with before. So this feels less like a formal interview and much more like pulling up our chairs and a and a deep, beautiful conversation between friends. Bracie Weavers is a multifaceted artist. She is a musician, a songwriter, a recording artist, painter, and now an author. Yay! And she is a light worker and called a called-out voice who passionately moves in the heavenly realms, trusting her spiritual intuition to usher her into a beautiful new era of awakening. we have so much in common here. She just released her debut book, A Mystic's Journey, A Life of Encounter. This book is a compelling, heart-wrenching, and ultimately triumph account of what happens when you move past standard religion And step into a lifestyle completely transformed by the real encounters with God, a living God. What I love most is that Bracie just doesn't just create art, she lives it. She's like a walk-in paintbrush here, folks. And in fact, she painted the gorgeous artwork that sits right on the front cover of her book. Bracie, my Washington Mystic Friend, welcome to the show. It's so wonderful to have you here. Woo!
Bracy Wevers (01:58): Thank you so much. I really appreciate being invited. This is very special and precious.
Kristen Wambach (02:05): It is precious. Before we deep dive into the water here, your story, I have to start with that beautiful and gorgeous cover. You were talking about it before we got to recording. As an artist who creates from a place of oneness with Holy Spirit, tell us about the moment you painted this cover. What were you and Jesus doing, seeing, experiencing, perceiving together?
Bracy Wevers (02:36): Well, that was a journey. Like everything's a journey. I had actually I'd been painting for about seven or eight months. I had just started painting two years ago. It'll be two years in November. And I wanted I have two daughters who are graphic designers. And so I asked one and she's like, I don't know. The other one's like, And so the older one goes, Mommy, you should paint your cover. And I was like, You just don't want to do it. And she's like, no, that's not what that is. So she kind of forced me to paint it. And I didn't have the skill or like the knowledge or the confidence, you know, to paint it. And so I went into Gemini and Google and I wanted to make it a Van Gogh-y kind of feel on it. And so I just went through these prompts and ended up with about five pictures that caught my eye. And I really liked and this part turned into that. so I started painting, got the background and used the colors that I love, the Taylor blue and the tail green. my gosh. And started to paint the portal. I call it a portal. I think it's several portals. I you know
Kristen Wambach (03:57): Mm-hmm. I agree. I was gonna ask you how many ringlets are there? So
Bracy Wevers (04:05): Well, there's one, two, three, four, and then the big one. But I it's it's like entering in, but it's so I'm painting and I put on Hertz frequency and there's this guy on s on Spotify that does the Solfagio thing and walks you through a whole bunch of Hertz frequencies. And so I'm sitting there and I feel and when I was first painting, my my ancestors and my cloud of witnesses would show up because I think I should have been painting for a long time. They're like, finally, you're you know, you got you got your brushes out. And I'm painting the portal, and there's these just thin little lines that I'm making. I knew I needed to have it like a concentric thing, not like a snail, but just rings of whatever. And I had just gotten a feathery type brush, which I love a lot, and
Kristen Wambach (04:53): Okay.
Kristen Wambach (04:57): Mm-hmm.
Bracy Wevers (05:04): I started to paint the outside and the angels are like, No more. And I'm like, you mean like this? And they're like, No, no, no, no, no more. And they're all going, More, more. And I'm painting and I finally just started whisking it out to the edges and they're like, More. You know, they're like s and I'm like, like this, you know. And that's how it ended up being so big. It wasn't that big before, but it yeah. So all the That's all the feathering and it's kind of a a zone. So okay, I my husband gave me a gift card for a painting class. And I was so nervous because I can go in my music. I have a we all have kind of rooms where our experience is, I guess. You know, where we're where and my music room is full. I can go in there and tap into it. But I went into the my art room, in the heavens, or whatever you want to call it.
Kristen Wambach (05:36): Mm.
Kristen Wambach (05:46): Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (05:52): Mm-hmm.
Bracy Wevers (06:02): And there was nothing in there, it was all empty. So I'm like with my brush at the beginning and now it's kind of full. But I didn't have anything to really like I didn't have any experience, right? I didn't have any confidence and my negative self-talk was going on and on. You suck, you know, you don't know how. And and I'm like, What? Because I don't negative self-talk, but gosh, that was that was horrendous. So I started putting on Hertz frequencies just to kind of I'm like, let's see what this does, right? And every single time, I mean Heaven would show up, but others would show up. I s I really love Vincent Van Gogh and he showed up one time and I was like, How do I do this grass? And so he was showing me how to paint. And It's like ancestors show up and angels show up and all of a sudden I'm painting and four hours goes by and I'm like, I gotta go eat dinner. And so it becomes this experience like happens when I sing and do worship and d and and you know, record songs and you know, play and stuff. which
Kristen Wambach (07:01): Mm-hmm.
Bracy Wevers (07:27): is interesting because I f I f I find that from painting it's given me this confidence. I don't know maybe you'll know because when you sing and play and write it's like immediate you don't see like a a validation or whatever. You don't, but with painting, it's a it's a it's a valid day. You look at it and go, whoa. You know, and every time, every single painting, I'm in it going, I can't, I hate this. And she's like stepped back and I'm like, my gosh. You know, it's it's given a a confidence that I didn't have before. which is which is interesting that the other things didn't do that. like publishing the book or singing or it didn't give me that thing that painting does. I don't know if painting is in another realm of like your brain, like music is in a different part of your brain, but
Kristen Wambach (08:37): It probably is 'cause it's it's tied to your kinetic. Probably is.
Bracy Wevers (08:42): Right. But it's it just came out that way and it came out I was really proud of it and I thought it was finished and I took it to my painting teacher. She's in Canvas, she's absolutely amazing. And I was really proud of the color that I had mixed for the trees. And she's like, Mmm, mmm, she takes my brush and she'll sit down and you know, she'll paint in your painting and I'm fine with that. But this time she went over my trees. And I was sitting there going, mmm, okay, okay. And she goes in there with the dark. And I'm like, And she goes, It's okay. Just hang on, just breathe. And then she comes in with the back of this. And then the the sea of glass opens up. And I was like, my gosh. Okay, that's it. That's it. And it was like four strokes from her. Anyway.
Kristen Wambach (09:14): Those are migraines.
Kristen Wambach (09:33): Right.
Kristen Wambach (09:40): Mm-hmm. Yeah. To get the light the light behind is really a lot of practice to get the light behind.
Bracy Wevers (09:41): So
Bracy Wevers (09:46): Yeah, we have to do the dark front and the light b yeah, so you know, it's it's all learning and I love it.
Kristen Wambach (09:55): Yes. Now, Bracie, I'm gonna do for our listeners. I am going to bring in because you said a lot right there, and I want to pull those little things. Now we are talking mystical here today. And this doesn't surprise you if you've been listening to my channel for a while, but let's clarify the word mystic. And my favorite quote is from Prophet Paul Kane.
Bracy Wevers (10:07): Okay.
Kristen Wambach (10:25): He says it's better to be a mystic and be different, because if being a mystic means you see the invisible, hear the inaudible, and feel the intangible, then I want to be a mystic. And so just to let everybody know, and I was taking notes here immediately, Bracy talked about the cloud of witnessers, her ancestors and family. And that she had an art room in heaven. I'll say yes, and amen. Those when you step through the veil that Jesus rent with his life and his obedience for the love for us, you step through that veil, and hello, there is heaven, and God develops our spiritual perceptions, seeing, hearing, tasting, painting, everything.
Bracy Wevers (10:59): Yeah.
Kristen Wambach (11:22): And then we see what he has prepared for us and get to engage it. Anything you want to add on top of that, Brace?
Bracy Wevers (11:32): I just it's been surprised it's shocking to me that I can even painted that. So my I take a painting class Tuesday nights with Alita art in Canvas and if you're in the area, yeah do it. And she makes everybody paint the same barn and she teaches you a little bit of technique and color mixing and stuff. And you know, painting is like up close, you're looking at it. And you c it doesn't look you're like, mm, I don't know. But you step back and something pops out, like little tiny strokes becomes something like it's I think it's
Kristen Wambach (12:15): Yeah.
Bracy Wevers (12:16): Like color, like and I gasp every time. Like when I first mixed turquoise. I mean, I still gasp when I do it. I'm like, my God, how do those three do that? And it was it was like I just I painted one painting and one go. It's out in the hallway. And it's this beach scene and it was supposed to be it was supposed to be the cover for my second book. This is three canvases that I've gone through where the canvas went, mm-mm.
Kristen Wambach (12:23): Mm-hmm.
Bracy Wevers (12:45): So I'm painting it and I and I get to and I went, God, it's not it. She goes, No, that's not it. She goes, try this. And I did it, and it came out to this beautiful water bluey thing. And you I step, I cause I I was, it's all like little lines. And then I stepped back and went, my goodness. Whoa. And I'm always like gasping that I don't know. It's like a magical thing. I don't, I don't know.
Kristen Wambach (13:13): I can relate with what you're saying years ago. while I was preaching, I had an encounter and I walked into the at that time it was the mantel room. But what was so interesting about the mantle room in heaven, it was full of eyes. It was full of all the eyes of the Lord, you know, looking to and fro. And so I actually painted that picture. I'd never done an eye.
Bracy Wevers (13:42): wow.
Kristen Wambach (13:44): I will post it in the YouTube. I'll I'll put it in the YouTube so you guys can see it. And I just went, my gosh. But God loves it when his kids create.
Bracy Wevers (13:47): Mm-hmm.
Bracy Wevers (13:53): Yeah. I don't want to ever not I've been saying this for I don't know a long time. I don't want to ever not be overwhelmed. Like every time something manifests or every time something happens or magic happens or things, you know, synchronicities and and all that stuff. And every time I'm like, my god. You know, it's it's I don't want to ever stop like And especially in in my painting, it's like I step back and just go, how did that even happen? And what's what's interesting now is that I'm try I'm trying to paint the cover for my second book and I so I went and bought some so I've been in the cheap canvases, right? 'Cause I was like a student and then I went to the second tier and now I'm in level three, which is a different kind of canvas. It has a wood back and all that stuff and And I they're over there because I don't know if I'm ready yet. I have to go through my my other my other canvases before I can actually move on. That's what it feels like to me. So these have to be more intentional, right? I I haven't been intentional. I've just been painting and kind of, you know, where should I go and what should I do? And you know, well let's put this color here and let's see what orange looks like in there and And but now I feel like I'm s I I need to be like more, you know, intentional in what I'm producing. Because I I think the you know, we all make an impact in all the things that we do, right? So, you know, you make an impact in your voice and what you write and what you sing, what you produce, your book, what you what people read. and so the paintings have an impact, you know. You know, you go, I want people to go into heaven. I want people to have that experience that they look at it and go, Whoa. You know, they they sit there and go into some kind of encounter. So yeah.
Kristen Wambach (15:56): Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. Yes. Definitely. Definitely. In your experience, what is the difference between I'll say religious journey where you began and now a mystical encounter with the person Jesus?
Bracy Wevers (16:19): that's an interesting one. Well the religious part I now call the matrix. And I was in ministry for thirty years. I thought I was
Kristen Wambach (16:30): Mm-hmm.
Bracy Wevers (16:39): on the edge, right? I'm doing Tehila worship, you know, the the the progression of learning what spontaneous is and what tequila worship is, which is a Hebrew word for it's one of the seven Hebrew words for praise and it it it's the word it's the word where God in inhabits what you're seeing. So you'll sing a song and then you'll launch out and you'll feel the weight of his presence hit that. So we used to do just that. I'm like let's get rid of the songs. Let's just do that.
Kristen Wambach (16:47): Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (17:03): Uh-huh.
Bracy Wevers (17:07): So we do that for like four and five hours, this last house of prayer that I started. And so I
Kristen Wambach (17:12): Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (17:18): You have to
Bracy Wevers (17:18): It all it all shifted what is that?
Kristen Wambach (17:23): It's Tehila and the very last page of my book for four hundred and forty was specific.
Bracy Wevers (17:27): Nice. Yes. Yes. I love to he it right Ray Hughes says rhymes with tequila. Yeah. And
Kristen Wambach (17:36): There you go. So your your difference. You you you notice the difference. I mean, you were on the edge when you were serving in what we would call church ministry at that time.
Bracy Wevers (17:51): Well, I was never really in. So I would go in. I would try to fit in. I'd try to be a good little fish and swim with everybody else. But something about me and who I am and how I created, I just they wouldn't let me do what I wanted to do, right? And so I started off in church and immediately when I was in France, when I I would say the awakening. I got saved when I was sixteen and had the whole thing and and then when I turned like forty, I was in France and had this this encounter and, you know, was forced myself forced myself on the worship team 'cause they were horrible. I mean it was just awful. I went out and said, You you guys need a female singer and I'm it and I went in my car and went, What are you I didn't even know what worship was. I'd been in a Lutheran church And so I, you know, first time I sang, I went into this heavenly encounter and saw my time, I mean timeline and, you know, and so I was always and then started Unity in Christ with a with a friend. And and that was all divinely, but it's it's also for me, it's always been on the peripheral, right? I'm always on the peripheral, doing what God is telling me to do while the matrix is kind of judging it. Well, you need a pastor. I'm like, that's not what God told me. That's not what he told all of us at the same time and we came at different strands. So yeah, thanks for sharing, you know, and so it's been that way for probably 25, 30 years. So I've always been and I've always tried to go in and be a little good little fish, you know, and swim with others and swim in the same way. But it's like that's I went to Bible school and I just had questions. You know, this isn't what, you know, that what I'm seeing. anyway, and they didn't believe in deliverance, so I showed my deliverance story. And I'm like, what do I do with this? You know. So there was always kind of a you know, the iron thing, you know, sharpening. And I'm sharpening a lot of people, I guess. I don't know. But so I've always kind of been on the outside, but still on the fringe.
Kristen Wambach (19:51): Mm-hmm.
Bracy Wevers (20:08): still on the edge, but still one foot in the matrix and one foot in becoming a sun, I think. and I think that what's happening right now as we head into this new age of Aquarius, into this new era that we're all awakening and we're waking up and
Kristen Wambach (20:17): Mm-hmm.
Bracy Wevers (20:33): But the real un unraveling happened in 2023. I had I d dropped Northgate House of Joy, which was when we were doing events and monthly, you know, four or five hour spontaneous Hilo worship, which was shocking because we would sing things and then they'd show up in like in the news.
Kristen Wambach (20:47): Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (20:52): Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (21:00): Mm-hmm.
Bracy Wevers (21:01): One time we went in and rescued all these children and on the news, then the next day, you know, 2,500 child, you know, it was just like, are we like it was it was weird. Every time we'd have something, something like that would validate what we were doing. And so I dropped that and t I had to drop it. It's I was a middle school teacher. And I don't know if that's enough to say that right there. But I
Kristen Wambach (21:15.373): Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (21:29): Well, I thought I thought you were special needs middle school.
Bracy Wevers (21:34): No, I was ELL, ESL kids, foreign kids. Yes. And that that period I call my smoking and cussing phase because it was very difficult and very hard. And I thought the smoking was gonna help me. And it actually might have, because it was so hard. It was so hard. so I retired in June 2023 and I collapsed from
Kristen Wambach (21:37): Okay. Okay. Okay.
Kristen Wambach (22:00): Mm.
Bracy Wevers (22:02): I had PTSD from a couple of things that it I taught at a naughty school. I mean, these kids, I'm telling you, behavior, 80% reduced lunch. It was just I actually love that. Anyway. but and my kids were great, right? They were still, you know, I could still like, I'm gonna email your mom, you know, I'm email, you know, dear Mrs. You know, And they'd be like, no. But the it was the general population that was very scary, very scary kids. So I had PTSD, I had stress exhaustion from all the tension and the pressure that was going on at the moment. I was in deep survival mode on all, I mean, on all of us, I was pressed on all I mean all sides. I don't even know. I looked back and I don't even know how I how I made I don't even know how I made it through. Bracie did such a good job. my God, she was so, she was so strong. You know, she held it, man. She held me through. So the day that I retired, I'm driving home and I'm crying and I'm I'm like relieved and I'm like, I made I made it. I made it. I made the whole way home. And I immediately collapsed for four months. I I was ill. I mean, I was on a this I'll call my death this is my third book. my death spiral. I was like
Kristen Wambach (23:28): Mm-hmm.
Bracy Wevers (23:29): Everything I knew I was dying. I knew I knew I was dying. I just I could feel it. I could feel the pull of death coming for me. And so I I just went to sleep. I just I I slept all day, all morning, all afternoon, all night long for like four months. And in the midst of all that, I was seeing myself floating in the uncreated darkness, right? And just being washed and being you know, the breath just around me, holding me. And I was just, you know, I was exhaust I mean it was it wasn't good. And and all the things that the Lord had been teaching me, all the points of everything just I unraveled. I was like in a burrito, and I unraveled and I fell to the bottom. And I th and they all all the points just kind of click together like snaps are just like and I was at the bottom going, Whoa, wait a minute. Wait a minute. Do I still believe in Jesus? And he goes, I'm right here. And I'm like, Okay, we're good. We're good. We're good. Everything else has has gone. Everything else was gone. I mean, all well, you know, I mean Ian Clayton started it with
Kristen Wambach (24:43): Ha ha ha ha ha ha.
Bracy Wevers (24:57): Unraveling our belief systems, right? Our sacred cows. And everything was like gone. And this was a period of like 18 months where I just concentrated on myself. I told everybody else no. I had like three friends. I was I was so isolated, but I had to be because I I had lost, I had disconnected so much from my own self. From my own body, from my own whatever desires, whatever, that I couldn't even hear my body screaming. And so I started on this health journey. you know, and it was extend, you know, one little thing after the other. And and I it lasted about 18 months. And I knew it was gonna last 18 months, and then it ended 18 months, and I'm like, okay. It's and and then I went on this other journey. And now I know like from today, from like right now, all that is over. It's all over. All that struggle and whatever that was. and so it's been a journey of navigating the things being put in my pathway, which are very controversial and not in the box or the matrix or even close to being there. and so the one thing that is important I mean it's it's fundamental Is that if you don't if you don't have a revelation of oneness, you can't, you can't grow into a son. That that's what I think. And we sing about, we're one, we're one, we are one. You know, all that. But it's a it's revelation from the spirit of wisdom and revelation that brings understanding, and then your body knows you are. So I started to
Kristen Wambach (27:06): Mm-hmm.
Bracy Wevers (27:08): understand I'm him. Like I stood up and my church was called the portal. It was big house church. And I said, I'm him and he's me. And everyone went, What? And I'm like, Yeah, I'm him and he is me. So, and then it was this whole journey, just, you know, saying things and people going, What? So and then getting into Hila worship and people coming in and going, What are you doing? you know, and I'm like, it doesn't matter. It doesn't matter. Just It's okay, you don't have to stay. 'cause when God's telling you to do something, it doesn't make any sense. Like who was it that sat on his left side naked? It was Isaiah for a year, you know. I mean, I I wasn't naked.
Kristen Wambach (27:54): Yeah, we can all get on our face and thank God that he hasn't asked us to do that.
Bracy Wevers (27:58): You know, I mean, sometimes when when the Lord is that's why I think we have to stop stop like judging, right? We have to get into this loving community building because everyone brings their fragment, their fractal of what is supposed to be built together, right? Like living stone, like everyone coming together, you do that. Well, let me see if I can help you, you know, instead of that's demonic, and you need to blah blah blah blah. There's a shifting that's happening. and we're here to build that. We chose to be here to build that, and I'm very excited that I chose this moment in time to build that, and that I'm here and I made it. We made it. We made it. I mean
Kristen Wambach (28:52): We did make it.
Bracy Wevers (28:56): Now we get to frolic and be whimsical.
Kristen Wambach (28:59): Frolic and be whimsical.
Bracy Wevers (29:03) Yeah. Because it's it's a surrender. It's a surrender to the flow. If once you once you know you're one, right? I mean it shifts everything. It's it shifts it shifted everything for me. It was a it was a knowing that I hadn't known before. And I'd been talking about oneness for a long time, right? so it comes from inspiration, revelation,
Kristen Wambach (29:26): Mm-hmm.
Bracy Wevers (29:33): Something being downloaded into you renewing your mind. it actually came into my body. I felt I felt it like inhabit my body and my heart and and then it was different after that. I couldn't I couldn't go back to the other side of not knowing that. that's why when people sing about how, come here, I'm like, we're here, you know.
Kristen Wambach (29:44): Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (29:53): Mm-hmm.
Bracy Wevers (30:00): we can't sing the things that we did before because they just don't like They don't resonate anymore, you know, the frequency has shifted. And so the divide has is well it's already I think it already happened, but there's a divide and the old systems are crumbling. Anyway, I'm getting off topic.
Kristen Wambach (30:29): When you originally described your portal and all the different rings and how the feathery paintbrush pulled, because those paintbrush, they actually are moving the medium of the paint with its natural hair bristles. So you were pulling, pulling the paint, pulling the manifestation. But what it reminded me of, it reminded me of From the original Jurassic Park movie where the T-Rex went like boom on the ground. And then all of a sudden you saw the different rings, the ripples. And that's what it reminded me of is sound moving out.
Bracy Wevers (31:05): Yeah.
Bracy Wevers (31:09) Mm, the ripples.
Bracy Wevers (31:19): Right. Yeah. Yeah. It is definitely it is definitely a frequency thing. which is my kind of that's been my obsession for, I don't know, twenty-five years is frequency. And now we're actually learning, you know, through quantum and all that, the science of it. 'Cause I always used to say science is gonna prove there's a creator. Science is gonna prove Gonna prove it. And it actually is. And it was hidden from us. I was in the I was watching the Oppenheimer Oppenheimer movie because I love Killian Murphy. Well, I like that movie anyway. And they were talking about quantum and how that was the Jew math, right? And they had put the Jews over to the side, and that was their way of doing math, but we were doing math in a different way, and I just thought.
Kristen Wambach (31:48): Mm-hmm.
Bracy Wevers (32:17 train): They hid that from us. Cause I never talked about I was never taught quantum. My husband, who's French, he was never taught quantum like ever. And so David Vancouvering kind of opened all that for us, right? He just kind of opened it and then he hooked up with Ian and J you know, all those guys and it was and they're taking frequency out of oxygen and putting it into music and So the frequency, that's well, I guess that would be cool is if people actually look at it and encounter it, that they're feeling that frequency. I had a lady, I just published my book and I I'm in a creative space with Justin and Ginny John, and that's how I found my publisher. and they do Zooms every month or six weeks or something. And I
Kristen Wambach (33:09): Mm-hmm.
Bracy Wevers (33:16): Published, I put my book in there, and this lady contacted me in Facebook Messenger and said, you don't know me, but I had a dream about you. And I'm like, Okay, what was your dream? She goes, I saw your full name written out. And I'm like, that's interesting. She goes, That's it. And she goes, I have to have your painting. And I'm like, Okay. So I didn't know you could like sell your paintings. And so she goes, I'm like, I can never you'd have to give me $25,000 for me to sell this painting. I'll give you a print. But I'll print you a print off. And so I went and had it scanned and she bought a print and she was like with in the first weeks of doing that, she was like, This is so important for you. This is so important. I'm gonna hang it in my house. And and I just found that astounding. You know, when things out of your sphere of what you are looking for, the the validation or or whatever that is, right? comes and it's it just hits me in in my chest every time. Like and maybe it's like a yeah, okay, this is the pathway, right? You you give up so many things. I give up so many things. drop so many things, so many people, right? So many, so many things. And but you have to drop them for other things to open up, right? You have to make space for for what's coming. And I think that's what the
Kristen Wambach (34:41): Mm-hmm.
Bracy Wevers (35:05): What do I call it? My death spiral was was shitting all the the things that couldn't go forward with me. And so, and what was interesting is you contacted me like immediately, you're like, I need you need to we need to talk about your book. And so, and then I'd hurt my back, like in the middle of all that. Like I herniated, I had two herniated discs from making my bed.
Kristen Wambach (35:13): Hmm.
Bracy Wevers (35:37): It's the BLT. So bend, lift, and twist. So I went to make my bed and I threw my cover and I put and my discs went. And that was a journey. And so when I my book came out, I had all these plans for my book. I was gonna do a launch, I was gonna do a party, you I was gonna do all this stuff. But I'm laying in my bed on TikTok going, This is not what I thought. And then I thought, God can do it, even if you're you know, in a wheelchair, even if you're on your bed. Laying down. You can't even, you know, and then all this creativity came out. I launched my first TikTok video. I launched my my YouTube channel. Maybe we should all just lie down.
Bracy Wevers (36:22) Maybe we should all just lie down and rest. 'Cause all that stuff just came flooding out of me. And but I didn't have anywhere to go, so
Kristen Wambach (36:28): Mm-hmm.
Bracy Wevers (36:34) We all should just be lying down and resting, I guess.
Kristen Wambach (36:37): Mm. Rest is very important. It is Yeah, yeah.
Bracy Wevers (36:43) Yeah, and that was a forced rest. I mean, that was definitely I couldn't sit down for four months. I I could only stand and lie down. So my husband is driving me to the chiropractor. I'm laying down in the back 'cause I can't sit. It was anyway.
Kristen Wambach (36:59) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (37:07) Your book points to finding our destiny on the earth. How does it do that? How how how did you communicate that to us? Take your experience and then you put your experience on the pages for readers to be able to perceive it.
Bracy Wevers (37:33) So one of the things I was recognizing, I'll give myself for an example. So for I started three houses of prayer. I started a Northgate House of Prayer, and then I took over Vancouver House of Prayer, that kind of ended, and then I started Northgate House of Prayer, and that became Northgate House of Joy. And what I noticed.
Kristen Wambach (37:44) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (37:56) Mm-hmm.
Bracy Wevers (38:01) Is so we we know from quantum that our body has a song, has a frequency, right? That we sing a certain song, that's why we like certain frequen certain things. People always sing the same kind of melody, same kind of sound, right? And so I find that so for 20 years, I've been singing wake up, wake up. hit those walls of tradition, what man made, you know, every time I would sing. It was always I'd always go there. And I think we have we each sing or speak about or create the same kind of message. I've looked at other people that like were on my team and singers and they're singing a certain thing, a certain aspect, certain facet, certain fractal of of of his image, right? His multifacetedness. we're singing that that fractal. We're singing that part. And if you pay attention, which I don't think are people are paying attention, I think people are outward looking. they're looking at other things. They're we the the shift is going inward and dealing with first of all our trauma our shadows I love my shadow I love her so much I embraced her you know just and that brought a lot of healing And so the shift is the inward self-awareness, the focus on well I I was forced to to go inward, take care of my body, take care of what was happening in my mind, all the things that were shedding, all the paradigms.
Bracy Wevers (40:21) And the mindsets that were gone and the paradigms that were shifting into this thing that I was just like, I'm gonna go frolic. I don't know. And people say, Well, what do you think about that? I'm like, I don't know. I don't really care. And so I had to because I couldn't like, I had to like focus on myself. And so
Bracy Wevers (40:44) The self awareness of discovering who Bracie is, right? Who who Bracie is and then moving into this divine feminine Sarah energy, right? I can feel it. And it was two thousand eleven in Court Allen. I don't know if you were there at the In Clayton. And I was in the middle of Janet Huhn, that painter who's just absolutely amazing. I love her so much. I was sitting in worship and and I'd been I got drunk walking in the door. I mean I could have left within the first hour. You know, I was like, I'm done. You know? And I'm sitting there in the back because I'm like, I gotta sit down for a minute. And the Lord goes, I'm shifting, I'm shifting you from Bracy to Sarah. And I went, okay, whatever. You know, and I could see it. I could see and now I see it now as Bracie and the masculine and the survival, being able to deal with all the things and all that and then moving into more d a div divine feminine softness. and it's happening in my marriage, you know, it's like this this transition. But when you're like focusing on yourself, which the church tells us not to do that, tells us we have to look outward. But you can't I started understanding like who I am and how I was made and my shadow, my dark the darkness, my beautiful, light, dark self, being healed. And I started to understand that I know that I'm here for my voice. I know that. And I know that from just being shown that. So if you're paying attention in your life and you're looking back, maybe you need to make a timeline and look back at, you know, the different years. And I've done that twice now. And see where things happen, where trauma happened, where this happened, where it led me here or there, or not there, or not with those, or you know, protection of whatever. you'll you'll discover
Bracy Wevers (43:07) How you're made, what your actual purpose is. Mine is to, and it's and it's evolved. Now mine is to seeing over the earth to raise the the frequency of the earth, to raise the consciousness of the earth, to awaken. and it's always been that, but it's different now. and so if you're paying attention to yourself, to how you move.
Kristen Wambach (43:21) Mm-hmm.
Bracy Wevers (43:37) How you breathe, how you go about your day, what you think about, where you're, where the weight of what you do, where it lands, where God is going, yeah, that's it right there. Or, yeah, mm-hmm, not that. and it's subtle sometimes. Sometimes it's a big thing. But my voice, I I remember when I was first learning how to sing spontaneously. And I did that because when I forced myself on the French worship team, all the songs were in French and I didn't know them. So I just went off. I'd never done that. I just started singing. This angel showed up and go, sing this. And I'm like, okay. You know, and he followed me around every time I'd sing so that I could he would sing it. I would see it in heaven and he'd he's like this frolically little elf-like guy. And he would go on these notes and then then I would just sing those notes.
Kristen Wambach (44:34) Mm-hmm.
Bracy Wevers (44:34) And and I did that 'cause I I didn't know the songs in French. It was all just a big I thought it was a mistake, but it was it wasn't. But if you're paying attention yeah, I was gonna say, okay, so I'm in my French church, teeny tiny church, and the musicians all had gone on vacation. So it was just me and this other girl, and and she's like, let's just do a cappella, and I'm like, okay, I can do that, I can totally do that. So I we start singing and I go off, and the next thing I hear on my left is Iwa, she's this lady's on the ground getting delivered. And so I would sing. And she'd I'd hear her and then I'd stop and she would stop. And then I'd sing. And this went on for like, I don't know. And she got up from the floor and went, Mmm, don't sing anymore. And so every time I would see her, she'd go, Mmm, that's too powerful. And that then I was like, whoa. You know, there's something in the frequency in our in our what we're emitting that delivers, you know, our aura, whatever people come into our aura.
Kristen Wambach (45:40) Mm-hmm.
Bracy Wevers (45:45) And you know, things are shifting and things are happening. So I think it's paying attention to your own self and how you were created and and loving yourself, you know, of how instead of hating on yourself, you love yourself and how everything about me is beautiful and creative. And he made me even all the edges, you know, all all the stuff that you know, might not be desirable. I don't know. But I love all of that. I love all that aspect about the fullness of each one of us, right? Is beautiful and precious and and glorious. And it's it's and I think it's time for all of us to, you know, open our like Superman, you know, open up our selves and just not care anymore. Not care what anybody's doing, just go create, go do what you gotta do and find me 'cause I'll do I'll create with you because I love all that.
Kristen Wambach (46:54) We should y I think we can create a new word. Because when you say not care, that that doesn't appropriately express what you just said because actually you care greatly and you're willing to let your care and your your your divided focus. It's not undivided, it's a divided focus of okay, God, here you are in me, and this is what we look like. That is true. Totally caring.
Bracy Wevers (47:26) Yeah, I care a lot. I'm I've tried really hard not to care. But caring in a weird way, in an ego-driven way, you know, caring, letting people be who they are. And even and I'm being taken into all these interesting circles. I am in so many creative out there circles that It's just interesting. It's it's it's new agey. It's it's other weird, you know, stargates and Pallades and groups and I w I you know, just being in 'Cause I love sound baths. I love spa treatments. I mean, that is like if you ever want to like befriend me, you know, it's like give me a massage or something. But you know, it's like I just love all that. I love spa. I love anything, water, you know. And so any time there's a sound bath, I go. I try to go. And, you know, it ends up being all these really, really interesting people. And I find that in the in the matrix, in the church. Everyone is so judgy. Like, I went to an ecstatic dance in Portland and there was probably a hundred feet no, about eighty people in there. It was it was a huge room and and they're all like hippies, you know, and they're all got we're all dressed, you know, to dance and it's ninety minutes of this person putting together a playlist and they do a circle time and tell you, you know, Don't go up to people if they don't want you to, you know, kind of giving, you know, don't touch them, don't get in their face. And if they don't, if they want to, that's fine. And and dancing, and if you have a revelation, you know, there's a bell to ring and you write everything down and then there's a circle time. But nobody's judging in there. Nobody. Like, it was so loving and free. And I'm like, why can't we do that? We're supposed to be dancing. I want to do, I want to create a dance church, like dance like David church. You know? And 'cause now people are starting to create house music and techno music that are are Christian, you know? And it's coming. Trance tr the dance trance, you know. yeah.
Kristen Wambach (50:01) The dance trance.
Bracy Wevers (50:03) Yeah. I I've been wanting to do that for a long time. just just as a
Kristen Wambach (50:06) Mm.
Bracy Wevers (50:12) Well, not just exercise. 'Cause I think we're getting fat just sitting there listening to somebody, but just and fat spiritually, you know. You know, where where do you use all that? But it's also somatic, you know, somatic exercises and movements that your body needs to release the trauma from your life, your lifetime, right? It's It's that movement. It's the shaking, the shaking it off. And it's actual shaking. It's not just, you know, let's just shake it a little bit. No, it's actually shaking your body to shake off the trauma, the stuff, the whatever it is, that I think we all just need to dance, you know. We all need to like start dancing and be whimsical. That's what I'm talking about. Fun and get together and eat and you know, and dance. And nobody talking. Nobody talking. But here I am talking, so I don't
Kristen Wambach (51:20) That's why we're here. That's why we're here to hear, listen.
Bracy Wevers (51:22) That's why we're here.
Kristen Wambach (51:32) In your book. Where is your your fav what's your favorite encounter in your book?
Bracy Wevers (51:51) So I I put my book together. I started in 2019. And all this stuff was very private. and I wasn't sure I wanted to anybody to know about it. So the first part is like from when I'm fifteen, sixteen, and God just showing me I mean, I can look back now and I know what it is, right? And then the second part is more like advanced, I guess. And my husband was the one that
Kristen Wambach (51:59) Mm-hmm.
Bracy Wevers (52:20) That said there's two parts to this because I'm like, I gotta have this guy read this because he doesn't know any of this.
Kristen Wambach (52:25) yes.
Bracy Wevers (52:27) And then, you know, I handed it to him and I'm like, I think you need to read this before I like publish it, 'cause you know, and then I had my girls read it 'cause I didn't really share, right? It wasn't safe or whatever. And so the favorite one is when I was at the portal. The portal was this beautiful house church that turned into this big
Kristen Wambach (52:34) Mm-hmm.
Bracy Wevers (52:58) Yeah. I mean it was just a water hole. All the river swimmers, all the people in their little caves, you know, all the mystics, all the, you know, came came and it was just this free flow stuff, right? And then it started getting no people started coming in and no you have to blah blah blah. And then, you know, the leaders were like, maybe we should blah blah blah and I'm like, no, don't blah blah blah, you know. So trying to put structure on it, prying to trying to put a grid on something that's free and open and special and so I was worship was going on and I was and it was all these big couches right and chairs and so I was sitting on the other side of the room in this big big comfy chair and I I get pulled into the chair and I can feel myself you know I I'm already there and I'm on my horse wisdom. And Jesus is in front of me and we're riding. Man, we are riding. We are I'm like, where are we going? You know, where are we going? We're riding, we're riding. We stop. We stop and the door to my past appears. And he goes, We're just gonna shut that and don't open it, you know. And so we're riding, riding, riding. So then and what's weird is that when you're when the room is exploding, I mean, people were like dancing and laughing and rolling on the floor. I mean, it was crazy. And I'm in the chair and then people start to think that something's happening. Like you need prayer or you need something. And so they come up and they start wanting to touch you and stuff. And I'm and I'm and I'm in this encounter and I can't tell you to leave me alone. Right. And then this one girl, after a while, and one person came up in my face and was and I was just like and I was like gone. I was like I wasn't even there. And this one girl she came and she sat down, she saw what was happening. She sat down, she grabbed my hand, she comes in my vision. She comes in my vision and I was like, whoa, how did that happen? You know what? And her horse appears and I throw her on her horse. And I'm like, let's ride. And so we start riding, you know. And it was just crazy because there's all this stuff going on. And we're in here riding with Jesus. I don't even really know what we were doing. And then this weather guy came and sat and he was like touching my feet and and he didn't know how to ride.
Kristen Wambach (55:10) Mm-hmm.
Bracy Wevers (55:36) But he wanted to. So he comes in my vision, another person, and I throw him on his horse and he falls off. He goes, I don't know how. And I said, and I saw I I throw him on, I strap him on. I strap him on, and I'm like, just follow. Just just let it go, man. Surrender. Just open your, you know, surrender to the flow, right? I have to paint that, surrender to the flow. And and we just rode and rode, and it was like, We we were on like ground that had like rock caves and stuff, you know. And then all of a sudden we're in space and we are going and there's stars and light, traveling and we're just I don't even know. And then I don't know how we came out of it, but it was so it was the first time that someone had joined me inside my I don't know if you call it a dream vision, whatever. Yeah, and that was really special. And then afterwards when we kind of came to, I guess, I looked at I can't remember her name. I looked at her and she's like, Whoa, what? And like, that's right. That's right. Yeah, well, what? So, and I think a lot of people aren't open to that? Because my husband he has a hard time because he's like, I don't do that. I don't have those kind of things. I'm like, well, how do you like to be? How do you how does God talk? God talks to me the way he talks to me, but he's not going to talk to like he talks to me to you. Because you like spreadsheets and you're you like it all structured and that's how he's gonna come. He's gonna come with your spreadsheet. You know, he's gonna come with how you like it, all detailed and, you know, structured and and so I I don't I don't know. That's that's question for me is the is it something that you grow into? That you read some of the you read some of these stories and you go, I can do that too. That's not far off. yeah, I did have that one thing that happened, and then maybe that'll spark some kind of What is it? IHOP used to say, provoke to jealousy, right? You have these instances where you you God did this, and then you go, I want that. You know, some people go, I want that, you know, and then no, you know, some people go, wait, I want that. I want that too. That's what this is for for me. This whole book is to provoke you to want that, to have that. Kathy Walters was the is the first one that was like, this should be normal. This this should be normal and this should be the way that we live. Having encounter all the time, living in this and I think that's what sons do is that we wake up and we learn how to man I call it manifest now. We used to call it calling the unseen into the seen realm and then Ian called it frame your world and then it's just manifesting stuff. It's just and and but the church doesn't teach you how to how to do it. You know. It's it's a journey learning how to do that. And so yeah.
Kristen Wambach (59:11) I want to reiterate your encounter and riding on the horse and going through the different different dimensions that you and your horse go and you taking people with you. Hello, type in shadow of Mount of Transfer Figuration. So that's the coolest thing about Jesus going up and actually encountering himself, his immortal self. But the cool thing is is that he took people with him.
Bracy Wevers (59:44) Right. Yeah, that's interesting. I hadn't thought about that. Yeah.
Kristen Wambach (59:45) Cook people with him. Yep, he took people with him. So it's like, hello, this is so good. You always take people with you.
Bracy Wevers (59:58) Right. Yeah, I kind of stopped wanting to take anybody with me because I used to I used to have open arms. let's go forward and people will bite you if they don't want, you know, and it's it's more about It's been a switch for me, like being an example instead of going, let's all go forward and letting whoever wants to do that do that. And I think the ones that want to do that will find us, right? instead of putting myself in positions where that's not happening. That's for me is the big shift in the last I'd say eighteen months is letting go well, I was I only had three friends. Everyone else just kinda I don't know, they just disappeared. It was like I have three. At least I have three. And it's very supportive and very encouraging, especially through the whole journey. And but it made space for for what's happening now, you know, and I started you know, speaking out what I want. you know, I want this kind of community. I want these kind of people supporting and loving and encouraging and building community together and frolicking and and being whimsical and eating and sharing and nobody jealous of one another, nobody looking at somebody going, you can't do that. Or that's not in our manual or, you know, so it's opening up this whole community for me of people that I've manifested, that coming to me what I desire, right? And those kind of relationships and those kind of people in my life that can handle I don't know, I just I think there's a such a separation right now of the divide. I mean it's been happening I think since the Mayan calendar ran out. This is just me. And the divide and coming into this new era. You know, it takes a long time. It's not just one day that we we we head into the age of Aquarius. We're actually we're actually right here right now. And I know I chose it 'cause this is like exciting. This is exciting. 'Cause we're here like to build with each other and build community together and but you do have to let the old go. You do have to let that go. So
Kristen Wambach (01:03:14) This is so refreshing. Refreshing. Thank you. Thank you.
Bracy Wevers (01:03:16) Yeah.
Bracy Wevers (01:03:20) Thanking you thank you for allowing me to be free in my expression.
Kristen Wambach (01:03:28) You're very well.
Bracy Wevers (01:03:29) which is not always the case. And it's very refreshing that I'm able to to do that because I think speaking and you know the hidden things inside us, right? These are these are these are dear precious things in my heart. And when you start to express that, those who are attracted to that come towards you and they may not look like you want them, you know, it might they might have they might, you know, might look different. I'm in I'm in these communities with these people who they might not, you know, their sources, let's let's call it their sources different, right? And and so I'm in there and I'm just here, buy my book. You know. mystic, you know, and they're grabbing it and and then, you know, how'd you like it?
Kristen Wambach (01:04:19) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (01:04:36) Yes.
Kristen Wambach (01:04:44) Mm.
Bracy Wevers (01:04:44) In fact, one one girl, she's amazing, she's the one that does sound best, and she was reading through my book and because I had in the front I talked about Yahweh and
Kristen Wambach (01:04:58) Mm-hmm.
Bracy Wevers (01:05:01) And I wasn't sure what her I didn't ask because I felt her I felt her frequency and vibration and she was she's actually changed my life, I'm telling ya. Just shifted everything for me. And she got my book and she was like, Yahweh, Yahweh, I knew it. I knew it. And so I was like, okay. And then she started talking about the seraph, you know, the publishing and how she's seen the seraphim and blah blah blah, you and she goes, I gotta talk to you, you know, about all this. So it's I remember we used to like lo Doug Addison was like, you need to locate people. You know, and he would do this thing where where you locate people, but I'm not locating anybody anymore. I know that I'm divinely protected. I know that. I know God saves me from doing things I shouldn't do, that I want to, that being around things and you know, I'd go to places and I go, I don't wanna be here, but now I don't, you know, I'm protected from and think we all are, right? and it's the frequencies that are attracting each other. Like you can't be over here with that because the frequency is not right. It doesn't mean they're bad or they're whatever. It's just a different frequency than what I'm at right now. And I find that really refreshing and non-judgmental and No pointing your finger, you know. I was in some weird thing.
Bracy Wevers (01:06:35) I don't even know how I got there. And they were doing some stuff. And I was like, and I'm sitting there and I feel Holy Spirit behind me. And I have a huge angel. I have Michael behind me and he's always got my back. Yeah, thank you so much. And I feel the whole Holy Spirit wrap around me and I'm like, What's going on? What's going on here? Should I should I leave? He's like, No, just listen. I'm like, okay, but I'm not gonna do that what they were doing and he goes no you don't have to do that just sit here and listen and I was like okay I can listen and I just I just felt him kind of giggle and because I'm like I wanna know you know I wanna know who I'm supposed to reach with with what I'm doing and it's it's going out into these areas that I mean whatever. Yeah, you think you're a Stargate? Man, so am I. I'm a Stargate. Somebody called me, what did they call they called me an Ascended Master. And I was like, what is that?
Kristen Wambach (01:07:48) Okay.
Bracy Wevers (01:07:51) And then I thought, Yeah, yeah, I am. Tell I am. I don't even know what that is, but yes, yes, definitely. So anytime anyone's saying so, I'm like, yes, I am. That's I am. Yes, I'm all of it. We're all of it. We just have different expressions. Anyway. It's been interesting and been fun. And it's been such a powerful thing for me to feel this freedom of surrendering to the flow instead of reacting to things and looking at things differently, like something happens and I'll look at it and go, Huh. All right, all right, I guess we're gonna do that. You know, and
Kristen Wambach (01:08:41) Mm.
Bracy Wevers (01:08:42) Okay. You know what it what what does that mean? And how am I supposed to what am I supposed to learn? What's the key? And you know, looking at it differently and it's like changed my life. It's instead of reacting and going into survival, you know, Sarah's taking over. You know, Sarah's like, You got this girl, you know, you got it. Just chill. You know, lay down for a minute. You know. Lay down, create something, go paint, you know. You know, yeah.
Kristen Wambach (01:09:18) Yeah. So I have one final question here. This is interje interviewing Jesus, right? So I interview the Jesus in you. And yeah, he likes to lay down. He likes to have, you know, go up on the mountain transfiguration. He likes to invite people he li with him. He he enjoys hanging out with people of all different varieties.
Bracy Wevers (01:09:48) Exactly.
Kristen Wambach (01:09:48) If you could ask Jesus one question, so he's sitting right here with us, in you, in me, with us, about this new era we're walking into, what would it be? And what would he whisker whisper back to you right now?
Bracy Wevers (01:10:15) My question
Bracy Wevers (01:10:20) You know, I don't even really know if I have a question. I feel such a a foundational grounding that's happened in the last three years. that I I don't know if I have a question because I I'm so engaged in the now and the mindfulness and the I'm so surrendered, released to the flow, Trusting his guidance, trusting his like leadership,
Kristen Wambach (01:11:17) Mm-hmm.
Bracy Wevers (01:11:26) I don't know. That's an interesting question. Because I I don't I don't know. Like what's next? Maybe that's what's next. I feel like I've done all these things that I thought it would take me to the end of my lifetime, but they happened in like 2025, the end of twenty in the fall 2025. They all like came out, and I was like,
Kristen Wambach (01:11:42) Mm.
Bracy Wevers (01:11:55) Okay, what's next? You know, and and he yeah, he's like excitement, and I feel like all of us are headed into this ease of ways of doing things, things are starting to synchronize. I'm starting to notice like a heavy synchronization of my desires. Like not even thinking it, there's that part, there's that, wait, what? You know, those colors get you know, I mean just and and I think, you know, okay In my book club, we're doing Thank and Grow Rich by what's her name?
Kristen Wambach (01:12:44) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (01:12:49) it's think and grow rich instead of think. Okay. Yes.
Bracy Wevers (01:12:50) Not think, it's being thankful and grateful, and it's shifted everything. And so I have this thing on the side of my bed that says something amazing, exciting, and something surprising, amazing, and amazingly awesome is headed my way today. And it makes everything be magical. So I think my question is, what's next? What at but not what's next. It's like what's next? But like what do we what do we get to do? You know, I I think we're already co-creating.
Kristen Wambach (01:13:24) There you go.
Kristen Wambach (01:13:31) Absolutely.
Bracy Wevers (01:13:32) We're already, we've been in it. Well, we're learning, right? Because it's like we landed on Mars and went, I don't know what to do, all of us, and we're like, Well, let's start over here and let's take care of that pile right there, you know. And so as we get more experience in co creating, and we've been doing that for a while, you know, those of us who are like in training or whatever you want to call it. You know, in school and I feel like you graduated. and
Kristen Wambach (01:14:02) Yeah, but we always graduate and end up going as a rookie in kindergarten. Again, it's just never ending. You know. You is it?
Bracy Wevers (01:14:09) I don't know. I feel this time's different. I I yeah, it's it's such a different thing. and I don't know. I think every person's different, right? Where you're at. but it's it's it's a magical time, I think. It's a I think rewards are coming. I think as we awaken and step into who we're created to be to be, who we're created to become, right? Be the becoming is that all that starts to sink and align and then everything opens up in the in front, right? All the distractions go. you know, it starts to and then you can just
Kristen Wambach (01:14:46) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (01:14:57) Mm-hmm.
Bracy Wevers (01:15:07) And skip down the yellow brick road or whatever, you know, it and in fact in when I left France and one of the last worship nights that we did, this was like in 2005, and I was crying because I was leaving. I hated going there and I didn't want to be there and I'm and then I'm crying leaving because it was so amazing and The Lord goes the latter will be greater and I'm like, Yeah, sure, I don't know. Yeah, I don't think that you know you know I mean, I don't I don't I don't see it, you know. And it's true. The ladder that's that's coming is greater. It's like, ooh, it's like it's coming and it's greater. And we're gonna build that. We're gonna that's why we're here. We chose it and we're gonna build it, and that's why we connect, right? That's why when you go, wow, I love what you do, and you're so blah blah blah and encouraging and refreshing, you know, all that stuff. And then, you know, you don't just go away.
Kristen Wambach (01:15:49) Mm.
Kristen Wambach (01:16:06) Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.
Bracy Wevers (01:16:17) and not you know continue that. I think this is really profound today for me with you. especially today for all kinds of reasons but I think we make an art
Kristen Wambach (01:16:42) I won't argue with you.
Bracy Wevers (01:16:43) And And you know, timing is Always perfect, right? Divine I love divine timing. Because if you just wait for it, it shows up and you go, that was perfect.
Kristen Wambach (01:17:01) So I I'm going to leave us a statement because when you were talking, because I see things and I know you're a teacher. And so when you were saying, Well, I don't really have a question, I saw that being written out. I don't really have a question, but the profound part
Bracy Wevers (01:17:12) Yes, you do.
Kristen Wambach (01:17:29) is marked at the end. Because I think we get caught in the structure or the grammar of like, it's a question mark. it's a question. What happens if we remove the grammar of the way that we always began, entered, entered into anything, and just had the freedom and courage to be brave enough to let the sentence continue on.
Bracy Wevers (01:18:00) Right. That's what I feel like. I feel like the the I used to n well I and I think that was the time we were in, right? I I used to do and then I could see ahead, right? 'Cause that's what I'm building towards. You know, I could s I could s always see always see ahead. Always. I always knew where I was going. And now
Kristen Wambach (01:18:18) Uh-huh. Mm-hmm.
Bracy Wevers (01:18:23) I don't know. I just don't. And I don't know if it's because I don't really care anymore. Cause I'm I know my pathway is is different than what it was. You know, Sarah is the energy of her is different than Bracie. and I think we're in a different time period. It's time er I don't even know. Words are so lame sometimes. You know, we're using old words to describe like, where we're headed and
Bracy Wevers (01:19:00) Yeah.
Kristen Wambach (01:19:03) May I share this one point with you, Bracey?
Bracy Wevers (01:19:07) Absolutely.
Kristen Wambach (01:19:10) I think you're getting kind of close to painting on that. What was it? A number three canvas. I I I I think that there's there's something to that. Because yeah, because I know this canvases are much more expensive. So you start with how much value is already there. That's where you start, and you have the encouragement.
Bracy Wevers (01:19:16) Yes. Okay.
Bracy Wevers (01:19:23) I think there is too. There yeah.
Kristen Wambach (01:19:38) And God has been building up in you that you know the colors, you know the strokes, you know how to communicate onto that level of value.
Bracy Wevers (01:19:49) Yeah, I think I think you're exactly right. It's they're a little intimidating, but not really. A little bit. I'm and I'm getting kinda weirded out with each of the canvases saying, I'm going, I wanna paint this and they're like, No, you don't It's like, What? No, I wanna paint the Van Gogh church. No, you're not. You're gonna paint the C
Kristen Wambach (01:19:56) Ha ha ha.
Kristen Wambach (01:20:09) We've had such a refreshing and free conversation. Bracie, how can our listeners connect with you and how can they find your book?
Bracy Wevers (01:20:22) well I am my book is on Amazon. and there is a code, there's a link, I think, for the book. And no matter where you are in the world, you can find it. It's in like twenty different places in the world. my husband went and searched for that. It's in Mexico and Greece and Australia. And he's like, my god, it's here, it's here. And so, yeah.
Kristen Wambach (01:20:47) It is. And those links will be in our show notes to make it easy for our listeners. And yes.
Bracy Wevers (01:20:55) And you can also, if you wanna order a print of the painting, you can do that too. Just you can message me on Facebook or Instagram or I'm on TikTok too. I am I just started my YouTube channel like October, November, I think. So there's some music videos up that are from the s CD that I
Kristen Wambach (01:21:06) Mm-hmm.
Bracy Wevers (01:21:22) recorded in 2012 and I do have five hundred of those left. So yeah. yeah, so TikTok, Instagram, Facebook, YouTube, you know, all of that. That's perfect. Yeah. And I'm pretty responsive. You know where to find me. Yeah.
Kristen Wambach (01:21:28) There you go.
Kristen Wambach (01:21:38) I will have all those links. Yep. I know where to find you. Thank you so much for the blessing of hearing your heartbeat today.
Bracy Wevers (01:21:51) Thank you for giving me that opportunity. I I feel my heart is glad. And I just, you know, as people are going moving forward in their life, you know, switching your the way you think about yourself, the the thoughts that are in your head, the the the affirmations you wanna it you think, it's just little stuff. It's very, very important and very It's important for your future and for you coming into being confident to who you are and who you're becoming because we're all becoming, right? We're all moving, we're all growing, we're all evolving. and so I would I would say just be careful of your thoughts and the way you talk to yourself and how you take care of yourself. It's very important. You're needed and no matter what age you are, you know, it doesn't matter.
Kristen Wambach (01:22:28) Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (01:22:53) Thank you.
Bracy Wevers (01:22:55) Thanks, Krista.
⏱️ Optimized Podcast Chapters00:00 Introduction to Bracy Wevers and A Mystic's Journey
04:26 Prophetic Painting and Creating the Book Cover
12:21 Understanding True Christian Mysticism
18:00 Shifting Out of the Religious Matrix
23:36 Overcoming Burnout and Stress Exhaustion
37:26 Finding Body Frequency and Identity
42:28 Transitioning from Survival to Oneness
45:26 Angelic Frequencies and Deliverance
49:35 Shaking Off Trauma with Somatic Movement
51:06 Mystical Encounters and Riding with Jesus
57:27 Quantum Manifestation and Co-Creation
01:01:36 Building a Whimsical Spiritual Community
01:07:48 Surrendering to Divine Flow and Protection
01:12:14 Practicing Radical Thanksgiving
01:19:25 Stepping Onto a Level 3 Canvas
01:20:17 Where to Connect and Buy the Book
01:20:57 Stay Spiritually Brave Podcast Outro
The Canvas of Heaven & Collaborative Creation
To break through the mental noise, she turned on Solfeggio Hertz frequencies to align her atmosphere and stepped directly into her personal "art room in the heavens". What unfolded was a literal collaborative orchestration between dimensions. As she began painting concentric rings with a feathery brush, her ancestors, a cloud of witnesses, and angels began showing up in the room. At one point, the spirit of Vincent Van Gogh even appeared to give her a mini-masterclass on painting grass textures.
When the angels began shouting "More, more!", Bracy whisked the paint out to the edges, expanding a visual portal that immediate onlookers feel drawn into. This experience taught Bracy that true spiritual confidence is birthed through kinetic, tactile creation.
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Escaping the Matrix & The 2023 "Death Spiral"
The deep unraveling finally occurred in June 2023. Juggling prophetic ministry while working as an ESL teacher in a high-stress public middle school left Bracy dealing with severe PTSD, survival mode, and complete stress exhaustion. The day she retired, her physical body totally collapsed.
For four months, she entered what she describes as her "death spiral". Bedridden, ill, and unable to sit down due to herniated spinal discs, she spent months sleeping and floating in the uncreated darkness.
"All the things that the Lord had been teaching me... just unraveled. I was like in a burrito, and I unraveled and I fell to the bottom. And I was at the bottom going, 'Wait a minute. Do I still believe in Jesus?' And he goes, 'I'm right here.' And I'm like, 'Okay, we're good.'" — Bracy Wevers
This raw testimony serves as a beacon for any "Spiritually BRAVE" listener currently undergoing a dark night of the soul. Complete undoing is often the exact, safe space where the unadulterated presence of Jesus is revealed.
Somatic Release, Oneness, and Whimsical Sons
True spiritual maturity requires us to stop focusing entirely outward and start diving inward to address our hidden shadows, trauma, and bodily needs. Bracy notes the vital role of somatic exercises, ecstatic dance, and physical "shaking" to release deep-seated lifetime trauma from our cells. When we process these shadows, we shift out of heavy masculine survival mode and step into our true identity as sons who get to "frolic and be whimsical" with the Father.
Conclusion & Activation: Drop the Question Marks
Instead of worrying about structural outcomes or future timelines, she lives in a fluid, continuous state of co-creation with Holy Spirit, witnessing beautiful, heavy synchronicities map out her life every single day.
Bracy leaves the Interviewing Jesus audience with a crucial activation for their week: Guard your thoughts with radical thanksgiving, love the full dark-and-light aspects of how you were made, and never minimize the spiritual power of simply lying down to rest. The ladder ahead is significantly greater, and it’s time to step onto your high-value canvas.
Mantel Room in the Courts of Heaven
by Kristen Wambach
When you step through the veil that Jesus rent with his life and his obedience for the love for us, you step through that veil, and hello, there is heaven, and God develops our spiritual perceptions, seeing, hearing, tasting, painting, everything." —Kristen Wambach
🏛️ Coaching Church Activation:
Stepping Out of the Matrix
The Activation: "The Level 3 Rest & Reset"
The Monday-Morning Strategy
- Forced Rest (Lie Down): Block out 15 minutes to physically lie down flat. If your schedule or body is screaming under pressure, give yourself the "green light to breathe". Disconnect from all outward noise and allow yourself to simply float in the uncreated darkness with the Lord.
- Clear the Grammar: Sit quietly with Jesus and consciously remove the punctuation marks—the heavy anxiety over "what’s next," the future deadlines, and the past regrets. Let the sentence of your life just continue to flow without you trying to control or edit the outcome.
- The Oneness Declaration: Speak this truth into your room and let your cells hear it: "Jesus, you are in me and I am in you. We are co-creating this day together in perfect synchronization".
Living It Out This Week
The ladder ahead is greater, but you cannot build it out of exhaustion."
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In my recent book, How Good is God, I pull back the veil to help you simplify the supernatural, silence the cultural noise, and step into a lifestyle of bold, unshakeable oneness with Him. This isn't just a book to read; it's a doorway to a personal rewording of your story by Jesus Himself.
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For those who are new to my world, I am a daughter, a leader's guide, and a voice passionately dedicated to bridging the gap between heaven and earth. Through the Interviewing Jesus Podcast, my mission is to grant you exclusive access to the heart of Jesus for supernatural wisdom that completely rewrites your daily life.
I believe that the supernatural should be practical, that your spiritual senses were designed to see and hear the King, and that every single one of us is called to live a lifestyle transformed by real, daily encounters with a living God. I am so honored to share this space with fellow mystics, creatives, and purpose-driven hearts who are brave enough to let the old systems go and build the greater era that is coming.
Thank you for leaning in, for guarding your heart, and for walking this journey of becoming a son alongside me. I appreciate you more than words can say.
Blessings,
Kristen Wambach Host of the Interviewing Jesus Podcast & Author of How Good is God
Final Summary:
Step Out of the Matrix and Into the Flow
True spiritual maturity is not found in complex religious systems or endless "matrix" structures—it is found in the simple, cellular revelation of your Oneness with the Father. When we let go of our past structures, love our hidden pieces, and confidently step onto our high-value canvas, we free our spiritual senses to co-create a whimsical, synchronized life alongside a living God. It is time to let the sentence of your life continue to flow, climb onto your horse named Wisdom, and experience a daily life fully transformed by supernatural encounters.
Let's Connect! 💬
- Which part of Bracy's story resonated most with you? Was it the reality of her 2023 "death spiral" and physical collapse, or the incredible imagery of painting portals alongside the cloud of witnesses in her heavenly art room?
- What is your personal "Oneness Declaration" as you step out of performance and into rest this week?
Stay Spiritually BRAVE!
The deeper story is one of reconciliation, grace, and learning who God says we are rather than who the world tells us we are." —Donald Williams
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Today, I’m sitting down with Donald Williams, co-author of Born of Nothing. Donald’s life is a masterclass in shifting a multi-generational trajectory. He grew up in a South Carolina cotton mill village, surrounded by poverty and labeled a "linthead." He broke through that invisible ceiling to earn a Doctor of Education and work globally for the Department of Defense.
But this isn’t just about academic success. It is about heavy, painful contrasts. While Donald was sitting in university classrooms, cousins he grew up playing with every day were heading down a dark path that landed them on death row and in prison. How does one family line produce both prison rows and doctorates? Donald and I strip away religious theory to look at the raw, redemptive reality of how God operates in the grittiest corners of our lives.
Turn the volume up for this one. It is time to live Spiritually BRAVE.
That man would get down on his knees beside his bed... and he’d pray specific prayers of everyone he knew. I would hear him praying for hours." —Donald Williams
SUMMARY
Navigating the heavy contrast of his own professional success while beloved family members ended up on death row and in federal prison, Donald uncovers how God hides in plain sight within our darkest histories. Listeners will be deeply moved by his memories of his grandfather’s unceasing specific prayers that anchored the family tree, as well as a stunning, firsthand account of a literal supernatural intervention where an angel woke Donald up at 3:00 AM to save his atheist son from a fatal overdose. Today, that son is an ordained pastor preaching the gospel worldwide.
This conversation strips away empty religious theories to offer practical keys for anyone feeling trapped by the limitations, addictions, or poverty of their family tree. Tune in to learn how to actively silence the voice of shame, cultivate an ear to hear God's voice through intentional listening, and execute a brand-new legacy built entirely on who Jesus says you are.
The Power of an Interrupted Trajectory: Breaking the Invisible Ceiling of Generational Shame
In a recent episode of the Interviewing Jesus Podcast, I sat down with Donald Williams, co-author of the raw and gripping memoir Born of Nothing: From White Trash and Lintheads to Purpose Across Generations. Donald’s life is a masterclass in what happens when the living God steps into a family line and completely alters its trajectory.
Never let someone tell you you cannot do it, because you can. God can take you from the depths of the mud, from the depths of despair, and he can lift you up." —Donald Williams
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Episode Transcript
Kristen Wambach (00:01)
Welcome back to Interviewing Jesus podcast where we step past religious theories to look at the practical, raw, and redemptive reality of heaven meeting earth. My guest today understands the power of a shifted trajectory down to his very bones. Don Williams grew up in South Carolina cotton mill village, surrounded by poverty, generational struggle, and what the world labeled "lintheads." He became the first in his family to graduate from college, ultimately earning a doctor of education and serving for over a decade as an analyst for the Department of Defense.
But this isn't just a story of academic success. While Donald was sitting in a classroom, people he loved deeply were ending up on death row. He is the co-author of the memoir, Born of Nothing from White Trash and Lintheads to Purpose Across Generations. Today we are diving into how God quietly works in the hardest, untampled places of our lives to rewrite our identity, break generational shame, and prove that where you start never determines where you finish. Donald, welcome to the show.
Donald Williams (01:30)
It's great to be here. I'm excited about this conversation.
Kristen Wambach (01:34)
We are going to have a good time. Welcome, welcome. So, Donald, your book doesn't shy away from the raw, the gritty, and sometimes the coarse reality of growing up in a mill village. It isn't wrapped in neat religious packaging by any means. When you look back at that environment through a spiritual lens today, looking back at it—where do you see Jesus hiding in plain sight back then, working in ways that your environment said was impossible?
Donald Williams (02:15)
Okay, a couple of things right before that. I want to define the concept of linthead. These were people who worked in a cotton mill, and this was around 1920 or so. One in six people in South Carolina actually worked in a cotton mill. I think that's the right number. And my parents, my grandparents, they all worked there. And my two grandfathers were child laborers starting at about the age of nine that they were working in the mills.
My father, when he was fourteen, he quit school at the end of eighth grade because he said there was no hope, nowhere else to go. This is the only place to be. And my mother at the age of sixteen, and they were working in mills. And so what happens is you're in that cotton mill and you're working in that all day. And as a little child, I could go into the mill, you could see your daddy or mother working, but when they came out, they would be covered in cotton dust or lint. And it would just be all in their hair, all over their clothes. And so the term linthead came about.
Well, linthead was actually in those days a derogatory term, just like when we hear the term white trash. That concept puts someone in a bucket, let's say. But what happened was with the lintheads, they lived—they were, I'm gonna say they were beholden to the mill, to that mill that they are working at. In my case, my parents, they were working at the JP Stevens Industrial Mill in Rock Hill, South Carolina, that made blue jean material for blue jean pants. That's what they did. And when you did that, you probably lived on the mill hill in a mill house. You went to the mill store, you probably attended a church that was probably donated by the mill. I remember going to the mill Christmas parties where the children would get gifts, things like this. And everything was centered around the mill.
And so if you did something that was inappropriate, that could cost you a job because it didn't have to be at work, it could be a part of your life. Then your family would lose that job. Then you're not only losing a job, you're losing your house, you're homeless. Your family's homeless. And so a lot of times things were quite quiet. And so if things—if abuse or whatever did happen inside of a family—no one would tell, no one would talk about it. And the reason is, I don't want my daddy to lose his job, or I don't want my uncle to lose his job. So you had that.
But now where did I see Jesus in all this? Now both of my grandfathers, I will say, were absolutely born-again believers in Christ in all their life. I never—I mean they were wonderful role models because I never saw them do—I never saw them take a drink, smoke, do any kind of drugs or anything like that. They were just good, and I use that term lightly, but what you would call God-fearing men who believed in the power of God. And my parents, they did not come to Christ until their early twenties and they went to a revival, a tent revival, and the preacher preached, and they accepted Christ and they never turned back.
But where did I see God? And I'll say this is one of those first things. Now I never remember not going to church. I always remember we would go Sunday morning, Sunday night, Wednesday night, and my parents were gospel singers. And so we were going places and singing or watching them sing. And so there were a lot of revivals and things in those days. But I think one of the really first moments that I really would say that I experienced the power of God and knowing that God was so real was my grandfather Williams, Papaw Williams is what we called him.
And he worked in the mill and he had been orphaned at the age of twelve and he had worked in the mill since he was nine and he had done all these things. He had sixteen children and all this, two wives, sixteen children—two wives, not at the same time, but one passed away and he remarried. But anyway, every night when I was spending the night with him, that man would get up and go to bed, he'd close his door, and in those mill hill houses you could hear everything that was going on in there. And that man would get down on his knees beside his bed, and he'd pray and he'd pray and he'd pray. And he didn't just pray like, "Dear God, I'm praying for Kristen. Dear God, I'm praying for Donald." He didn't do that. He would go, "Dear God, Donald's got a problem. He needs to come to Christ. He's a little fella, but he needs to know you. Help me." And he'd be like, "Help me find a way to tell Donald that he needs to be saved."
And so he would pray specific prayers of everyone he knew. And I would hear him praying for hours, just in there every night praying. And he believed in that power of prayer. And so I saw that and I felt that. And I knew that it was powerful and it was something different and it was real and true. And then you could also see the power of when his prayers were answered and how he would rejoice in that. And so it was instilled in me in a very early age that there is something real and that there's something more than I'm the center of the universe. There's something out there. And I saw that through my grandfather. But then my father, my mother, the way they live their lives, of course, I saw that. But you would see that on the mill sometimes. There were other times you didn't see that in some people. But as an early child, you can make that distinction of which path do I want to take, you know.
Kristen Wambach (08:20)
Thank you very much. So you have lived a life of heavy contrasts, earning a doctorate while watching people you love deeply, some in prison, some on death row. The kind of pain that could make your heart cynical. But instead, you gave your heart towards restoration. How did navigating that specific grief help you understand the depth of Jesus' compassion for the broken and for the bound?
Donald Williams (09:08)
Okay, so the story is two of my cousins, and I always tell this story, I have forty-two I think aunts and uncles, about that many, and I have eighty-something first cousins. And I mean, you know, I always challenge people, how many first cousins do you have? Well, I have eighty-something and these people all lived right there. They didn't go away, basically they all lived right there. And I was kind of maybe in the middle, there were some older, there were some younger—maybe I was more kind of towards the younger end, but I saw a lot of these people.
But specifically a couple of them, my mother's country brother was Uncle Charles, and he had six children. And though now this is what I'll say is I look at my cousins and the majority of them are born-again Christians who serve God, and then you see Charles' family. And Charles on the outside, my uncle Charles, he was my mother's brother, he was a few years her senior. And on the outside you would see he was a deacon in the church, he was a leader in the church, and he would maybe teach Sunday school and he professed this life of piety, you know, that this is who he was. But then in those days you would go to each other's houses like on a Sunday. You may like maybe my Aunt Jean would say, "Hey, y'all come over and eat Sunday supper or lunch with us," or we're gonna go to Mama and Papa's house. But if we went to Charles and Shirley's house, my Uncle Charles, my Aunt Shirley, it was like it wasn't the same. The house was dirty, it was filthy, it was barren, there was trash all in the yard. And you know, in my mind I'm thinking something's not right here.
And then these cousins of mine, I mean, I'll go to church with them. I'm playing with them all the time. It's not like I see them once a year. This is an everyday thing that I'm seeing these people. My cousin Eddie was a few years younger, but my cousin Tommy was right at my age. He may be a few months younger. And growing up with him, with my cousin Tommy, he was just like me. I didn't see any difference in me and him mentally or the way we approached the world. I mean, I knew that they lived a different life at home.
Now, my cousin Eddie, now he was mean. He was just like one of those kids you just go, he's mean, he's always in trouble. And in the book, you know, you read this. I remember one year they got a shotgun for Christmas and they would—my cousin Eddie and my cousin Ronnie—they would go, one would go stand in the field and the other would shoot him, and turn around and let him shoot him in the back from, you know, a hundred yards away. And he would yell, "Five! You hit me with five pellets!" Then they would run the gun back. And I'm thinking, this is not normal. This is not right.
But so out of Charles's six children, Eddie is the oldest, he's on death row in California. He's been there since the early eighties. He went off for a while because of laws, but he got back on and he's there. He's in his seventies, mid to early 70s. And then Tommy is, I guess he's 65 or 66, so he's right at my age. And he's life in prison, probably would have gotten the death penalty here in South Carolina. But it was a cold case from twenty-something years ago where he had—I don't want to talk about what he did. I don't want to glorify that horrible event. But they finally through DNA, they convicted him.
The other son—there was another son who died homeless, AIDS, male prostitute, drug addict in Florida. And then the youngest daughter was killed by being struck by a car at the age of five. The other two, my other two cousins, I'm not gonna say their name. I don't know where they are. I haven't had any contact with them probably since they were teenagers. I hear stories, and you know, I want to know where they are, but I don't.
The weird thing was is SLED, which is our South Carolina Law Enforcement Division, when they were investigating Tommy for the murder, they actually came to my Uncle Charles' house because they never found the body. The body was just disappeared. They came to my Uncle Charles' house and dug under his house for about a week, looking for the body, thinking that the body was under it. They didn't find it, and there's a lot of speculation about that. But so the question is, how do you reconcile like these people that you grow up with? How do you, what happened, you know, and you and I talked about that before. Is it—was it abuse, was it mental illness, was it demon possession, as we talked about before? What happens? What causes what in anyone's mind, what would cause them to randomly kill a child or randomly kill someone they had never met just because from whatever they're doing?
Why did my Uncle Charles do the things that he did? It was not normal, you know, because he was living like standing in the church, you would see this. This is what everyone saw. When you went to his house, you would go, this is—something's missing. But then after all that, through the testimony and the court trial and all of this, you saw even the worse, you know, the more harm that they did. And just let me add one more little detail in here. My parents lived next to them. This was—I would have been a small child, but they lived next to them and they saw them beating Eddie as a child. He must have been five or six at the time, beating—would beat him in the face with their fist, beat him with an extension cord. In the South we say drop cord, a power cord, if you know what I'm talking about. Extension cord, yeah. I know that when I said drop cord, people are gonna go, "What is he saying?" I knew that. But they saw—and I don't mean to laugh about that, but going back to the story, they saw Uncle Charles beating Eddie and his children with that.
And you know, and they said, "Why did you not call the police?" Well, the problem is my father and mother, they said they would argue about it. "We need to call the police." Well, first of all, the police didn't really do a lot of good in those days. In the early 60s in the South, it was, you know, they would just kind of brush things off. But the other part of it was, what would happen if Charles had been put in jail? He'd have lost his job, the family would have been homeless, all this, and then the rest of the family would be going, "Why did you do that? Why did you turn them in?" And so my parents really struggled with this. And they still—well, my father's past, but my mother still struggles with the concept that they did not, you know, they did not help. But she said circumstances of the day and the way historical things were in that—at that time, you just didn't tell. You just didn't.
But so, you know, back to that concept of where, you know, where do I see Jesus in this and what happened? I hear that my cousin Eddie reads the Bible every day and has become a Christian. I don't know that, I have no idea. I can't contact him. I don't know. I think maybe today I could. I've been thinking about that. But it's like, you know, people will know us by our fruits, and we see his life.
Now, how did that parlay for me into going into a classroom situation because I was a classroom teacher for 28 years? I knew that I was poor. I knew that where I was, I was out of my element. I wasn't raised to be a college student or to be a teacher or anything. I mean, there was zero chance of people thinking that that would be something that I could do. But then I made it. And so when I was in the classroom, I tried to help every student. It didn't matter to me if they were rich or poor. I knew that God made every one of those children and I wanted to tell them, and I did tell them, God made you wonderfully and God has a purpose for your life and choose the good. And I would also tell people you are defined by the friends you surround yourself with. Your friends will either pick you up or pull you down, and it's the friends that you pick that are going to determine who you are in life. And so a lot of times I think about—I saw the bad, I saw the evil, I saw the bad part. And from that it's like, I want to make the world a better place. I want to show people this is not a path. There's a better path. Jesus will take you in a totally different direction than what the dark side will take you. And so that's how I've lived my life.
Kristen Wambach (19:02)
Thank you for sharing that. Generational shame tells us that our family past is our permanent ceiling, like how you were just describing. But you broke that trajectory. And now your own sons hold doctoral degrees. And for the listener right now who feels trapped by limitations, addictions, poverty, even their family tree—what is the first step moving forward from surviving day-to-day to executing a new heaven-inspired legacy?
Donald Williams (19:50)
Yeah, and see that's a problem. A lot of people ask that question. It was like, "Well, Donald, how did you get to where you are? How did you ever get out of that cycle?" Now, and I wanna say this, is I loved where I lived. I didn't know I was poor. I tell people a lot of times, I had no idea. I thought we were rich. We had a house and we had food we picked out of the garden or my daddy caught out of the pond or he shot out of a tree or something. I know a lot of people will like that, but that's what we did. And they had pigs and chickens and cows, and you know, that's the way you lived. And so I thought—I thought I was well off. I thought there was nothing wrong with that.
But I remember it was about the third grade, a teacher showed me a globe, and they were like, "This is the earth, this is where you live." And so as a child, you start picturing this. And you know, we had always sung, "He's got the whole world in his hands," you know. And so I'm looking at this globe, and the teacher's going, "and this is the United States, and this is South Carolina, and this is where you live." And then I remember looking, thinking, "well, here's Germany, and here's Japan." And I mean, I remember looking and thinking, look at this big old world we've got. And I thought, would there ever be a chance of me getting there, and in my mind in the third grade? No, there would be no chance. I had maybe been to one other state, and that was only because we lived right at the state line.
And in my life, honestly, I have taught many students who have never been out of the county that they were in. I remember one time I have a student who I took to the beach on a student trip and he went out on the ocean and he stood and he put his hand over his eyebrows like this and he looked and he said—he's looking and he goes, "You really can't see the other side, can you?" And you know, he had never been anywhere and it was this. And so as this child, you know, there's this wonderment, and then, you know, maybe a missionary would come to your church and they would talk about, well, I'm here or whatever. So as a child, you know, maybe you would see movies or whatever, and you'd go like, there's another world out there that I could do, but how do I get there?
Well, for me, it was through education. And the question is, how do people break that cycle? Well, the first thing, you've got to have a goal. You've got to go, "I want to get out of this." You've got to have that desire to say, "There's something—God has something else for me out here." And I will say this all my life, wherever I have been, God has had his hand on me. Now, I've not always lived every day for God. I mean, I'm a saved sinner. I was a sinner before, but what I'm saying is, you know, you have to decide in your life, this is where I want to go. So you've got to create that mental image.
The next step I think is really you've got to incorporate God into your life. There has to be that spiritual aspect. Without God, nothing is possible. With God, everything is possible. And you have to realize that. You have to know, "I need a personal relationship with Jesus Christ, and I will let him guide me in the direction I need to go."
Now the next part is—and I use this term loosely as well—family. You've got to have a good family. Well, but family could be friends. I remember talking to an atheist one time and I said, "Hey, God is"—he wanted to know what my concept of God is. I said, "God is like my father," and he goes, "Well, my father was rotten. I don't want a God like that." And you know, you hear that, you hear people say that. So we have to say a lot of times, I had to realize I had to change what I would say. God is like a good father. But and so you have to—you've gotta have that goal, but that goal through Jesus Christ and you gotta have that spiritual being. Surround yourself with good family and friends. And that's what I talked about before. They're going to be the resources that will help you, that will teach you and show you how you can make it.
Now, I did not have that luxury when I went to college. No one in my family had ever been to college. There was no context. The expectation was you—if you could graduate high school, if you could do that, that was amazing. But the next step was within a couple of weeks or a couple of months, you would be married, you would move out of your parents' house, and you would start your life. All three of my older brothers, they did exactly that. They graduated high school, they got a job, they moved out of the house—one within two weeks of graduation. And that's what they did. And well, all of them within a year, they were out and marrying and starting their families. That's what they did. And so you have to—you have to have that mindset of like, this is not all there is. And family can help you go, there can be a different dream for you. Is there something else you could do?
And when I went to college, and like I said, I didn't have that support. I had to figure it out on my own, you know, and it was difficult. And I tell everyone, I didn't when I said that I didn't know I was poor—and my parents would get mad, they still get mad if I say that I was poor, 'cause they would go, "No, you were not." But I went to college in homemade clothes. I had two shirts that my mother had stitched together, two pairs of blue jeans that my mother had stitched together. I didn't have a suitcase. I had a duffel bag—it was just a blue jean bag that she had made and I would stuff my clothes, my sheets and blanket and pillow in it. And I go, I look like a hobo with a sack over my back, and I go to college and everyone else is walking in with designer clothes and suitcases. And I knew that I—I knew that I was in a different place. But I never knew that I didn't belong. No one ever told me, no one ever said.
Well, I will say this, a lot of teachers said, "You won't make it." There were a lot of adults who go, "You can't do this." The guidance counselor, the counselor at school, when she pulled me in, "What do you want to do, Donald?" "I want to go to college." And her look was like, "You're the son of lintheads. What are you talking about, college?" And I was like, "Yeah, yeah, I think I'd like to do that." And she, you know, she pulls out and she goes, "Well, yeah, you've got really good grades, but it's kinda like you've not been on our radar." You know, they had pushed me to the side. And so when I got to college, it was very difficult.
And so it's the same thing when someone is looking to get out of this—it's not going to be easy. But you need to find those resources of people that can help you. And I will say this, when I say God had his hand on me, there was a knock on my dorm room one night. Man knocked on my door and I opened the door and he goes, "I see your name's Donald and you're an agriculture education major." He goes, "Well, we've got a group that we meet, and we'd like for you to come to this meeting if you would like to." I had no friends, I had no relationships with anyone, and this was a couple of months in, and I was struggling. And so I said, "Sure, I'll go." And I went with him. And these people surrounded me with love. And they showed me how to study. They showed me what to do and how to navigate college. And I know God placed them in my life to help me.
When I went after my first year, I went home, and they would mail grades to you then. I opened my report card, so to speak, or my grades from college. My first semester, I'd made a 2.0, so a C average, so I'm making it. My second semester, I had seven courses. I had six D's and one B, a 1.3. And my parents—I open it up, I remember I was in the kitchen, I open it up, and my mother starts screaming—not really screaming, but sternly saying, "You're wasting our time. What are you doing? You're goofing off, just quit. Come back home, go to work. That's where you belong." And my father, my daddy, he patted me on the back. He goes, "Son, I'm proud of you. You did a good job. Go back and try harder." Now, the thing is, I needed to hear both those messages. I needed to hear, "Quit goofing off, try your best," and I also needed someone to pat me on the back and say, "You did a good job," or "You will do a better job."
And from there I got better and better and better. My last three semesters, I made the dean's list, I made a 4.0 for straight A's for the first time in my life my last semester, my senior year. And my master's and doctorate, which was a different day back in the 80s and 90s, I made straight A's. And so, you know, I know without that conversation at the table, I never would have made that because I was ready to quit. And it's the same thing with the question you asked me: people cannot give up. There may be times that life is going to be hard. There's going to be difficult things that happen. Maybe your friends let you down, your family lets you down. But remember, you have a goal, you have a God, you have people that can help you. And then the third thing is become educated in what I'm saying there. If you have a computer, if you have access to an internet, the world's at your fingertips. And a professor instilled in me back in the eighties, "Become a lifelong learner."
And Donald Williams will not go quietly into the night. You will not hear of me moving to Florida and retiring in some village. I will work until the day I die and I will serve Christ until the day I die and I will do what I can for that. I retired from federal government service a year ago; I will never retire. And that's the mindset that people need to take.
Kristen Wambach (30:39)
Amen. Amen. I agree. I changed the word when my husband stepped away from the workforce. I go, "Hey, you ain't retiring, you're re-firing. You are re-firing." Because there is a mental thing that goes along with that word retire that has threaded itself in our society, and we do expect less from life and less from ourselves. And our health changes tremendously from that particular word. Yeah.
Donald Williams (31:21)
I agree, but I refuse to be that person who just sits and watches television. I will not. Now the Lord may take me home in the next minute, but I will go knowing that today I worked hard. You know, I have worked since the moment I woke up this morning. I've not stopped. And I will work until the time I go to sleep. But this is who I am.
Kristen Wambach (31:47)
Now I can relate with some of the difficulties in your grammatical and educational journey. I suffered with dyslexia before they knew what dyslexia was. So reading, writing, and arithmetic—you know, those numbers—it was just painful, tremendously painful. If I didn't have music and PE, I probably would have flunked out. So, you know, something that was so difficult for me, and then 20 years later, God healed me of it. And go figure, now I'm speaking and talking with people and writing. For something that was so hard, it was hard, it was painful. And I remember on my report cards, it always said, "She doesn't apply herself."
And those kind of things that get attached to us—whether it's generationally, whether it's a trial or struggle that we duke it out with—those labels sometimes are so difficult to remove from us, and they just will create a shame. Because I was embarrassed because I couldn't—I wasn't comfortable reading at all because it was so hard and so difficult. And I remember Jesus helping me when he removed shame. You know, the shame that attaches itself—it's different than guilt, because guilt, you have a portion of responsibility with guilt. Someone could make you feel guilty, but you're still taking that and giving it permission to make you feel that way. And also guilt is, "If I did something wrong, then you can feel that you did something wrong." But shame is a different nut totally. And I just wanted to share that. Listening to your story, listening to it, I could feel that—how shame will try to squash us down and keep us from that goal, that intent.
Donald Williams (34:22)
I still say Satan tells me all the time, "You're not good enough, you don't fit, you can't do this." All the time, it's like that discouragement, and I just don't listen to it. Now think about my co-author with this book, Jason. He was diagnosed with a learning disability at an early age. And you know, people made fun of him, people ridiculed him and all this, and they told him, they said, "Factory, maybe at best. Maybe you could join the military." But he refused to listen to that and he kept trying. And I mean, I know Jason, I've known him all my life, and to hear his story is amazing. For him—he ends up being a lieutenant colonel, you know, with two masters. But yet he was told he cannot.
Never, never let someone tell you you cannot do it, because you can. From where he came from, where I came from—you know, I never would have thought that I would work around the world and that I would be, you know, working for the Department of Defense as a researcher, doing this. And living in Seoul and Tokyo and all these places, it's like, it was unbelievable that I got to do the things I did, but also know that God placed me in those places.
Kristen Wambach (35:46)
Your career took you across the globe, analyzing data and working with educational systems. We often think of supernatural wisdom as something reserved for altars or in your prayer closet, but you talk about recognizing God's work in ordinary life. How can we cultivate that ear to hear God's voice and see his hand within our daily practical assignments? I mean, how did you do that?
Donald Williams (36:36)
That's a difficult question, and I hear my son talk about this a lot, the one who's a pastor, and he talks about discerning God's voice. And he said, "I know when it's God's voice. I know when he's telling me go do or see or say this," or whatever he says. "I know the difference between my inner voice and God's voice." And I think a lot of times it's maybe somewhat of a mystery to us. I think a lot of times we realize after the fact that God was doing this for me. After the fact—I wasn't maybe aware at the moment. Maybe I'd been praying, maybe I had been seeking God's guidance, seeking his will, seeking his direction, and maybe things happened. And maybe I didn't realize it until afterwards, and I would go, "That was absolutely God."
But I mean, I've had some instances where I should be dead. I mean, I literally should be dead—accidents and things like that. And I don't care to speak about this personally, but I know that just from a supernatural sense, I'm alive because it wasn't my time. I know that. And there were times in my life in church where I've seen things in church, and things that I've seen in church that I knew that I wasn't speaking any longer, but it was the Holy Spirit through me speaking, that I knew it was there. I think a lot of times when we pray, "God give me guidance, God help me," I think we're inclined to still leave in the human aspect of it. It's like, "God, which job do you want me to take?" But in your mind you think, "But God, I'd really like this one, so I think that's the one you're telling me," you know, but that may not be God's word for us. When we pray, we need to realize we have a conversation with God. But when we pray so many times, we think it's a one-sided conversation—that we're the only ones talking and we're never listening. And so when we pray, a lot of times all we're doing is we're talking to God and we're saying, "God, this is what I want, God, this is what I need, God, this is how I feel." And maybe we give that obligatory, "God, I praise your name and all this," because that's what we were taught to say, but we never take time to listen.
Prayer is a two-way conversation, and we need to say, "God, what do you want me to know today? God, what do you want me to learn today? Please tell me." One of the most powerful prayers I ever prayed in my life—and I tell people I don't ever want to pray this again—I prayed, "God, reveal to me all of the sins I've not confessed to you." And it was like a movie really in my head of all the evil things I had done in my life. And I was like, "God, please stop. You can stop. I get it. I get it. Please stop. I cannot be this person. I don't want to see this filth and trouble that was in my life." And so, we have to realize, yeah, we're talking to the creator of the universe, but we also need to realize that we not only are talking to him, but we're listening to him. And that's a very important part. And the people who are looking to get out of the situation they're in, they need to do the same thing. Step aside and listen. Step aside and ask God, "God, please speak to me. I'm here. I want to hear your voice. I want to hear what you have to say." And he will let you know.
Kristen Wambach (41:49)
Yes, yes. It's when we ask, it is God's responsibility to communicate to us in a language that we will understand. Now, the language could be a certain song coming on the radio. The language could be when you're walking out in nature and nature speaks to you and you hear. God definitely uses many different senses to communicate with us, but he is faithful to communicate. In this day and age, how do you cultivate quietness? Stillness?
Donald Williams (42:36)
How do I cultivate quietness and stillness? I don't think I can. I don't know that I'm capable of that. Okay, so what I do is if I have time alone like that, and there's not an interaction with someone somehow—which I have learned because I've lived a lot by myself, away from home, on the road and with my job and stuff—and so there's a lot of times you're by yourself and television is just not a good thing. You know, it's okay for a little bit of entertainment, but you need to limit yourself. But for me, it is playing the guitar and singing praises to God. And it may be something—and I said I'm not pushing this—it may be something I wrote. My songs are very personal to me, to God, or something like that. Or singing a hymn or something, but for me, those quiet times are strumming the guitar or a musical instrument and concentrating on the words of the song. The words of the songs are so meaningful, and when we sing them, it just makes them so much more alive.
The last time I was overseas with the Department of Defense, I was at the Yokota Air Force Base. I have to be careful what I say, I'm not supposed to say where I was and things, but I was in Japan and I'm in an apartment, this has been a few years ago. And at night I would be by myself and I'd have maybe six hours between the time that I got off of work and the time that I would want to go to bed. And in that time frame, I loved to go into my quiet time in my quiet little room in this small little Japanese apartment, and I had my guitars, and I would play each one for hours. Now, I'm not any good at playing, but I just loved it. And it was just—I'm singing praises to God, just singing praises to God constantly. And I think that's how I spent my quiet time, but also listening, because God speaks to you through his scripture, his word. Think about this: we have God's instruction book that we have, that it's like, "Here, this is what I want you to know. Here's my words. Read them." And it's the same thing with songs, and some of the songs that I was singing just would bless my heart and bless my soul and take away the loneliness, because I knew that God was there with me, you know? And so that's how I handle quiet times.
Kristen Wambach (45:28)
That's good. That's really good. How has in those quiet times, or how has God made it—made his presence tangible, his voice tangible? You know, I'm asking that supernatural question where the love of God just reaches through the dimension and touches you.
Donald Williams (46:00)
Okay, the love of God—that's actually one of my favorite songs or lyric pieces, the love of God. But you know—this is going to sound really odd—but seeing people pass from this life into the afterlife who are Christians, and seeing the smiles on their faces as they leave this life, and knowing that I will see them again, and knowing—and I know they're not thinking about me when they're dying. They're thinking about what they're seeing on the other side. And I've seen the joy on the saints of God's faces as they leave this world, and it is a special time. My son, the pastor, he's of course held a lot of people's hands as they have slipped off into glory, as we say. And he said what a contrast it is to see a person who was a born-again believer in Christ when they die compared to someone who was not. And to see the difference in the way that death happens—you would become a believer if you would see that incident happen.
Now, I have had—I told you the story about the angel earlier. My parents talked about when I was a boy, they said they knew that they were at a church one time and they said the pastor was not there. For some reason the pastor did not come that day, this was years and years ago. And they said two men came in, never seen before, this is on a mill hill. They said they never saw them again. And they said these two men preached the word of God like no one had ever heard before, and then they left. And they were very adamant—they said it was angels that came in and spoke to us that day because there was no before or after. It was only they showed up and then they left, and it was what they saw.
And then in my case, when my son, who is a pastor now, who was at one time a horrible drug addict that overdosed multiple times—and I'm laying in bed and he's living next door to me. And I knew he was in bed. He was there with his wife, I knew he was asleep, and everything's okay. It was like one of those times in your life where every night you're thinking, "He's safe, he's okay, he's with his family. And if he gets up, his wife will call me." And so nothing happened, no one called. And it must have been three o'clock in the morning, something starts nudging me on the side. And there was no voice, but there was a communication. And there was a man in my bedroom, and he was communicating to me, "Get up, wake up. Your son is about to die. You've got to go help him."
I never heard the man's voice. The man never scared me. I was never afraid. It was just, "Okay, and I will do what he did." I didn't know where my son was, but that angel led me straight to him. And when I got to my son, the angel was gone. And my son's heartbeat was, let's just say, less than ten beats a minute. He was about to die and let's say not go to a good place, because he was lost at that point. As a matter of fact, he would have been what we would describe as a hardened atheist. That's how he was.
But through that angel waking me up and me going to him and him not dying—because he was taking his last breath—and him not dying, he ends up becoming a born-again believer in Christ and then became a pastor. And there have been hundreds, if not thousands, of people who have been led to Christ through—not his ministry, but God's ministry through him is what I say. I never say it's Zach's ministry. It's not, it's God's ministry. Zach is just a vessel. And Zach has preached around the world. And that supernatural experience—like I said, I don't care if anybody believes me or not. It doesn't matter because I was there. I know what happened. If someone wakes you up in the middle of the night, you're going to sit up in bed and you're going to be terrified and you're going to scream. It was nothing like that. I woke up surrounded in love, but it was like, "Hey, Donald, we need you to get up and go do something." And I did. And it's as real to me as any experience I've ever had in my life.
Kristen Wambach (50:46)
Yes, it is. Thank you for sharing that. Thank you so much for sharing that. That's definitely—this is a great place to share that. The subtitle of your book mentions moving from nothing to purpose. The world is incredibly loud, and the world can be incredibly confused or doubtful just of wonderful stories that you just shared. And sometimes our history or where we started or came from, it hinders us. When you finally stripped away the labels that the world set before you, who did you discover Jesus says Donald Williams actually is?
Donald Williams (51:53)
You know what? I learned that I once again—and I believe I said this earlier—that God made me and He made me with a purpose. And I've never doubted myself from that standpoint, even though I know, like I said, I've always had Satan going, "You're not good enough," all this. I'm just gonna like just move away because I know who I am.
But I've had instances—I can tell you of a specific instance. I was in South Korea, I was in a meeting, and there were some people who were like—they were very rude. And they were like, "You're from the South and you're stupid and you're a nobody." And I mean, they literally were saying this to me, and they meant it. They're like, "Who do you think you are? How can you be here with us?" And they would even say, "Why don't you try to get rid of that southern accent?" You know, this kind of thing. And I'm like, "You can have your Hollywood image of me in your mind if you want to, but I know who I am. I know where I came from. Yeah, I came from lintheads, the cotton mill. I know that. But guess what? I deserve to be here just like you deserve to be here. I earned my way to this position just like you did. And as a matter of fact, if we compare resumes, maybe mine's greater than yours," is what I thought. I think I maybe even said that because I fall back a little bit.
But I mean, I have had that instance in my life where people have just, you know, they judge you. The Hollywood version of all Southerners is that you're backwards and stupid and you don't know anything, and that's the furthest thing from the truth that there could be. And when they hear me speaking in this southern language and they'll go, "Wait a minute, he's not stupid. What's going on here?" Actually, I was in a doctoral class, doctorate class one time—this was at Clemson University, back in the days before the internet when you still had to go to class. And a fellow student actually said, "Donald, you know, you really have a strong southern accent, but you're smart." And so really I looked at him, I said, "So what you're saying is I sound stupid, but I'm smart. Is that what you're saying?" And he laughed. We all had a good laugh out of it, but you know, he was giving me a compliment.
But there are people in this world who want to change you. That's the thing when we talk about that line about purpose across generations—generational change, and don't let where you come from define who you become. I have never forgotten where I came from. I am more proud of my parents and what they did and what they did for me. Every time I see my mother now, I tell her, "Mama, thank you for the way you raised me. Thank you for allowing me to go to college. Thank you for funding me to go to college." They paid for it, penny by penny they paid for it. And I said, "Thank you for that." And I will never forget that upbringing. I will never forget how I started this. I will never forget my grandfather being on his knees and praying for people. Just what a wonderful image that that man gave me and is embedded in my mind—that this man, he cared for everyone, and it means so much. But I will never forget where I came from. I will never apologize for being a linthead from South Carolina. I will not. As a matter of fact, I wear that label proudly—not from a bragging standpoint, but from a concept of guess what? God can use anyone. God can take you from the depths of the mud, from the depths of despair, and he can lift you up and he can make you into something. He did that for my son Zach, he's done it for me, and he's done it for a lot of other people.
Kristen Wambach (56:12)
I agree. I agree. Donald, where can people connect with you and learn more about your book?
Donald Williams (56:20)
Okay. Of course, the book's on Amazon and Kindle and all that. I think it's free in Kindle right now, it may still be, I don't know. There is an audio version out now, which you can find at Amazon or Audible. It's there, so you have all those, you know, just the typical places that you can find. And it's easy—all you have to type in is maybe "Linthead" and you will see it, one word, or "Born of Nothing Linthead" and it'll pop up. Like I said, I'm the co-author, but it's there. But also I have a webpage, IamDonaldWilliams.com. IamDonaldWilliams.com. And there you can go to see if they're interested, if they feel like they would like to read this story and read more about my meager story, they can go in and see that at IamDonaldWilliams.com. And also, of course, they can reach out. I'd love for them to reach out, email me if you have any questions. Or if someone would like to speak, I'm more than willing—I'm talking not on a podcast, I'm talking about just speak one on one. I'm more than willing to talk to anyone.
Kristen Wambach (57:27)
That's wonderful. That's wonderful. And just a reminder, listeners, I have already built this particular episode's blog post, and all those links are connected there to make it really easy for you to connect with Donald. Now, I didn't ask your permission before, but in the spirit of your grandfather, which I believe rests upon you—would you pray for our listeners?
Donald Williams (58:05)
Yeah, absolutely. Let's bow our heads. Dear God, we just come to you with praise and admiration that you're the creator of the universe. And dear God, we just love you so much. There's not a breath we take that it's not ordained by you. There's not a step that we take that you don't know about. And dear God, we just praise your name for that. Dear God, I do ask for prayer for the family of my uncle Robert tonight. He's almost a hundred years old, a World War II veteran. And dear God, you know him and you know his life, you know his heart. But dear God, I know he's about to slip off to meet you—he's talked about this. But dear God, I ask that you be with his family, his children at this time to give them comfort. And dear God, in some kind of way, if there's anyone connected with him who doesn't know you, that through his life and through his death and his passing to you, dear God, that people may come to know you. Dear God, just thank you for this opportunity that we've had today to speak about how you have interacted in our lives and the things that you have done to us and about how you have led us. Dear God, just continue to give us opportunities to be able to tell others about you and about your love. Dear God, you are the great God. You're the only God, and we praise your name for it. Thank you for giving us your son, Jesus, who died for us. Dear God, thank you for that. And we love you so much. We ask these things in Jesus' name. Amen.
Kristen Wambach (59:42)
And listeners, I always just encourage you in that time of prayer, just put your hand over your heart and just remain in the pregnant presence of God and let him bathe you with that tangible touch of his love, of his encouragement, of the words that say, "You can do this, you can break through, you can move forward." And I thank you for that. Thank you. Donald, thank you for joining us here today.
Donald Williams (20:16)
Thank you for this opportunity, Kristen. I appreciate it.
Kristen Wambach (20:19)
I appreciate it too, so very much. Thank you.
The Weight of the Label
It was an environment designed to establish a permanent ceiling. Donald’s own father left school after the eighth grade because there simply was no other path visible on his horizon. Yet, Donald went on to break that cycle completely, eventually earning a Doctor of Education and working globally as an analyst for the Department of Defense.
However, Donald’s story is not a shallow narrative of self-made academic success. It is a story marked by agonizing contrast. While Donald was navigating the halls of higher education, cousins he grew up playing with were stepping into cycles of crime, addiction, and violence—eventually landing on death row and in federal prison.
I will never forget where I came from. I will never apologize for being a lint head from South Carolina... I wear that label proudly because God can use anyone." —Donald Williams
CONNECT WITH DONALD WILLIAMS
Kind Warning: language is occasionally graphic to depict the story. | Donald Williams Website |
In the cotton mill towns of the American South, generations of families lived in a world defined by lint dust, mill whistles, and long days of exhausting labor. Poverty was not simply a hardship. It was a system that shaped communities, reputations, and the expectations placed on entire bloodlines. Families like these were often labeled with a single dismissive word: lintheads.
At the center of the narrative is a boy born in 1934 to a teenage mother with no husband and no clear place in society. The identity of his father was never known. For years, he and his mother drifted through the border counties of North and South Carolina, moving between sharecropper cabins, shack towns, and mill villages during the hardest years of the Great Depression.
Eventually, they settled in a crude wooden shack on the side of Stoney Mountain above Hendersonville, North Carolina. Life there demanded resilience in the face of hunger, violence, and the rigid class divisions that defined mill-town society.
From these beginnings unfolds the story of a sprawling family whose members would follow very different paths. Some remained trapped in cycles of poverty, abuse, and crime. Others found ways forward through discipline, education, faith, and service.
Authors Jason G. Pike and Donald Williams, both descendants of Southern mill families and lifelong friends who first met at Clemson University, bring together family testimony, historical research, and personal memory to uncover a largely forgotten chapter of Southern life.
Part memoir and part exploration of American class history, Born of Nothing examines how the same origins can lead to radically different outcomes, and how the choices of one generation can change the direction of the next.
Hiding in Plain Sight
"Every night... that man would get down on his knees beside his bed, and he’d pray," Donald shared. He didn't pray vague, poetic blessings. He prayed specific, agonizingly detailed prayers for his grandchildren by name, asking God to rescue them from the cycle. Donald fell asleep to the sound of unceasing, generational intercession. That raw, unfiltered faith proved more resilient than the industrial machinery of the mills.
Breaking a generational pattern requires a deliberate refusal to allow your starting point to dictate your permanent destination. The world is incredibly loud about labeling us based on what we lacked or where we began. Satan utilizes those labels to breed a specific kind of paralyzing shame—a shame that whispers you will never belong in a room of purpose. But guilt is about what you have done; shame is an assault on who you are.
Shame corrodes the very part of us that believes we are capable and worthy of change." — Brené Brown
When Heaven Interrupts the Dark
Surrounded by a bizarre sense of peace rather than terror, Donald followed that unseen guidance directly to his son’s side. Zach was taking his final breaths, his heart beating fewer than ten times a minute. Because of that angelic interruption, Zach survived. Today, that former atheist is a born-again believer and an ordained pastor preaching the gospel around the world.
Your Trajectory Can Shift Today
If you are surviving day-to-day, feeling trapped by the limitations or addictions of your family tree, know this: Jesus specializes in untempled places. Step aside from the noise. Stop treating prayer as a one-sided list of demands and begin to listen. Ask the Creator of the universe to show you who He says you are. When you strip away the labels of the world, you realize that God can take anyone out of the mud of despair, lift them up, and build a legacy that echoes across generations.
- The Anatomy of a 'Linthead' Village: Explaining the cultural, economic, and systemic entrapment of the historic South Carolina mill hills.
- The Weight of Generational Contrast: Navigating the internal grief of personal success while loved ones face prison and death row.
- The Mechanics of Generational Intercession: How specific, audible prayers by elders act as an anchor that holds a family tree together.
- Angelic Disruption: A firsthand account of a literal supernatural intervention that halted a fatal overdose and turned an atheist into a global minister.
- Stripping the Label: Overcoming regional bias, educational discrimination, and the voice of shame to occupy high-level rooms of influence.
FINAL SUMMARY
Throughout the conversation, Donald reflects on the sharp contrasts of his life—navigating personal and academic success while beloved family members faced incarceration and death row. He shares how God was quietly at work in his upbringing, specifically through the consistent prayers of his grandfather. Donald also recounts a profound personal experience from a difficult season with his son, illustrating how faith and a change in perspective can alter a family's trajectory across generations.
As you listen to Donald's story of breaking through hidden ceilings and environmental limitations, it invites you to reflect on your own history: What labels or cycles from your past are you ready to lay down today so that you can step into the true identity and purpose Jesus has for you? This episode offers an encouraging look at letting go of shame and discovering a raw, lasting legacy through faith.
COACHING CHURCH ACTIVATIONS
Shifting Your Trajectory
Step 1: Identify the "Mill Hill" Script.
Donald grew up surrounded by a loud, cultural script that told him his family tree belonged in the cotton mills and nowhere else. Satan uses our environments to whisper a permanent ceiling over our potential.
- The Activation: Take a piece of paper and write down the silent, unspoken rule of your family line or past environment. Is it "We never have enough money"? Is it "We struggle with addiction"? Or perhaps "No one in our family ever finishes what they start"? Call it what it is—expose the hidden script to the light.
As Kristen pointed out in the interview, guilt is a response to what you have done (which can be confessed and corrected), but shame is a toxic counterfeit that tells you who you are. Shame attaches a permanent label to your chest, making you feel like a hobo with a duffel bag entering a room of designer suitcases.
- The Activation: Draw a line down the center of your paper. On the left side, list the labels the world, your past, or your mistakes have assigned to you. On the right side, write this question: "Who does Jesus say I am?" Leave the right side blank for a moment—you are about to fill it.
Most of our prayers are one-sided grocery lists where we tell God what we need and immediately get up from our knees. Donald’s grandfather prayed for hours, but Donald also learned the power of stepping aside to let God speak back.
- The Activation: Find ten minutes of absolute quiet today. Put away your phone, close your computer, and don't speak a long list of requests. Instead, put your hand over your heart and ask one specific question: "Jesus, what is the true name and purpose You have given me?" Sit in the stillness and listen.
Once you receive that nudge, that word, or that sense of divine peace, it is time to build a new trajectory for the generations coming behind you. Donald went back to college because his father patted him on the back and said, "Go back and try harder." You have the authority to speak that same momentum over your life and your children.
- The Activation: Fill in the right side of your paper from Step 2. Write down your new baseline in plain, straight quotes. Post it somewhere you can see it every single day.
"Where I started in life does not determine where I finish. My past is an explanation of where I've been, not a prophecy of where I am going. Today, I step out of survival mode and execute a legacy of heavenly wisdom."
MEET THE AUTHOR & PODCASTERKristen Wambach is a spiritual investigative journalist, author, and transformational leader dedicated to stripping away religious theory to make room for real, raw conversations with the heart of Jesus. With over 30 years of leadership experience and two decades as a trusted transformation coach and ordained pastor, Kristen specializes in simplifying the supernatural and helping people step into their God-inspired calling. As the author of How Good is God! and the Redemptive Activation Journal, Kristen doesn't just discuss faith—she provides the practical keys needed to navigate daily life with heavenly wisdom. |
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Stop waiting for the world to notice your external shine and start noticing the internal transformation that He is working on." — Kristen Wambach
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EPISODE TAKEAWAYS
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- Clean Relationship Boundaries: Learning to hold your head high and celebrate your daily growth in His presence acts as a critical line of defense that helps you avoid calamity in relationships.
- The Emotional Audit: You possess the structural choice to refuse to defend, carry, or entertain other people's bad attitudes, keeping your own heart in perfect peace because their happiness is not your responsibility.
- Redemptive Imperfection: The cross permanently removed performance-based judgment; your imperfections are no longer areas of rebuke, but the exact places where His grace is most perfectly displayed.
Diving deep into the ancient wisdom of Zephaniah 3:17, Kristen pulls back the curtain on a truth most believers miss. God is not an aloof orchestra leader standing on a pedestal ticking a baton and demanding perfection. He is a mighty warrior actively moving through the details of your ordinary life, singing a literal, loud soundtrack of triumph over your existence. Moving past old, pre-cross frameworks of judgment, Kristen delivers an immediate, outcome-focused layout to shift your heart from the exhaustion of striving for visibility into the secure rest of your true, intrinsic worth.
He who sings frightens away his ills." — Miguel de Cervantes
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Listeners will learn that God is not an aloof, passive spectator gently nodding in approval; He is a mighty warrior actively involved in the fine details of their lives, singing a literal soundtrack of triumph over their existence.
"Monday-morning" framework for shifting away from the exhaustion of striving for worldly validation and into the peaceful assurance of intrinsic, redemptive value. This episode delivers an immediate, practical path packed with spiritual keys to protect your peace, establish clean boundaries, and actively align your daily routine with unconditional delight.
Begin the CELEBRATION!
We live in a culture that is incredibly loud, hyper-distracted, and obsessed with celebrating success on a very narrow, visible, and competitive scale. It is so easy to look at those metrics—the likes, the hearts, the numbers, and the achievements of everyone else—and start believing the lie that you just aren't measuring up. We look at the noise and think we're falling short.
But when the world gets that loud, we need to dial it down. We need to tune out the external static and focus entirely on what God is actually saying about you and me.
Today, we are tearing down that performance-based lie. We are stepping into a profound, often missed truth about a love that is so intense and so focused it completely drowns out the noise of comparison. We are talking about how God and you celebrate you—even when the world is completely distracted.
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By Kristen WambachHave you ever felt completely unseen? Like you are putting in the hours, ticking the boxes, and doing the deep work, but the world around you is just totally oblivious?
We live in a culture that is incredibly loud, hyper-distracted, and completely obsessed with celebrating success on a very narrow, visible scale. It is so easy to look at those metrics—the likes, the hearts, and the achievements of everyone else—and start believing the lie that you just aren't measuring up. We look at all that noise and think we're falling short.
But when the world gets that loud, we need to dial it down. We need to tune out the external static and focus entirely on what God is actually saying about you and me. Today, we are tearing down that performance-based lie. We are stepping into a profound, often missed truth about a love that is so intense and so focused it completely drowns out the noise of comparison. We are talking about how God and you celebrate you—even when the world is completely distracted.
0:00 — Distractions and the High-Performance TrapBut here's the butt. I know there's always a butt, isn't there? Some seasons, even though you feel like you're really ticking the box and you're marking your way through, those seasons can be full of people issues, work dramas, family issues, health issues. So the word issues makes you feel like distraction is just hovering around you. Correct? There are times when we're accomplishing and ticking the boxes and moving the needle on our own personal dreams, but those around us may not be. What do you do?
Hello from the Pacific Northwest! This is Kristen from kristenwambach.com and you're listening to the Interviewing Jesus Podcast. Answer me this: How does a Baptist farm girl from Oregon stumble upon the mystical nature of Christ and the love of God? If you're like me, Jesus has redefined what you used to say yes to. Join me and my guests on a mystical journey. But before we talk about the spiritual woowoo, you need to know I am totally sold out to Jesus. It's amazing what the love of God reveals.
Now, let me jump right in. What prompted today's episode? Let me tell you. So, I am having a very productive week. As you know, I'm kind of one of those high-performance gals and I keep good notes and organized and stuff, and I'm working on some projects and I feel like, oh, I'm ticking the boxes of progress. Yay! Do you ever feel that way? You just go like, "Yes, I did my Friday finishers. I'm ticking my box and I'm encouraged by the Lord. I'm writing down my dreams." And you just feel like you're focused and you're stepping in the right place, right?
But here's the butt. I know there's always a butt, isn't there? Some seasons, even though you feel like you're really ticking the box and you're marking your way through, those seasons can be full of people issues, work dramas, family issues, health issues. So the word issues makes you feel like distraction is just hovering around you. Correct. There are times when we're accomplishing and ticking the boxes and moving the needle on our own personal dreams, but those around us may not be. What do you do? And how do you function in this? And how—it's just a really good how. That's what Jesus wanted us to talk about today: that we need to learn to pat ourselves on our own back in His presence because He is so pleased with you.
4:17 — Understanding God's Delight in UsSo I pulled a very famous scripture from Zephaniah 3:16 and 17. We're going to meander through it and pull out some really good wisdoms with some life applications. It says that day the message for Jerusalem will be, "Zion, do not yield to fear. Zion, do not yield to fear. Don't let your heart be discouraged." There's a first point for us: Do not let your heart be discouraged. So what do you do when the world around you seems distracted or noisy?
In 1 Corinthians 4, it says any judgment prior to the Lord's coming, that's prior to the cross. So everything before the cross, every judgment that would be pronounced before the cross is out of context. No, it just doesn't apply to us anymore. When we take everything that is before the cross, that brings it to a performance-based judgment. But Him coming, Him dying on the cross and being resurrected, whom we are in Him, it illuminates all those hidden mysteries for us and it shows us that we are included in His death, resurrection, and love. Amen!
So back to Zephaniah, verse 17 says, "Yahweh your God is inside of you." Do you ever sit there and fathom God inside of you? He is a warrior, a savior who takes such delight in you that it will make Him leap for joy and shout with great gladness. Yes, He will soothe you with His love and He will sing over you His song of praise. What does it feel like to be aware of God inside you? Let's unpack that.
First, let's consider the singer: God, the mighty warrior who saves. Yes, this is not, or He is not, a passive spectator. He's not just an orchestra leader up there, you know, ticking off his little baton expecting you to follow. No, He's going in and out of all the different portions of the orchestra, sitting down with every single instrument and sound in that whole symphony. He is totally involved. He is all-powerful, all-knowing, all-capable God inside of you and I! The one who parts the seas, moves the mountains, and orchestrates the cosmos. And He's entirely focused on you right now in this place, in this time, right here—just with your headphones or your little daily bobs in your earbobs. He's totally focused on you. Can we fathom that for a moment?
6:54 — The Power of God's Presence and SingingOh my goodness. And He's a connecting God in the most personal way. He not only saves us but those we love. Now I'm going to take a moment to unpack that word saves. Yes, we know the word means sozo—saved, healed, delivered. But let's chew on it just a little bit more, okay? No longer is it just about arriving into kingdom glory down the road, because Jesus made the presence of God available to us 24/7 now. We are on a journey to stay tuned, to stay in the spirit, to step in so to speak, and to partner with God as His transformation impacts us and the world around us. He may ask us to intercede or He may ask us just to focus and rest in trust.
Number two, second, consider the action: He will take great delight in you. What does that look like, God taking delight in you? Can you name something in the last couple of days that God did where He showed His delight for you? That Hebrew word delight implies a deep and profound joy and a pleasure. Do you catch God taking pleasure in you? It's the kind of joy like a proud parent feels when watching their child just walking through their day, simply existing. A joy that is completely unconditional. You just watch your child and there they are.
8:52 — Practicing Awareness of God's LoveYou know, we spend so much of our lives defending the character of God we hope is good, while silently carrying the weight of religious exhaustion and unanswered questions. But what if His kindness isn't a reward for your effort? What if it's a reality you can step into right now?
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Our existence is a source of happiness for God. He doesn't just tolerate you and I. Sometimes it feels like I'm just tolerating me. Raise your hand if you go, "Oh, help me Jesus." I know. He doesn't just tolerate you and I; He celebrates you. And this shifts our perspective from seeking God's approval to simply receiving God's pleasure. And that is what we're all about here today: just receiving God's pleasure. And that pleasure needs to overflow to patting ourselves on the back in His presence. Yes, pat yourself on your back in His presence.
And what does this do? You're holding your head up high. And when you hold your head up high and celebrate you—just today, you; not what maybe went on yesterday or this morning, no, right here and now—you're listening to this encouraging podcast to draw closer to God. How do you think that makes Him feel? He says, "Yes, yes, and amen. There's my kid stepping in and listening and trusting me." So when we do that, when we hold our head up and we go, "Yep, this was the right choice to do," it helps us avoid calamity in relationships. And that develops stronger boundaries. Yay! And it helps us to direct our prayers for others because we've taken the time to say, "Hey God, thank you. Thank you so much for helping me today. Thank you for putting this episode right in front of me so I can be encouraged." It's a gratitude where we say, "God, I can feel you and I'm in concert with you."
Number three, it's a very striking element: He will rejoice over you with singing. This is God—God our Father, creator of heaven and earth—and He belts out a long song over you. This is the highest form of personal celebration. The world may be distracted, your to-do list might be incomplete, and you may feel utterly just mediocre today, but God's soundtrack for you and your life is one of triumph and uninhibited joy. Can you imagine that? This divine music is intended to quiet you by His love, to encourage you by His volume, and allow you to rest in the assurance of your worth. And to answer your question—yes, I hear your questions—how can we hear His singing? Isn't that a great question? How can we hear His singing? Practicing His presence and awareness.
13:40 — Aligning Our Choices with God's JoyI'm going to break that down just this week: practicing His presence and awareness. It's through choices. You have so many choices. You had a choice whether to hang out with me today on this podcast. Yes, that is a choice that you made. And God says, "Wow, look, she or he is listening to hear me, to draw closer, to live spiritually brave, to understand the mysteries of heaven and earth."
So, how do we hear His singing through choices? I can choose to work out as a habitual thing that I do every day, or I can choose to have fun and praise God when I work out. Simple choice. I can choose to listen to another podcast self-help episode, or if I've already had my limits for today of self-help, God might say, "Why don't you just put on your favorite praise and worship music and sing at the top of your lungs?" Right? Or, I can choose to entertain or defend another person's bad attitudes. Do we ever do that? Do we ever entertain or defend another person's bad attitudes? Okay, I've been married, what, 41 or 42 years—I can tell you I have done this a time or two. Or I can choose to allow God to redirect their day. It's not my responsibility, their attitude and those people around us. It's not my responsibility for their happiness, and therefore I remain in peace.
Now hearing God sing over you is literal. There is a literal sound that He communicates to you. You can hear, you can feel, you can perceive His song. Also, a natural song is all around you. There's a natural song that we're just going to take a minute and think about. Now I can look out of my office window here with all my podcast equipment, the speakers, the microphone, and you're here and the camera's going, but I can look out the window and I can see those vivid summer green leaves are changing. That is God going from the sound in the heat of summer and harvest—His loud sound—to piano or pianissimo, to a very soft transition where nature's just changing, and I'm aware of it.
16:30 — Embracing Our Worth and TransformationIt's when you notice, when you take a breath in that moment, that God turns up the aha and says, "I see you and you see me. I see you and you see me." And that's hearing His song. Back to choices: How will you respond in that moment? How will you respond when you catch God singing over you and there's an aha, and you can tangibly feel His presence, or you're just caught away with the beauty of nature, or maybe you noticed your son and he's building something wonderful and you go, "Wow"—you have a wow moment. How will you respond to carrying God's song over you?
Now, let's pull out a few other scriptures here that highlight God's heart for you. In Jeremiah 31:3, the Lord appeared to us in the past saying, "I have loved you with an everlasting love." He draws us with His unfailing kindness. In Psalms 139:14, "I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made." There's a choice right there: I'm fearfully and wonderfully made. That's what caused me just to hop on the edge, turn on some radical Beach Boys music, and hang out with my granddaughter with what she was currently doing. She's developing her balance and her walking skills, and I jumped right on in and I made it fun. In Isaiah 62:3, "You will be a crown of splendor in the Lord's hand. A royal diadem in the hand of your God." What's that about? Your beauty—because crowns are pretty. You are a beautiful crown in His hands; you are a piece of royalty. Imagine that.
19:13 — Living Spiritually Brave and GratefulSo the challenge for us in this episode as we embrace that we're going to live spiritually brave today is to actively join God's celebration in you and I. We're relabeling what we assumed our flaws were. We've relabeled ourselves and allowed Him to paint a canvas of our royalty, of our beauty, of our catching God catching us: I see you and you see me.
He will no longer rebuke you and I. In Zephaniah, He will no longer rebuke you and I. Why does God no longer rebuke you and I? Because of what Jesus did. That means God gave up His right to be angry because of Jesus's sacrifice. So stop waiting for the world to notice your external shine and start noticing the internal transformation that He is working on. When you tick a box—yes, I tick a box and I got this done today, I was organized, I'm in my flow—say, "Yes, our imperfections are the places where grace, His grace, is most perfectly displayed." Yeah, maybe I might have lost it this morning with the technical help person on the computer. Well, you could pop them a thank you note because they always send the display of the conversation in your email. You can make things right, and God sees that. That's our healing, our transformation. And it tells us that we're accepted in Him and receiving His acceptance.
We listen. We make a choice and purpose ourselves to listen for the loud singing, right? Loud singing—let God turn the volume up. And when feelings of inadequacies creep in, when we compare ourselves, what do we do? When we even compare ourselves to people that are around us that may not be in that great of a mood—that's comparing ourselves. What are we going to do? Are we going to join them in bad attitudes, or are we going to use our imagination to hear God's song over us and keep focusing and trusting Him in this day? It's a purposeful act of faith to say, "The world's whisper of failure? That's not mine. No thank you. I choose to hear God's loud song of joy over me." And this is how hearing God's voice is the most essential way.
22:16 — Conclusion and PrayerAnd this way we hear God's voice. I invite you to check out my YouTube channel playlist, Hearing God. It has a whole bunch of episodes in it that will help you fine-tune those listening ears. Amen! And number three, align your steps with delight. Just like my choices, when you work out, when you go for a walk, when you're exercising because you know that it's good for you, you have a choice right there. You can make it fun. You can make it a prayer time with God. You can make it a conversation with yourself. There are so many things that you can do to turn up the volume of God's song over you and align your steps with delight.
Since God delights in every detail of your life, start delighting in the life that you've been given. Stop waiting for that big breakthrough to be happy. Happiness is one of the most powerful choices that you can make. Celebrate the small stuff. Celebrate the kindness that you extend. Celebrate the moments when your patience shows up—help me Jesus! And celebrate the courage it takes to simply get up and try again when maybe we fell down or messed up. That's what a relationship with God is for. Say, "God, I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I screwed up. Help me to pick up the pieces. Help me to change my attitude, or let's have a talk about my attitude and why I feel this way." A daily act of gratitude is how we live spiritually brave, practice our development, and feel our growth in the spirit. Amen.
Let's pray together. Mmm, so good.
Father God, I thank you that we made a choice to sit in your presence today. Whether we're behind a microphone or sitting with a set of headphones on, we made a choice to hear your voice, to even learn about hearing your voice, and to know how you are singing over us. We remember, Father, and we acknowledge that you're a warrior and a savior, and we delight and give you permission to be that in our lives. God, we give you praise. And Holy Spirit, I just ask that you would help each and every one of the listeners to make an extra pat on their back today for the good job that they have done to focus, listen, and get into your presence. In Jesus' name, amen. So be it. Yay!
If today's message shifted your perspective on your own worth, on the choices that God has given you today, or on how God and you celebrate you—how amazingly special you are—please share this episode with one person who also needs to hear God's song over them. Don't forget to visit my YouTube channel playlist, Hearing God, as I've separated out a bunch of really good morsels of episodes just on that subject matter: how to hear God. I bless you, thanks for hanging out today, I am encouraged, and I will talk to you again next week. Bye now.
The Dynamic of the Divine Symphony
Think about that for a second. The sovereign God who hung the stars in the sky, placed the planets, and mapped the depths of the ocean is singing a loud, joyful song of triumph explicitly over you. That isn’t just a quiet, polite nod of approval from a distance. That is a full-blown celebration.
To really grab hold of this, we have to look at the character of the Singer. He is a mighty warrior who saves. In the original language, the word for save is sozo—which means saved, healed, and completely delivered. But because of the cross, this isn't just about catching a ticket to Heaven someday in the future. Through Jesus, we have Heaven available to us 24/7 right now. Our journey today is about staying tuned, stepping into the spirit, and partnering with Him as His transformation impacts our daily lives. God is not a passive spectator. He isn't an aloof orchestra leader standing on a high pedestal, ticking off a little baton and expecting you to keep up. No! He is moving in and out of every section of the orchestra, sitting next to every instrument and adjusting to each unique sound. He is entirely focused on you, right here, right now, exactly as you are.
Shifting from Validation to Pleasure
Delight implies a deep, profound, unconditional joy and pleasure. God doesn’t just tolerate you; He celebrates you. This completely shifts our perspective from constantly striving to earn His approval to simply resting in His pleasure. And when we receive that pleasure, it gives us the freedom to pat ourselves on the back in His presence and hold our heads up high. It builds strong emotional boundaries and keeps us from getting dragged into interpersonal drama and relationship calamities.
I caught a beautiful glimpse of this truth in my own life recently. I was hanging out with my granddaughter, Liesl, who is just under 18 months old. She has these agility blocks and an overstuffed climbing triangle that she loves to play on. She was practicing her balance, carefully walking up the slanted edge, and learning to stand completely straight.
There was no stadium applause, no competition, and no massive audience—just a little girl growing and learning. So, what did Grandma do? I grabbed my phone, put on a classic Beach Boys track, and captured a video of her balancing and moving to the music. I was completely swept up in delighting in her normal, ordinary growth.
That is exactly how God looks at you. Your simple existence is a source of happiness for Him. He looks at you stepping in, listening to His word, and choosing to trust Him, and He says, "Yes and amen, there’s my kid!"
Cultivating the Monday-Morning Practice
We have so many choices every single day. For example, when you do your workout or go for a walk, you can choose to treat it as a tedious chore, or you can choose to turn on praise music, sing at the top of your lungs, and make it a fun conversation with God.
When you are confronted with the bad attitudes or heavy drama of the people around you, you have a structural choice. You can choose to defend, entertain, and carry their bad moods, or you can choose to hand them over to God and let Him redirect their day. Their happiness is not your responsibility, and choosing to step back allows you to remain in perfect peace.
Hearing God sing over you is a literal, tangible reality. You can feel and perceive His song all around you if you pause to notice it. I can look out my office window right now past all my podcast microphones and equipment, and see the vivid summer green leaves gently changing color. That is God turning down the loud volume of harvest and transitioning nature into a soft, quiet piano melody. It’s an "aha" moment where God says, "I see you, and you see me."
Living spiritually brave means refusing to accept the world's whisper of failure. We don't have to wait for a massive external breakthrough to experience joy. Happiness is one of the most powerful choices you can make.
Start noticing the internal transformation He is working on. Celebrate the small stuff—celebrate the moments you choose patience, the times you extend kindness, and the raw courage it takes to simply get back up and try again when you mess up. Silence the noise, hold your head high, and choose to hear God's loud song of joy over your life today.
Coaching Church Activations
The Performance Detox
Monday-Morning Activation Steps:
- Audit Your Metrics: Identify one area in your life right now where you feel mediocre or unseen by others. Write it down honestly.
- The Pat-on-the-Back Principle: Take that specific area into prayer. Instead of asking God to fix it or make it visible, consciously practice His presence by thanking Him that He is entirely focused on you right there in the quiet growth. Give yourself an intentional "pat on the back" in His presence for staying the course.
- Establish the Boundary: The next time you are confronted with a toxic atmosphere or another person's bad attitude, make the structural choice not to entertain or defend it. Explicitly tell yourself: "Their happiness is not my responsibility." Give that situation back to the Holy Spirit and remain in your peace.
MEET THE AUTHOR & PODCASTERHey there! I am Kristen Wambach, and I am so glad you are here. As an ordained pastor, experienced spiritual coach, and author, my absolute passion is helping you bridge the gap between Heaven and earth. I spent years learning how to silence the loud, performance-based metrics of this world and simply tune my heart to the steady, loving voice of the Father. That is exactly why I host the Interviewing Jesus Podcast. This show is your spiritual home for raw, soul-stirring conversations that ignite your spirit and empower you to live spiritually brave. |
THE MASTERPIECE IN THE MIRROR
I realized I was rejecting the truth of what God created. I reflect His beauty, His passions, and His character." — Sue Corl
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Are you tired of standing in the gap between a painful past and the promise of a beautiful future?
In Episode 281 of the Interviewing Jesus Podcast, Kristen Wambach is joined by spiritual investigative journalist and global ministry leader Sue Corl for a conversation that will fundamentally change how you see your own reflection. Born with a severe cleft palate and navigating 26 major surgeries by age 15, Sue spent the first three decades of her life believing she was a "manufacturing error." Today, as the founder of Crown of Beauty International, she is a living testimony that God does not make mistakes. |
Together, Kristen and Sue dive deep into a Mirror Reflection of Psalm 139, investigating the original Hebrew architecture of our design. They shatter the universal lie of "not good enough" and replace it with a "Beyond" posture of awe and intentionality.
- The Blueprint of Awe: Why "fearfully made" actually means your life was designed to inspire the same wonder as the Creator Himself.
- Shattering the Labels: How Sue traded the verbal wounds of her youth for the four pillars of identity: Beautiful, Forgiven, Valued, and Loved.
- The Global Ache: A look into how Jesus is moving in closed countries and remote tribes to answer the universal cry for worth.
- Inner Healing Activation: A practical path to move from the shackles of trauma into the "workmanship" of your true calling.
The shackles of your past are the raw materials for the crown He is placing on your head today." — Sue Corl
The Mirror of Awe
In Episode 281, I sat down with my friend Sue Corl, a spiritual investigative journalist who spent 25 years in Asia helping women shatter these exact lies. Sue’s own story began with 26 major surgeries and a childhood spent in the shadows of rejection. But her transformation didn't come from "trying harder"; it came from a radical re-education of her heart.
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The Outcome for Your Week
Trauma healing brings a closeness with the Lord that is unmatchable to any other time in your life." — Sue Corl
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- Kristen Wambach: Host, Spiritual Investigative Journalist
- Sue Corl: Founder of Crown of Beauty International, Author, and Missionary
📝 EPISODE TRANSCRIPT EXCERPT
Kristen Wambach (00:01): Hello and welcome. Joining us today is a woman whose life is a living testimony to the fact that God does not make mistakes. Sue Corl is a spiritual investigative journalist just like me. She just loves to find out more about Jesus. Sue has navigated the deep waters of rejection and physical trauma to find a "beyond" posture of healing. Today, as the founder of Crown of Beauty International, she helps women across the globe shatter the lies of the enemy and walk in their true identity as daughters of the King. Welcome, Sue.
Sue Corl (01:17): Thank you. Wow, that's a big intro! You guys should tape that and share it with my family.
Kristen Wambach (02:19): I’ve rewritten portions of Psalm 139 to highlight our questions today... "Jesus, You have searched the very depths of me. You aren't just aware of my name; You are intimately acquainted with my DNA." So Sue, when we are standing in the gap between a painful reality and Heaven’s promise, how do we begin to see our scars as part of the design rather than a flaw in the manufacturing?
Sue Corl (03:11): Well, for me, it was really coming to trust God's Word over my feelings and my experiences. For years, Kristen, I would not look in a mirror. I felt that God was very busy at the moment He was supposed to form my nose—that He took His eye off and voila, I have this birth defect. I realized in my 30s that I didn't actually believe Psalm 139. I had to dig into the Hebrew. I discovered that "fearfully" meant awe. It means when He created us, He created us in a way that we reflect His image.
Kristen Wambach (10:35): It's a wonderful story. We're made from His awe. When He made us, He goes, "Ah, look at My child."
Sue Corl (32:20): The most universal ache I see in women everywhere is that they don't feel they have worth. In Africa, Asia, the Middle East—women are often treated as "less than." When they hear the four truths—that they are Beautiful, Forgiven, Valued, and Loved—they light up. They’ve never been told that Jesus is captivated by them.
Kristen Wambach (48:00): Sue, before we end today, would you reach out in the spirit with that big heart you have and pray for those listening?
Sue Corl (48:23): I’d love to. Wonderful Lord, I pray for every person listening, that You will lead them out of the muck and into abundance. Restore, renew, and refresh them to be able to live out the full potential for which You have created them. In Jesus' name, Amen.
CORE TRANSFORMATION: THE FOUR PILLARS
- Beautiful: Rejecting the "ugly" labels of the world for the beauty of God's image.
- Forgiven: Trading the shame of past trauma for the "pure" standing of a daughter.
- Valued: Moving from an "inferiority" mindset into the honor of royalty.
- Loved: Experiencing the captivating love of the Groom for His Bride.
CONNECT WITH SUE CORL
Celebrating with Crown of Beauty International
THE OUTCOME
FINAL SUMMARY
Coaching Church Activations
Sue revealed that we often believe God was "distracted" during our creation, labeling our struggles as manufacturing errors. To bridge the gap between that painful lie and Heaven’s promise, you must conduct a spiritual investigation of your own design.
The Tape: Identify one specific part of your story or your physical self that you have labeled a "mistake."
The Anchor: Open your Bible to Psalm 139. Speak this "Beyond" posture out loud: "Jesus, I thank You that You were not distracted. You were intimately acquainted with my DNA then, and You are hemming me in now. This part of me is not a flaw; it is a masterpiece of Your spiritual architecture."
The Outcome: Notice when the "not good enough" lie surfaces this week. Replace it immediately with the word AWE to remind yourself that you are fearfully made.
MEET THE AUTHOR & PODCASTERI’m Kristen Wambach, and I’ve spent the last 30 years investigating the heart of God to prove one thing: He is better than you’ve been told. As a spiritual investigative journalist, ordained pastor, and transformation coach, I don’t deal in safe theories or "someday" theology. I deal in the raw, messy, and beautiful reality of Oneness with Jesus. Whether I’m documenting supernatural encounters in my 30-year journaling practice or salmon fishing in the Pacific Northwest, my mission is the same: to help you erase the divider line between your "ordinary" life and the "Gooder" reality of Heaven. I’m a proud farm girl at heart, a wife of over 40 years to my husband Don, and a "mom" to our Cavalier King Charles Spaniel, Dash. But more than that, I am a peer on this journey, dedicated to simplifying the supernatural so you can live Spiritually BRAVE. |
The Interviewing Jesus Podcast is more than just a show; it’s a sanctuary for the seeker and a clarion call for the spiritually courageous. We don’t just talk about Jesus—we step through the open door into His heart to gain the supernatural wisdom that rewrites our lives.
Each week, we bridge the gap between Heaven and Earth, translating high-level spiritual truths into practical Monday-morning tools. From exploring the "C♡♡Lness" of the spirit to navigating deep inner healing, our goal is to empower you to connect with your God-inspired DNA calling.
- Our Mission: To move beyond religious exhaustion and into a direct, relational encounter with the finished work of Christ.
- The Family: We are a community of entrepreneurs, seekers, and "Spiritually BRAVE" souls who believe that Heaven is a frequency we can tune into right now.
- The Blueprint: Every episode is designed to provide you with a "safe path" to explore the mystical with humility, proof, and practical life activations.
I am my Father’s son, my wife’s husband, and my son’s father. Nobody can fire me from those titles." —David Nassief
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At age 63, David Nassief was handed a cardboard box and told his corporate career was over. Standing on a sidewalk with a bank account whispering failure, he faced a choice: succumb to the frequency of fear or lean into the C♡♡Lness of God’s provision. David chose to build. What followed was a Spiritually BRAVE six-year sprint that took him from that sidewalk to a seven-figure legacy by age 69.
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- Shedding the Corporate Straightjacket: Understand how to separate your identity from your title. David shares his "rock bottom" moment in a grocery store and how it led to a deeper discovery of who Jesus says I AM.
- The Frequency of Provision: Learn why complexity is often a "phishing scam" for your peace. We discuss the One-Page Wealth Compass—a radical, simple strategy that creates a sanctuary for inspiration.
- The Theology of the Sprint: David distinguishes between "striving in the flesh" and "sprinting in Sonship." Discover how to pray like everything depends on God and work like everything depends on you.
- The Rule of 72 & Supernatural Math: A look at how David doubled his portfolio value three times in six years by ignoring the "noise" and focusing on Kingdom-aligned stewardship.
- Figma over Fire: Moving from "Financial Independence, Retire Early" to "Financial Independence, Graduate to next Adventure." Learn why your greatest breakthrough often follows the world’s attempt to discard you.
The Sidewalk Sanctuary
Standing on that sidewalk, David faced a choice that many of us face in the "middle spaces" of our lives: succumb to the frequency of fear or lean into the Spiritually BRAVE reality of God’s provision.
Summary
David chose to build. What followed was a Spiritually BRAVE six-year sprint that took him from that sidewalk to a seven-figure legacy by age 69. We dive deep into the "Monday-morning" mechanics of his journey, moving past the "corporate straightjacket" and into the reality of Sonship. This isn't just a conversation about money; it’s a practical path with raw stories and simple activations for anyone ready to stop walking in circles and start presiding over their divine calling. Whether your "runway" looks like a helicopter pad or you’re ready for a "Second Act," this episode will help you rewrite your story from rock bottom to a legacy of hope.
The corporate world told me I was of no value. I had to let the man inside hiding out; we had a job to do." —David Nassief
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EPISODE TRANSCRIPT00:00 Kristen Wambach Today we are talking about a different kind of daily bread. Many of you are sitting in a middle space—perhaps you've faced a sudden ending, a "cardboard box moment" where the world told you that you were done. My guest today, David Nassief, stood on a sidewalk at the age of 63 with his career in a box and a bank account that whispered failure.
But instead of agreement, David chose a Spiritually BRAVE sprint. He is the author of the One-Page Wealth Compass, and he didn't just survive; he engineered a six-year journey into a seven-figure legacy by the age of 69. But we aren’t just talking about money today. We’re talking about a passion. We’re talking about the frequency of provision and the C♡♡Lness of walking with Jesus when the runway looks like a helicopter pad. Please welcome to the family, David Nassief.
01:08 David Nassief Thank you, Kristen. I'm excited to be here today with you.
01:10 Kristen Wambach Oh, so am I! I'm ready to pick your brain. A great place for us to start: David, you mentioned standing on that sidewalk at 63—I can relate a little bit too closely to that. And you chose not to succumb to the frequency of fear. In those first few months of cold calls and rejection—I mean, even you and Mary, your lovely wife of 30 years—you stepped into something and you believed Jesus, what He was saying about your identity of who you are versus the silence of your bank account. Tell us the story, what did that look like? Practical tools in hand?
02:01 David Nassief Sure, Kristen. Well, I’d be glad to. Well, like you said, I was 63 at the time and I just got fired after 18 years with the same corporate position. Totally unexpected, and I wouldn't wish that day on anybody. We did the math and if we drained all of our savings and all of our retirement, we were scheduled to be broke by 65. When other people are sitting back and saying, "Well, it's my time to enjoy the fruits of my labor," we’d be like… I don't know what we’d be. Anyways, that was hard.
That was very hard, but that wasn't the hardest part. The hardest part was driving home, thinking, "How am I going to tell my wife, Mary?" Like you said, we’ve been married for 30 years and she did not deserve the mess I just threw our life into. Anyways, after a couple of months of dead-end job searching, I did not have my heart in it. I did not want to go back to the corporate world. Every bone in my body says no, but I had to put a roof over, I had to put food on the table. mean, this is practical. I did it, but it was hard.
03:15 David Nassief And everybody I was interviewing with was saying, in so many words, "Yeah, the company that fired you, they did the right thing. You're of no value, and you're no value to us either." They didn't say it like that—they weren't mean about it—but they basically said that. So anyways, I just said one day, "No one's going to hire me and I got to do something." And so I took a huge risk, and it was huge. I decided to work as an independent sales agent, basically starting my own company on straight commission—no salary, no safety net, no benefits.
The first months were brutal: cold calls, constant rejection, rookie mistakes. I heard more "nos" in that two-month period than I’d ever heard in my life. But you know, Kristen, looking back, I can reflect on it now. I honestly believe all those "nos," all that resistance I was getting, was helping me build the mental muscles—and perhaps the spiritual muscles—I needed to punch through that dark period of my life and get to the other side.
After 10 months of grinding, I hit an incredible milestone. I was suddenly making more money than my good-paying corporate salary. And for a brief moment, I says, "We made it." But then I go, "Wait a minute, we haven't made nothing." I’d been making good money for 40 years, and look where it got me—on the verge of collapse financially. I need to learn how to invest. I need to learn how to build wealth.
04:22 David Nassief And I didn't have time for a bunch of investment theories and people with their conflicts of interest trying to make commission off you. Because my runway, as you said, was more like a helicopter pad than a runway. And so what I did is I said, "Okay, I’m diving in myself." I read 21 financial books, listened to 13 financial podcasts faithfully, read blogs, newsletters. Every time I got a good idea, I put it on one piece of paper. Then when the one piece of paper got full, I said, "I’m not going to go beyond one piece of paper because I want to keep it simple."
I would take off the worst idea and put the best one on, and I kept refining it, making it a "set it and forget it" approach because I couldn't waste time watching Wall Street. I had a business to run. And so anyways, after six years, I did what I thought was impossible—from terrified, and I do mean terrified of being broke, to a seven-figure portfolio and real financial freedom. I now know, Kristen, it is never too late to rewrite your story. Because if I can pull that off starting as late as 63, anybody can with the right direction.
05:29 Kristen Wambach Amen. I agree. I agree. I was sharing with David before we got started—I’ve been walking in ministry for years and years, and I won’t say it was a well-paying, if paid job at all. In my husband’s profession, he was a professional mechanic. He worked on high-end cars. When we got married, he was almost to $100,000. When he retired, it dropped almost 65%. That’s what the industry did. And here I am, passionate about Jesus, and I am an entrepreneur, and I went, "Okay, God, I believe you that you’re going to make a change here. Here I am. This is what I have to offer. Let’s build. Let’s get going." And we’re still here. We’re still doing.
Okay, so the theology of the sprint—we often hear about waiting on the Lord, but you describe a six-year sprint. How do you distinguish between striving in the flesh—I mean, I sometimes can feel that and get caught up in "We need this, we need to go here"—versus building in hope? So that I can get to Tuesday morning and I don't feel that build-up. How did you protect your peace?
07:22 David Nassief Well, first of all, my faith was always important to me and that was a huge—I can't emphasize this enough—a huge piece of the whole puzzle. But I want to say, because you talked about an entrepreneur, this was a lot harder than I'm making it sound. When I decided to go into business myself, I had scars. I failed twice in my 40s. I mean, one time it plunged me into a serious six-figure debt that it took me years to get out of.
So this wasn't a casual thing. I says, "But here's what I knew, Kristen," and this really helped me. And I think the Lord really put this in my mind: I made some serious mistakes in my 40s in businesses, but you know something? I learned from those mistakes. And I knew I was a smarter person at 63 than I was at 43. I was competing with people half my age with twice the energy, but I says the one thing I got going for me is I've got the Spirit directing me and I've got the knowledge of my past failures. I'm not going to throw that out.
08:52 David Nassief And I had a list of things I messed up on and I said, "I am not going to make these mistakes this time." And that was a tremendous, tremendous help. And then going through the six years, I'm sure you've heard of this phrase before: "Pray like everything depends on God and then get up and work like everything depends on you." That’s all I was doing for six years: praying and working, praying and working. That’s all I had to do.
And I remember when that 10th month when we actually surpassed my six-figure income from my corporation—we were happy, but we didn't even go out and celebrate. It’s terrible. We just kept pushing because we knew we had a lot longer to go. If I was 30-something, I’d probably gone out and partied. We didn't even have time for lunch. But I really felt the Spirit directing me. I knew that the Compass was an inspiration.
10:17 David Nassief There was a story if I could share with you briefly: Scientists at the Max Planck Institute did an experiment. They placed people in the center of a dense German forest and they told them to walk in a straight line to the edge. Now, these are all confident and capable people, but when the clouds covered the sun and they lost their point of reference, the GPS tracking they were wearing showed they were gradually suddenly starting to walk in circles. Some of them were actually ending up right back where they began.
And yet each and every one of them was absolutely convinced the whole time they were walking in a perfectly straight line. Kristen, that’s my life story for 40 years. Working hard, making good money, thinking I’m doing the right stuff when it comes to investing, but literally just walking in circles. After 40 years, I said something has to change and it’s the compass. I just knew that story came to me for a purpose. I need a one-page compass because I’ll admit to you, I'm the kind of person that gets distracted very easy. I couldn't afford to do that anymore. I had to stay focused.
11:29 Kristen Wambach Yes, that is a great story. I love it. So in your book, you talked about that rock bottom moment in the grocery store. For a creative entrepreneur listening—and that’s me too, because we’re just at the point of breaking through—what’s the first practical activation to shed that "straightjacket" which blocks you from starting to preside over your divine calling instead?
12:37 David Nassief Well, I think this was a few weeks after I got fired. My wife said, "Honey, I'm trying to conserve money so we don't run out too quickly. There's a big sale going on at the store. Can you come with me?" We get to the store, Kristen. I felt like I was the only man in the store. I saw all women and baby carts and babies crying. And I felt like, "What am I doing here? I need to be out there working, earning money, providing for my family." I really felt like I had a sign on my chest saying, "Biggest Loser."
I wanted to scream. I felt like I had this corporate mental straight jacket on. The image I had was I drive a new company car, drive nice suits—they took it from me. But the thing is, I was still trapped. When I went home that night, I realized that the corporate world told me loud and clear I was of no value to them anymore. End of story. So I said to myself, "Okay, the guy that’s in here hiding because he thinks he’s a corporate person has to come out because we have to fight this thing."
14:34 David Nassief That’s when I was inspired to develop this compass. If my agency failed, there goes the fuel to pump the wealth-building machine. I had 40 years of proof, Kristen—I'm an incompetent when it comes to building wealth. 40 years of making good money and I have nothing. This is crazy. So I had two fronts I was battling on at the same time and the only way I was going to succeed was with a compass that gave me the laser-like direction I needed.
15:34 Kristen Wambach I am writing notes here. Some of us have been driving that agency so hard and we’re not through yet. Can you give us some practical tools?
16:26 David Nassief One thing I’ll tell you: If it wasn't the Lord's time for me to succeed, that would not have shaken my faith. But looking back on it now, Kristen, it was a gift being fired. I know it was a gift from God. I was 63, but He waited until I was ready. I’m not sure my ego had been humbled enough for that at 45. He waited until I was ready.
And I’m grateful for the timing. I’m grateful that they thought I was of no value because I did know one thing now: When I got that corporate straight jacket off me, I have only three titles. I’m a Son of God, I am my wife’s husband, and I am my son’s father. Nobody can take those titles away from me. I wouldn't have lost my identity, which was the more important thing.
19:46 Kristen Wambach I didn't look this up. What is the percentage of people—because I'm 66 and my husband’s 72—what is the percentage of people in the United States that are not prepared for what you would call their seniors?
20:04 David Nassief This is from the National Council on Aging: 80% of older adults face financial insecurity. 50% of people 60+ do not have sufficient income to cover their basic needs. The number one cause for gut-wrenching stress among seniors is the fear of running out of money before they run out of life. Most of these people have worked 40 years, made other people wealthy, but neglected their own wealth building.
21:20 Kristen Wambach I’ve raised four sons, and I have never agreed with that word "retirement." I just went, "Well, it’s just like picking up a gun and saying, okay, I’m done." I’ve re-coined this word with my husband and I to "Refire." God has a purpose and a plan for us.
22:50 David Nassief I agree. I have a thing called FIGNA: Financial Independence, Graduate to Next Adventure. I love my agency. I work with my son now. I love doing my charity work. I can't comprehend retiring, but it's fine if you want to. But even in retirement, you better find a new way to graduate to some new adventure.
24:27 Kristen Wambach The man is standing on his soapbox. Amen! Lead us into the compass.
25:01 David Nassief I’m going to give this to all your listeners for free. It’s on two columns. The first is a nine trail markers—it tells you the nine steps. Start wherever you’re at. If you’re in credit card debt, start at number three. On the other side, I have the five North Star principles. One of them is: Live on less than you earn. If you don't learn that one, you will always struggle financially.
I have a wealth meeting with myself—two minutes—every Friday at 3:00. I look at my compass. Did I violate any North Star principles? I once made an impulse purchase, but I caught myself early. It keeps you safe. It gives you those mental guardrails so you can stay on the path.
28:23 Kristen Wambach I have a bookshelf full of said books, because I have been, "Okay God, I believe that You are a God of restoration." We lost our auto repair business 20, 25 years ago. But we just got to stand there and believe that He is a God of restoration.
37:10 David Nassief I think the biggest thief of the stuff that got taken from me was me. I didn't live the correct principles. I didn't take time to learn them. But I honestly believe the Lord loved me too much to deny me of being fired at 63. I’m a stronger person than I’ve ever been.
39:27 Kristen Wambach How do people connect with your resources?
39:39 David Nassief Go to onepagewealthcompass.com/free. You’ll get the download of the PDF. I'm not selling anything. I know what struggling is about, I promise you.
41:18 Kristen Wambach God is so good because He is rebuilding and restoring. It was as simple as a bird feeder hanging. We all have the capability for God to bless what’s inside of us to create that career and income success. Would you pray for us, David?
45:54 David Nassief I will. Dear Father in Heaven, we are grateful for the blessings given us. We pray for those who are struggling, seeking direction in the area of financing or whatever area. We pray they can seek the guidance of the Spirit and good guiding principles to help them out of the situation they’re in and into a better place. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
47:34 Kristen Wambach Amen. Life treated you like putting Goliath’s sword right in your back. What you have done—what the enemy meant to take you out—you have pulled the sword out of your back and now you wield it. You own the sword, you use the sword that was meant to take you out.
48:59 David Nassief Thank you for that analysis.
49:11 Kristen Wambach Thank you, David. And remember listeners, I’ll have all the links in the show notes. Thank you very much.
Shedding the Corporate Straightjacket
As a spiritual investigative journalist, I’ve noticed that our greatest breakthroughs often follow the world’s attempt to "discard" us. To move into your divine calling, you must first be willing to let the "man or woman hiding inside" out. You have to move past the question, "What would Jesus do?" and start living from the reality of "Who does He say I AM?" Even when the bank account is silent, the Father is speaking.
The Theology of the Sprint
The "Monday-morning" logic of this sprint is simple: clear direction beats misdirected speed every time. David stopped walking in circles in the "dense forest" of financial noise and engineered a One-Page Wealth Compass. He realized that simplicity is for winners, while complexity is for victims. By focusing on a "Set it and Forget it" stewardship, he created a sanctuary for inspiration, freeing his mind from the anxiety of the unknown.
My runway was more like a helicopter pad. I didn't have time to make mistakes anymore."—David Nassief
CONNECT WITH DAVID NASSIEF
David Nassief was fired at 63, nearly broke, and facing an uncertain future. By 69, he was safely a millionaire. His secret wasn't a complex, overwhelming map-it was a simple, one-page wealth compass.
The One-Page Wealth Compass is a universal success guide for anyone who wants to stop worrying about money and start living their "Next Adventure". Whether you are just starting your career or looking to recover from a late-life setback, this book provides the exact coordinates to build and protect your wealth.
In this #1 Amazon Hot New Release, you will discover how to:
- Implement a "Set it and Forget it" system that works automatically so you can focus on what matters most.
- Navigate financial storms using a "survival compass" mindset that prioritizes clarity over complexity.
- Master the Triple Buffer Withdrawal Strategy to ensure your money lasts as long as you do.
- Move from financial fear to FIGNA (Financial Independence, Graduate to Next Adventure).
Your wealth doesn't need a map. It needs a compass.
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The Restoration of All Things
Whether you are an aspiring entrepreneur or someone yearning for transformational growth, your "runway" might look like a helicopter pad right now. But in the C♡♡Lness of the Spirit, God’s provision can outrun the world’s math.
Don't let the "cardboard box" moment be your ending. Pull the sword out of your back and start wielding it. Your restoration is not just a possibility—it is a promise.
FINAL SUMMARY: REWRITING YOUR STORY
The Pivot Points
- The Identity Shift: David’s story began by shedding the "corporate straightjacket." He moved from the question of "What would Jesus do?" to the settled reality of "Who does He say I AM?" This shift is the mechanical necessity for anyone looking to bridge the gap between heavenly wisdom and practical stewardship.
- The Power of Simplicity: In a world that uses financial "noise" as a phishing scam for your peace, the One-Page Wealth Compass stands as a sanctuary of clarity. David proved that clear direction beats misdirected speed, especially when your "runway" feels as short as a helicopter pad.
- The Outcome-Focused Sprint: By praying like it depends on God and working like it depends on you, David engineered a six-year sprint of restoration. His "Monday-morning" logic—incorporating the Two-Minute Friday Meeting—offers a practical path to stop walking in circles and start presiding over your divine calling.
Whether you are standing on a "sidewalk" of loss or simply looking to activate your "Second Act," the payoff is clear: It is never too late to rewrite your story. By aligning your earthly resources with Heaven’s frequency, you move from a state of quiet desperation to a life infused with purpose, authenticity, and a seven-figure legacy of hope.
"Heaven is a lot closer to your 'daily bread' than you think." — Kristen Wambach
How does David’s concept of the "corporate straightjacket" resonate with where you are currently standing in your own career or calling?
MEET THE AUTHOR & PODCASTKristen Wambach is an acclaimed author, transformational spiritual leader, and the global voice behind the Interviewing Jesus Podcast. With a thirty-year leadership tenure and twenty years of mastery in coaching practitioners, Kristen serves as a grounded guide for those navigating the "middle spaces" of life. As a spiritual investigative journalist of the heart, she specializes in stripping away the complexity of the "corporate straightjacket" to reveal the raw, C♡♡Lness of a life led by the Spirit. |
Forgiveness is life changing. When you wash your hands of that, you become a changed Christian." —Jody Hudson
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EPISODE TAKEAWAYS
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- The Forgiveness Protocol: A daily choice to "wash your hands" of systemic ignorance and reclaim your territory from the enemy.
- The Great Cloud of Witnesses: A perspective shift on how our loved ones continue to partner with our "DNA calling" from their heavenly perspective.
Jody shared her raw moment where she gave God an ultimatum. As a spiritual investigative journalist, I’ve found that being "polite" with God often masks the very breakthrough we need.
THE SYMPHONY OF LOVE:
NAVIGATING THE MYSTERY
SUMMARY
As a spiritual investigative journalist, Kristen bridges the gap between Jody’s earthly struggle—including foster care, bankruptcy, and systemic medical gaslighting—and the heavenly grit required to remain Spiritually BRAVE. Listeners will discover the "Monday-morning" logic of forgiveness, the importance of becoming "literate" in your own healing journey, and the profound "parting gift" of hope Alex left behind.
Whether you are navigating a chronic illness, a season of loss, or a fight against a broken system, this episode provides a safe path for the heart and a testimony to the restoration of all things.
God was always with me... he built that strength and that determination and grit."—Jody Hudson
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Kristen Wambach (00:01): Welcome, welcome, hello family. How are you doing today? This is Kristen from the Interviewing Jesus Podcast. My mission, our mission together, is to bridge the gap between Heaven and earth. I have spent my life helping seekers navigate the mysteries of the soul and find a safe place and a safe path for the heart. Today, we're not just telling a story of loss; we are investigating the supernatural wisdom that emerges when we stay Spiritually BRAVE. I have a spiritually brave testimony in a body today for you. I am honored to introduce Jody Hudson—an author, speaker, and founder of the Alex Hudson Lyme Foundation.
Kristen Wambach (01:05): With over 18 years of nonprofit leadership, Jody's professional expertise met a life-altering mission when her daughter Alex faced a 10-year medical mystery that was finally diagnosed as Lyme disease. Today, Jody is a highly sought-after motivational speaker who helps others navigate grief and create purpose from pain. Her award-winning memoir, My Promise to Alex, testifies to a mother's grit and a daughter's steadfast faith, proving that even in the deepest mystery, a path of hope is always possible. Welcome, Jody.
Jody Hudson (01:51): Thank you so much for having me. I'm so excited to meet you and see where the Lord leads us in this conversation.
Kristen Wambach (02:01): Amen. I almost called you Alex.
Jody Hudson (02:03): Very interchangeable. I mean, we were one spirit, truly.
Kristen Wambach (02:09): Yes. Jody, I'd like us to open in prayer with our listening family, because I just sense that Holy Spirit is going to do something absolutely tender and marvelous today. Father God, we just thank you for the opportunity of lifting our voices in unity to declare your goodness. We welcome Holy Spirit just to reach out like angels' wings and touch the heart of the listeners. Bring us together like a family sitting at a table with a cup of coffee, talking about who you are and how you have designed us to be strong, to move forward, and to be a mouthpiece for who you are. Would you like to piggyback on that, Jody?
Jody Hudson (03:28): Dear Heavenly Father, we are honored to be here today sharing our message of hope, transformation, and purpose. For those walking through unimaginable losses, let us be an inspiration that through our words, they too can have that resilience, that grit, and that faith. Let them come to know you even deeper through trials and tribulations. Sometimes we are so broken it’s hard to be present because we’re angry or disappointed, but those are the moments where you meet us most. Let us always give you praise, even in the storms. Amen.
Kristen Wambach (04:26): So listeners, we’re just sitting around the table having coffee and holding hands. Jody, your story actually goes farther back with a profound identity challenge—being born to a single mom, being in the foster care system, and essentially raising yourself. I want to know, how did those early years of survival prepare your spirit for the medical mystery battle you would face decades later? Where did Jesus meet this little girl in foster care?
Jody Hudson (05:19): My gosh, Kristen, yes. We don't know when we are walking through life how God is preparing us for things later on. Being born to a mother who could not take care of me, being adopted into a home fighting alcoholism—I truly had to fend for myself. That resilience carried me through marriage, divorce, and bankruptcy. Through it all, God was building that strength and grit. Little did I know what I was going to face with Alex's journey and eventually losing her. My upbringing prepared me for my hardest challenge: being present when my daughter died.
Kristen Wambach (07:14): Mm-hmm. Could you give us snippets of the unique ways God strengthened you? Sometimes we don't acknowledge the simplest affirmations from our Father.
Jody Hudson (07:45): I grew up in a Roman Catholic environment, building that foundation through sacraments. But it wasn't until Alex became sick around age 19 that we delved deeper into our faith. She started going to non-denominational churches to find new ways to worship. I remember holding her hand and being overcome with emotion, thinking, "Wow, God, you've always had me." I realized we had been living a "passive faith," checking boxes. God wants all of us. He wants the spirit there so we can help others through those daily encounters. We need to be prayer warriors. My daughter showed me how to do that through her own transformation.
Jody Hudson (10:30): There were so many beautiful things she witnessed, especially in her last six months. If it’s okay, I’d love to share her parting gift to me, which propelled where I am today.
Kristen Wambach (11:00): Absolutely.
Jody Hudson (11:01): It was March 24th, 2018. A girlfriend called and felt God nudging her to come pray. There were six of us standing around Alex’s bedside. In that moment, I realized God was telling me I needed to let her go because she was hanging on for me. I told her, "Alex, it is going to be incredibly hard to let you go, but you have done everything here on earth that God asked of you. God is saying, 'Good job, my faithful servant.'"
Jody Hudson (13:29): In that moment, she lifted her head from the pillow, looked at the ceiling, and opened her beautiful eyes with a brilliant smile. She gasped with amazement, then closed her eyes and passed. That was her parting gift. She was saying, "Mom, I’m okay, and you’re going to be okay, too." In that moment, I went from a grieving mother to a testimonial mother. We grieve hard because we love hard, but that’s not the end of the story.
Kristen Wambach (15:30): When my father passed, I saw his spirit leave his body before his breath left him. I saw the beauty Jesus prepares for us. When you tell that story about Alex, she absolutely saw Heaven open up.
Jody Hudson (16:59): It is the goodness of God. A friend of Alex’s, Savannah, who also had Lyme disease, reached out later and said she had a vision of Alex with the most beautiful angel wings. She said the work Alex is doing now is far greater than what she did on earth. I believe we all have a far greater purpose in Heaven.
Kristen Wambach (18:28): The cloud of witnesses continues to partner with us from their heavenly perspective. Jody, you mentioned a fight with the medical industry. Many of our listeners feel like they’re fighting systems—health, legal, or religious—to get a breakthrough.
Jody Hudson (19:46): Oh my gosh, the gaslighting that goes on with chronic illnesses is intense. In 2017, the 40th doctor we saw asked if she had been tested for Lyme disease. I was ignorant then; I asked, "What is Lyme disease?" We had been told for ten years it was in her head, that she had an eating disorder, that I was a "drama mother." We were finally vindicated, but then I had to figure out how to treat it. By the grace of God, we connected with resources through a special on the news. For those in a medical challenge not being heard: you have to be your own advocate.
Kristen Wambach (25:15): You used the word "literate." Can you unpack that? Sometimes we speak to an "expert" who isn't actually literate in what we need.
Jody Hudson (25:51): With Lyme, being "literate" means understanding the whole protocol. It’s not just one round of antibiotics. It’s a bacterial infection with co-infections like Bartonella. You have to work with a doctor who understands you can't throw the kitchen sink at a patient all at once. I spent over $100,000 in one year because insurance doesn't cover much of this. You have to find experts who know how to walk through this complicated illness.
Kristen Wambach (29:52): Powerful. Another word I heard in your story was forgiveness. How did Jesus strengthen you to forgive the ignorance that slapped you in the face?
Jody Hudson (30:27): We could spend hours on forgiveness because it’s a constant, daily choice. I had to forgive the medical community, and I had to forgive her father, who was absent and didn't believe she was sick. I found a book called Fervent by Priscilla Shirer. It taught me to realize the battle wasn't just with people, but with how they were being influenced by the enemy. Forgiving so I could be free was life-changing. It’s liberating. You wash your hands of it and suddenly you’ve lost ten pounds of weight in your heart.
Kristen Wambach (35:51): It is a challenge. Sometimes we try to "suck it up" instead of addressing feelings. Holy Spirit told me once, "I can’t comfort you if you don't address what you're feeling."
Jody Hudson (36:51): Exactly. You have to give people grace. Remember how many times God has forgiven us. Don't sit in the "ugly," look for the beauty. Challenge yourself to find five blessings a day—even just a green light at a stoplight.
Kristen Wambach (39:03): Share a memory of Alex—how God made her so unique.
Jody Hudson (39:31): Alex was the "homeless person whisperer." She had a servant’s heart. She would save her money and buy $100 worth of burgers to distribute at the shelter. She identified with their brokenness. Before she passed, she told me she wanted her clothes and books to go to them. We used her books to start a mobile bookmobile through the foundation.
Kristen Wambach (42:33): Beautiful. Now, what is the secret of the bluebird on the cover of her book?
Jody Hudson (42:53): In December 2017, I was pounding on my car dashboard giving God an ultimatum: "Heal her or take her." I went home and saw a bluebird in the fountain. Alex told me it had been coming every day at 3:00 PM for two months. She said, "It’s how I know God has not forgotten me." Later, she told me, "Mom, just look for the bluebird and you'll know that it's me." To this day, I see them all the time. It’s a sign of hope, joy, and beauty.
Kristen Wambach (46:42): Thank you for sharing such a tender story. How can listeners connect with you and the Alex Hudson Lyme Foundation?
Jody Hudson (47:01): Our website is alexhudsonlymefoundation.org. We provide grants and financial assistance to those struggling with treatment costs. You can also find the link to My Promise to Alex on Amazon there.
Kristen Wambach (48:40): I will have all those links in the show notes. Jody, would you please pray for us again and impart that wisdom and strength?
Jody Hudson (49:05): Dear Heavenly Father, let those feeling lost know through my testimony that you are good. We are not meant to walk this journey alone. Pour into them through Kristen's ministry and podcasts. Let us be bold and loud in praising your name in the good times and the hard. Amen.
Kristen Wambach (50:19): Amen. Listeners, I sense there are going to be a lot of bluebird encounters this week. Open your eyes and expect. When you see that bluebird, remember: it means hope. God is putting a sign of hope in your path. Thank you, Jody, for sharing your hope and wisdom today.
Jody Hudson (51:23): Thank you for having me, Kristen.
The Foundation of Grit
I went from a grieving mother to a testimonial mother." —Jody Hudson
The Silent Language of Heaven
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“....a symphony of love―one that inspires, empowers, and reminds readers to never give up on life or those we love.” Armen Bacon, author of Griefland: An Intimate Portrait of Love, Loss, and Unlikely Friendship
“...will inspire you, make you cry, laugh, give you hope, and most of all have faith in the eternal love between mother and child.” Ally Hilfiger, author of Bite Me
“Jody's words give voice to the voiceless, patients and caregivers alike, as she heroically shines a light on both their hardships and dreams...” Colonel Nicole Malachowski, USAF (retired), F-15 & F-16 Fighter Pilot
When eleven-year-old Alex Hudson complained that her leg hurt, her mother, Jody, thought it was just growing pains. But for the next ten years, Alex battled with what perplexed doctors deemed a medical mystery. Refusing to let this ambiguous label define her, Alex researched and sought out medical professionals who might help her. After more than forty doctors’ visits and multiple incorrect diagnoses, in May of 2017, Alex finally received the correct diagnosis―Lyme disease. She immediately began aggressive treatment, but would it prove to be too late? Throughout her ever-changing illness, Alex forged ahead and focused on her faith, finding answers, while taking time to serve others. When the physical pain became unbearable, she refused to take medication to ease her suffering. Instead, she chose to keep a clear mind and trust God to guide her as she faced each impossible challenge.
The Literate Path to Healing
Final Summary
EPISODE SUMMARY: BEYOND THE MEDICAL MYSTERY"I need to be the light." In this powerful episode of the Interviewing Jesus Podcast, host Kristen Wambach investigates the life-altering journey of Jody Hudson, author of My Promise to Alex. Together, they bridge the gap between a harrowing ten-year "medical mystery" and the supernatural wisdom that emerges when we choose to stay Spiritually BRAVE.
Jody provides a raw, "Payoff-First" testimony of her daughter Alex’s battle with Lyme disease—a journey marked by forty doctors, systemic gaslighting, and a final, victorious faith. As a transformation coach and ordained pastor, Kristen helps navigate the "Monday-morning" logic of Jody’s story: how childhood resilience in foster care and the grit of surviving bankruptcy prepared her to lead a global mission of restoration.
Listeners will find a safe path for their own hearts as Jody describes the "parting gift" of hope Alex left behind and the ongoing "bluebird" encounters that verify heaven’s proximity. This is more than a story of loss; it is a masterclass in relational discernment, the power of being "literate" in your calling, and the daily activation of forgiveness.
Coaching Church Activation
- The Activation: This Monday morning, find a private space. Drop the "theology" and tell the Father exactly where you feel bankrupt or abandoned.
- The Outcome: You are trading a "Logos mind" (facts) for a "Rhema mind" (revelation). Write down the first thought that brings a sense of peace.
- The Activation: Set a "Bluebird Alert" on your phone. For five minutes, stop looking at your "to-do" list and look at your "to-see" list.
- The Outcome: This is a daily activation to bridge the gap. You are training your spiritual senses to recognize that you are not alone.
- The Activation: Identify one area where you have felt powerless. Seek out one "literate" resource—a book, a coach, or a foundation—that has a proven testimony of success in that area.
- The Outcome: You are moving from "What would Jesus do?" to "Who does Jesus say that I AM?" as a restorer of all things.
Jesus is never silent—He is simply speaking a language we have to train our senses to hear." —Kristen Wambach
MEET THE AUTHOR AND PODCASTER>>I am Kristen Wambach, a spiritual investigative journalist and your host here at the Interviewing Jesus Podcast. With over 33 years of leadership experience and 20 years as a transformational coach, my mission is to bridge the gap between heaven and earth, offering you a practical path to supernatural wisdom. I believe in "Monday-morning" logic—which simply means that if the spiritual truths we discuss don't work in your real, everyday life, we haven't gone deep enough. |
Whether you are an aspiring entrepreneur or a seeker yearning for deeper growth, I am here to help you navigate life with heavenly wisdom and step into your authentic, God-inspired calling.
Let’s be Spiritually BRAVE together.
I am a beloved creation of God. I am not beloved because I have my sight, or because I am reading enough scripture; I am enough here and now on a rainy Monday morning because I am His." —Laura Bratton
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- The Beloved Mandate: You are enough right now. Your worth isn't based on what you do, but on the fact that you are a beloved creation.
Finding the "Hidden Goodness" in Your Darkest Seasons
SUMMARY
The conversation pivots away from the trauma of Laura’s transition into blindness and focuses instead on a "Beyond" posture: recognizing the redemptive, tangible goodness of God in the "Monday-morning" reality of our lives. Laura shares how a quiet walk in a park—listening to the amplified songs of birds—became a sanctuary for God’s presence, proving that when we recalibrate our spiritual senses, His goodness becomes louder than our circumstances.
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00:00 The Journey of Spiritual Sight: Redemption, Inner Knowing
Kristen Wambach: Imagine waking up tomorrow morning, reaching for your glasses or opening your eyes, and you realize the world you rely on has gone dim. Most of us would be paralyzed by the why or the how, but what if in that moment of darkness you discovered a different kind of sight? One that didn't just help you survive but allowed you to see the heart of Jesus more clearly than ever before. That is the reality of our guest today. She discovered that when the world goes quiet and the lights go out, God's goodness doesn't vanish—it actually gets louder. Today we're stepping beyond the surface to explore a landscape of pure redemption. Returning to the show is my friend, Laura Bratton.
Laura Bratton: Perfect. You’re perfect. Yes, I am.
Kristen Wambach: Returning to the show is my friend, Laura Bratton. She is an acclaimed author, speaker, and global authority on what it means to be spiritually brave. She doesn't just speak about faith; she lives a reality where the goodness of God is a tangible, navigating force. Most of us are distracted by what we see with our physical eyes, often missing the supernatural provision right in front of us. Laura is here to help us recalibrate. She possesses a rare credibility in teaching us how to move past fear and recognize God's unconditional yes over our lives. Help me welcome back to the Interviewing Jesus Podcast, Laura Bratton. Welcome.
Laura Bratton: Thank you. I am so, so excited to be back.
03:39 Experiencing God's Goodness Through the Senses: Birdsong, Nature, Presence
Kristen Wambach: Laura, you often speak about seeing with the heart. For those of us who are sometimes blinded by what we see physically, how does Holy Spirit reveal the tangible goodness of God to our other senses through sound, touch, and that inner knowing that you've cultivated?
Laura Bratton: I want to start with a very practical example that literally happened yesterday. My husband and I were walking in a park, and the birds were just so loud—way more loud than normal. I was able to tune in and it felt like I was just meditating in God's presence while listening to the bird sounds. I wasn't thinking about anything; I was just being present. In those few moments, that's when I could just rest in the faithfulness of God. I experienced God's goodness by observing the sounds rather than being distracted by my to-do lists. It comes through our sight, our sound, and most powerfully, just in that inner knowing—that gut intuition of God's Spirit.
06:32 Grit and Gratitude: Finding Strength in Faith, Beloved Creation
Kristen Wambach: You coined a very powerful phrase: grit and gratitude. In the quiet moments when grit is required just to move forward, how have you found God's goodness acting as the wind at your back, rather than just a distant promise?
Laura Bratton: The spirit that empowers me when it's rainy and cold and you don't want to start the week is knowing and trusting and accepting that I am a beloved creation of God. I am not beloved only when I have my sight or when I'm reading enough scripture. I am enough here and now on that rainy morning because I'm a beloved creation. Using that as my foundation empowers me and gives me the strength to move forward.
09:30 Practical Resources: Recognizing God's Everyday Gifts, Mercy, Provision
Kristen Wambach: How can we better recognize the hidden goodness of God? Sometimes we don't realize the tools that are right there at our disposal. How can we recognize those practical, everyday provisions that ensure we never walk alone?
Laura Bratton: You said the key phrase: practical resources. We often look for God and think, "It’s only God if I receive my sight back," or "It's only God if my cancer is healed." But God is in the daily practical resources. No, I haven't received my sight back, but I have received the gift of guide dogs that changed my life. I have received the gift of Siri and Alexa that I use to control the washing machine, the dryer, the thermostat. That’s God. When we can change our perspective from neon billboard signs to seeing God in every part of our day—that is the game changer.
12:19 Voice Activation: The Power of Speaking Out, Atmosphere, Testimony
Kristen Wambach: There was a word you used—voice activation. You use your voice to turn on the coffee pot or the dryer. I think there's more for us when we're talking to God; we need to learn how to use our voice to activate our own hearts.
Laura Bratton: I agree. There’s something powerful about using our voice. I can be thinking about something I'm struggling with in my head, but once I call a friend and talk it out, it's like, "Okay, yeah, I see God in that." It becomes so obvious. It’s so much more powerful than just thinking about these things in our head by ourselves.
Kristen Wambach: I’ll hear what God said to me in my inner knowing, and sometimes I don't voice it. But when I let it come out of my mouth, that life comes out and begins to change the environment around me.
15:13 Beloved: Understanding Our Worth in God's Eyes, Identity, Enough
Kristen Wambach: When someone feels they are in a dark season where God's goodness feels obscure, what is one spiritually brave activation they can do to reconnect with His light?
Laura Bratton: Believe you are a beloved creation. I cannot say that enough. When we're in those hopeless moments, just tap into that inner knowing: I’m enough. I am loved. Even if you don't cognitively believe it yet, just sit with it in your body. Notice your shoulders dropping and your muscles relaxing. To me, that is the first step. When we can focus on how God views us, that is the first step.
21:16 The Role of Relationships in Recognizing Our Value, Connection, Community
Kristen Wambach: What happens if we don't agree with ourselves or if we don't agree with God that we're worthy? How would we disengage that lie?
Laura Bratton: Call that one person that you know in your world loves you. Is that a friend? A family member? A pet? Call them and say, "Hey, I'm struggling." Let them reassure you. I have a King Charles Spaniel, and I learned so much from her because she loves me if I'm in a good mood or a bad mood. Pets are so good at just being present, sitting at your feet, saying, "I'm in for it all—the anger, the tears, the joy."
28:00 Building Trust: The Process of Relationship with God, The Bridge, Consistency
Kristen Wambach: How long did it take you and your guide dog to learn how to flow together?
Laura Bratton: There was not one magical moment. It was a series of moments that added up to days and weeks. It was a constant ongoing process of daily putting in the trust and listening to how she responded.
Kristen Wambach: Listeners, can you apply that metaphorically? Laura is talking about an experience with her guide dog, and I saw that in how we relate in communion with the Lord. We're building a relationship. There isn't water under the bridge until you've traveled back and forth over that bridge a few times together.
34:00 God's Goodness in All Circumstances: Suffering, Peace, Laughter
Laura Bratton: I want to highlight that God's goodness is present in the good, the bad, and the mundane. I want to make this crystal clear: I am not saying God's goodness is in our suffering. What I am saying is the goodness of God's love is with us in the suffering. God's power is present in it all.
38:12 Outro: Thank you for joining us!
Kristen Wambach: Thank you so much, Laura. Remember, as you walk through your week, keep your ears tuned in for the birds, for nature, and know that you are present in His presence. Thank you.
The Monday-morning Reality of Grace
There is something powerful about using our voice. Just as we use our voice to activate the technology in our homes, we must use our voice to activate our own hearts and change the environment around us." —Laura Bratton
Your Voice is the Key
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| At the age of nine, Laura Bratton was diagnosed with an eye disease and faced the difficult reality that she would become blind. Over the next ten years, Laura experienced the traumatic transition of adjusting to life without sight. Laura shares the incredible journey of the first thirty years of her life. It is a journey that has been difficult, frustrating, overwhelming, and yet full of courage, joy, and love. Each page of the book shares the different ways that Laura experienced grit and gratitude in the face of adversity. · Laura Bratton Website |
| You will learn how to apply grit to each difficult situation and experience gratitude moment by moment, regardless of the circumstances. Each chapter of this book gives real-life stories that you can apply to your daily life as you overcome adversity. With determination, perseverance, and gratefulness, you will overcome difficult circumstances. |
Experiencing God’s goodness comes through an inner knowing—that gut intuition of the Holy Spirit that reminds us we are never walking alone." —Laura Bratton
The Walk of the Beloved
Coaching Church Activation
1. The Mercy Audit
Stop looking for a "neon sign" miracle and look for the "mercy" answers.
- Identify: Name three practical things helping you get through today (e.g., a supportive friend, a hot cup of coffee, the technology in your hand).
- The Truth: These aren't accidents; they are God’s tangible provisions for you.
Your voice is a tool to change your environment.
- Speak: Find a private moment to say out loud: "God, I thank You for Your goodness. I am not alone, and I am loved unconditionally." * The Shift: Notice how speaking the truth out loud changes how your body feels compared to just thinking it.
Your worth is not a to-do list.
- Practice: Sit quietly for two minutes. Breathe in and say "Beloved." Breathe out and say "Enough."
- The Outcome: Let your shoulders drop. You aren't loved for what you do; you are loved because you are a beloved creation.
FINAL EPISODE SUMMARY: THE GOODNESS OF GOD IS VOICE ACTIVATED
The "Monday-morning" Logic of the Kingdom Laura challenges the listener to move past waiting for "neon billboard" miracles and to start recognizing the "mercy answers" hidden in the mundane. Drawing from a practical example of a sunset walk where the birdsong became a meditative sanctuary, she reveals that God’s goodness is a tangible navigating force—often found in the practical resources we take for granted, like hot water, supportive friendships, and even voice-activated technology.
Core Spiritual Activations:
- The Power of Your Voice: Laura and Kristen unpack the concept of "Voice Activation." Just as we use our voices to control our digital environments, we must use our audible voices to activate our spiritual atmosphere, moving truth from a thought in our heads to a reality in our bodies.
- The Bridge of Trust: Using the beautiful metaphor of a guide dog, the conversation illustrates that relationship with the Holy Spirit isn't a one-time checkmark. It is a daily walk—traveling back and forth over the same bridge of trust until the flow becomes supernatural.
- The "Beloved" Mandate: Breaking the cycle of "hopeless despair," Laura offers a spiritually brave activation: simply believing you are a beloved creation. This identity is not based on your sight, your scripture reading, or your productivity, but on the unconditional "Yes" of a Father who sees you as enough right now.
THE WEEK-ONE OUTCOME
By the end of this episode, listeners will possess a recalibrated spiritual vision. They will move into their week empowered to perform a "Goodness Audit," using their own voices to change their environment and resting in the physical peace of being God's beloved.
"God’s goodness isn't a destination we reach; it is the very air we breathe while we’re on the journey." — Kristen Wambach
God’s goodness isn't a destination we reach; it is the very air we breathe while we’re on the journey." — Kristen Wambach
MEET THE AUTHOR AND BLOGGER >>Have you ever felt like there was a thin veil between the world you see and the supernatural wisdom your heart is longing for? If so, you’ve found a safe path home. I’m Kristen Wambach, and for over 20 years, I have operated as a spiritual investigative journalist. My mission is simple but profound: I document the heart of Jesus and the tangible ways Heaven touches earth to bring about supernatural transformation in our daily lives. |
Whether I am hosting the Interviewing Jesus Podcast or writing my next book, I lead with a "Beyond" posture. I’m not interested in arguing doctrine or staying stuck in the pews of theory. I am interested in the redemption stories, the raw testimonies, and the practical "how-to" of living Spiritually BRAVE.
I believe that spiritual maturity isn't about how much you know; it’s about how much you see and how you respond to the unconditional "Yes" of God over your life.
A Life of Practical Grace
My journey didn't start in a library; it started on an Oregon farm. That "farm girl" work ethic follows me into everything I do today—from coaching entrepreneurs to researching the latest backyard wildlife solutions at Rabbitrail Supply. I believe God is just as present in the mundane details of your morning coffee as He is in the grandest miracle.
When you work with me or listen to the podcast, you can expect:
- Outcome-Focused Wisdom: I don't just share ideas; I share activations that help you see results in your first week.
- Clarity & Accessibility: No "churchy" barriers. Just straight talk, straight quotes, and a focus on the goodness of the Kingdom.
- Authentic Authority: With decades of mastery as an ordained pastor and transformation coach, I bring a trusted, biblically sound voice to every conversation.
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I am a wife of over 40 years, a mother to four adult sons, and a "Grandma" to the beautiful Liesel June. My life is a testament to the fact that when you bridge the gap between Heaven and earth, your entire reality begins to rewrite itself.
I invite you to step into The Wisdom Vault, subscribe to the podcast, and join a community of seekers who are ready to hear God’s voice and live with purpose, authenticity, and divine wisdom.
I’m so glad you’re here. Let’s be Spiritually BRAVE together.
FROM NASA ENGINEER TO FAITH: The Physics of Trusting God in the dark— with Sean Hayden ❖ 276
4/23/2026
Faith isn't powerful because it's big, but because it's alive." —Sean Hayden
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- Love Over Duty: Redefining obedience as a relational response to an audaciously good Father rather than a harsh requirement.
- The Ephesians Activation: A practical prayer for enlightenment and wisdom when you can't see the path ahead.
The Physics of Faith The Mechanics of the Mustard Seed
In our recent conversation on the Interviewing Jesus Podcast, Sean brought a unique perspective to the spiritual walk. He reminds us that faith isn't valuable because it’s massive or impressive to others. Its power lies in the fact that it is alive.
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Welcome, welcome family. How are you doing today? This is Kristen from the Interviewing Jesus Podcast, and I’ve got a surprise for you. Every once in a while, you meet someone whose life story feels like a masterclass in the "Monday-morning," get-it-done logic of heaven, where high-level science meets raw and unshakeable faith. Today, I’m sitting down with a man who has designed power systems for NASA, rockets, and satellites, but found his greatest engineering feat was learning how to build a life on the mustard seed principle. Sean Hayden is a former Boeing engineer, a digital marketing expert, and now the author of Grow in the Dark. You’re going to love it; it’s a great book. He’s survived near-death experiences in the air and on the road, walked through the miraculous healing of his son, and is currently running an excavator on a 150-acre dream called Hayden Haven. Sean, you said that our darkest season is actually our growing season and that faith isn’t powerful because it’s big, but because it’s alive. I am so honored to have you here today to help us bridge the gap between our current darkness and the breakthrough God has already promised. Sean, welcome to the show.
Sean Hayden (01:45):
Thanks for having me. I’m real excited to be here.
Kristen Wambach (01:48):
It is, it is. And for my YouTube listeners, there you are—there’s the book. It’s a humdinger. You’re going to love the structure in it; you know me, I’m a structure kind of gal. Sean, you write that faith isn't powerful because it’s big, but because it’s alive. When you were in those near-death moments—that tangled parachute or motorcycle crashes—what did you discover about the aliveness of the faith Jesus placed in you?
Sean Hayden (02:35):
Well, that’s a great question. It all stems back to what happened before. Faith comes by hearing and hearing of the Word of God. Being in the Word gives you the strength to know where your covenant lies and what’s going to help you out at any given point. Knowing that God is always there for you, even if His best interest is taking you out of the world. Growing in the dark is about using your previous faith-building experiences—the times God showed up—and building on those. It doesn't matter how small or big it is; there’s always another step because we never reach full completeness until the end.
Kristen Wambach (04:07):
I say often that God is very interested in our transformation. You use the mustard seed principle as your metaphor. How did Jesus develop your spiritual eyes in those places that seemed dark?
Sean Hayden (04:59):
It’s really about being in the Word. No one sees the seed sprouting in the ground; they just see the fruit. It’s the same for us. No one sees you spending time in your relationship with God in the darkness. You have to be filled with the Word for it to come out. Turning down the volume of the world—bad music, bad TV—and turning up the volume of the Word. Speaking it out loud is way more impactful because it changes the atmosphere. It’s more than academic; it’s a love letter. If I talk to everyone else about my wife but never spend time with her personally, we won’t have a deep relationship. It’s the same with God.
Kristen Wambach (08:16):
The communion becomes a meal that is sustenance to our body. If you haven't partaken of that sustenance, you're missing that communication.
Sean Hayden (09:09):
Exactly. And there’s never an end point. God is full of abundance and over-supply. It’s exciting.
Kristen Wambach (09:34):
I love your quote: "The moment you release your seed into obedience, you shift responsibility from yourself to God." I needed to hear that because, like you, I just released a book. You have to be obedient. What did it feel like when you released your book—your signature that puts you as an author?
Sean Hayden (11:21):
Relief. I knew at that point it was truly not mine anymore. You plant the seeds, you water them, but God makes it grow. Once it’s out there, it is 100% out of your hands. God rewards obedience. I had this epiphany with my daughter writing her name—she only got a few letters right, but I was so proud because I knew her intent. I think God knows our intent, too. Even if we step out and it’s not perfectly what He wanted, He blesses the effort. That led to my huge leap of moving my family with no job security. We were blessed abundantly because I was obedient to that whisper.
Kristen Wambach (15:44):
How did you develop that hunger for wanting to walk out the DNA God planted inside of you?
Sean Hayden (16:22):
I prayed for the desire. I asked God to soften my heart and give me the desire to know Him more. Relationship with God is literally everything. If I had to start over, I would just start praying.
Kristen Wambach (18:15):
I’ve made life choices without asking His opinion, and yet His grace was so sufficient. How has God built in you the sense that there isn't regret—that this is all part of your path?
Sean Hayden (19:24):
I’ve been a weird person my entire life; I never really fit in a box. Since I was a child, I could feel things in the spirit. I’ve always had comfort when I followed that leading, and things went wrong when I didn't. I took weird jumps in my career, but God was guiding me. I didn't give Him enough credit until we moved to Kentucky. I gave up a huge management position to do rocket engineering—which was boring compared to what I did before—but God blessed me because I did what He led me to do. It wasn't God yelling; it was a leading.
Kristen Wambach (25:58):
In 2 Corinthians 10:5, it talks about taking every thought captive. We spend so much time blocking noise, but we need to train ourselves to take His thoughts captive—to hold that whisper in our hearts and let it sprout.
Sean Hayden (26:55):
That is good! I’ve not thought of it that way.
Kristen Wambach (27:16):
You were an engineer at Boeing working on satellites—communication structures. I hear that you are a communication structure as a feeler.
Sean Hayden (28:08):
For sure. As an engineer, I was best at helping the group organize and communicating between rough engineers and softer business people. God helped inside engineering, too. He would tell me where to put effort. He blesses the people around you so that you are blessed.
Kristen Wambach (29:46):
When you feel God moving your faith feet, you feel His goodness. How do you feel that movement, which makes the word "obedience" softer?
Sean Hayden (30:31):
I don’t even view obedience like that anymore. It’s love. If someone you love asks for a cup of water, you don’t think, "How dare you." You just do it. God is the true love. He suggests things out of love, and I respond in kind. If you continue to deny the leadings of God, they get quieter. My mind is louder when I’m out of the Word.
Kristen Wambach (34:14):
Like a satellite, God is always releasing a sound. I had to learn how to listen.
Sean Hayden (35:20):
That’s right. He’s constantly calling you home because He loves you, not because He wants a slave. We are family.
Kristen Wambach (36:46):
I relate to the woman at the well. I had to learn His love first to melt my preconceived notions and harder structures.
Sean Hayden (39:18):
My wife wasn’t saved for most of our relationship. Once she was baptized, the veil was removed. Before, it wouldn't click. I’ve seen the consequences of people stepping away from faith, and it’s scary. I can feel if someone is spirit-filled now; you almost want to hug them because you can feel Jesus in them.
Kristen Wambach (43:37):
God is so audaciously good that He thought about His kids before He ever spoke. We cannot separate His fatherhood from His kids. Sean, how can people connect with you?
Sean Hayden (47:27):
Grow in the Dark is on Amazon. My website is growinthedark.life.
Kristen Wambach (47:54):
If someone feels buried rather than planted, what is one simple activation they can do?
Sean Hayden (48:45):
Pray the Ephesians prayer (Ephesians 1:16-20). Ask for enlightenment, wisdom, and revelation. I will pray that for everyone today. (Sean Prays).
Kristen Wambach (51:22):
Amen. I had a vision while you were praying—you were pushing a grocery cart and pulling resources off the shelves for everyone who hears that prayer. Sean, thank you for joining us today.
Sean Hayden (53:14):
Thank you, I appreciate it.
Growing in the Dark
This is what Sean calls "Kingdom logic." In the natural world, we want to see the harvest before we believe the seed is working. In the Kingdom, the growth happens while we are still in the dirt. If you feel buried right now, you might actually be planted.
The Responsibility Shift
For many of us, the "wait" is the hardest part. We try to micromanage the outcome, hovering over our "seeds" with anxiety. But when we treat obedience as an act of love rather than a harsh requirement, the burden lifts. We aren't servants trying to earn a paycheck; we are family members acting out of a relationship. When Sean moved his family across the country with no job security, he wasn't just being "obedient"—he was responding to the loving whisper of a Father who had already made provision for him.
The moment you release your seed into obedience, you shift responsibility from yourself to God." —Sean Hayden
CONNECT WITH SEAN HAYDEN
| In Grow in the Dark, Sean Hayden shares what it looks like to believe God for miracles when nothing seems to be changing. This book is about what happens after you plant the seed and explores the reasons that keep most people from planting one in the first place. | Have you ever felt like God gave you a promise—but then it took forever to see it come to pass? You believe He can do the impossible, but struggle to believe you’re capable of carrying the vision through to the end. It’s not that you don’t want the breakthrough—it’s that you can’t wrap your mind around how it’s going to work out in the end. That fear of the unknown has kept you from believing that seed of faith you’ve planted will ever actually grow. |
The tiny seed knew that in order to grow, it needed to be covered with dirt, buried in darkness, and struggle to reach the light." — Sandra Kring
Turning Up the Volume of the Word
To hear the whisper of the Spirit, we have to intentionally turn down the volume of the world—the secular noise, the "rough language" of our environments, and the loud thoughts of our own minds—and turn up the volume of the Word. Sean advocates for speaking the Word out loud. Why? Because it changes the atmosphere. It reminds our bodies and our spirits who is in charge.
The "Toddler" Perspective
God looks at our faith the same way. We might feel like we’re scribbling, but He sees the heart. We are seated in heavenly places, not because we’ve mastered the "mechanics" of religion, but because we are His kids.
COACHING CHURCH
ACTIVATION: THE RESPONSIBILITY SHIFT
Your harvest is coming. It’s just growing in the dark for now.
THE ACTION STEP:
- Identify the "Seed": Write down one area of your life where you have been obedient (a project, a prayer, a transition, or a relationship), but you are currently carrying the stress of the outcome.
- The Hand-Off: Find a physical seed, a small stone, or even a piece of paper. Hold it tightly in your hand. Feel the tension in your grip—this represents your "hustle" and anxiety.
- The Prayer of Release: Open your hand and place that object on a table or in the dirt. Speak this out loud:
THE MONDAY-MORNING OUTCOME: For the next seven days, every time an anxious thought about this situation arises, say: "That is no longer my responsibility; it’s in the Father’s garden." Watch how your energy shifts from "striving" to "tending" your own peace.
THE ANCHOR:
- "I planted the seed, Apollos watered it, but God has been making it grow." — 1 Corinthians 3:6
FINAL SUMMARY
Sean’s journey—from surviving motorcycle crashes to running an excavator on his 150-acre dream—serves as a powerful reminder that obedience is simply a loving response to an audaciously good Father. If you are ready to move from striving to resting in the "physics of trust," this episode is your roadmap.
Connect & Grow. We’d love to hear how this episode helped you shift your perspective today. Connect with Sean at growinthedark.life to grab his book and activations. For more soul-stirring conversations and lifestyle tools to help you live Spiritually BRAVE, visit KristenWambach.com or join our community in the Coaching Church. Let’s bridge the gap between heaven and earth together.
Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase." — Martin Luther King Jr.
MEET THE AUTHOR & PODCASTER"Hi, I’m Kristen Wambach, the host of the Interviewing Jesus Podcast and the author of The Spiritually BRAVE Journey. My own path to supernatural wisdom and sonship began much like this picture—on the deck of this 40 ft sailboat, looking out at the vast Pacific Northwest horizon and asking big questions about faith, risk, and what it truly means to follow Jesus into the deep. As a transformation coach, podcaster, and author, my passion is helping people navigate the gap between their current season and the breakthrough God has promised. | "God is so much "Gooder" than our current bandwidth about Him." |
So grab a cup of coffee and your journal, and let’s dive into what it means to be Spiritually BRAVE."
He will give you beauty for ashes... you have to allow those old thoughts and habits to burn away." —Jesikah Wells
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In this spirit-led episode, host Kristen Wambach and Jesikah Wells unpack how life’s "fires" do not destroy your DNA—they redefine it for a new realm. Jesikah shares why we must stop missing who we were to discover who we are in the heart of a Father who is obsessed with the smallest details of our restoration.
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- The DNA of Fire: Stop viewing loss as destruction; fire redefines your spiritual DNA for a brand-new realm.
- The Discovery Shift: Quit trying to recover who you were and start discovering who you are in the Father's heart.
- The Closet Strategy: God is obsessed with the jots and tittles; He uses your shoes and your blazer to open divine doors.
- End Empty-Handed Prayer: Honor God’s voice by showing up with a pen; a record is required for your restoration.
- Kingly Searching: Treat spiritual mysteries as a royal invitation to search out the heart of your Father.
- The Vindicator’s Rule: When you stop defending yourself, you allow Jehovah Shafat to judge your case righteously.
- Grace for the Grind: Healing your central nervous system starts by putting yourself on your own to-do list.
- Prophetic Documents: The wind of the Spirit is currently releasing business plans, diagnoses, and legal answers into your hands.
Why You Aren't Missing Who You Were—You're Discovering Who You Are.
God is in all the details. He cares what I wear, He cares how I speak." —Jesikah Wells
SUMMARY
Our conversation highlights a Father who is obsessed with the details, from the shoes we put on to stand in our calling to the specific blazer in our closet that He uses to open a divine door. We dive into the practical "Monday-morning" logic of restoration, discussing how to disassociate our temporary feelings from our eternal personality and why we must stop practicing "empty-handed prayer". Jesikah recounts a convicting moment when the Lord challenged her for not bringing a journal or pen to their meeting, reminding us that restoration requires a record and an expectation that Heaven will provide real strategies.
As we wrap up, we explore the identity of Jehovah Shafat, the Righteous Judge, who acts as a "Girl Dad" and protector for His daughters. We discuss the importance of leaving our vindication in His hands rather than taking matters into our own hands through social media or self-defense. The episode concludes with a profound prophetic vision of the wind of the Holy Spirit blowing across documents and legal transactions, signifying that God is currently sealing futures, changing diagnoses, and opening business opportunities for those who feel far from finished.
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Kristen Wambach (00:01): Hello, Interviewing Jesus podcast family. How are you today? My secret surprise, I have a weapon for you. I am joined by a woman who truly understands what it means to reclaim beauty for ashes. Jessica Wells is a speaker, a leader, and the host of the Broken to Beautiful podcast, where she creates a safe space for women to navigate healing and God-centered transformation.
Kristen Wambach (00:35): With a background in wealth management and branding, boy, can she make those graphics up. I've asked her a few times. Jessica owns her own life was redefined in 2020 when she moved from simply knowing God, knowing the songs, knowing the melody of faith to embodying His living Word—that's Jesus Himself—through a season of profound personal loss and burnout. Today she serves as a powerful voice for those navigating the ebbs and flow of life, teaching us how to walk boldly in our God-given identity. Welcome, Jessica.
Jesikah Wells (01:23): Thank you for having me.
Kristen Wambach (01:27): Yay, yay, and we have a little bit of a—I was on her show I think just about a year ago and it was just so tender and so wonderful, so it is wonderful to get another opportunity to sit down and let Holy Spirit just move amongst us, amen.
Jesikah Wells (01:50): Amen. Yes.
Kristen Wambach (01:52): Would you share with our listeners, Beauty for Ashes? You talk about God not being a halfway God, and He doesn't just feel part way, that He really just digs into what we would classify broken, but He doesn't see us as broken. Would you unpack that for us?
Jesikah Wells (02:18): Yes. So I think it's important for us to just remember that God is in all of the details. He cares about everything. And when we start thinking about it from that standpoint—like the Lord cares what I wear, He cares how I speak, how I conduct myself. I'm His child, right? That's the God that we serve.
Jesikah Wells (02:49): And when we think about it in that totality, how He wants to be included. And when we start including Him in every little thing—you know, Lord, what do you ask you to do today? Lord, how should I handle this? Should I wear this? Should I not? And allow Him to just lead you in every step of the way. He really does, just like it says in the book of Isaiah, what my podcast is founded off of, Isaiah 61.
Jesikah Wells (03:19): He will give you beauty for ashes. And when we think about ashes, the first thing that comes to mind is something being burnt down to ashes. So you have to allow those old thoughts, those old mannerisms, the old ways that you used to conduct yourself, those old habits to burn away, right? And He will give you—you have to trust Him to do that for you. It's all about the trust, trusting Him to be a part of those small moments, trusting Him to take what you have been through and are going through if you're going through something and to give you that beauty for actions.
Kristen Wambach (04:07): I agree with you; sometimes it's just so dialed down even to what you're wearing. I have on my favorite Converse high tops; there's leather there—I stick my foot up on the desk, you know, so the YouTubers can see it—but when I put those shoes on I just feel like I am standing in the attitude of what He's called me and who He's called me to be. Simply by a goofy pair of shoes that I got at a thrift store.
Jesikah Wells (04:44): Right, right. My goodness. When I tell you, Kristen, similar incident with myself: I was going to this event and I'm like, "Lord, I don't have anything new. What should I wear?" And Holy Spirit was like, "Wear this blazer". It was so funny. I'm like, "This is a blazer in the back of my closet. I haven't worn it in years, had it for years." When I put that blazer on, went to the event, I got so many compliments on just that—I mean, men and women. And I'm like, "Okay, I see, Lord, you're on to something. You're on to something." And I made so many connections that night just off of compliments. So listen.
Kristen Wambach (05:28): Could you—I love where we're at with the beauty for ashes. Sometimes we look at the ashes totally being burned. It's almost like you can't even find the DNA of what remained. Because the burning actually, the fire changes the DNA. So if you were to imagine a forest or a tree or firewood, it does change the DNA. But actually what it does, it just puts it in a different realm because it still remains a tree. So would you unpack for us how you have found beauty and maybe even the practical part of how you set yourself down to actually feel that way?
Jesikah Wells (06:25): Yeah, yeah. So just like you said, the burning away, right? And it burns down. I remember when the Lord first started dealing with me and His purpose for my life—not my purpose, not what Jessica wanted to do or what I thought I should be doing. With His purpose for my life, it felt as if my entire mind was being rewired, the way that I used to think. And I was literally blown away. I'm like, "Wait a minute now, this is crazy. First of all, I'm a PK. I don't know, I'm a church kid. I grew up in church, right?" So, hey—yes, a pastor's kid, right?
Kristen Wambach (07:08): Let's play hands on you right now. He's a pastor's kid. People, if you're not familiar with the lingo.
Jesikah Wells (07:22): It's like, my gosh, I always hear these scriptures, I always hear this song in church, but it was different when the Lord started revealing His purpose for my life and His word became alive—meaning I had to walk it out, right? And with the sense of beauty, like you said, even the practical, those things, it goes back to what I previously said about allowing Him in those spaces.
Jesikah Wells (07:54): I just noticed how He changed my appearance. I've always been the girly girl, right, Kristen? I like all things feminine—the hair, the makeup, the nails, all those things. And even in that, He speaks to me. Like, "Okay, maybe I don't need to dye my hair hot pink this time," you know? But allowing Him that space to say, "Why don't you try this or that?" He's going to prepare you for where you're going for His purpose.
Jesikah Wells (08:29): He's going to extract that beauty. At the time, you may not feel like it is while you're going through, while you're being prepped, while you're being pruned and positioned. You may not feel like it, but trust me, it is all in His plan. I'm thinking about something He's been dealing with me with lately—and it may be a topic of my show, I don't know, I'm still praying about it—but it is how to rebuild and recover after those seasons of loss, after those seasons of preparation and pruning, how do you get back to who you are?
Jesikah Wells (09:12): And I don't mean get back to who you used to be before you allowed the Lord to take the lead, because I found myself coming out of a hard season and I went to say to someone, "I miss who I was." And the Holy Spirit corrected me: "You don't miss who you were; you miss who you are". It's not who you were in the past, but you miss being able to do the things that I've already instilled in you to do. Looking how you would look, you know, on a good day if everything was going just perfectly for you.
Jesikah Wells (09:59): So don't say you miss who you were, because I don't miss who I was, I miss who I am. And in that, He started taking me on this path of rebuilding—getting back to rest, getting back to beauty treatments that I like, getting back into the habit of those things, calming my central nervous system. He will get you back to the beauty. Trust me, it's beauty that is being extracted. You don't have to worry if your season feels crazy, out of this world, you don't know what's happening. Trust me, the Lord will get you back here. You're not gonna be left there, okay? You just have to see it through. And He'll bring you back and you will be able to look like, "My gosh, look at who I am now. Look at how I speak. Look at how I look. Look at how I steward my children versus who I was before this". So yeah, He's extracting that beauty. That's it.
Kristen Wambach (11:04): In my own life, sometimes in those trying seasons or tough seasons—I'm just about ready to publish my second book. And so you're just kind of frazzled from doing all of the online stuff and finding all those little jots and tittles and typos. It's just exasperating at times, but it's the Lord that's calling you to share who you are and share your words. What is a little tool that you activate with yourself to actually see Jesus right there in those places where we just as soon hide—you know, He's not in the room, He's not in the house today—how does He show you that, "No, I'm actually sitting right here. You are never alone"?
Jesikah Wells (12:16): I usually find that literally how the scripture says: lean not to your own understanding. That when I was going through is what I kept hearing Holy Spirit say. Because in my mind I'm like, "What is going on? This is nuts to me". Holy Spirit is "lean not to your own understanding." So what I personally do is I get quiet. I get quiet because our minds, the way that we are wired as humans, we're always thinking, we're always on the go. I'm a forward thinker, right? And sometimes that's to my own demise, because I'm always trying to figure out the next move.
Jesikah Wells (13:00): And I've learned in those moments when it's so much pressure, you feel like, "Okay, God is not here," I just quiet myself. I quiet my mind. I turn on my worship music. Or some SK Murray, some of his frequencies—444, the frequency of David. I turn on some of that and I just sit. I just sit and just allow the music to minister. And before you know it—I know me—sometimes I'm crying, sometimes I'm praising, but whatever it is, it's a release. But I have to get myself to just sit. I don't care—my kids know—I'm like, "Okay, if I just have to go in the restroom and close the door with my cell phone, just have a moment. Quiet my mind." When I come out, I'm a better person. I have the strength that I need. And I find myself saying, "Thank you, Lord, for your strength. It's not me, but it's your strength that is perfect".
Kristen Wambach (14:09): Yes, yes. Yeah, I don't know if you remember, but I have four adult sons. How many you have—three?
Jesikah Wells (14:16): Yeah, I have three. One adult son and then my middle and my baby boy—so all boys.
Kristen Wambach (14:26): No wonder we like pink so much.
Jesikah Wells (14:29): Yes! Poor moms. We're the best. I'm just kidding.
Kristen Wambach (14:34): I know, and it's true, you do have to just go in and close yourself behind those closed doors. I really affirm you because in my—with my four sons—I actually notice a little bit of a difference between my two older ones and my younger ones because I was a heck of a lot more transformed with the younger ones. My older ones we had to do more "I'm sorry" forgiveness stuff. Do you notice anything like that?
Jesikah Wells (15:12): Yeah, definitely. So my oldest is in college right now. And yes, definitely. He is the oldest child; he remembers everything. But he's also gotten to see me grow. So it's so cool when he calls me, he's like, "Mom, I see you're doing this, you're doing that. This is amazing." And I'm like, "Thank you". So he got to see the most of my journey from where I was to where I am today. And it's just—yeah, I see the difference. I know my baby boy is my praise partner. So he's the one that's like, "Mom, we believe God and let's just praise God together". But yeah, I definitely see that as well. He doesn't know previous mommy.
Kristen Wambach (15:59): Yes, and my older ones actually saw me doing the life application of forgiving, because they were right there in how God was developing that.
Jesikah Wells (16:18): Yeah. I think mine would be standing up for myself—no longer being a "yes girl" or being someone's doormat, you know? Especially my oldest, I know he's like, "Wow." I've heard him say it to his brothers, like, "Mom sacrificed a lot." And I'm like, "I didn't know that you noticed! I had no idea you were watching". So yeah, that would be mine.
Kristen Wambach (16:53): So as we're talking about it today, you referred to a "yes girl." What did that used to look like? What were some of the behaviors and how has that changed to where you have more beauty and self-respect and healthy boundaries? Can you kind of give us a "before" and where you are right now?
Jesikah Wells (17:18): Yes. So boundaries are a must, and it's something that, like we said, I'm teaching my two younger sons—that it's okay to have healthy boundaries. And it's a lesson that the Lord had to teach me: to stand up for myself. Don't just allow people to say and do whatever they want to you. Now, we do all things in peace and love—let's be clear—Jesus is our example. But there is a righteous way to stand up for yourself, and that's what the Lord had to literally show me by allowing these things to happen. It's like, "Hey, I want to blow up," and the Lord is like, "Be angry and sin not". And I'm like, "Okay, okay, so how am I supposed to navigate this, Lord?" "Be angry, but sin not." And to literally take it to Him, cast my cares on Him. "Lord, this is how I feel in this moment. This person betrayed me. This person lied on me. I'm angry, but I'm not gonna sin. I'm not gonna hate them. I'm not gonna curse them. I'm not gonna cause them physical harm. I'm giving it to you so that you can heal me so that I can be okay from this and get to that forgiveness," right, what you were talking about? So it's a process and yeah, the Lord had to teach me.
Kristen Wambach (18:53): I absolutely love what you said there, that you had to give it to Him, that you had to allow yourself to be angry. So that means that you were releasing the feeling and having that conversation with Holy Spirit about the feeling. Tell us how important that is for us to talk about how we feel with Holy Spirit.
Jesikah Wells (19:15): Yes. My gosh, it is so important. Like I said earlier, the Lord wants to be included. He wants to know how you feel. He knows, but He wants to be in the incident—He wants to be in the conversation. And when you take it—like you said, "Holy Spirit, look, this is how I am feeling"—and when you start disassociating the feeling from your personality. Just because I feel angry doesn't mean I'm an angry person, right? So I can not like what someone does to me without taking on that as my personality—"I'm just mean and don't like anybody" or "I'm snapping at everyone" like that. No. So you are entitled to have a feeling, whether it's sad, it's happy, it's mad—you can have it. There is nothing wrong with that, right? But it's what you do with it that matters. If you sit there and you pet it like a little pet on your lap and then it manifests and the next thing you know, you're cussing somebody out or getting into a physical altercation—come on. So yes, take it to the Lord in prayer. He means what He says when He says, "Vengeance is mine." He means it. He sees all, He knows all.
Kristen Wambach (20:49): Yes, yes, and He's so loving about it. I love where it makes me chuckle when you say, "Don't sit around and pet it like a little pet sitting on your lap". Those are the times that I have to catch myself from having the argument in my brain when it goes round and round and round, and I have a moment of surrender and go, "I have to identify I need help with this".
Jesikah Wells (21:28): Yeah, "I'm spending too much time here—too much time in this. Yeah, I need your help".
Kristen Wambach (21:32): "I need help. It needs to go away. It needs to be given to Him." And many times I have to ask Him, "And how do I release this to you"?
Jesikah Wells (21:48): Yeah, sometimes we do. "Okay, this is too much for me, Lord. In my finite mind, I need you to help me with this because I don't know how to let go." And that's okay, too. I promise you that He is a just God and He will take care of it. I promise you He will.
Kristen Wambach (22:14): I will agree with your statement there. One of my favorite personalities of Father God is Him as a righteous judge. Because I love taking my request to the throne of grace, to the courts of Heaven, and I love to know that I am going to get a judgment—and you just feel like you want to go, "That's my papa right there!" It's just one of my favorite of His personalities.
Jesikah Wells (22:29): Yes. I think the Hebrew is Jehovah Shafat—the Righteous Judge.
Kristen Wambach (22:36): Really?
Jesikah Wells (23:08): Yes. When I tell you nothing catches Him by surprise. But a lot of times—because I heard someone say that God is a "girl dad". He loves His daughters, okay? I mean, He loves His sons too, but we're just talking about daughters right now. So He is going to defend you, okay? He is going to be your vindicator, your protector. That's the type of Father you have. But you take it away from Him when you want to take it in your own hands: "Oh, I'm going to go on the internet and say this about this person," or "I'm going to start my own smear campaign". You take that away from Him. And now He has to deal with you. He's still going to do what He's going to do, but now He has to judge you for your actions. Just give it to Him; let Him be the good Father that He is.
Kristen Wambach (24:22): And Jessica, how have you built that conversation, that communication between you and Father God, so that you feel that conversation going back? How have you built that and developed that in your life?
Jesikah Wells (24:45): Honestly, it came from me feeling like I did not have anybody else. I was at a point in my life where I felt like no one understood me, no one was listening to me. And yeah, He was there. He revealed Himself to me during that time. And I talk about it on my show, how He visited me. And it's like ever since then, it has been, "That is my Father and I'm going to tell Him everything about me." I'm taking everything to Him because I know He loves me. So in building that relationship with Him, it has just been spending more time with Him, honestly. It first started out with reading my Word. So I set out to read the Word chronologically, because I wanted to read it like a story. And so I started reading the Word, and it felt like I had gotten stuck in the Old Testament. I'm like, "Why is it taking me so long in the Old Testament? I'm ready to get to the New Testament when Jesus is on the scene and the miracles are happening". And He's like, "You have to learn." So I was in the Old, just reading the Word. And as I would read the Word, He would speak and I would write in my journal what He says. And that's how I built it. One, I would know His voice from any other voice; two, I would know His character; and three, to trust Him. So yeah, spending more time with Him.
Kristen Wambach (26:40): Now, I know this about Jessica and I, we're both journaling, writing down, so we totally tooted the horn on that. But if I were to backtrack what you said is trust came because you listened and you wrote it down.
Jesikah Wells (27:03): Yes. I can go back to some journals now and see where He did what He said He was going to do four years ago, you know? And it's like, who wouldn't trust? Who wouldn't serve a God like that? He said it; He did it. And it's something about the writing and keeping a record. Especially as you're building that relationship with Him, He wants you to be able to come back. He even says to remind Him of His words. So if He said it, it's okay to come back in prayer and say, "Father, right here on this day, you told me that you were going to heal me from this. Your word says that your word will not return unto you void". He loves when we do that. He's like, "She was listening! She was paying attention. Okay, she's putting me in remembrance of my word. Let me act. Let me do what I said I was going to do".
Kristen Wambach (28:09): I'd say come on, girl!
Jesikah Wells (28:15): Yeah!
Kristen Wambach (28:15): Okay, and another—we're into the journaling and writing it down. Listeners, please don't roll your eyes at us. I learned to hear God's voice exactly in that manner of writing it down—and it's basically honoring when you honor what somebody says. I write down my husband's dreams, his visions; I can keep track of what God is doing. We have so much in common, and I know that there's another "in common" that we need to talk about: our huge to-do lists. Help us, Jesus, help us. How do you deal with your to-do lists and what they're constantly saying to you?
Jesikah Wells (29:29): The to-do list. Listen, it can get—there are moments when the to-do list is mundane. It's like you're doing the same thing, especially when you're a parent. "Okay, gotta get up, kids ready, work, cook, da-da-da-da-da." And then there's times when it's just like, "I gotta get this done, and this, and this, and this." And yeah, I have learned, one, to give myself grace. And like I said in the beginning, allow God into those spaces. A lot of times with hosting a show, working a job, having kids—it can be a lot. But there are times when I'm like, "Okay, Holy Spirit, help me because I can't do everything. There aren't so many hours in a day". And something will creatively come to mind that I didn't even think of that will eliminate some of the things off of my to-do list. Or things will happen to where something that I thought I had to get done—I no longer have to do it. So that's off the list and I can do something else. For me, that's how it works. I mean, I think the biggest thing is giving myself grace.
Jesikah Wells (31:06): I'm the type of woman, I love to cook and I love for my family to eat what I cook. But there are times when I'm like, "Okay, what are we going to eat for dinner?" I'm thinking about it, trying to make healthy decisions. And Holy Spirit is like, "You know what? Why don't you do this? Why don't you go grab one of those $7.99 rotisserie chickens"? Okay, that way you only have to make sides—or you can even get the sides now. Do that so you can go home and all you have to do is make it look nice and everybody can eat. And guess what? You don't have to stand over a stove for 45 minutes for prep and then an hour to cook. So just things like that—giving myself grace and "It's okay, Jessica. It's okay if I don't get to this today. It's okay".
Kristen Wambach (32:06): It is okay. And I've had to learn it; it is an ongoing lesson. It's about doing less to give yourself grace and prioritize—and remember to write yourself in on your own list.
Jesikah Wells (32:31): Yes, yes. I think I spoke with you about healing my central nervous system after the trials and the testing. So with that does come having time for myself where I just sit and I calm. I sip my tea—I'm a tea drinker—and just take care of Jessica. Take a nice hot bath and just rest. Just rest. Don't have to think about this person, that person, this thing. Just have time for yourself. Do what you love to do for yourself. If it's reading a book, fine; if it's listening to music, fine. Just be—to just be, you know?
Kristen Wambach (33:29): So we go from the journaling and writing it down to the to-do lists—just topping off like here's the whipped cream. We described ourselves where burnout or tiredness or that sense of being uncomfortable, of being unsettled, like it's not done. How do you help yourself and how do you help women discern the difference between regular work stress and feeling divinely unsettled? You know, it's just where you don't feel connected with God.
Jesikah Wells (34:27): Yeah. So when it's work stress or stress from the things around us, like I just said, the central nervous system will be out of whack—weight gain, hair loss, a whole lot of things. Physically, you'll notice subtle signs—even just being overly tired, brain fog. That's when it's those things—work, the elements of the world. When it is not being settled for Christ, more than likely it's something that He wants you to do, but it's not going to cause you to have these effects on your body. When it's Christ, you will feel unsettled, but there's a peace that you have on the inside, okay? It may be unnerving to do what He's asked you to do, but it's that peace that blankets it.
Jesikah Wells (35:53): So I can attest to when I moved away from North Carolina, I moved to Maryland. It was just me and my boys—just us, no help, just us. Let me stress that: just us. This was almost three years ago now. So that was so nerve-wracking and unnerving. I'm like, "Lord, what is this?" But the entire time as I loaded up and I hitched a U-Haul to my truck—mind you, I'm a girly girl, I've never done anything like this in my life—but I hitched that U-Haul. And as I was driving, I just felt the peace of God. Like I knew that this is what I'm supposed to be doing. It was unnerving, stressful, but I had that peace that surpasses all understanding. I think that's the difference. When it's other things, there's no peace; it's just stress. And your body will tell you—you have to listen to your body. I've been blessed to find a Christian herbalist—if you know, you know—and she even has little scriptures on her stuff! But things like that help to realign that central nervous system where you're not overeating. Like I said, listen to your body. When it's from the Lord, you don't have those side effects. You may be nervous, you may have a giddy-up moment like, "Lord, show me again because I don't know if I want to do this," but it will be a peace that comes with it.
Kristen Wambach (37:45): Peace it comes with it, and also the feeling of the anointing. Because we are both mouthpieces, we both have podcasts, we're world changers—meaning that what we bring to the table is supposed to corporately change the world in which we live. And it takes grace and commitment to open your mouth, to stick that microphone down there, when on the side you don't feel like it.
Jesikah Wells (38:23): Yeah. My goodness. If I had a dollar for each time I did not feel like turning on record, didn't feel like saying what He wanted me to say, just because of the natural stresses of life. But immediately when I begin to speak, I feel the presence of the Holy Spirit. And that lets me know that I'm doing what He called me to do. And it's almost like an energy rush. I'm just like, "My gosh, I'm excited. I'm happy." Getting here looked like, "What am I gonna wear? Am I gonna do my makeup? What does my hair look like?" just slouching around. But when the Holy Spirit comes, it's like, "My gosh, I could do about two or three more shows right after this, or I can go online and speak this word".
Kristen Wambach (39:30): Yeah, yeah. One of the things that God brought to your attention is "empty-handed prayer," and you shared a powerful moment where God said, "You don't want an answer; you didn't bring your journal or pen." We're still talking about writing it down—would you tell us more about that story?
Jesikah Wells (39:53): Yes. So we talked about taking it to Him, right? And with that, I had to ask—when the Lord started revealing His purpose for my life, I had to ask Him those hard questions: "Okay, Lord, am I going to be a wife again? Am I going to have more children? Do you want this for my life?" And it's kind of like you just start asking those questions. And the Lord got me—let me tell you, we like to think about relationship with Christ like it's just the rainbow. He gets me together, okay? He's that type of Father, too. He's not going to have me out here just doing whatever I want to do because He's my Father. No. He literally said, "Listen, you don't want to answer from me. You didn't even bring your journal. You just want somebody to listen to you, basically, because you didn't bring anything to write. So what do you want me to say?" I got up and I got my journal. And then He just started flowing—everything. So I'm writing as He speaks, and I'm like, "My gosh". That was in that relationship building phase. He's like, "You can't just come to me and not expect for me to answer." And sometimes in that, it's sitting. Sometimes He doesn't answer immediately. Sometimes it's you let Him know and just sit for a minute—just sit and wait. Yeah, He got me together on that, Kristen, for sure. "You just gonna come to me with all these problems? Do you want a solution or not?" Yeah, write it down.
Kristen Wambach (41:43): Because there will be a strategy when you're writing it down, then you have room for writing down strategies. "What does it feel like? What was the intent? What was the emotion going on when I heard Him say?" Because sometimes emotion and the feeling gives the frequency of God, and that's how you remember it—how you feel.
Jesikah Wells (42:06): Yeah, it all comes into account. I was at a ministry opportunity and I was just about to pray with this young lady and she said she had a dream about her brother, and in the dream, her brother had died. So what I asked her was, "Okay, that doesn't necessarily mean that he's gonna physically die. How did you feel when he died?" She said, "I didn't feel sad." I said, "So more than likely, if you did not feel sad, that's a spiritual death. The Lord is calling him to die to his flesh. It's a good thing". And she was just so relieved. And I told her the same thing: "Get you a journal. Write down your dreams. Write how you felt, the colors—everything that you see, write it down".
Kristen Wambach (43:25): And a lot of times what I'll do is I will find images and pictures that are the same of what He had in the dream and I'll put it in—I'm such a visual person, it helps to remember it. I will draw it out: "This is the way it felt and this is where the Lord took me." So yes, it is so good and so important.
Jesikah Wells (43:55): Yeah, it is. It is everything. He's intentional; He really is. He doesn't leave anything out. If He puts it there, He's going to use it. Sometimes, just like the scripture says, "It's the glory of God to conceal a thing, and the honor of kings to search it out". Sometimes we have to search it out. There are times where I had to wait, then times I had to fast and pray, then times where He gives it to me and I have to search it out: "Okay, Lord, what are you saying in this?" And I have to go to His word and see what He is really saying. And Holy Spirit will guide you right to where you need to be. Sometimes He gives us these things to search—write it down so that you can refer back to it, because it may be something later on in that same day and you're like, "Wait a minute, I saw this in my dream!"
Kristen Wambach (45:19): I agree. And I love that scripture that you shared with us, and I get real excited with it because if it's something that sets me into seeking to find, I know He's speaking to a king, because the kings that search out a matter—so that tells you how God is speaking to you. So good.
Jesikah Wells (45:51): Yes. Royalty. Royalty. My goodness.
Kristen Wambach (46:06): Jessica, before we go there, would you tell our listeners where they can find you, where they can hear your podcast and all about all those goodies?
Jesikah Wells (46:33): Yes. My podcast is the Broken to Beautiful podcast. It is on YouTube and also on every podcast streaming platform. I am currently about to launch my new season coming this spring, so you may want to go ahead and catch up. And yeah, I'm on Instagram as well as the Broken to Beautiful podcast. That's how you can get in touch with me—my link tree, my email, all of those things are there. Join me there.
Kristen Wambach (47:12): Fantastic. Would you pray for us? I'm going to add a few things into that prayer—there are single moms, young moms that feel like, "I know I'm supposed to make a difference in the world. Where do I begin? How do I start?" And also, there's a season when we're walking through a hard season—it could be a medical issue, it could literally be working through a project that has taken so much of your time that you just need that prayer to get you through. So those are two things.
Jesikah Wells (48:15): Yeah. So Father God, we thank you for this moment in time that you have brought Kristen and I together. I thank you for her listeners, her audience, those that are under the sound of her voice. Lord God, I ask that you will touch each and every last one of them, that you will touch them in the places that they are afraid to share with anyone else, God, and that you will heal them with your love. In the name of Jesus, Father, I ask that you give them the strength to endure whatever the trial is, because your strength is made perfect in our weakness. So Father, I ask that you give them your strength. I ask, God, that you give them what they stand in need of. Show them who you are. You are a good Father, even in uncertain times, even in the warfare. You want the best, Lord God, for your daughters. Lord God, I pray for those who don't know how or where to begin again, and I pray that they find you in that. I pray for their seek—that they will begin to seek you like never before in their words and in their prayers looking for you. I thank you, Lord God. And I pray for their clarity as well—that they be not deceived, that they will hear you in the fullness of who you are and be able to distinguish your will for their lives. I thank you because you are a good God. I praise your righteous and holy name. In Jesus' name, amen.
Kristen Wambach (50:35): Amen. Yay. Thank you so much. May I share with you what I was seeing in the Spirit when you were praying? And listeners, when I share something like this, it is a corporate thought from God. And while Jessica was praying, I saw like the wind coming behind her voice and blowing papers—papers all across the world. And when I feel those papers, I feel like they're documents—they're words that people are looking for. So when Jessica prayed, these words were being released for you here and in documents. Maybe you're trying to buy a home or buy a business or something—you need that legal transaction, that documentation to transfer that. Maybe it's a document for a diagnosis that is being changed—that a prescription from Heaven is literally blown to you today. Just allow your imagination to imagine the wind of Holy Spirit blowing to you the answer that you desire.
Jesikah Wells (52:09): Yes. My gosh, that is so good. You know, that brought back something. I was in prayer this morning and just decreeing and declaring what God said over my life. And I saw the angel of the Lord had an envelope with a seal, and the seal was blue. So, like I said, we have to take account of everything, right? He's definitely sending it out—sending out His documents.
Kristen Wambach (52:52): Yes, yes. Jessica, this has been such a great night. And I want to share these little goodies: Jessica is very talented with graphics. If you go and look at her design, there is so much creativity there and she presents it so wonderful.
Jesikah Wells (53:28): Thank you, thank you so much. Look, it's all God—my creative side.
Kristen Wambach (53:32): Well, then I like the God in you; I like all of it! Yay, thank you so much for being with us today. Thank you for blessing us, and I thank you that the wind that was blowing through you first had to go through you to provide for the things that you've been asking.
Jesikah Wells (53:55): Yeah, God is so good. Thank you for having me, Kristen. It was so fun; it was such a joy. You know I love you anyway—you are my sister!
Kristen Wambach (54:06): There we are. Okay. Thank you so much.
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it is the matter of God to conceal a thing... and the heart of kings to search it out." —Jesikah Wells Proverbs 25:2
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If you are standing in a field of ashes today, know this: The wind of the Holy Spirit is blowing. He is releasing documents, prescriptions, and business opportunities over your life right now. You are never alone, you are never unseen, and you are far from finished.
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Final Summary
As we close, let your imagination connect with the prophetic vision of the wind of the Holy Spirit blowing across your life—releasing business doors, legal answers, and restoration documents that have been signed and sealed in Heaven. Remember, you are never alone, never unseen, and your story is far from finished. It is time to walk boldly into the new realm God has prepared for you.
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The Launch of "HOW GOOD IS GOD?": A deep dive into the labor of love, the sweat, and the "gooder" God who met Kristen in the publishing process.EPISODE TAKEAWAYS
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- A New Definition of Victory: Shifting the focus from earthly accolades to the faithful stewardship of heavenly origins.
- The Power of Story: How a plate of lamb tacos and a vintage marquee can become the "final whistle" of a victorious season.
The Head Coach’s Perspective: Transitioning from the wisdom of sports legends to the ultimate definition of winning according to Jesus.
Summary
HOW GOOD IS GOD? recorded off-the-cuff on Passover 2026. She shares the "spiritual investigative journalist" perspective that fueled 440 pages of encounters, explaining how Jesus uses our darkest moments to birth us into resurrection life. Using the metaphor of a coached player, Kristen issues a high-velocity offensive play against religious static, inviting readers to expand their bandwidth and experience a God who is "gooder" than they ever imagined.
LAUNCH WEEK
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A Launch Day Reflection from Kristen Wambach
I am holding the hardback in my hands as I write this. It has a certain weight to it—not just the physical heft of 440 pages, but the weight of 30 years of documentation. It represents over 100,000 words dedicated to one pursuit: expanding our bandwidth for the goodness of God.
WATCH THE VIDEO VERSION
- 00:00 – Welcome to the Interviewing Jesus Podcast: Passover 2026 Launch
- 01:38 – The Weight of the Hardback: Why I Prefer the Physical Page
- 02:33 – Behind the Scenes: The Realities of 440 Pages and Royalties
- 03:56 – A Word of Encouragement for Future Authors
- 05:43 – Expanding Your Bandwidth: Exploring the "Gooder" Nature of God
- 06:30 – The Coached Player: Insights from Football Legends
- 08:30 – Handing the Microphone to Jesus: What is True Victory?
- 10:05 – Jesus as our Human Example: Coached by the Father
- 11:20 – A Field Guide Against Religious Static: The Book’s Mission
- 12:34 – 30 Years of Investigation: What’s Inside the Field Guide
- 14:16 – Compel Them to Come: My One-Sentence Mission
- 17:21 – Stories of the Lower Realms: The Mirror Bible and Persuasion
- 20:53 – Sunday Lamb Tacos and the Vintage Marquee: A Sign of Flight
- 28:51 – Prevailing Against the Gates: Matthew 16:18 and Our Victory
- 31:34 – Final Declaration and Call to Action
EPISODE TRANSCRIPTKristen Wambach (00:02):
Hello and welcome. This is Kristen from the Interviewing Jesus Podcast. Where to start? Today, this particular episode is being released on April 1st, which is Passover in 2026. It is the day that we launch and release my second book, HOW GOOD IS GOD? Coaching church beyond the gates of hell to truly experience Heaven.
Now, let me just put a pre-warning in this episode. I’m really excited to share it with you. I don’t really have notes. I’m not quite sure where we’re going to end up, and yes, I will be pitching because I really want to share the book with you. It’s a momentous day for me with lots of emotion, sweat, and tears, and lots of time in the Lord’s presence. I just wanted to share it with you and I pray it brings value to your life.
Kristen Wambach (01:38):
As I say, this is off the cuff. I’m holding a hardback. It’s my favorite. I lead with the fact that it’s my favorite because I like to write in my books. I like to scribble in them. I prefer to write what I hear the Lord saying to me in the midst of reading. Now, for those who are a little more skeptical because the hardback is the most expensive—it’s $42.99—it is actually the book I make the least amount of royalties on. Go figure, huh? It costs me an arm and a leg just for the book to be made. If you’ve never published a book, you’re just going to have to take my word for it.
Kristen Wambach (02:33):
Where do we begin? Maybe I should have you pray for me. It is such a large project—440 pages. Oh my goodness. I wrestled with thoughts to trim it down to make it more bite-size, but it never felt like what the Lord wanted. He wanted a playbook. He wanted the meat and potatoes of a book to share with you.
Kristen Wambach (04:14):
For those of you who have ever dreamed about writing a book: 20% is the manuscript; 80% is the sweat and work to get it to the publishing point. Don’t let that frighten you away. It is a labor of love and consistency. Talk to the Lord about your project. Remember that your words and where you have traveled bring value to somebody who needs to hear the hope that you are and how God answered for you.
How good is God? Can we really answer that today? I guarantee that He is "gooder" than our current bandwidth. He is gooder than this book sitting here on my desk. This book is a documentation of the heart to expand our current bandwidth on His goodness.
Kristen Wambach (05:43):
I’m reading from the "Coached Player" section. I used the metaphor of American football to put in a structure where we could consume spiritual ideas and text. For me, winning isn't something that happens suddenly on the field when the whistle blows and the crowd roars. Winning is something that builds physically and mentally every day that you train and every night that you dream. That is from Emmitt Smith, Football Hall of Fame running back.
A winner is someone who recognizes his God-given talents, works his tail off to develop them into skills, and uses these skills to accomplish his goals. Joe Torre, the legendary baseball manager, said: "Competing at the highest level is not about winning. It's about preparation, courage, understanding, and nurturing your people and heart."
Kristen Wambach (07:38):
But what if we handed the microphone to the Head Coach? What if we handed it to Jesus and asked Him: "What does it mean to win? What does it mean to succeed in God?" We want our dreams and our prophetic words to come to pass.
What would Jesus say? As for me, winning is found not in the fleeting accolades of this world, but in the faithful stewardship of the gifts entrusted to you, in the loving service rendered to your neighbor, and in the enduring pursuit of the kingdom that is within you. True victory belongs to the heart made pure, the spirit made humble, and the life poured out for a purpose beyond its own. Run the race with perseverance, fixing your eyes not on earthly crowns, but on the eternal joy set before you.
Kristen Wambach (10:05):
How good is God? He designed the race so that the victory is secure—not by your striving, but by your faithful stewardship of what He has already deposited in your heavenly origin. In every act of love, every moment of sacrifice, and every heartbeat devoted to the will of God, you will find the true victory that never fades.
I am inspired because Jesus was just as human as you and I are. Father God coached Him. He showed Him how things worked and how His love was a conduit for others. God’s goodness is bigger than your current bandwidth.
Kristen Wambach (12:34):
With the spirit of a coach and the wisdom of a pastor, I’ve accomplished something wonderful. This book is a high-velocity offensive play against the religious static that has kept you sidelined. It is time to stop playing defense with your faith and start running from a position of absolute finished-work victory. This is your ultimate field guide for reclaiming a life that has been capped by the heavy seasons of survival.
What’s in it? 30 years of spiritual investigation. Documented encounters with the Father’s heart. A CEO’s perspective on Heaven’s blueprint. Practical keys to interviewing Jesus—how to talk to God, hear God, and listen to His heart. You will navigate life’s hits with heavenly clarity and activate the redemptive design wired into your DNA.
Kristen Wambach (14:33):
A few years back, a podcaster asked every guest this question: "If you only had one sentence that could culminate your relationship, goals, and dreams—what gets you to show up at the table every morning—what would you say?"
This was my response from Luke 14:23: "Compel them to come." For in the invitation lies the transformative power of love that draws us closer to the heart of God. Compel them to come, to hear, to read, to listen, and to witness the heart of God.
Kristen Wambach (17:21):
I’d like to share two stories. In the book, I share my experiences in the lower realms of the earth. We talk about spiritual things on this podcast all the time, so it won’t surprise you that God has more for us in different realms. In John 6:35-36 from the Mirror Bible, Jesus said, "I am the bread of life. He that comes face to face with me shall never hunger."
The commentary says: "You might be happy with healings and signs, but you still fail to understand who I am. I’m not here to impress you with me. I’m here to persuade you about you. Your sonship is what I am all about." I told God I needed persuading. So He led me on this journey to persuade you about who you are in Him and how much He loves you.
Kristen Wambach (20:53):
Have you asked God lately, "How good are You in this circumstance?" My husband Don is a true foodie. When the pennies add up, our favorite spot is Luca Tavern here in Corvallis. Lately, life has been all about the book—440 pages, cover specs, technical marathons on Amazon and IngramSpark. One morning I woke up at 2:00 AM because Holy Spirit pushed me. It took me 12 hours to solve a minute formatting problem regarding chapter titles on e-readers. 12 hours!
I knew Don needed a foodie "appreciation shot in the arm." He’s famous for his Sunday lamb tacos, so we brought some to the restaurant crew. Seeing the head chef give a thumbs up made Don’s day. As we backed out of our parking spot afterward, Don pointed: "Kristen, look!"
On a vintage marquee right in front of us, the sign proclaimed a poem titled Flight by Anne Farley: "Don’t you wish you could open a book? Spine splayed, pages fluttering... let it lift you up, up, up." After weeks of technical hurdles, I felt like the victorious final whistle had blown. That is how God talks to us. That is how He encourages us.
Kristen Wambach (28:51):
My last little story: Remember when Jesus asked Peter, "Who do you say that I am?" Peter said, "You are the Christ." Jesus responded that the gates of hell shall not prevail against the church. This is my final declaration to you: It is time for us to prevail against the gates of hell.
About a third of my book is about this. You will know that you know how good God is, and that what we’ve been taught or told was not exactly the truth. Thank you for letting me share. I trust the Holy Spirit that you can feel my delight. I invite you to pick up the book, read it, and come back to comment. We’re in a relationship. Hoot hoot! I am so honored to have your ear. Go get the book. I guarantee your bandwidth about God’s goodness will expand. I bless you. Bye now!
Beyond the Manuscript: The 80/20 Reality
Why 440 pages? Why not something "bite-sized"? Because the Lord didn’t want a pamphlet, He wanted a playbook. He wanted the meat and potatoes of spiritual text to share with a world that is starving for substance. This book is a practical path, filled with raw stories and simple activations, designed to ensure that your words—where you have traveled and where you have walked—bring value to someone who needs to hear the hope you carry.
Expansion of Bandwidth: Moving from religious exhaustion to navigating life’s hits with heavenly clarity.
The Head Coach’s Definition of Winning
What does Jesus say about winning?
If we infer from His teachings, winning isn't found in fleeting accolades. True victory belongs to the heart made humble, and the life poured out for a purpose beyond its own. Jesus, being just as human as you and I, was coached by the Father. He was shown how love works as a conduit. Winning, in the kingdom, is the faithful stewardship of the "heavenly origin" already deposited within your DNA. It is time to stop playing defense with your faith and start running from a position of absolute, finished-work victory.
Persuaded by Love: Why Jesus isn't just here to impress us with His power, but to persuade us about our own sonship.
The "Gooder" Standard
God is gooder than our current bandwidth. He is gooder than the religious static that has kept so many of us sidelined in seasons of survival. My investigative journey took me into deep places—realms of death and darkness—not to frighten me, but because I needed to be "persuaded."
In the Mirror Bible commentary on John 6, there is a profound insight: Jesus isn't just here to impress us; He is here to persuade us about us. He wants to persuade you of your sonship. He wants to overcome your fear of "hell" and birth you into the newness of resurrection life. This book is the documentation of that persuasion.
The Flight of a Book: A miraculous "sign on a marquee" in Corvallis that confirmed the spiritual weight of this release.
A Sign of Flight
It displayed a poem titled Flight by Anne Farley. It spoke of opening a book until the pages turn into wings that lift you "up, up, up."
That is my prayer for you as you engage with this field guide. I want the "static" of religious exhaustion to be erased. I want you to clutch these covers and let the truth of God’s goodness lift you above the heavy seasons of the past.
Compel Them to Come
In that invitation lies the transformative power of love. I am compelling you today—not just to buy a book, but to enter into a deeper relationship with the Father's heart. We are in this together. This is a high-velocity offensive play against everything that has capped your potential.
The gates of hell shall not prevail. It is time for us to prevail instead. Your bandwidth is about to expand.
How Good is God? Coaching Church Beyond the Gates of Hell to Truly Experience Heaven is now available. Let’s experience the "Gooder" God together.
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A Divine Playbook for the Spiritual Brave
"I spent 30 years investigating the heart of God. Here is what I found: He is better than you’ve been told." Most spiritual books stay in the clouds—this one lands on the field. Whether you are navigating the "Red Zone" of a crisis or seeking the "End Zone" of your calling, How Good is God? provides a practical path to inhabit the person Jesus already made you to be.
Through raw stories, prayer, and simple activations, Spiritual Investigative Journalist Kristen Wambach takes you beyond religious doctrine and into a direct encounter with the finished work of Christ.
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Stop playing defense with your faith. It’s time to suit up for the life you were meant for. This book moves the supernatural out of the ethereal and onto the grass of your daily life.
- FROM NDE TO PDE: Move beyond "Near Death Experiences" and into PDE—Past Death Experiences.
- ERADICATE DEATH DOCTRINES: Break free from the religious belief systems that have held your heart captive.
- REWRITE YOUR HISTORY: Encounter the humanity of Jesus in the lower realms and the courts of heaven to restore your past.
- INSIDE THE "GATES" STRUCTURE The Hell Gate: Testimonies of healing and encounters in the lower realms that prove no one is out of reach.
- The Pew Gate: Deconstructing the religious "victim mentality" to find your true identity.
- The Pulpit Gate: Moving from passive hearing to "Spiritual Bravery."
- The Heaven Gate: Accessing supernatural wisdom for your daily, practical life.
A 440-PAGE IMMERSIVE EXPERIENCE. This isn't a quick-read devotional. It is a 440-page "Sure House" of spiritual investigation.
- 18 Deep-Dive Chapters: Braiding high-level mysticism with grounded data.
- Massive Activations: Every chapter concludes with a "Game Plan" and "Play Sheet" to ensure the transformation is practical and permanent.
- The "Heavy Workbook" Standard: Designed as a textbook for your spiritual identity, this volume is built for the student, the seeker, and the "Spiritual Brave."
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"A masterfully synthesized system of living. This book braids high-level mysticism with grounded practicality, proving God’s goodness through both data and scars." — Editorial Review, The Scribe’s Desk
"Kristen Wambach understands the unseen realm and how to live successfully in Christ. This book is a divine playbook that empowers you to cross the personal goal line God has placed within you." — Dr. George Watkins, Prophet & Pastor
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Kristen Wambach is a spiritual investigative journalist and transformation coach with over 30 years of ministry experience. As the host of the Interviewing Jesus Podcast, she bridges the gap between heaven and earth, providing a "safe path" for readers to explore the mystical with humility and proof.
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Coaching Church Activations
The Concept: Every believer has a "one-sentence" mission that gets them to the table every morning.
- The Tape: Kristen’s sentence is "Compel them to come." What is yours?
- The Anchor: "In the invitation lies the transformative power of love."
- The Activation: If you had to sum up your relationship with Jesus and your purpose on earth in exactly one sentence, what would it be? Write it down, refine it, and post it where you can see it every Monday morning.
MEET THE AUTHOR & PODCASTERI am Kristen Wambach, an ordained pastor, experienced spiritual coach, and the host of the Interviewing Jesus Podcast. As a spiritual investigative journalist, I have dedicated over 30 years to documenting the profound goodness of God and bridging the gap between heaven and earth. |
The concept of surrender is a bigger concept that not only includes trust but includes acceptance of God’s will, whatever that may be." —Sylvia Worsham
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THE ANATOMY OF A SACRED JUNCTURE. FROM CORPORATE GIANT TO WARRIOR OF LIGHT. HOW TO HEAR GOD IN A CRISIS.
If you are a high-achiever who feels like a "ticking time bomb" of stress or perfectionism, this episode is your roadmap. Host Kristen Wambach sits down with 3x bestselling author Sylvia Worsham to explore her raw journey from being Pfizer’s #1 saleswoman to a "warrior of light" after a miraculous Good Friday encounter. This conversation moves beyond the typical success narrative to provide a safe path for professional women navigating deep spiritual change. |
- Surrender is an Action: It is the radical acceptance of God’s will, regardless of the outcome.
- Ego vs. Soul: Doubt lives in the ego and the past; God lives in love and the present.
- The "Small Things" Matter: Relinquishing control in small daily tasks builds the muscle for trusting God’s sovereignty in big transitions.
- Vertical Conversations: Make Jesus your "first appointment" of the day to anchor your peace.
- Live Activations: His presence moved into the episode with a beautiful, tangible touch!
SUMMARY
From Success to Surrender
Sylvia walked into St. Luke’s Episcopal Hospital with what she thought was a minor ailment, only to find herself a "ticking time bomb" with pulmonary embolisms and acute liver failure. It was here, at the edge of life and death, that the "sales executive" died and the "warrior of light" was born.
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Kristen Wambach (00:03.448)
Hello and welcome to Interviewing Jesus podcast. Sylvia Horsham. I'm going to, cause I didn't ask your name, so I can cancel that. How do I say your name?
Sylvia Worsham, Author (00:15.103)
Worship no worship worship
Kristen Wambach (00:16.856)
Horsham Worship I'm glad I did that so okay, we can start this again For or like two warships I'm putting it phonically here. Yeah, that's it. Okay. Here we go
Sylvia Worsham, Author (00:26.337)
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Kristen Wambach (00:38.498)
Hello and welcome to Interviewing Jesus podcast. I'm Kristen Wambach, your host and I have a special treat for you today. Our guest Sylvia Worsham is a three times bestselling authoress, a spiritual transformation coach who transitioned from a high stakes corporate sales career into her divine calling as a warrior of light.
After surviving a life altering medical complication, she retired from the corporate world to help professional women navigate deep spiritual change. She's based in Austin, Texas. Sylvia is the host of Released Out, Reveal Purpose podcast and the author of In Faith, I Thrive and Journey to Me. We're going to have some great questions today.
She specializes in turning personal junctures into roadmaps of growth, helping others align their identity with their soul's purpose. Welcome Sylvia.
Sylvia Worsham, Author (01:46.982)
Thank you, Kristen. Such a pleasure to be here with you.
Kristen Wambach (01:51.346)
I am so excited to listen here and have some really great questions for you. Can we just jump right in about those transitions and change that you are an expert and you've mastered this because Holy Spirit has just led the way in your heart. Many people see crisis as a breaking, but you see it as an opening. When you were at your lowest, what was the specific aha moment or Rhema word, the insight that Jesus gave you that rewrote your total identity from a sales executive to a warrior of light.
Sylvia Worsham, Author (02:36.321)
It's a very good question. The situation was six doctors in a hospital room. I had walked in unassisted to St. Luke's Episcopal Hospital. I was in my late 30s. I was starting to date who would become my second husband. And I was on a trip with my little boy. He was about seven years old at the time. And we had been headed to spend it in Louisiana. I'm from South Texas originally and I had taken a flight the night before. Unbeknownst to me, I already had pulmonary embolisms, which in itself was miraculous. I did not die in the middle of the flight. I landed, but I could not breathe. I was very pale. I had a lot of pain in my chest. Before I even boarded the flight, my mother, whose intuition had kicked in, had begged me to call one of my siblings who are both physicians to get it checked out. And so I called my brother and he had told me that based on my age and my physical activity, which was very high in those years, was exercising seven days a week. I was in top shape of my life. He based all of that and said, it sounds like pleurisy is plaguing you. Pleurisy is the inflammation of the lining of the lung. The problem with that diagnosis is that it mimics to a T pulmonary embolisms. And so if you don't know that you have it and you take a flight, you likely will die in the middle of the flight. I did not. So it was miraculous. I landed the next morning in the middle of the night. We spent the night in Houston. The original plan was to go from Houston to Louisiana overnight, but my boyfriend probably felt a prompting from the Holy Spirit that said, let's stay here in Houston. And so we spent the night. I was alone in my room with my boy and he was in a separate room. And at three in the morning, I got jolted out of bed. And the very first prompting that came very quickly was lean forward and you'll be able to breathe. And so I leaned forward. I'm very obedient to Christ and my relationship with him at that point, I'd been through several major setbacks. One of them had been divorce. And it was when I had started to turn inward and really started a real relationship with Christ himself after having had turned away from him for about 10 years during my first marriage. So he had already started to reach out to me and I felt a soul, like a pull for my soul to just get to know him again. And luckily for me, I was very obedient that night because...
Kristen Wambach (04:47.95)
Mm-hmm.
Sylvia Worsham, Author (04:57.097)
The doctors later explained to me that in that moment I was jolted awake. The fact that I leaned forward saved my life because two blood clots were passing through my heart to get to my left lung. And they did not stop my heart and they were rather large. So it was baffling to doctors when they saw me in the hospital and they obviously admitted me and they told me this is Good Friday now. They said the likelihood is you'll stay here till Tuesday. Now realize I'm in a different city. Have a little boy. My boyfriend had only met him once before and my boy was out there. So quick arrangements. My mother flew up. My sister-in-law flew up, picked up my son, turned around and went back to South Texas. And my mom stayed with me. And when they originally took a scan of my lungs, aside from having the two large ones in my left lung, it was... I had them everywhere. So I was like a ticking time bomb. But the problem was they also noticed that my liver was inflamed and they couldn't inject the dye again. They had to wait till the next day to inject it, or I would have gone into like kidney failure as well. And so the next day when they took a scan of the abdomen, that's when I received six doctors in my hospital. And they began by explaining to me that there was a real problem, that they were facing a time issue with me. And initially I was like, well, I'm already like in serious condition with these pulmonary embolisms, what else could be wrong? And they said, well, you have what's known as Budd-Chiari syndrome. And this is common with birth control pills. You've been taking them and it's a clot that starts clotting up your vena cava. The vena cava for those listening is the main vein that takes blood out of your main organs. And it's basically all the way clotted, except for like a little sliver of blood is able to get out of your liver, but it's putting a lot of pressure on it. And do you see the three dots on your right? And I said, yes. And well, they're the transplant team and they're now on your case, because you're about to go into acute liver failure and require a transplant if we don't get to this thing in time. So this is what we're going to do. We're going to give you this TPA tissue plasminogen activator. And it's this big drug that they pass it through your IV and it's like a clot buster. Like it just destroys it. The problem with that medicine is that it can also cause internal bleeding and cause death. And so they start going through the side effects. And when they get to death and hemorrhagic stroke, my mind goes blank. In retrospect now, after many years of this incident, I know that was God's providence because in describing this situation to me, the doctors were baffled that I had even walked into the hospital unassisted because I should have been doubled over in pain and not able to walk, let alone unassisted. So it was really interesting to them how all this was transpiring. I should have been in major pain and I didn't feel any pain. So I now know that was God's providence.
Kristen Wambach (08:52.354)
Mm-hmm.
Sylvia Worsham, Author (08:54.055)
What really taught me, what that incident taught me was to fully surrender to Christ. Before this, in my journey with Him, I hadn't understood the concept of surrender. I had understood believing but not believing and trusting Him with my life. And the concept of surrender is a bigger concept that not only includes trust but includes acceptance of God's will, whatever that may be. And in the moment that they're telling me of everything they're going to be doing to me, I close my eyes and I visualize falling into God's arms in total surrender. And what that—the value of surrender to me was what it later taught me—was you now know how to do this in big situations. Now I need you to learn to do it in smaller situations, which is the chapter I'm in right now, which is a hard thing for someone like me because I was raised by a high achiever perfectionist and I was once that person. I was a high achiever perfectionist.
Kristen Wambach (10:00.654)
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Sylvia Worsham, Author (10:11.529)
I'd landed in Pfizer. In the time that all this is occurring, I'm the number one saleswoman for Pfizer pharmaceuticals in the country. And so I'm used to having control over my circumstances. And now I'm facing a situation where not even the experts in the field, in the top medical center in Texas and around the world are not confident I'm going to survive the night. So it was a profound turning point, a pivotal moment that just totally shifted that perfectionist high achiever in me and started that path of learning to trust and obey Him and accept His will completely. So I hope that that answered your question.
Kristen Wambach (11:02.55)
It was wonderful. Wonderful. My goodness. I always love the intuitive questions because it helps each one of us learn how He's speaking and how He's moving in our life in that moment where it seemed like peace just overflowed, was walking with you. Peace and mercy were literally walking with you. And you said you saw yourself fall into God's arms. What else did you feel and notice in His presence that you're familiar with today?
Sylvia Worsham, Author (11:45.557)
Well, what happened the next day was even more profound because I was in His presence. So the day of Easter Sunday morning came and went. I was really scared to go to sleep the night before because I didn't know what this thing was going to do to my body. When I woke up, the very first thing I started to do was move my arms and legs because stroke had been one of the main side effects that this thing had, it had neurological side effects. And so I was really scared. The interesting thing was it was resurrection day for the Christians listening and for the Catholics it was Easter Sunday morning. And I, when I walked into the hospital, you know how it is, they ask you what religion you are. And I was in between religions because I had been raised Catholic, but I had kind of was transitioning out of it. But in that moment you just answer what comes naturally to you. I said Catholic and a woman with the Catholic diocese ended up coming to my room that morning and said, do you want to pray with me? And I said, you know what, I need a miracle. I want my second chance at life because I had begged God the night before to give me a second chance. And I told Him, I made a deal with Him. If you give me a second chance, I will devote my life to You. I will do as You asked me to do. I won't question You anymore. And I'll be Your obedient child. And so I didn't know what He had done. My boyfriend was in the room. We formed a circle and we started saying the Lord's Prayer. And halfway through the prayer, a love so immense enveloped the entire room. It was undeniable. There was no question in my heart that I was in God's presence. And what I felt was that Christ Himself was cradling me like a child. He was carrying me because I was so weak and I was so scared.
Kristen Wambach (13:40.259)
Mm-hmm.
Sylvia Worsham, Author (13:51.209)
And it was in that moment that I felt carried by Him. I felt a peace wash over me and knowing that I was okay, that He had given me the second chance. I didn't need confirmation. The doctors however need confirmation because they're men of science and they need that backing and that proof. So as soon as she left the room, my boyfriend turned to me, who is now my husband by the way, and said, you felt them too, didn't you? He had appeared to him. He too had been told immediately that I had been saved, that his prayer had been answered because he had been praying and begging God to not let me die. Because the risk of my death was 80% with what I had, the condition I had. I was really, I was a miracle, a walking miracle. And so they wheel me in and the nurse said, "I had never seen your face be so radiant." My face was full of lights. There was like no question I had been in the presence of the Lord. And I was so terrified of needles, Kristen, that she begged the radiology department to let her from ICU enter radiology with me to keep me calm because the needle they were going to insert in me was rather large to get a camera in to see if this thing had done its job. She said, "You didn't even flinch, Sylvia. You didn't even flinch when they injected you. You were so peaceful." And the vision that God had in my mind was of me being in the water with Him, my boyfriend and my mom. And it just kind of kept me very calm. It was this beautiful sunset and mountain and I was in the ocean with them. It was so, so peaceful.
Kristen Wambach (15:18.126)
Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (15:37.166)
Mm-hmm.
Sylvia Worsham, Author (15:44.477)
And within 10 minutes, the radiologist comes out and his face is illuminated, like totally radiant. And he goes, "I just can't believe it. There is no evidence of illness anywhere in your body. And there should be. There should be holes in your lungs where those pulmonary emboli were because they were very large and you should have long-term complications and you have nothing." When you go through things like that and I'm getting emotional.
Kristen Wambach (16:22.456)
Good.
Sylvia Worsham, Author (16:28.435)
It's going to shift you. When He gives you what you desired, what you wanted, and it's in alignment to His will, it changes you forever. It's a moment that I try to adequately put into words in In Faith I Thrive, in the second edition of Journey. I don't think I did it justice. To be in His presence is, it's a gift that I will forever cherish. That knowing it was like a little glimpse into what it was like to be in His presence in Heaven is what it felt like.
Kristen Wambach (17:17.986)
I love it. Sylvia, would you do us a kindness and in this what I call pregnant moment, because we all feel the presence of the Lord in and through your story and your testimony. Would you pray for our listeners, those that right now are right in that movement of the juncture, right? It might not be a diagnosis, or you might not be in a medical situation, but they may be at that juncture right when they're in the pivot. Would you pray for them and lay hands on us in the spirit, please?
Sylvia Worsham, Author (18:09.065)
Lord Jesus, I ask You to please guide anyone listening into Your light, into Your presence, Lord. Let them feel Your protection, Your love. Let them feel safe in You, Lord. Let them rely on You completely. Let them trust You with Your will. Let them even rejoice in the moment of their suffering because all this Lord is is to glorify You. It's to be more like You. We ask this powerfully in Your name. Amen.
Kristen Wambach (19:00.038)
Amen. Amen. Thank you. Listeners, if you're just feeling the presence of that, just touching you, just put your hands on your heart and just stay in that place. Just stay in that place and receive and drink it in, taking in a communion of the testimony because we overcome in the testimony of Jesus Christ. And Holy Spirit has offered us a testimony today. And we just agree and say, do it again, Jesus. Yay. Thank you so much, Sylvia. You help women, us determined and in your face women. I'm laughing at myself. You help women align their soul's identity in the quiet moments of your own coaching practice and the wisdom through the fire, so to speak. How do you discern the difference between a person's good idea for their life versus that God-breathed DNA that you take with you because you have moved through that transition and juncture.
Sylvia Worsham, Author (20:33.057)
Well, as I'm coaching women, first of all, I invite the Holy Spirit in the meeting. Because when you invite Him, His presence, He makes His presence known through either myself or even through the one receiving the coaching. As they ask the questions, as they reflect, and then the Holy Spirit allows them to see and hear what they need to hear. So how I discern what I think is their good versus their godly identity or whether it's an ego identity showing up or a soul identity showing up is first off I asked them, "Is this a persistent thing that has come out of nowhere?" Like this thought that you're getting is—I ask a question. It's like, "Is this something that has been gnawing at you for a while?" Is this like an, what we, we always used to say, God lives in the gut, like that gut instinct that we have. When we tune into that, that's likely the Holy Spirit guiding us. When it's ego, it's full of doubt.
Kristen Wambach (21:39.468)
Mm-hmm.
Sylvia Worsham, Author (21:50.879)
Doubt, God does not live in doubt. God lives in love, in presence. Doubt usually is in the past with regret and guilt mixed in with it. And that's the enemy wanting to keep you stuck in the circumstance. So in order to move from that doubt, there's got to be some reflection, some discernment and sometimes in the coaching process, if they can't come up with—like if the answer doesn't come to them—I don't rush it. There's a reason for the not rushing piece. First of all, it's not on my timing, it's on God's timing. And sometimes He's allowing certain things to occur because He knows the recipient's heart very well, my coaching client's heart. And sometimes He has been guiding them, but their own mind has been blocking them. And so the first thing we start doing is we start identifying what belief, working backwards basically. If—like, share with me what thoughts are going through your mind.
Kristen Wambach (23:10.552)
Mm-hmm.
Sylvia Worsham, Author (23:11.743)
Let's reframe that thought and then let's use scripture that backs up that reframe. Right. So for example, I'll give an example. A couple of weeks back. My client was going through a really hard time. She was thinking back to times with her mother, her father, that were not very joyful. And then immediately the reframe was Philippians 4:8 came into mind of brothers and sisters think of things that are good and noble. And then immediately, you know, the vision started that God was giving my client visions of all the good things that the parents did instead of all the negative things. The negative things are usually from the enemy trying to keep them stuck in this cycle of overwhelm, which is very consistent for females in particular. We tend to ruminate more than the men. The men are very...
Kristen Wambach (24:23.15)
Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (24:29.902)
No, we don't do that. [Laughs]
Sylvia Worsham, Author (24:36.319)
We love doing that. We love—I mean, even in my Bible study the other day, we're studying the book of Esther. And we were coming up with all sorts of reasons why Queen Vashti was not like in the presence of the king. It's like the men would have looked at it and said, "It's clearly stated in scripture. Let's just keep moving on." The women tend to ruminate a lot. So I'm one of those women. I ruminate, I was ruminating, my father passed away almost two years ago, Father's Day, and the same thing was happening to me. And Philippians 4:8 kicked in. And then God gave me visions of all the times my father did show up for me.
Kristen Wambach (25:19.374)
Mm-hmm.
Sylvia Worsham, Author (25:21.089)
And that's when you know it's of God and when you know it's Satan that is plaguing you more so, keeping you in the darkness. So I hope I answered your question. I kind of went around about way.
Kristen Wambach (25:35.467)
I love roundabout ways. I absolutely love them. So one of your superpowers, Sylvia, is seeing the silver lining. On Interviewing Jesus podcast, we talk about bridging the gap between Heaven and earth, literally experiencing Heaven now, which your testimony, it said, that you shared with us is right on the mark with experiencing the fullness and the goodness of God from Heaven. How do you practically pull down heavenly perspectives when a challenge feels like it has no silver lining?
Sylvia Worsham, Author (26:22.291)
I invite Him in. I know the tendency is when you're in the darkness, Satan will start coming in to tell you to be mad at Him, to blame Him. I know I've fallen into that trap. And so I'm being very vulnerable here. I will force myself to open up scripture, even when I don't feel like it. A couple of days will go by and then the consistency of that practice brings me out of that darkness and into His light again. The other thing I've done is also go outside and marvel at the beauty of His creation. And recently I've been going outside with my dog in the mornings and I was doing a lot of to do things. Like I'm such a high achiever that God in November of this past year had to sit me down and say—I was going through a really dark period. And He said, "Baby girl, why are you achieving for My love? You already have My love. You don't need to achieve. Your dad has been gone almost two years and you're still doing the same pattern with all the men in your life, including Me. You're doing it with your husband and you have his love. And let Me show you the vision of here's his love, here's My love. So right now I need you to focus on pausing for presence." Pause for presence. That's my tagline for 2026. And in that pause for presence, while going outside, it's hard to escape His creation when birds are everywhere and the sky is so brilliantly blue and the smells are magical. It's really hard to ignore Him. He's everywhere in all the beauty I see in the Word I'm reading because now, before I would read the Word, and it would just be like in passing until I had major conflict with my husband in November. And then there was a vertical conversation, a very heavy conversation I had with Christ then again, who redirected my path for 2026. And my new aim now is surrendering control in the small things, small things like this. So when I'm going through anything negative, as I read scripture now, because I'm pausing for presence, is I will use my superpowers of how God shows up for me, which He tends to highlight certain words as I read text. And so I'll highlight it, I'll circle it, and then I'll draw out this like arrow and I will say what that scripture means to me right now. What is He telling me through that scripture? The more I've practiced this the last couple of months, the more centered I have felt. The other thing I did was, I don't know if you guys have ever seen the movie, The War Room. It's an Alex Kendrick's film and it focuses on a marriage that's falling apart. And there's an older lady, Ms. Clara, that starts guiding the young wife through this. And she talks about creating a war room, a prayer room, a prayer closet, if you will. And I saw the movie again. And this time I caught different things about the movie. And one of the things that the Holy Spirit highlighted for me was a strategy she shares with the wife. Because she is in a really dark space and I was in a really, really dark space in November. He said, she said, "You have got to getting good with the Lord." And the way to combat Satan is to put up scripture all over your house. And so I started to research the scripture and there's scripture all over my home and He started to guide me on a new project that I'm working on for my next book. And in it is who I am, my identity in Christ. Right? And the more I read and the more I allow the Holy Spirit to allow me to see in my honest prayer every day, and gentlemen listening is: "Lord, give me eyes to see spiritually what You need me to see, ears to hear what You need me to understand, and a heart to believe who and what I am in You." Because the issue was, Kristen, I believed that Jesus was the Messiah and I trusted in Him. I just didn't believe who I was in Him. And for 2026, that's what He's working on with me. And I'm just—I wake up every morning at 4 a.m. and I pray from 4 to about 6 a.m. when I go upstairs and wake up my daughter for school. And it is coffee chats. I drink one cup of coffee and that's the only coffee I drink all day. And He's my first appointment of the day. And that's every day. There is like no day that I skip or anything. And that's what I've done to get out of that space.
Kristen Wambach (32:44.642)
That's beautiful. Thank you for sharing that. Thank you.
Sylvia Worsham, Author (32:44.757)
Thank you for sharing.
Kristen Wambach (32:52.352)
If you could sit across from Jesus today, I don't even like using the word if because I believe we are sitting across from Jesus today. And we could—you could ask Him one question regarding the professional women you serve. What would that question be?
Sylvia Worsham, Author (33:17.247)
That's a hard one. Am I serving them in the way You need me to serve them? rather, would the question be more like, am I on the path that You intended for me to serve the people that I'm serving? And see what He—it's a general question, but it's like to really understand are the books, the podcast, is that Your will or is that my desire that I just misinterpreted as Your will? That's what He says.
Kristen Wambach (34:06.296)
You know what I saw in the spirit when you were letting the question mull around in your head? I saw you get up from the teacher's position and go sit in the student chair.
Sylvia Worsham, Author (34:07.265)
Thank you.
Kristen Wambach (34:21.304)
That was a beautiful thing. That you walk and you literally stand in other people's footsteps so that you can serve and respond to them and support them.
Sylvia Worsham, Author (34:34.803)
And you know what? I'm feeling His presence in me. And what came to me was—have you, you are currently living the third level of my mastermind. So I have three levels masterminds. One is Freedom from Fear. Second one is Joy in the Journey and they all build through In Faith I Thrive. And we use the book because that—He's the author of that book. I'm just His vehicle. Third level is the toughest level to be in in His trust in God's sovereignty. Because He's asking me to relinquish control of the small things, which can be very difficult for women in particular, who are used to being in control of their homes, of their children's schedules, of everybody's schedules. I mean, it's what society kind of beats us with, you know? And so it's ingrained in our subconscious to be that way. And it's tough for us to relinquish that control to release it completely and surrender it to Him, even in the small things. So thank you for that visual because it just confirmed what He told me this morning.
Kristen Wambach (35:49.487)
You're very welcome. I'm going to ask you just one more perspective of what you were sharing with us there. How do you separate where you feel control, like I'm hanging on to it too tight versus you realizing your call that He called you to be a leader. So there's a fine line. There's a gray area that we need to develop and mature so that we can release what we need to release and lead and accept who we are as leaders on our path.
Sylvia Worsham, Author (36:33.491)
That was a hard one, Kristen. I tell you, I struggled with that one a lot recently because I'm wondering where He wants me. Does He want me getting my master's and PhD, for example, which has been some thought that has been in the back of my mind. So I'm trying to discern whether that's Him or that's me, which would put me in a leadership position because the master's is in theology, psychology, what I'm considering, which is the concept of the book and the podcast. And the PhD would follow that path. Or do I step fully into the masterminds because I had spent the last four years writing books and doing the podcast, which takes, as you and I both know, that takes a lot of time and a lot of energy to do that. I'm still advancing His kingdom. But is it in the manner that He needs me to lead His kingdom, like to move it even further than what I've already done? So that's something that I'm actively asking Him to show me. I don't want to make that decision. I'm thinking the control is coming into play because of my doubt. And like I described before, doubt is not of God. That is the ego, the mind playing tricks on you, right? Like that's your programming coming into play and to kind of like what I think of Galatians 5:17, the flesh and the spirit are always in conflict with each other and you're to be spirit-led and not driven by the flesh, by the desires of the flesh. So I'm wondering if which one it is for me so that I can then step into that leadership role, which right now I, to a degree I'm stepping into as a podcast host because I'm leading discussions that are difficult discussions because the people that are on my podcast are not all believers. There are people that are struggling with their belief. They're searching for Him, but they call Him something totally different. They call Him "universe" or they call Him "energy" or whatever it is that in their journey they need to call Him. I create a space that they feel comfortable enough to share this, but then I also share my perspective and I bring in His perspective. So to a degree I'm taking the leadership role, but I know if it's to the degree that He needs me to do right now. So that one's an iffy one. It's hard to relinquish that control because what I found was my biggest struggle is that at times I've fallen into the trap of following a certain path only to realize that Satan has been masquerading as an angel of light. And then God has shown me a vision of like—you don't need this person. Like to give you perspective, I had a gentleman that was referring a lot of people to my podcast. He came out of nowhere. I thought initially it was God sending me this individual. So I started interviewing the people that that he had brought me to the podcast. And this was like a couple of weeks back, my daughter was very ill with the flu and I—my husband was out of town. I was overwhelmed with a bunch of stuff happening as you know, we juggle so much in our home that I failed to read the biography of someone that I said I would interview. And when they got on the podcast, I didn't realize that they were going to be talking about a subject that went completely contradictory to my values as a Christian woman. She was going to be discussing polyamorous relationships and how she was pro that, and I'm very much against that. And so I felt a disalignment immediately in my soul, but I had already agreed to interview this individual. And I remember praying inside my mind as she's talking to God, like talking to Him, like, "What do I do in this situation?" And I felt the Lord say, "Share with her the story of Christ with the woman who had been caught in adultery that was about to be stoned to death." Interestingly enough, and that's what I had read that morning. And so I'm like describing this and saying how Christ wasn't judging her but He asked her to not continue in her sin, that He was a kind and gentle father, right, and brother, and that He was leaving the judgment up to God the Father. And then when I asked a personal question, I felt led to ask a personal question of her husband. Was her husband in agreement with these polyamorous relationship? And she stopped the interview right away. Well, the whole gist of why I'm saying all this is that initially this gentleman was sending me people that were big time influencers on Instagram. These were people with over like 31.2 K, you know, people in there, you know, this big significance, right? And initially I was someone that is a smaller podcast and you kind of want that exposure so that your message gets out. But then I thought to myself, at what cost am I doing that? And this is going in complete contradiction to who I'm becoming in Him. And the disalignment was there. So the release of control was letting that go because when that interview happened, I reached out to the gentleman that was sending and I said, "Hey, this happened just FYI," didn't hear back from him. I reached out one second time and that's when God came in and said, "You and I need to talk. You need to let this one go. This is not an alignment. This was Satan masquerading as angel of light. You need to be careful with who you associate yourself with because you're not really advancing My kingdom now. Now there's more noise. So be very careful with this message moving forward." And so now I'm like re-examining things in my life and asking the Lord to reveal, to help me see what He needs me to see so that my path then can lead to His light and to His glory.
Kristen Wambach (43:39.267)
Thank you very much for sharing that and how you processed the question, how you processed questioning the path that you were on. That was excellent. Thank you so much for sharing that with us. Sylvia, how can our listeners connect with you?
Sylvia Worsham, Author (43:54.067)
You're welcome. It's really easy. I've made it very easy for people. On my website. Everything's on there. My books, way to contact me, my podcast, everything's linked. So it's www.sylviaworsham.com. That's how you reach me.
Kristen Wambach (44:28.908)
Wonderful, wonderful. And your coaching. You have a coaching tab there as well. Yes.
Sylvia Worsham, Author (44:34.623)
Yes, yes. My Calendly is on there so you can book a call, and greet. You can get on my podcast if you'd like to be on Release Doubt, Reveal Purpose. And the meet and greet is for us to understand what your needs are and if we're a good fit, we're a good fit. And if not, I actually have coaches that I refer to based on the needs of the clients.
Kristen Wambach (44:55.886)
And the masterminds that you were sharing with us, are those there as well?
Sylvia Worsham, Author (45:02.677)
Yes, a description of them are there. And then when you reach out to me via like a phone call to discuss, then I would send the form of payment, which is not available on my website. That would be like discussing with me first, because we first have to identify what level you're in. Not everybody's in Freedom from Fear, for example, some people have already journeyed through fear are now in the space of joy, and they don't know how to be in joy. And so that's why Joy in the Journey is there to kind of guide women to their authentic selves, to guide themselves, like to learn how to get to know themselves again. Because when they go through major change, women tend to lose themselves in their identity quite a bit because they're nurturing others and they're taking care of others and they often forget to take care of themselves. So it's about reconnecting with self. And then from that space, it's reconnecting with Christ Himself. And then the third and final level is trust and in God's sovereignty. And those are higher level concepts of like full surrender, surrender in the small things in life. Because now He's put me through the ringer first. So now I understand what you're going through so I can guide you best. And we have a book that He authored that is guiding us through those journeys. And so it's level one, two or three, and it just depends on where you're [at].
Kristen Wambach (46:29.87)
And I am very impressed by how gifted you are in framing all that up. I see that. I see that. That's wonderful. Would you share us one little goodie, one more little goodie, because you've already, you've prayed for us, you've shared with us some wonderful frameworks, but one little goodie from that place that you were sitting in, what we would say the student's chair that I talked about earlier, that place where you're asking God His perspectives. So you got up, you sat in a different chair, a chair of a learner, of a student so that you would hear that perspective. Would you either pray or declare or give us a little how-to?
Sylvia Worsham, Author (47:25.154)
Well, let's pray about it because I think prayer is very powerful. Lord, we ask You so humbly to come and search our hearts, search our minds and reveal to us what we need to see, what we need to let go of to move from this place of darkness we find ourselves in, this place of change. Because Lord, we know that change is an opportunity for us to seek Your light in the dark space. Seek Your guidance, Your voice. Please help us tap into that whisper. Guide us into what we need to do, what we need to continue doing, start doing, and what we need to stop doing altogether so that we can tap into You, tap into Your genius, Your capacity, Your knowledge of the circumstances we find ourselves in. And we ask this so humbly in Your name, amen.
Kristen Wambach (48:47.618)
Thank you much. Thank you, Sylvia. What a treat and a pleasure to hang out with you today. Thank you very much. Listeners, I want to remind you that all of Sylvia's connections, the transcript will all be in the show notes. Thank you again, Sylvia. We've been greatly rewarded today. Thank you.
Sylvia Worsham, Author (49:12.15)
Thank you, Kristen.
The Anatomy of a Turning Point
Surrender, as Sylvia defines it, isn't just believing that God exists; it is the radical acceptance of His will, regardless of the outcome. It is moving from the "ego identity"—which is rooted in doubt, past regrets, and the need for control—into the "soul identity," which is anchored in the finished work of Christ.
I invite the Holy Spirit into the meeting... He makes His presence known through either myself or even through the one receiving the coaching." —Sylvia Worsham
Connect with Sylvia Worsham
The Golden Shackles: Growing up in a hardworking Mexican household in South Texas, I adopted a silent mantra: "To be worthy, I must achieve perfectly." This programming led me straight into the "golden shackles" of corporate pharmaceutical sales. From the outside, my life looked picture-perfect—a top-tier career at Pfizer, a prominent neighborhood, and a family. But inside, I was disconnected from my own soul and a God I only knew through religion, not relationship.
The Breaking Point. In 2007, the veneer cracked. While standing as the #1 saleswoman in my region, my ten-year marriage ended in divorce. I felt the first pull of the Holy Spirit using change as a catalyst for a deeper faith. I began to realize that the guilt I felt for my success was rooted in an old belief: that a woman couldn't have it all without a painful sacrifice.
The Three Miracles. The true "turning point" arrived in April 2009. Within 72 hours, I received three distinct miracles while facing a life-threatening medical crisis. Facing death became my greatest blessing; it was the "opening" that revealed why God had granted me a second chance.
A Roadmap for Growth. Six months after nearly dying, I took a leap of faith, moved to Austin, and began the journey of radical surrender. What started as a prompting to join the John Maxwell team evolved into becoming a 3x bestselling author and spiritual transformation coach.
Today, I help professional women navigate their own "sacred junctures." I’ve moved from a perfectionist who felt insignificant without an achievement to a warrior of light who knows her value. My mission is to lead you out of fear and ego and toward the joy and fulfillment that wait on the other side of surrender.
Bridging the Gap: Heaven on Good Friday
This isn't just a mystical story; it’s a roadmap for every professional woman who feels trapped by the "perfectionist" label. Sylvia’s journey proves that we don't have to achieve for God’s love—we already have it. When we stop performing, we start positioned for the miraculous.
A love so immense enveloped the entire room. There was no question in my heart that I was in God’s presence." —Sylvia Worsham
Monday-Morning Logic: Pausing for Presence
In 2026, this means more than just a morning devotion. it is a deliberate "vertical conversation" with Jesus before the noise of the world begins. It involves:
- Relinquishing Control: Identifying the "small things" we grip too tightly.
- Scriptural Saturation: Placing the Word of God physically throughout our homes to combat the "noise" of doubt.
- Spiritual Vision: Asking for eyes to see the "silver lining" not as a cliché, but as a heavenly perspective on earthly challenges.
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Beyond the Gates to Truly Experience Heaven
God's goodness is bigger than your current bandwidth about Him. Have you ever felt like God was a distant landlord-someone you studied from afar but rarely knew intimately? For years, Kristen Wambach stood on that same field, defending the character of a God she hoped was good, while silently carrying the heavy baggage of survival, religious exhaustion, and unanswered questions.
But what if His kindness isn't a reward for your effort? What if it's an ancient, relentless force that has been holding you since long before you knew you were looking for Him?
We overcome in the testimony of Jesus Christ. And Holy Spirit has offered us a testimony today." —Kristen Wambach
Chapter Activations: Coaching Church
In our interview, we envisioned moving from the "teacher’s chair" (control) to the "student chair" (learning).
- Identify the Noise: Where is "doubt" or "ruminating" taking up space in your mind today?
- The Reframe: Use Philippians 4:8. Instead of the crisis, list three things that are "good and noble" about your current situation.
- The Monday-Morning Step: Write one piece of scripture that speaks to your identity and tape it to your bathroom mirror. Read it aloud before you check your phone.
He who surrenders to God acknowledges him as the author of all that is good." — John Calvin
Final Summary
MEET THE AUTHOR & PODCASTERHEY THERE, I AM KRISTEN WAMBACH. If you are looking for an undeniable, week-one transformation, you are in the right place. My mission is to offer a safe path for your heart, giving you the practical tools and outcome-focused, Monday-morning logic to step into your daily life with absolute clarity, profound peace, and a direct connection to the heart of Jesus. |
and connection with God.
As a transformation coach, I specialize in simplifying the supernatural and bringing heaven to earth. My focus is always on reverence, hope, and testifying to redemption to advance the kingdom.
As the host of the globally reaching podcast, INTERVIEWING JESUS. , I facilitate soul-stirring conversations that provide exclusive access to divine wisdom meant to rewrite your life and awaken your God-inspired calling.
In my upcoming book, HOW GOOD IS GOD. , you will not find heavy theological arguments. Instead, you will find a practical path with raw stories, prayer, and simple activations designed to help you live spiritually brave.
God does not need our perfection; He simply wants our genuine invitation to step into the battlefield of our minds.' —Jai Roza
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Kristen Wambach (00:01.416)
Welcome, welcome to Interviewing Jesus podcast. I am your host, Kristin Wambach, with 30 years in ministry. My passion is to find the practical keys that bridge heaven and earth. And I have a treat for you today. I found another one. Simply the supernatural. That's just what we want to know about. Today we have a guest who does exactly that through an incredible creative lens. Jai Rosa, I think I got that—Jai Rosa. I have to get my rolled R in there. A creator of Eden's Conflict card game, music, and gaming. After a powerful encounter with God at his absolute lowest point, Jai turned his darkest moments into a mission to revolutionize...
Jai Roza (00:36.111)
Rossa!
Kristen Wambach (00:56.696)
...how we engage with scripture. We are diving into creativity, transforming the battlefield of the mind and resting in our oneness with Jesus. Welcome, Jai.
Jai Roza (01:10.094)
Kristo, thank you for having me on. I don't think I've had an introduction like that before.
Kristen Wambach (01:15.758)
It'll be good. It'll be good. We were talking, listeners, to this young man and I have a slew of, I have four boys and I looked at him and I go, you could be one of my boys. He's 36 and full of the Holy Spirit. So this is going to be great fun. Jai, many people hear the phrase spiritual warfare...
Jai Roza (01:18.065)
You
Jai Roza (01:30.571)
Hahaha!
Kristen Wambach (01:44.190)
...and immediately feel exhausted. The idea of, go, I got to climb up on my mountain again and do the work. Sometimes it can feel exhausted by the idea of constant fight. But through the lens of Romans 8:2, my favorite, the law of the spirit of life has set us free. How does Eden's conflict help our prayers and players shift from a defensive posture to actually resting in the finished work of the cross?
Jai Roza (02:17.905)
I think we start with understanding that we have a choice to make. And this is where I feel most non-believers, but even a lot of believers, find themselves feeling helpless most of the time. And what we forget to understand about scripture is that scripture gives us choices. Like if Christ never died, it wouldn't matter how good you or I behave or discipline ourselves.
Kristen Wambach (02:32.354)
Mm-hmm.
Jai Roza (02:46.469)
...because we would have never had the freedom to choose God. We would have always still ended up under the imprisonment of death. So it's like, God's whole entirety of scripture is about offering choice and direction. Now, many times we don't know what to do or how to look for these things. So my mission with Eden's conflict is to help create that reminder of choice and that dichotomy of like where I'm going in life. And so the name Eden's conflict, Eden is paradise, there's conflict in paradise. And it all began with a choice. So the whole premise is to bring that mind back to choice and understanding that God has given me choice. Now the question becomes, how do I begin that? Like, where do I start? What choices do I need to make? And I like to use this example. I gave it actually recently when I was preaching was what was Adam's first job? What was Adam's very first job?
Kristen Wambach (03:24.279)
It did.
Kristen Wambach (03:47.000)
To be in relationship with God.
Jai Roza (03:49.361)
Okay, that's part of it. That was part of the relationship. But what was his job specifically? There's a very specific job that God told Adam to do.
Kristen Wambach (04:00.398)
I'm trying to think I go is this before Eve or after Eve? No, it was before I had to go through it was before Eve because... Because Eve it wasn't shored up then that's why she was tempted. So he was supposed to multiply, he's supposed to be fruitful multiply and subdue the earth.
Jai Roza (04:01.602)
Hahaha. This is before Eve. This is before Eve. Yes.
Jai Roza (04:24.059)
Well, that was after Eve because without Eve he couldn't multiply. He couldn't multiply without Eve. So before he got Eve, God did something. I'll remind the story. God brings all the animals to him.
Kristen Wambach (04:25.804)
That's after eight!
Kristen Wambach (04:37.418)
That's right, naming them!
Jai Roza (04:39.255)
Exactly. The act of, is the act of naming? What do you call something that's the, like the process of naming?
Kristen Wambach (04:46.311)
That means your breath comes out and actually frames the identity of the animal.
Jai Roza (04:53.081)
Yes, there's a, but the word I'm thinking of is, and now it just escaped my mind. There's a title for naming things and I'm going to look it up right now.
Jai Roza (05:10.993)
I think it's taxology? No, what's it called?
Kristen Wambach (05:16.332)
Technology?
Jai Roza (05:21.561)
It's gonna bother me now. I had it on the tip of my tongue and it left as soon as I was about to bring it up. It'll come right back to me.
Kristen Wambach (05:26.350)
It'll come right back.
Jai Roza (05:35.857)
I had to look up my sermon notes and be like, where is it? Where is it? One, two, three, four, taxonomy. Taxonomy is the process of classifying and naming entities or titles. So Adam was a taxonomist. That was his very first job. And in the process of executing his work...
Kristen Wambach (05:45.833)
Axonomy.
Kristen Wambach (05:53.582)
Like that, I have never heard that before.
Kristen Wambach (06:04.056)
Mm-hmm.
Jai Roza (06:04.215)
...of naming and beginning to understand the world around him, he realized that there wasn't a help made for him. He realized he was missing something. And so this is what I say with people is like, if you want to figure out where you're going or what choices you need to make, you need to start understanding the world around you and start being able to classify the things that are going on in your life. And when you do that, you'll be able to see the places that stuff is missing or falling short. And now...
Kristen Wambach (06:07.936)
Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (06:13.496)
Mm-hmm.
Jai Roza (06:32.622)
...you start to see the places that you need God, that you need his help, that you need his direction, you need his guidance. Now, for some of us that might feel easy because we're like, well, I need his guidance for everything. I feel lost in life. I feel like I don't know what I'm doing. I wake up and I'm just existing. And it's like, okay, but do you know how to name the specific struggles you're going through? Like, are you depressed? Are you angry? Are you struggling with lust? It's like, are you able to name? Not only the sin, but the moments in which the sin arises, or the desire for the sin arises, or the thought process arises. Are you able to start understanding your world and saying, when I do these habits, this pattern follows? Because now you're starting to build out a mental structure, a mental framework of the world around you. And now you can start to see where I need to invite God and where I need to help God, where I need to make the choice. Like, does the choice happen when...
Kristen Wambach (07:20.140)
Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.
Jai Roza (07:30.479)
...I'm standing at the grocery store and I see the option to buy alcohol that I know I shouldn't buy. It's like, or does the choice happen before I even enter the aisle to be like, I should just avoid that aisle entirely. Or maybe I should go to a different store, like so that I'm not familiar with where I would go for my old habits. Understanding that it's like choice begins at different levels and that I, as a created human being in God's image, have the ability to make choices is one of the most empowering things that the enemy doesn't want you to know.
Kristen Wambach (07:46.605)
Mm-hmm.
Jai Roza (08:00.975)
Because if you understand that you have a choice to make, all of a sudden you can start choosing to believe God's word in the moments where the enemy is telling you a lie. Where he's telling you, you can't change this sin. You can't break from this addiction. You can't overcome this struggle. You can't do these things. You will never be free. You are, are blah, blah, blah, blah. And it's like, and now you start realizing, wait, I have choices. Who are you to tell me what I can and can't do?
Kristen Wambach (08:29.036)
That's right.
Jai Roza (08:29.893)
Like God is the only one who decides, literally he speaks and the world comes into existence. And so how can I let that voice, that creative power speak in my life? Well, I can begin to choose to let it in, not just through prayer and invitation, but I can begin to choose to recite, to exercise, to echo the voice of creation with my own voice so that my world is recreated in his image. And learning to intentionally...
Kristen Wambach (08:35.562)
Huh.
Kristen Wambach (08:51.682)
Mm-hmm.
Jai Roza (08:59.771)
...dig through scripture and be like, this verse, this is my verse. This passage, this is my passage. And it doesn't matter what the world says or what Satan tells me or even what my own voice tells me because Satan can imitate your voice. And a lot of times temptation will come across as if it's my own thoughts when really it's the enemy speaking in my own voice. And he can imitate an angel of light. He can imitate you. So don't assume that just because you hear yourself thinking something, that that's genuinely what you want. Because that's that war within the self where you're like, I know what I want, but the flesh wants something else. This is the place where God is bringing our attention and he's saying, who will you believe? My words that call you free, born again, saved, or the enemy's words that say, you're struggling with this, you're addicted to this, you can't overcome this, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. And it's like, if I don't realize that I have choice, then it doesn't matter what the options are because I'm not even able to utilize them. And now I'm just pushed by the influence. And so this is why we say we're trying to teach people to be proactive rather than reactive. Many Christians live a reactive faith, which is God protect me from all bad things. God, a bad thing is happening. What do I do? How do I handle with this? Like I wasn't expecting this, you know. It's like rather than being like God, thank you for...
Kristen Wambach (10:14.766)
Mm-hmm.
Jai Roza (10:27.081)
...giving me the opportunity to exist today so that I can praise your name in whatever comes my way. And now when a good thing comes up, thank you God. I thank you so much for the opportunity to have this blessing. And when a bad thing comes up, thank you God, because I'm glad that it was me that this happened to and not somebody else who doesn't know how to handle it. Because it's not me, it's Him. So choice and having that ability to understand when and how to make choice is completely...
Kristen Wambach (10:30.968)
Mm-hmm.
Jai Roza (10:56.165)
...the gift that God gave us. That's why Christ died. And that's what we want to teach people with Eden's conflict. So everything we're doing is what I say, we're trying to create transformation through creative expression. So how can we take the deep knowledge of scripture and create a unique or expressive way that reminds me of that key principle? Whether it be in the clothes that you wear or in the music you listen to or in the stories you tell or in the games you play...
Kristen Wambach (11:17.762)
Mm-hmm.
Jai Roza (11:26.007)
All of these things are little choices that we can implement. We can bring more of God into and begin to affect our lives in a positive way. Because it's not us. We're just allowing that creative voice to speak to us more. And we're choosing where to let Him in.
Jai Roza (11:47.409)
I see the mind, the mind is reeling, it's thinking.
Kristen Wambach (11:47.513)
Cool. Yeah. Well, because you put it, I love the way that you classified it. You used a different verbiage. And so I'm thinking I'm running through your verbiage because it's same word, same perspective, but different verbiage. Different. And I'm going, this is really good. God. So would you take us a little bit in your history here? It says you mentioned that God spoke to you through an unexpected phone call when you were absolute at the lowest point. And we talk a lot about the difference between the Logos mind and the Rhema mind. Obviously you have experienced that because you're creating and you're creating the things that come out of you actually come from that Rhema. But we had to learn how to separate our thoughts, how to learn to hear God and how he breathed into us. So how did God speaking to you bring forth that course corrects to where your choices changed?
Jai Roza (13:05.883)
So it all began, well, it began a lot earlier than that. It began when I was a child. And at eight years old, I was molested. And it was something that was hidden from my family. It was hidden from everybody around me. And I bore this self-awareness. I literally remember the next day being more self-aware because I'm nervous that someone's gonna find out what happened.
Kristen Wambach (13:12.824)
Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (13:33.504)
Mm-hmm.
Jai Roza (13:33.905)
And so it was this immediate sense of like awareness. And that gradually led me to questioning my faith, questioning God, like trusting people. I had a very hard time trusting people growing up. And eventually by a combination of that, becoming addicted to pornography at like 11 or 12, starting to practice Eastern meditation and Eastern philosophy.
Kristen Wambach (13:46.990)
Mm-hmm.
Jai Roza (14:02.469)
Called myself a New Age Christian at first, then started practicing just more New Age in general, began to have communion with voices and spirits that later I realized were not from God. But in my mind, God was just a universal person. So it's just the universe speaking to me. And it's like, they're just telling me things that are good for me until they get to the point where it's like, do what they say or else. Like, do what they say or we're going to keep you awake for days on end.
Kristen Wambach (14:07.374)
Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (14:15.554)
Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (14:27.767)
Mm.
Jai Roza (14:31.567)
And they would. So it was like by 17 going like probably two months before my 18th birthday, I had had enough. I was like, I feel like a terrible person. I'm struggling with severe depression. I'm struggling with addiction. I am failing high school. I ended up dropping out. It was like I had no purpose in life. And in my mind, I was like, I'm going nowhere and I can't even control my sleep. Like I don't even get to sleep anymore because unless I do what the voices say, they'll punish me physically for not obeying them. So it's like, how do I make any choice? I have no choices here. I can choose to end my life. At 17 and a half, I was like, I can choose to end my life. I'm going to do that. Like that, that was my decision. And I was confident in it enough where I began to sit on my couch and I was like, okay, am I going to write a note? Remember I'm failing high school. My...
Kristen Wambach (15:13.102)
Mm-hmm.
Jai Roza (15:28.337)
...educational level, I was like, do I want a sad note of my pathetic writing and like verbiage to be the last thing people remember of me or do I like better to just end it and not let anybody know anything? And so I'm there planning my suicide, how I was going to take my life that night. And this is about 12:30 at night, when all of a sudden my phone rings. Now I had reconnected with a friend who had moved away years before. MySpace was popping up and becoming a thing, social media was becoming a thing. So we had...
Kristen Wambach (15:56.622)
You
Jai Roza (15:57.677)
...reconnected. Like this type of thing didn't exist before. That's how old I am. So, I'm ancient. So, this friend and I had reconnected and they were also in high school. They were going through their own struggles and we had kind of sympathized. They're in another state and we reconnected over our sympathy of depression and struggle and like, you know, kind of emo kid like...
Kristen Wambach (16:01.294)
you
Jai Roza (16:26.289)
...life is so hard, blah, blah, blah. Now they knew that I grew up a believer, we had both grown up believers, they were still practicing to a degree because their father was a pastor. But they had their own traumas, they had their own struggles. And they call me and it's 12:30 at night my time and they say, what are you doing right now? I just got out of a Bible study and felt like I had to call you. Now, my options here are the fact that I know that they don't have anybody else's number in my family. I know that they don't know where I live because I had moved. I know that they can't do anything to stop what I'm about to do. So why not be honest? Because it's not like they could stop me. And so I tell them, I was like, I'm planning to take my life. Like, just plain and simple. Now, looking back on it, that's messed up because it's like, if you were that teenager who called on a whim, under an oppression and then like your friend ended up taking their life, it's like you would be messed up for years after that. Or if you had decided not to call, it's late and I'm not going to bother them right now. And I wasn't there the next day. It was like they would have been messed up. Like that would have been messed up. And that's the enemy's goal is like he just wants to create chaos and pain. And so but in that moment, they start praying and they start claiming scripture.
Kristen Wambach (17:41.069)
you
Jai Roza (17:53.123)
...and they start reminding me of the promises of scripture only on what they believe not on why I should believe it not on how I used to believe it but why they choose to believe what the words of scripture say. Now picture this. I am at this point just not sleeping properly. I'm partially delusional probably. But I've also been exercising like communing with the spirits where they're teaching me how to see the spiritual realm.
Kristen Wambach (18:06.307)
Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (18:22.531)
Mm-hmm.
Jai Roza (18:22.937)
And so that's part of the meditation that I would do is learning to open my third eye quote unquote and see the spiritual realm. And that was one of the things that drove me to my decision because the spiritual world was just utter black disgustingness. And I was like, I don't want anything to do. I don't want to exist in a world where this exists. And so in that moment, as they're speaking, I'm looking and I open my eyes and I'm seeing the spiritual world around me.
Kristen Wambach (18:36.750)
Mm-hmm.
Jai Roza (18:51.363)
...and I see the entire pitch blackness just light up for like a second. And I was like, like, like the best way I can describe it is if you've been in utter blackness and someone took a flashlight and clicked it in front of your eyes. And your eyes don't adjust. You don't now see everything in clarity and be like, there was that light. Now I can see. No, but you're aware of something else. And that's all it took was...
Kristen Wambach (19:18.306)
Mm-hmm.
Jai Roza (19:21.135)
...God's making his awareness to my mind and I didn't even realize that it was the God of the Bible yet. I'm still thinking the universe, some ancient spirit in the universe beheld me and told this person to do this so they could like send a glimmer of themselves to me. And so in my mind I was like, I can always choose suicide, I can't always choose to figure out what that light was.
Kristen Wambach (19:32.088)
Ha
Jai Roza (19:49.551)
And maybe I could, you know, my mind is a mixture of Christian beliefs and New Age beliefs. I was like, well, maybe if I do take my life, I'll just reincarnate in a higher dimension and see that thing. But there was that struggle for a bit, but I was like, no, let's play it safe. Let's just hold out on the suicide a little bit more. That's always an option, but let's see if we can't figure out what that light came from. And from that point on, for the next few months, I noticed that the Bible in the house began to have a gentle glow to it, like as if there was a light radiating off of it. And I was like, huh, well, that's new. And I would ask other people that I knew who were kind of practicing what I was practicing. I was like, yo, I wouldn't tell them it's a Bible. I was like, do you see any light, any aura on this book? You know, can you see it? And they're like, no, I don't see anything. And...
Kristen Wambach (20:44.784)
Jai Roza (20:45.507)
And it was like, so God was using the things that I was willing to look to, to like genuinely seek him. And this is the part that I try and instruct people is like, where are you genuinely looking for God? Because he will direct you. He will guide you. And, you know, I don't tell people it's like start reading energies, start practicing mantras, start like learning to open your third eye. I'm like, no, avoid all of that. Like the plague, you don't need that. All you need is the Holy spirit. And he shows up to those who are genuinely wanting him. But you have to learn to give that invitation first. Like God gives you an invitation to come to him. The only way you accept the invitation is by giving him an invitation to come to you. So it's this shared invitation both ways that we don't think about. Most of the time when we think of God and we're like, God, give me this, give me that, do this, do that. But we don't think of it as like an invitation to say, God, I invite you into this person's life, into this...
Kristen Wambach (21:19.384)
Mm-hmm.
Jai Roza (21:43.886)
...situation in my work into this emotional internal turmoil because that's how he works. He only works through invitation. But where are we asking? Like we're not asking him to come in. We're just so often being like, God, do these things. Change this person. Stop that thing from happening. And he's like, well, maybe you should just invite me into that space and let me work.
Kristen Wambach (22:05.838)
you
Jai Roza (22:11.951)
Because I have a thousand ways to do things that you don't know anything about. So, yeah, that night was the moment where it was like, I just started sleeping with my Bible because it at least kept the voices away. Like they couldn't approach me if I was holding on to the book. And it was muted enough that I could sleep. And for months after that, I would fall asleep clutching my Bible. And then it started beginning, well, maybe I should read this book. I was using it like a totem, like a little object.
Kristen Wambach (22:27.054)
Mm.
Jai Roza (22:41.451)
And it was like, like, good luck charm. And I was like, maybe I should actually like open it up and read. And again, my reading was terrible. But I began to try and then my family had happened to have, they worked at a Christian bookstore and they happened to get a Bible on CD. And it was a huge case of like CD after CD after CD. It was like probably 50 or 60 CDs. And so I would be listening to that and following along like reading the words and as the CDs reading it out. And that was part of it. And eventually I was like, I could only go to sleep if the CD was playing, like the Bible was playing, then I could, I could sleep peacefully. So God began to teach me like to listen to the words and to let the word speak where I'm not trying to force it into something. I'm not trying to bend it or study it out to the point where it's like, I have to analyze and be able to explain and break down. It's like, I'm just learning to absorb it.
Kristen Wambach (23:40.760)
Mm-hmm.
Jai Roza (23:41.081)
...in the same way that it's like, you know, an athlete needs to eat and sometimes you need to just enjoy a good meal. So one is like, I'm just eating this because I have to. The other is like, I'm choosing to indulge in the flavor, the taste, the profile of the word and letting my mind have that time to just sit and consume it. And that's what biblical meditation is like. Meditation is not a bad word.
Kristen Wambach (24:07.554)
Mm-mm.
Jai Roza (24:07.983)
In the same way, spiritual warfare is not a bad word, although a lot of times we hear it and we think struggle, fear, chaos, maybe possession, demons, you know, I don't know that I want to think about or deal with that. Like we tend to distance ourselves. And the reality is it's like, well, we live in that we are experiencing that we are part, at least part spiritual beings, because we have a spirit and we have a physical body. So part of us exists in that world already. But most of us live in a reactive state rather than a proactive state that says, okay, how do I practically put on the armor of God? How do I format my mind in a way where the checkpoints of ideas that come in have to go through God's word first before I actually indulge in pursuing that thought process? And we do that by learning to see the world through the lens of the scripture. But if I don't read the scriptures, I can't see anything.
Kristen Wambach (25:05.654)
You're going to love this next question.
Jai Roza (25:07.914)
Kristen Wambach (25:09.848)
Bridging heaven to earth requires us to actively engage our spiritual senses. So a little bit about me. I struggled with dyslexia until I was 30. So grammar school that was just pain. Just it was just painful and Holy Spirit came in on the scene made all those changes then dyslexia was healed and went away, which is...
Jai Roza (25:27.225)
Mm-hmm. Yep.
Kristen Wambach (25:39.562)
...and today I consider myself a writer. Second book just about ready there. So I understand and then at little after 30 he opened my spiritual eyes and then it's like oh This is different and okay. We're back in kindergarten again So I do understand people go aren't you afraid of all this stuff and I go I don't focus there.
Jai Roza (25:46.415)
Hahaha!
Jai Roza (26:01.689)
Hahaha
Jai Roza (26:08.357)
Yeah. Yeah.
Kristen Wambach (26:10.472)
I don't focus there. I could focus there, but I don't focus there. So you get to see all that cool stuff that's in the light, right? So engaging our spiritual senses. How does physically holding the promises of God, say for instance, in your card game, because promises are written and all what you've done creatively is you've made it connected, kinetic so that it's something that is tangible and touchable.
Jai Roza (26:34.661)
Yeah.
Kristen Wambach (26:39.150)
How does that help players practice that quantum thinking, that creative thinking that you're moving structures just like God, moving sound, frequency, and light to change the realities around you?
Jai Roza (26:56.813)
It does it by understanding, going back a little bit to choice, that creativity involves action. And that action can be played out in many different ways. So I can speak it, I can read it, I can write it, I can hold it, I can look at it. All of these things are different actions that anyone can perform, or most people can perform. If you've got something that's blind, you can't see it. But there is a level of...
Kristen Wambach (27:01.368)
Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (27:05.314)
Mm-hmm.
Jai Roza (27:26.349)
...of exercise of will. And this is the part that even I'm still working on fully mapping out this story. I wanna do a sermon or a talk on what the exercise of will looks like. Because that is the most basic thing. Like an infant child learns to exercise their will by crying out. And that's all they can do. Then they gradually learn to grasp things. They're exercising their will.
Kristen Wambach (27:49.080)
Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (27:52.696)
Mm-hmm.
Jai Roza (27:55.383)
...everything we do is an exercise of will. In fact, we honor will so much that when someone dies, we look at their will. What was the last thing they desired for us to do on their behalf? So the exercise of will is something that all of us can practice. And the board game or the card game, I should say, is a form of exercising that choice, exercising will, where if I have a scripture card on my battlefield, quote unquote, and it's kind of weak, the points are a little low, and the temptations are stacking up, they're getting a little high. How can I counteract that? Well, I could do two things. One, I could play the scripture that cancels out the temptation, because with every temptation, there is a way of escape. Not there might be, there could be, no, there is. So I have to first choose to believe that there is no situation that the enemy can present to me that God does not have accounted to. So that's the first exercise of Will is choice. I'm believing the choice.
Kristen Wambach (28:38.582)
Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (28:52.938)
Yeah, I'm gonna ask you a favor. Would you say that again, please?
Jai Roza (28:54.385)
Yeah. Okay, the exercise will or the exercise choice? That whole situation. That whole belief.
Kristen Wambach (29:03.490)
That that that you you had a whole phrase in there that is going okay We need to come back around and we need to hear that again
Jai Roza (29:11.353)
Okay, okay. The choice to believe is your first way of exercising your will towards God. Like to bring your will into alignment with God's will is choosing and he says, choose you this day who you will serve. Choose to believe. The choice comes, it even says choose to put away your sins. It's like, well, wait, if my sin is something I struggle with, I don't know how to put it away. But God is saying, no, put it away.
Kristen Wambach (29:15.138)
Mm-hmm.
Jai Roza (29:40.429)
If he's saying put it away, that means I have exercise and I have authority over it that I'm not exercising. And the only way I can begin to exercise that is by choosing to believe that I have a choice to make, that I can exercise my will over these things and say, I'm not going to do this anymore. I'm not going to this way anymore. And that's what the enemy doesn't want you to know is if you believe that you have choice, he can't manipulate you as easily because otherwise he only has his lies to hold up. So we are learning through the card game. We are learning to exercise will either by playing the correct scripture that cancels out the temptation or by reciting the card itself. I literally hand it off to a teammate and I recite the words on the card and it doubles the scripture. It doubles the points of the card. Now the game is written in a way where the rules are about teaching you the rules of spiritual warfare. Very introductory. And one of these rules, this exercise of being able to recite the card is to say that scripture you read is good, scripture you memorize is twice as powerful. Because we're learning the principle that what's in here, the Holy Spirit just has to trigger. What's written down, He has to then trigger and then get me to move and then get me to open and get me to read and get me to like, like there are so many more steps for the Spirit to convict me of in order to then try and bring out that promise back to memory.
Kristen Wambach (30:48.941)
Mm-hmm.
Jai Roza (31:04.687)
...versus anything that's in here, the scripture can now bring back. Anything that will trigger that thought. And I learned to put flags or markers on when to trigger the thought that seeks the guidance of scripture. And this is that mindset when Paul is saying pray constantly. He's not saying sit on your knees or be on your knees all day, never leave that space. He's saying be in a mindset, a meditative mindset that is constantly engaging. Weighing the choices you're making between what your understanding is, between what the world is telling you, and between what God's Word says. And as you're doing that, now you're having this communion with the two, now you're in this meditative prayerful mindset, and now you are living in a prayer mindset. Always. So, this is the point, and I love that you brought up, like learning to see the spiritual world isn't something that I would suggest for most people. But if God reveals it to you, it's because He's teaching you how to keep your eye on Him. And the more you keep your eye on Him, you don't have anything to fear. Peter walked on water until he'd look away from Christ. So that's the premise is that it's like most people are afraid of the spiritual world. You don't have to be afraid of it, but you don't need to go looking for it. So long as your eye is on Christ, God will reveal what you need to know and what you need to see.
Kristen Wambach (32:29.400)
Mm-hmm.
Jai Roza (32:30.617)
And for some of us that may be, you know, hey, this person here needs help. For others, it'll be, hey, I can see something here that's like, this is just telling me go this way. Like there's something here that the spirit is telling me I need to do this. And for others, it's like, I feel like blind luck. Like I just happened to do this thing and it worked out. And it's like, that's fine either way. What matters is that in all of those situations, each person has their internal mind set on Christ.
Kristen Wambach (32:59.117)
Mm-hmm.
Jai Roza (32:59.449)
And they're constantly looking and checking in and saying, where is this in relation to Him? Where is this thought in relation to God? And this is the premise I try and teach this with is what I call a Kingdom First Mindset. So here's a brief exercise. And this ties into a skill set, is presence of mind. Now, presence of mind just means the ability to examine your own thoughts while you're going through them. So it's like, if I'm feeling an emotion and I'm feeling angry, and I'm thinking about why am I feeling angry? That is the exercise of presence of mind. So we'll do a little exercise that does presence of mind. So do you remember a time where you got hurt as a child? Okay. Do you remember maybe it was something you did? Do you remember how much it hurt?
Kristen Wambach (33:31.950)
Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (33:38.434)
Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (33:44.846)
Hmm.
Jai Roza (33:45.655)
No. Okay. So see that right there is already telling you that it's like, I know I went through pain, but the pain is right now. It's not there. Like you're, you're aware of it. It existed, but you're not in that space where it exists anymore. Are you going through struggles today on any level? Sure.
Kristen Wambach (34:04.280)
Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.
Jai Roza (34:05.955)
All of us are. We all have pains. We all have... I wake up in the morning and I was like, my back is not moving the way it used to. Like, there is always something that's going on right now that it's like, this is uncomfortable. Do you think you tomorrow will still worry about the problems you have today? Probably not. Let's go further. A year from now, even less. Ten years from now? Definitely. Probably forgotten whatever it was. Like, you forgot what that pain felt like as a child. It's like, you're not even gonna remember what the pains of today were like.
Kristen Wambach (34:21.154)
Mm-mm.
Jai Roza (34:35.409)
What about 20 years, 30 years, 50 years, whatever it is, what about you on your last day of life? What does you on your last day of life have to say about the struggles you're going through today? They don't care. They are facing a problem that is bigger than anything else they've had to face. Now, what would they give up to be back where you are today? Everything. Because they would give them opportunity to do it again, or to learn or to do something better. Now this, if you're in the world, this is where your presence of mind ends. You can always look at your life from the day, from you on your last day of life and be like, well, there is no, whatever I'm facing today is not as bad as what I will face on my last day of life. And you'll get some benefit out of that. But that's as far as you go. Now to the believer who has the hope and promise of going into eternity to spend it with Christ. They get to see themselves now. You're standing before the throne of God. You have gone through translation. Sin is no more. Death is no more. Suffering is no more. You're walking on streets of gold and you're standing with a congregation of billions who are looking up into the face of the one person who made it possible for us to be there. Now what does that person have to say about your struggles today? Who cares? But not because they're facing a new set of problems, but because they're like, look at where I am. Look at who we're with. Look at the face of the one that we have been looking for all these years. And now I get to see it face to face. Now this is what I say, this is a Kingdom First mindset. When you can go through today's problems from that person's perspective, from your Kingdom Person perspective, all of a sudden you're like, why am I worried about this job? Why am I worried about this thing? Why am I worried about how this one situation works out? No, I got injured today. Well, like I'm already mentally existing in eternity with my father in heaven.
Kristen Wambach (36:28.526)
Mm-hmm.
Jai Roza (36:54.127)
And what I forget, it was like a quote that I heard somewhere and I've kind of adapted it to my own saying, but it's that all of us enter into eternity one way or another, some sooner than others, either because we die or because we begin to live today as if we're already living in eternity. So you'll look back on today as the day you started living your life, your eternal life. And that's part of what having a kingdom first mindset is. That's presence of mind to be able to examine this moment from a perspective beyond the reach of whatever struggle I'm going through. And only the believer can do that from the kingdom where there is no more sin or no more pain or no more suffering anymore. So it's not that I'm not experiencing the pain, but it's that now this cognitive energy, this mental thought process is examining it from a perspective that in my mind already exists. I'm already there. And that's where we can begin to practically practice and exercise that freedom of choice, that exercise of will, to see that, to engage in that. And that is a God-given ability because animals can't do that. They can't see their lives from a different perspective. But humans can.
Kristen Wambach (38:09.472)
Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (38:28.234)
Okay I'm just I'm just I'm just doing some thinking here, which is which is good Which is good to do thing it and I absolutely love the way you put that that's excellent Excellent. Yes excellent. I loved how you broke down the presence of mind You strategically broke that down in a very applicable way is wonderful
Jai Roza (38:29.201)
Hahaha
Kristen Wambach (38:59.096)
That's what I've been paying attention to, your different kind of application and strategy. Went, this is fun. This is different. Yay. Yay. So, Jai, how can our listeners connect with you and your creative resources?
Jai Roza (39:18.693)
You can find us at edensconflict.com. That's the main website where we host everything on there.
Kristen Wambach (39:24.442)
You said that kind of quick. That's Eden's conflict.
Jai Roza (39:27.089)
Eden's Conflict, Eden with an S, conflict.com. And we also have social media. So Instagram is Eden's Conflict. I have X and LinkedIn for Jai Rosa. I have an Instagram as well for my name, but I don't post very much on there and it's very experimental. So you can follow me there if you want to message me or reach out. But that is a very experimenting with different concepts or expressing things.
Kristen Wambach (39:38.798)
Mm-hmm.
Jai Roza (39:56.997)
That's also where I like to post parts of the clips of the podcast that go on. Yeah, either Eden's conflicts on Instagram or on the website or myself through LinkedIn or X or Instagram as well.
Kristen Wambach (39:57.058)
Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (40:12.702)
And you do music and do gaming too?
Jai Roza (40:18.999)
Yeah, so we're working on, we have the physical card game, which is our flagship product. I spent seven years developing that. And then now we're making music and we're using, now some people hate it, love it. We use AI for our music, because I'm not a musician. I write the lyrics and I was doing poetry before, long before this. So a lot of the songs I pull out of my poetry and, or I'll come up with something and I want to write a song around it.
Kristen Wambach (40:22.860)
Yes.
Jai Roza (40:44.719)
But the goal of it is to make a tool, right? Like everything is a tool. The game is a tool. The music is a tool. The shirts we make are tools. And the goal is to create flags, reminders of the word of God. So for us, it's like, if you're learning the game, you're playing the game, you're reciting scripture, good, that's one way to learn scripture. In the music, we write the chorus first, and we take it from scripture.
Kristen Wambach (40:49.550)
Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (41:07.950)
Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.
Jai Roza (41:10.011)
So we either put the direct scripture verse into the chorus and write the song around that, or we adapt it a little bit to really hone in on the message of the verse. Because sometimes they don't always fit lyrically. So we write that in and the idea is that everybody remembers the chorus of a song. So if you're remembering the chorus of the song and we make the chorus scripture, then what are you learning? You're learning scripture. And so now you're passively reminding scripture. And I've literally had moments where I felt tempted...
Kristen Wambach (41:20.270)
Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (41:25.955)
Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (41:34.094)
Mm-hmm.
Jai Roza (41:39.441)
...or I've known that I'm doing something that I shouldn't, and a song will start playing at the back of my head, and it's the chorus of the song that is directly counteracting, directly calling out what I'm doing in the moment. And so it's like to us, it's like, okay, how can we create resources and tools for people? I joke about it and I say, if this is spiritual warfare, my goal is to become a spiritual arms dealer. Like I am just constantly making weaponry that others can like utilize and apply and...
Kristen Wambach (41:44.492)
Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.
Jai Roza (42:08.547)
...and equip themselves to be proactive in their faith rather than reactive. Because when your mind is focused and Christ is saying meditate on me, think on me, focus on me, it's like the enemy can't touch you there. Not that he can't hurt you, not that he can't hit you, but he can't touch you in the way that we saw Stephen get stoned. And he's talking about how he's able to see the spiritual world, see God standing by his throne. And so it's like...
Kristen Wambach (42:21.932)
Mm-hmm.
Kristen Wambach (42:36.398)
Mm-hmm.
Jai Roza (42:37.829)
That's the mindset that we want. And then it says God put him to sleep. It doesn't say they killed him. It says God put him to rest. So when your mind is so focused on God, you are able to have those experiences where even if you've ever read the book Fox's Book of Martyrs, it talks about the martyrs who were killed during the Christian persecutions in the dark ages. And they were singing hymns while burning at the flame. And it's like, where do you get that mindset?
Kristen Wambach (42:42.286)
Mm.
Jai Roza (43:07.665)
That's not you. Like that is a divine imposed mindset. And this is why I love what Christ says in John 17, where he's like praying to the Father and he's like, let them be in me as I am in you. Like, let us be one. The invitation that God is having is not just an invitation, hey, come up to heaven. We've got the angels, we've got, you know, fields of fruit and we've got all of these benefits. He's saying, come up into the personal intimate mental space between the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit. Like you will see us in our unabridged, unhidden form as you learn to focus your attention on us in a way that even the angels can't see. Not because they don't see him face to face, but they don't know what it's like to see him from the perspective of a sinner. And that is a uniquely, that is a unique human experience because...
Kristen Wambach (43:47.406)
Mm-hmm.
Jai Roza (44:04.133)
We're getting to see God from the perspective of one who doesn't deserve to see Him out.
Kristen Wambach (44:11.926)
I love it. That's great. Great. Would you lead us as we wrap up here and you've given us so much creative thought in our heads and we just want to stir it in our hearts today and lead the listeners with an activation, a way to immediately step into some of the things that you just discussed, would you do that for us?
Jai Roza (44:46.917)
Yeah, I would say to those who are listening and you're thinking like, I'm uncertain of where to begin. Begin to make a choice to follow God wherever you are. And if you don't know how to do that, but you understand that you have to somehow interact with this thing we call will, this force of will, this desire of choice of the heart. And you're like, I don't even know how to surrender this to God because I know that I can say it, but I also feel myself still desiring the things of this world. Then come to God with this. I'm willing to be made willing. Like become the father who went to Christ and said, if you can do anything, and Christ is like, if you believe, he says, help my unbelief. Like give God the very thing that you know is directly resisting him and let him do with it as he wills. In a way where you're like, I genuinely surrender this to you. Like you can't honor God with your sin, but you can honor God in your sin by choosing to repent. Pre-sin, during sin, after sin, it doesn't matter where you are, the direction to God is always up. And so what I tell people, and I stole this from Jordan Peterson, is what is the highest level of good that you can envision and make that your goal? And when you fall short, aim upwards for God. Because however high you think you can go...
Kristen Wambach (45:59.085)
Mm-hmm.
Jai Roza (46:25.499)
...God's standard is so much higher. And that's where he says, will be the one to bring you up. When Peter took his eyes off of Christ, he began to sink. But when he called out to Christ, Christ immediately grabbed his hand and pulled him up. So don't be afraid to be honest with God about who you are in your complete unworthiness of wherever you are.
Kristen Wambach (46:35.758)
Mm-hmm.
Jai Roza (46:52.077)
...or whatever minor thing you think, this isn't necessary for God's attention. Give it up to Him first, then not worry yourself with it. Because He wants an invitation to come into your life. He wants the invitation to come into your heart. He wants it into your eyes. He wants it into your family. He wants it into your work. He wants it into everything. But you have to learn to be able to captivate and Scripture tells us, take every mind into captivity. You have to be able to captivate an idea and then give that idea over to Him and say, God, here, this is yours. I'm inviting you into it. I'm inviting you to take it from me. I'm inviting you to do this. And when I rebel, I'm going to invite you again. For years, I was unrepentant. And this is what the spirits were telling me after I learned to come to Christ. For years, they told me, you can't fully return to God. You tried to commit the unpardonable sin. Twice. You intentionally sought to cut yourself off on a spiritual level from God forever. So you will always have to struggle. And I believe that for years. But even in those struggles, I made it my purpose that it's like, if I have to struggle, that I'm choosing to return to God. If one day I am burned for my sin, because I was rebellious and unrepentant, that I will have at least have a life where I chose to try aiming upward in spite of all of the times where I went down. And it's like that became my focus and mission. And then God worked with me where I was at on that space. And then He began to lift me up, lift my attention up, lift my eyes up, bring my awareness to things that I was willfully indulging in that I could choose to turn away so that I would allow more of Him and less of me. And that is what the invitation is that God wants to have for you. I'll end on this verse here. The passage in Revelations 22, verse 4, last book of the Bible says, shall see his face and his name shall be on their foreheads. The forehead is the place right here, frontal lobe is my place of choice and power of choice. When I choose to make Christ my vision, my sight, my fort, like everything I'm aiming for is, is this in alignment, it's aiming for Christ? Then I will begin to have his name on my mind. And that is where he is now working in me. It's no longer me.
Jai Roza (49:18.031)
It's him in me. I am a dyslexic, post addict, ADHD, hardcore introvert who is building a company around teaching others about the power of God's word. And I'm like, this is not me. I would have nothing to do with this like motivation or direction. I shouldn't even be alive. But this is God. And you have nothing to fear from the future except that you forget how God has led you in the past. So make it your mission. Remember God. Look at him wherever you can and he will be the one to transform your life. And stop worrying about what you can and can't do. And I know I said I'll end on this. I will end on this exact thought. Because I like to bring it back to gaming. I'm a gamer at heart. I still play a lot of games. And I talk to young people and like think of it in this way. In a video game, you usually have a tutorial where you're learning, right?
Kristen Wambach (50:01.709)
Ha!
Jai Roza (50:16.310)
The first level is like, you're meant to learn. Learn how to play the game. And I tell people, do you get angry in the tutorial? Do you give up on a game because you messed up in the tutorial? They're like, well, no, that'd be silly. Like the tutorial is for you to learn how to actually play the game. And a lot of us will look at life and be like, I've messed up too much in life that God can't help me here. Or I don't know, he'll never be able to reach me where I'm at. Until we enter into eternity, we haven't even begun to live. So the idea that you've messed up life means you're still in the tutorial. So rather than worrying about life, start looking at this life. If you're still here, you're listening to this, you're in the tutorial of eternity. Learn to play the tutorial. And when you mess up, get up and do it again. Because it's a tutorial. You're here to learn so that you can know how to live for eternity. But you're not in eternity yet. But you can master the principles, the rules, the lessons before the game even begins. So that when the actual eternity starts, when we've gone through translation and we're now physically caught up to our mental state in the kingdom, now we're actually playing the game and you're ready to go with an advantage where other people are showing up and be like, this is where we're at?
Kristen Wambach (51:49.025)
Mm-hmm.
Jai Roza (51:52.145)
Okay, now I'm
Kristen Wambach (51:53.783)
I'm sure. Are you sure preachers always have second and third closing, right?
Jai Roza (52:02.441)
I'm a laity, I'm not a preacher, so no excuses for why other laity can't be doing stuff.
Kristen Wambach (52:07.342)
There were a couple of labels in there that I might sit down and say I Don't think I gave you that and that would be one of...
Jai Roza (52:18.427)
The tutorial or the preacher?
Kristen Wambach (52:20.814)
...when you refer to yourself in laity.
Jai Roza (52:23.957)
Laity. I'm technically laity. I'm verbally whatever God makes me.
Kristen Wambach (52:26.508)
Yeah. Yeah.
Kristen Wambach (52:33.006)
You're in the process of remembering who you are.
Jai Roza (52:40.815)
And it's all who he is. It's learning to see him and remember him.
Kristen Wambach (52:42.190)
Yes, yay. Thank you so much for sharing your passion with us.
Jai Roza (52:52.379)
Thank you. Thank you for having me on. I know this will go places that even you and I can't imagine.
Kristen Wambach (52:56.942)
God is good that way. He is so good. So thank you very much for joining us.
Jai Roza (53:01.943)
Amen. Amen. Kristen, thank you for having me on.
If we find ourselves with a desire that nothing in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that we were made for another world.' - C.S. Lewis
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| Jai is the creative mind behind the Eden’s Conflict card game and the founder of Eden’s Conflict LLC. Originally started as a side project in the fall of 2016, Eden’s Conflict has evolved into his full-time work. With the mission to inspire a generation to take charge of their lives through creativity, skills and abilities provided in God’s word. |
| Eden’s Conflict extends beyond pure entertainment; it aims to revolutionize the way people engage with scripture. This includes innovative teaching tools such as games, music, practical lessons, and more. Jai continues to seek new and compelling ways to make discovering scripture accessible and engaging. “I hope inspire others to have their own transformative journey. There are two truths I’ve learned since starting down this path. Happiness is a choice, not a feeling, and only those who choose love can find happiness. |
PRACTICING QUANTUM THINKING.
A kingdom FIRST MINDSET.
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🛍️ How Good is God!
But what if His kindness isn't a reward for your effort? What if it's an ancient, relentless force that has been holding you since long before you knew you were looking for Him?
EMBRACING THE TUTORIAL.
God is everything we allow Him to be. He is waiting for you to captivate your thoughts and hand them over to Him. You do not need to have it all together to start. Give God the very thing you know is resisting Him, and watch how He course-corrects your destiny. Your life is not defined by the moments you stumbled in the tutorial; it is defined by the incredible eternity you are preparing for.
COACHING CHURCH ACTIVATIONS
The Mirror Word translation powerfully illuminates Romans 8:2: "For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus has made me free from the law of sin and death. A law is always the extension of a government. The implementation of a law is directly related to the effectiveness or authority of the government guarding over it." We often get trapped in the immediate pain of our circumstances, forgetting that the superior government of the Spirit has already set us free. This activation is designed to shift your perspective and establish your Oneness with Jesus right now.
- Identify the Struggle: Think of one specific situation causing you anxiety or frustration today.
- Shift the Timeline: Close your eyes and mentally fast-forward. Imagine yourself standing in eternity, completely free of sin and pain, looking directly into the face of Jesus.
- Re-evaluate: From that kingdom's perspective, looking back at today's specific struggle, how does its weight and importance change?
- The Outcome: Speak out loud, "I choose to live my eternal life today." Carry that lightness into your next physical decision, operating from a place of rest rather than fighting for victory.
- Name the Resistance: What is the specific habit, fear, or lie you feel is currently resisting God's grace in your life? Take a moment to give it a clear, honest name.
- Surrender the Will: If you feel unable to overcome it, hand over your inability. Pray simply, "Father, I am willing to be made willing. I invite You into this specific space."
- Play the Tutorial: Remind yourself that a mistake is just part of the learning curve. You are not disqualified; you are in training for eternity.
- The Outcome: When you stumble this week, instead of partnering with shame, immediately reset. Speak out loud, "This is just the tutorial," and take the very next step forward in grace.
MEET THE AUTHOR & PODCASTERIf you are looking for an undeniable, week-one transformation, you are in the right place. My mission is to offer a safe path for your heart, giving you the practical tools and outcome-focused, Monday-morning logic to step into your daily life with absolute clarity, profound peace, and a direct connection to the heart of Jesus. With 30+ years of ministry and leadership experience, I serve as a spiritual investigative journalist, mystical futurist, and ordained pastor. I have spent over two decades mastering Oneness and connection with God. As a transformation coach, I specialize in simplifying the supernatural and bringing heaven to earth. My focus is always on reverence, hope, and testifying to redemption to advance the kingdom. |
In my upcoming book, HOW GOOD IS GOD. , you will not find heavy theological arguments. Instead, you will find a practical path with raw stories, prayer, and simple activations designed to help you live spiritually brave.
We are God's kids with big dreams, committed hearts, and a world of distractions to overcome, but He is always our rear guard to advance the kingdom safely." - Kristen Wambach
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"There is no panic in Heaven! God has no problems, only plans." - Corrie ten Boom
the Gift!EPISODE HIGHLIGHTS:
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- The Out-Loud Dismissal: A practical activation to shut down the buzzing of the enemy and create a pocket of peace in your mind.
- Your Divine Rear Guard: Understanding the tactical, military reality of Isaiah 52:12 and how Heaven completely secures your blind spots.
- Stepping Into Oneness: Releasing the pressure to fight in your own strength and resting in the active, breathing presence of God.
Are you pressing through a crazy week, juggling endless to-do lists, and feeling the heavy weight of distraction? You are not alone. In this incredibly raw, unscripted episode of the Interviewing Jesus Podcast, we are letting our hair down to have a real conversation about the overwhelming seasons of life. When the noise gets too loud and the spotlight of shame tries to tell you that you are unworthy of your big dreams, it is time to remember exactly who is backing you up.
As a spiritual investigative journalist and an ordained pastor for over 30 years, my heart is to provide a safe path for you to experience Heaven's reality today. In this episode, we dive deep into the beautiful truth of Romans 8 and the tactical promise of Isaiah 52:12. God is not just leading you; He is literally your rear guard. He completely secures your blind spots. Together, we will discover how to verbally dismiss the enemy, step fully into the Oneness of God, and put on your kingdom Superman cape.
SUMMARY
SECURING YOUR BLIND SPOTS
AND SILENCING THE NOISE
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00:00 Connecting Through Distractions | Practical Spirituality
06:55 Finding Purpose Amidst the Noise | Hearing God's Voice
12:59 Overcoming Shame and Rejection | Healing and Transformation
18:32 God's Support and Protection | Biblical Insights
24:00 Sharing the Love of God | Bridging Heaven and Earth
29:57 Blessings and Encouragement | Christian Spiritual Growth
30:51 Interviewing Jesus Podcast Intro
FULL EPISODE TRANSCRIPT
Kristen Wambach
Hello family and welcome. Yay. I am so delighted that You are here. Let me give You a precursor for today's episode. It is off the cuff. I'm pressing through a crazy week, a crazy month. And I just wanted to sit down and chat with You and talk with You and You talk with me so that we can get to that important destination that lives in our hearts. Amen. Let me just shore that up a little bit. No script here. Just trying.
Kristen Wambach
Connecting. That's the word I want. Connecting. I need You. You need me. Connecting in His oneness. Amen. Let me share scripture with You. This is going to sew us up and connect us together today. Neither death nor life or angels or principalities nor powers nor things present nor things to come nor height nor depth nor any other creature Shall be able to separate us from the love of God not even ourself Amen, that's Romans 8 38 through 39. Today we're going to discuss being driven by our dreams. Yet sometimes the world and life, there's just this distraction and rejections. And You go, help me Jesus, right? Well, I'm in that spot today. Help me Jesus. And that's what I bring to the microphone today. I bring it to You. I need prayer. You need prayer. We desperately need to feel the tangible love of the Father cheering us on. Amen. Let me kind of wrap up where I'm at, where I'm at. How did I get to this place today to talk to You? And no, I don't think that were...
Kristen Wambach
I don't think that there are differences in our life per se. There's similarities of distractions of things going on that You and I share. Y'all know that I am in the process of publishing my second book. How good is God? And, and, my gosh, it's so much work. And I'm pressing through to, April 1st deadline to hit that publish button, to be able to share it with You. And, at times it can be terribly frazzling and overwhelming and I just needed to lay that on the table and talk to You today. Can we do that? Can we just not have an agenda and talk today? Amen. Let's invite Holy Spirit here. You pray for me. I pray for You. Put our hands together in the oneness, one faith, one body in Christ and just exalt who He is amen. Father God I thank You for the bandwaves of your goodness that just reaches around the entire world takes this satellite communication to touch each and every one of our hearts today the listener my family of listeners. Right into my heart. We just need to be encouraged today and we just lay down our stuff and we submit ourselves to say, Father here we are. We're spending these valuable moments focused on You Amen. Cause remember neither death, no life, nothing. Have You ever thought about that? Nothing can separate us from the love of God.
Kristen Wambach
But today we're going to talk about some of the distractions that certainly attempt to try, right? As a spiritual investigative journalist, that means I write down what I experienced and what I feel. And this is the raw truth. There's that empowers You and I to put on a Superman cape today to experience His dominion in heaven and on earth. And we sit right next to Him and squeeze right between Jesus and the Father. And we just share that intimacy, share that dominion, figure out those keys, turn the keys and open the door, right? And refuse to let the noise stop the calling that's in your heart, the calling that's in my heart to keep on moving and pressing it. Let's highlight. I have a few notes highlighted here. Finding purpose amidst the noise of distraction. And there's a few of them that are distracting or attempting to distract us, right? It's easy to feel inadequate or distracted by people, the environment around us are to-do lists. And here we are, we're parents juggling our schedule to nurture, love and support our kids. I remember when my boys were young and we had four different little league baseball teams that we had to be there and support. How did we ever get through that? I understand. Many of us are entrepreneurs. We're our own boss and we're pressing through the days that we wish...
Kristen Wambach
Hey, don't I have a little sick leave here, a little sick time? Can I take a day off? Do You hear me? And we're spouses, right? Yeah. Wives, we're needing that special hug that says that You see me and I feel safe, right? And His husband's... They need our pom-poms, ladies. We need to cheer and we need to affirm their manliness. Amen. We are God's kids with big dreams, committed hearts with a world of distractions to overcome. My new book. I'm so excited to share a portion of it with You today. How good is God? I'm ticking the boxes for that release date on April 1st. Help me Jesus. Okay. Breathe in, breathe out. Do it again. Breathe in and breathe out. I know that I'm not alone in this. We all have big projects. We all have big dreams, all have big desires. Some of us might just be starting to walk into that and others could be like where I am in this season and we're just ticking the boxes and finishing all the dust jackets and book covers and drafts and PDFs and editing. We're just finishing it up. But God is right there with us. Amen. Now some of the things that I have noticed in this particular season, how to protect your dream from the spotlight of shame. I've been listening to some of the things that have been going on around me and the flavor...
Kristen Wambach
of the distractions that are presenting themselves. One of my favorite ladies, Brene Brown, defines shame as the intensely painful feeling or experience of believing that we are flawed and therefore unworthy of love, unworthy of our dream and belonging to something that we've experienced, done or failed to do makes us unworthy of connection.
Kristen Wambach
Well, that just is not true, but there is a tangible feeling sometimes that we can feel in our heart. Amen. We can, we can feel it in our heart and sometimes it feels difficult to separate it in our lives. Sometimes shame can feel like a fishing net, a fishing net in the mouths of others. Have You experienced that? Bullies push their own fears and unresolved unworthiness. It just, it just seems to vomit right out of their mouth and it tries to catch us in the net. Where overwhelm and disconnect can compromise the core values of our loved ones. What do You do when they are being challenged their own core values are being challenged and that's the place that they're talking from. How do we protect ourselves, lay healthy boundaries and keep focused and keep moving forward and feel ever so close in the oneness with Him? Number one, talk to God. Every moment through every feeling, just like this episode, talking to God in talking to You.
Kristen Wambach
letting it out, having the conversation that God is so much a part of. We can't just hold up the pretty white fence of promise. If a offense is circling like a buzzard in our thoughts, we have to deal with it. We have to talk to Him about it. We have to put our finger right on the thing and say, God, this feels like crap. It doesn't feel good. And I need to talk to You about this. And He's always there to support us. We give it to God. We release it into His charge. We have a conversation with Him and we allow ourselves to feel in His presence because when we allow ourselves to feel in His presence then it doesn't seem to bubble over into others like in the home and in our relationships because we don't want all those feelings to bubble over to our spouses. Amen. And my husband say, thank You very much for saying that. And it's not always so easy. We give it to God, we release it, we take communion with Him and we trade it. Let me ask You this. When was the last time that You told the enemy You are dismissed? There You are. You're dismissed. And what's really true about this statement is I usually say this when I'm in the bathroom standing in front of the mirror and my head is going off on...
Kristen Wambach
What was said here and my to-do list. So I'm trying to balance those things and, how shut my mind and all of a sudden I'll go, I'll go devil. You are dismissed by, and it just works. It just, it goes away. It shuts Him up. And all of sudden I find this peace in this quiet in my brain. And then that allows me to re-queue. God. Your goodness has my back. And what do I mean by having my back? I feel His support. I know His support. I'm aware of His support. In Isaiah 52 12, it says, but You will not leave in haste or go and fight for the Lord will go before You. The Lord God of Israel will be your rear guard. I need to feel Him. As our rear guard, looking at this as a spiritual investigative journalist, I'm looking at it. I'm tangibly touching it, feeling it, writing it down. God is speaking to You and I all day long. For Him to be our rear guard, literally means He's a tactical military position of protecting and advancing armies back. You and I were going forward and He is protecting our back. God doesn't just clear the path ahead. He completely secures our blind spots.
Kristen Wambach
can we just think on that for a minute here? He completely secures our blind spots. In Isaiah 58, eight, says, then your light will break forth like the dawn and your healing will quickly appear. Then your righteousness will go before You and the glory of the Lord will be your rear guard. Think on that. The glory of the Lord right behind us. Maybe it's the chair we're sitting in. Maybe it's the seat. If You're driving down the road, hanging onto the wheel, it's your seat. Imagine the glory of the Lord behind You. Deuteronomy 31, 8, the Lord himself goes before You and will be with You. He will never leave You, no forsake You. Do not be afraid. Do not be discouraged. And then this season, if discouragement tries to duke it out with me, and sometimes, yeah, sometimes we put boxing gloves and attempt to duke back. We attempt to strike back. But if we just quiet ourselves and realize that it goes before us, behind us, He's inside of us. He's on the right. He's on the left. He's everywhere.
Kristen Wambach
today declare with me, I believe God has my back, my forward and my best interest at hand. Let's say that together. I believe God has my back, my forward, my best interest at hand. One more time. I believe God has my back, my forward and my best interest at hand. We are putting on our Superman cape amen true revelation climbs across boundaries and pushes us past our Self-imposed limits limits. I mean sometimes we allow the noise Sometimes we allow noise to press in on us instead of saying to ourselves God You have my back You have my forward You have my best interest at hand. God You have my back, You have my forward, You have my best interest at hand.
Kristen Wambach
to overcome these hurdles of distractions. Sometimes they're rejections. We have to be willing to put our Superman cape on. Step into the reality that Kings rule kingdoms. Amen. Recognize that You and I are transformed self because of Jesus Christ's gift to us. The gift to us it keeps us driving and moving forward because our spirit is without borders or boundaries think on that our spirit our spirit within His spirit You You can't separate it out it's not like a pie God the Father God the son God the holy spirit than us no there's not four sections of the pie You cannot Cut out portions and say, this is You and this is me and this is Him. No, we're in Oneness.
Kristen Wambach
And so we recognize in that oneness, sometimes it's just saying, help God. I need You to quiet my brain. Help God. I need to feel You supporting my back in this particular situation. In this conversation with a coworker, I need You to go before me, God, and let me see your light shine in this situation with my family. God, I need to feel your tangible strength when this diagnosis is just shaking me in my boots. Let's change out our boots and stand in His goodness. Amen. As an ordained pastor for over 30 years, a transformation coach who has spent decades teaching others to engage the spiritual realm. My heart, that is my heart with interviewing Jesus podcasts to bridge the gap between heaven and earth. And sometimes our journeys and the distractions can feel like rejection, but it's never a dead end. It's an invitation to expand our expectations of His goodness. Amen. We ask ourselves, God, how good are You in this situation?
Kristen Wambach
and then get quiet and allow Him to share with You just how good He is. Amen.
Kristen Wambach
It helps to talk. It helps to feel heard. It helps to hear.
Kristen Wambach
And that's what we're doing today. You and I are talking. I'm talking to encourage me to continue to press through, to rest and believe in the dreams that He's placed in my heart, in all those hundred thousand words written down to communicate the goodness of God to You, to me, to my husband, to my friends, to my family, to the world. He placed himself on the inside of You and I.
Kristen Wambach
I have a gift for You. My new book. Yes, I'm talking about my new book here. I'm asking for your help and your pom poms to help cheer me through, right? How good is God beyond the gates of hell to truly experience heaven? One of the most important and empowering keys for our own personal overcoming. And some of us, might just be just getting through today. A powerful key to encourage, to reach across the lines of distraction and divide and share the love of God is to share, is to give, is to believe the value that God has placed in your life, placed in my life. And share it. Amen. To share it.
Kristen Wambach
My goal is to make sure heaven's wisdom doesn't just stay in your headphones. But actually transforms from your Monday morning to your Friday morning to your Sunday afternoon. Those realities. I know many of You are listening from behind the wheel right now. Please keep your hands on the wheel, but I don't want You to miss out on a practical path with raw stories, prayers, and simple activations. This gift I've put together for this particular episode where we feel the tangible connection of oneness as we walk together. So let's use technology right now that's in front of us to advance the kingdom, but we want to do it safely. If You're driving or vacuuming, right? Just say out loud right now, Hey Siri or Hey Google, remind me at 6pm to go to KristenWambach.com / gift. That's it. I'll say it again. Hey Siri, hey Google, remind me at 6pm tonight to go to KristenWambach.com / gift. That's it. Let your phone do the work. And when You're safely parked tonight, when You've arrived in your driveway after a long day at work, that reminder will pop up and You can grab...
Kristen Wambach
your free gift. Amen. Yes. I thought about that today. I thought about all the different ways that You and I are listening to podcasts and gaining that continuing forward motion. Amen. Back to our conversation. Neither death nor life, nor angels or principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature shall be able to separate us from the love of God. Not even ourselves, not even our busy brains. Nope. Nothing can separate us from the goodness of God and the love of God. Amen. So today I invite You to put on that Superman cape. I got my Superman cape on it and sat down. I said, I got to talk to my podcast family because I needed prayer. I needed encouragement. I needed that feeling tangible God walking behind You and I pressing us to the mark of the high calling of who each one of us are. You're calling my calling!
Kristen Wambach
And I feel that today and I thank You for that today. And I respond to You today with that gift to solidify our connection and our communion in Him. Amen.
Kristen Wambach
Thank You so much for allowing us to hang out, to let our hair down today, to just have a conversation that You and I just, we needed to connect to support one another. I needed You to hear my to-do list. I needed to hear the things that You are pressing through on. And we needed to validate that You and I are both spending this time together to know Him, to hear Him, to feel Him, to be encouraged by Him, to be loved. In a huge way. In a little way. But that He brought us together for this moment so that His love could move beyond borders and boundaries, move beyond the distraction. I know some of You still got to go make dinner and what is dinner? Grilled cheese sandwiches always work good for me or pancakes. I know.
Kristen Wambach
Just invite Him in to cook in those grilled cheese sandwiches. Invite Him right there at making the pancakes. Invite Him in your cup of coffee in the morning on the way to work. Invite Him there.
Kristen Wambach
and see if He won't open up another window of heaven. They're open, but sometimes we just need a new window, a new breath, a new light to shine deeply inside of us. Hey, I look forward to You opening your gift and I pray that the love of God just swims over You when You read it. Swims over You, touches You in a way. Oh my goodness, I'm tearing up. Touches You in a way. Took me three years to communicate what God has placed in my heart. And now I get to share this little gift with You. And for me, that feels huge. And it, isn't it amazing that this venue of podcasting would allow us to do that. I bless You. I bless You to press through this day. I bless You to press through this season. I bless You to rest in a season of rest and allowing Him to be our rear guard, allowing Him to walk before us, to sit on our right and sit on our left and bubble up like a living river of goodness from inside of us. Amen.
Kristen Wambach
Thank You. Talk to You again real soon. Bye now.
God doesn't just clear the path ahead. He completely secures our blind spots." - Kristen Wambach
Here are the core highlights for finding your footing when the noise gets too loud:
THE REALITY OF OVERWHELM AND SHAME
- The Spotlight of Shame: Sometimes shame feels like a fishing net cast from the mouths of others. Bullies push their own unresolved fears and unworthiness, attempting to catch us in overwhelm.
- The Power of Connection: This noise compromises our core values and makes us question our calling, but leaning into the Oneness of God immediately breaks that net.
DISMISSING THE ENEMY OUT LOUD
- Get Honest with God: You cannot just hold up a pretty white picket fence of promise while an offense circles like a buzzard in your thoughts. Put your finger right on the thing that hurts and talk to the Father about it.
- Use Your Voice: Sometimes, the most spiritual thing you can do is stand in front of your bathroom mirror, look at the exhaustion in your own eyes, and say out loud: "Enemy, you are dismissed." It shuts the noise down and creates a pocket of peace in your brain.
THE REAR GUARD REALITY
- Tactical Protection: For God to be our rear guard is a tactical, military position. He is protecting the back of an advancing army.
- Secured Blind Spots: As you move forward into your calling, Heaven does not just clear the path ahead of you; it completely secures your blind spots. The glory of the Lord is right behind you, tangibly supporting you whether you are sitting at your desk or making grilled cheese sandwiches for dinner.
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What do you do when the "noise of the earth" attempts to steal your peace? This week, a sophisticated phishing scam nearly got the best of me. As I sat in the aftermath of changing passwords and shoring up my digital life, the Holy Spirit began to speak a deeper truth about The Seal of Authenticity.
PUTTING ON YOUR SUPERMAN CAPE
- Embrace Your Transformed Self: Step into the reality that kings rule kingdoms. True revelation climbs across boundaries because your spirit is without borders.
- Shift Your Expectations: The journey will have hurdles, but every rejection is simply an invitation to expand your expectations of His goodness.
Final Summary
COACHING CHURCH ACTIVATIONS
- The Out-Loud Dismissal. Your week-one outcome is to instantly break the cycle of an overwhelmed mind. The next time your to-do list or an offense begins to circle like a buzzard, step into a quiet space like your bathroom, look yourself in the mirror, and say out loud: "Enemy, you are dismissed." Notice the immediate physical shift and the pocket of peace it creates, allowing Heaven's wisdom to bypass the noise and land directly in your spirit.
- The Rear Guard Posture. Your month-one outcome is a permanent shift in how you carry daily stress. When you sit down at your desk or grip the steering wheel of your car, take a deliberate breath and physically lean back into your seat. Acknowledge the tactical reality of Isaiah 52:12 by declaring: "God has my back, my forward, and my best interest at hand." Feel the tension leave your shoulders as you trust that He is actively securing your blind spots.
My goal is to make sure Heaven's wisdom actually transforms your Monday-morning reality. I have put together a special gift for you—a practical path with raw stories, prayer, and simple activations—to help you silence the noise.
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Nothing can separate you from the love of God. Take a deep breath, push past those self-imposed limits, and let's step into His goodness together.
MEET THE AUTHOR & PODCASTERAs a spiritual investigative journalist and author, Kristen Wambach brings 30 years of ministry experience to the "Monday-morning" logic of spiritual life. By bridging the gap between deep mystery and practical daily transformation, she offers a "Best Seller" standard of clarity for every seeker. As the host of the Interviewing Jesus Podcast and author of the Coaching Church book project, Kristen is a trusted global authority dedicated to testifying to redemption and making the supernatural accessible for your daily life. |
Gratitude is the atmosphere of Heaven, and we are invited to breathe it in here on Earth." — Wendy Bower
SHIFTING THE FREQUENCY OF FEAR WITH A "GRATITUDE ATTACK"In a world that often feels grey, we are frequently told to "choose joy" as if it were a cognitive chore. But what happens when life is more than just a little difficult? When the diagnosis is dire or the family table has empty chairs due to rejection? In these moments, a simple "attitude adjustment" isn't enough. We need a Gratitude Attack.
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- The Scepter and the Staircase: How a prophetic stand of royalty during cancer treatment created a path for others to find victory.
- From "Why" to "Wise": Shifting your nickname from the girl who asks "why" to the daughter who walks in wisdom.
- The Color Love Language: Discovering how God uses specific hues and patterns to whisper, "I see you."
- Overcomer Status: A declaration of health that moves beyond "remission" and into full, vibrant life.
SUMMARY
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Episode: Shifting the Frequency of Fear with a "Gratitude Attack"
Host: Kristen Wambach
Guest: Wendy Bower
[00:00.99] Kristen Wambach: Hello and welcome family. Welcome to Interviewing Jesus Podcast. I'm your host, Kristen Wambach. And can we just go off the cuff today? That's what's going to happen with my guest, Wendy Bower, a vibrant author. She's a storyteller who brings a refreshing, fun-loving wisdom to the journey of transformation. And we are totally about transformation. Amen.
[00:29.32] Wendy Bower: Amen. Amen.
[00:29.84] Kristen Wambach: Wendy has walked through the fire of cancer and deep personal loss discovering that gratitude isn't a forced attitude. It's a natural altitude that comes from simply being loved by God. A wonderful quote from her book that I just grabbed and wrapped it around me like a blanket: "Gratitude isn't about trying harder."
[00:47.19] Wendy Bower: Yes.
[00:57.14] Kristen Wambach: "It's about experiencing God's love so deeply that Thanksgiving becomes our natural response." She has a background in communication and a unique color love language with the Father. Wendy is here to help us break free from transactional faith. Maybe turn up your color dial today and step into an unforced rhythm of grace. Welcome to the show, Wendy.
[01:28.29] Wendy Bower: I am just so delighted to be here, Kristen. I know that we are kindred spirits and the Christ in me connecting with the Christ in you is just exciting. It's exciting!
[01:41.61] Kristen Wambach: It is, it is. And I threw a little pun in there with the color wheel because I am a neutral kind of gal here and I have on fuchsia today and my fuchsia turquoise earrings that my son and daughter-in-law gave me. They're actually from Arizona, which is where you're from. So welcome family, just sit back. We're gonna have a really wonderful Holy Spirit-filled, casual talk, and I know that you and I will be increased today. Wendy, you have a question in your heart about the color of His voice. And you mentioned that colors are a specific love language that you share with God. In the middle of your cancer treatments, when the world felt like grey, what specific color did Jesus use to speak hope into your heart?
[02:49.47] Wendy Bower: Well, He was speaking through colors prior to that diagnosis in a time of just deep loss and disillusionment. I was being erased by some family members. My heart was so broken. And I was really struggling to connect with God. I just felt it's that moment where you're like, "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?" And one day I was driving—I teach piano—and I was just crying and pouring out my heart to God. I look over and there's on someone's lawn over two dozen purple irises. And it was like all of a sudden the tears... everything just neutralized. I realized that's my favorite color. It's my favorite flower. That is not a coincidence. God is so detailed. He is speaking all the time, but not always in words. This is where He connected me with, "I see you, Wendy. I know the details that give you joy."
[04:45.57] Kristen Wambach: Mm-hmm.
[05:01.75] Wendy Bower: Every time I saw the color purple, it was like confirmation bias that God is with me. And from there it just grew. Purple is my royal identity, which I stood on before my first chemotherapy treatment. I have a photo where I’m standing holding my scepter up in the air. He was like, "Wendy, this is you. You're going into the dark of night with this cancer treatment." In the spiritual realm, I held it up and I quoted 1 Peter—we are a royal priesthood. That identity was going to take me through a dark night of the soul.
[07:02.09] Kristen Wambach: Thank you.
[07:21.91] Wendy Bower: My body had an adverse reaction to chemotherapy. I ended up in the hospital for a whole week over Christmas during 2020. I was losing my hair, and one day I found a lavender wig. And it was like, "That's it." Because that's my favorite color. It was like, "Daddy, you're so fun that you would give me an opportunity as a grown woman to wear a purple wig and just spread joy." I had fun with my piano students then. I gave them a challenge; they would show up with different wigs or hats and we just ended up having so much fun. I was reminding myself every time I look in the mirror who I am and how much God loves me.
[10:50.64] Wendy Bower: God doesn't use a cookie cutter with anything.
[11:45.13] Kristen Wambach: I agree. You were talking and you described when you were at Disneyland and you said that you had your scepter there. Listeners, pay attention: what I saw in the spirit, I saw that your scepter had turned into a staircase to allow people to walk up your victory. Wendy, would you pray for us now? Would you open up that portal from your scepter, because there's listeners out there that today they need to feel seen by God.
[12:34.42] Wendy Bower: I would be happy to. Father God, I thank you that you not only love, but absolutely cherish and delight in every one of your children. I pray for anyone listening right now that feels forgotten, that feels overlooked. Lord, I pray that you would open the eyes of their hearts to see you smiling so big. May they know in the depths of their soul that you value them highly. They are royalty. May the lies be destroyed and the truth be replaced that they are fearfully and wonderfully made. Amen.
[14:43.40] Kristen Wambach: Amen. Breathe in and breathe out. Imagine breathing in that prayer. We breathe it in like it's a communion. And then when we breathe out, we release that which the prayer came in and took authority over. Anything that was usurped in our body leaves with your breath. Wendy, as someone with a background in communication, how did you "flip that switch" to teach yourself how to intuitively perceive God through the senses?
[17:09.06] Wendy Bower: Well, I didn't teach myself—the Holy Spirit did it. I realized I had lived such a stressful life; my nervous system was wrecked. I needed to get in touch with how my body felt. I sensed Him telling me to go sit by the river. I’d be learning what rest feels like versus striving. I would touch the water and remember scripture: "His voice is like the rushing waters." He wasn't giving me three steps to feeling better; it was just, "This is more of who I am. Let's get to know each other." Now science is affirming what the Bible already says—singing and movement release serotonin.
[23:18.15] Kristen Wambach: I agree. It starts in a place of imagination. If this tree could tell me its stories, what would it tell me? That childlike faith connects with creation.
[24:07.86] Wendy Bower: A sanctified imagination is a gift that so few of us use. We're all up in our heads with Bible knowledge, but when life gets difficult, it’s an opportunity to get the connection between our heart and our head secure. Feeling loved by Him is just the most energizing, wonderful thing.
[26:37.86] Kristen Wambach: Wendy, your book is called Gratitude Attack. Would you describe that spiritual altitude? How does it change the atmosphere when we are waiting for redemption?
[27:43.85] Wendy Bower: The most transformative thing was realizing Ephesians—we are seated in the heavenly realms with Christ Jesus. Today. My spirit is seated with Jesus. When I was substitute teaching, I started practicing an awareness of this. I would walk into that room with my crown on because I'm a daughter of the King. I’m not going to be pulled into a frequency that is not of God. I am bringing heaven to the room.
[33:27.03] Kristen Wambach: It makes you sit up straighter because you don't want the crown to fall off. There's weight in who we are. Now, Wendy, you’ve experienced being erased by family. That is a profound soul pain. How did Jesus meet you in that void?
[35:48.96] Wendy Bower: Being erased is worse than cancer to me. It feels like deep rejection. My go-to question for years was "Why, God?" One day I asked God if He had a nickname for me. Right away I heard "Wise Girl" instead of "Why Girl." He calls us what He created us to be, not what we are today. Wisdom is not getting the question answered; it’s asking for the Father to give you wisdom on how to walk through it. I don’t have an ounce of bitterness now. Bitterness is a state of mind disconnected from God.
[45:23.88] Kristen Wambach: You have a quote: "I fan the flame and I have no doubt God is delighted when gratitude is set ablaze." How do you fan that flame?
[46:12.77] Wendy Bower: I become more present with whatever is bringing in that gratitude. I tune into the details. If I see a sunset, I don't just say "that's nice." I stand there and take it in. It's a fanning of the flame.
[50:41.97] Kristen Wambach: When we speak it out loud, we surround ourselves with that frequency.
[51:28.45] Wendy Bower: Yes! After my cancer treatment, I was depleted. I rebuilt by speaking six pages of declarations every day. I had to speak that I was an overcomer, not a survivor. The same Spirit that raised Jesus from the dead lives in me. That is not a body cancer is going to return to.
[54:42.81] Kristen Wambach: There is the moment. Right there. Wendy, where can our listeners find you and your book?
[55:27.91] Wendy Bower: Go to my website, authorwendybower.com. You can find links to Amazon, Barnes & Noble, and free resources on hearing the voice of God. It's very colorful!
[58:49.76] Kristen Wambach: I love it. I want to share with the listeners, in the blog post will be the transcript. Wendy, thank you so much for sharing yourself with us in such a practical application.
[01:01.06] Wendy Bower: It's all been my honor. I feel like I have a friend that I just made. This has just been so delightful.
[01:01.38] Kristen Wambach: Yes. Thank you so much for spending this time with us today.
The most supernatural thing you can do today is simply enjoy being loved."
—Wendy Bower
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COACHING CHURCH ACTIVATIONS
SHIFTING THE FREQUENCY OF FEARPART 1: THE COLOR DIAL SCAN Wendy shared how God used the color purple to remind her of her royal identity during her darkest night. Today, we are going to turn up your "color dial."
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3. The Connection: If a color comes to mind (even if you aren't wearing it), research its biblical or personal significance to you. Let that color be a "tether" to His presence for the next 24 hours.
PART 2: THE "WISE GIRL/BOY" EXCHANGE
- Identify the 'Why': Write down one "Why" question that has been fueling your anxiety lately.
- The Exchange: Imagine handing that "Why" to Jesus. In exchange, ask Him for a "Wise" nickname.
- The Declaration: Speak that new name out loud. For example: "I am no longer the 'Why' girl; I am the Father's Wise Daughter."
PART 3: THE SCEPTER ALIGNMENT
- Physical Posture: Sit up straighter. Imagine the tangible weight of a circular crown on your head.
- The Scepter Rise: Mentally or physically raise your hand as if holding a scepter of authority.
- The Command: Declare: "I do not align with the frequency of fear in this room. I align with the altitude of Heaven. I am seated with Christ, and I bring His peace into this space."
PRAYER OF ACTIVATION
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What do you do when the "noise of the earth" attempts to steal your peace? This week, a sophisticated phishing scam nearly got the best of me. As I sat in the aftermath of changing passwords and shoring up my digital life, the Holy Spirit began to speak a deeper truth about The Seal of Authenticity.
EPISODE TAKEAWAYS
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- Courtroom Tactics: How to practically place your identity before "Big Papa" in the Courts of Heaven to receive a protective mandate.
- Unzipping Heaven: A lifestyle tool to escape the noise of the earth and gain God's perspective.
- The Triumph Beyond Dispute: A breakdown of Romans 8:37-39—why no device "yet to be invented" can separate you from His love.
- Uprooting Evil: How ridding an accusation in your own life helps rid it for the whole Body of Christ.
Drawing from two decades of teaching believers how to engage the heavenly realm, I’ll show you how to unzip the "ceiling" of this world’s noise and stand on the floor of heaven. We explore the Seal of Authenticity—the reality that you are a bespoke creation, hand-signed by the Artist, and your identity is not for sale.
We go deep into the Courts of Heaven, where I share my personal process of placing my "spiritual Social Security number" before a Righteous Father. If you’ve felt accused, threatened, or distracted by the onslaught of the world, this is your invitation to a Spiritual Security Upgrade. Move from "What would Jesus do?" to the authority of "Who does Jesus say that I AM?"
SUMMARY
In this episode of the Interviewing Jesus Podcast, host Kristen Wambach turns a disturbing personal encounter with a phishing scam into a masterclass on spiritual security. After being targeted by sophisticated identity thieves during a moment of distraction and exhaustion, Kristen shares how the Holy Spirit pivoted her focus from natural alarm to supernatural authority.
The heart of the message explores The Seal of Authenticity—the truth that every believer is a "bespoke creation" hand-signed by God. Kristen explains that mass production has no soul, but the "fingerprint of God" on our lives is the only ID we truly need. She demonstrates how to "unzip the ceiling" of earthly noise and step into the Courts of Heaven, practically placing our identity before a Righteous Father to block, protect, and usurp the false authority of the enemy.
Listeners are challenged to move beyond the question "What would Jesus do?" and instead embrace "Who does Jesus say that I AM?" Through a powerful breakdown of Romans 8:37-39, Kristen reminds us that no device—past, present, or yet to be invented—can separate us from the love of God. The episode concludes with a call to action: when you rid the accusation for yourself in the courts, you help rid it for the entire Body of Christ.
Heaven is absolutely practical, practical, practical." —Kristen Wambach
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00:00 Identity Theft and Spiritual Security: Phishing Scams, Spiritual Security Upgrades, Distraction
12:37 The Importance of Divine Identity: Seal of Authenticity, Bespoke Creation, Artist's Signature
20:31 Authority in Christ and Overcoming Accusations: Courts of Heaven, Legal Mandates, Romans 8:37
20:44 Embracing Your Divine Identity: Standing on Heaven's Floor, Big Papa, Spiritual Bravery
21:36 Practical Tools for Spiritual Growth: Unzipping Heaven, Dream Discernment, Holy Ghost Highlights
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When you rid the accusation for yourself, you help rid it for all of us." —Kristen Wambach
A phishing scammer, armed with an alarming amount of my personal data, attempted to shake my peace. In the natural, it was a nuisance that required changing passwords and contacting banks. But in the spirit, it was a "Holy Ghost highlight." It was a reminder that our identity is constantly being targeted by an enemy who wants to usurp what Christ has already secured.
The Noise of the Earth vs. The Floor of Heaven
When we are tired, emotionally spent, or hyper-focused on our "projects"—even the good ones like launching a book or a website—we become susceptible to distractions. The noise of the earth becomes loud. It sounds like fear, like "your identity is at risk," or "you are not secure."
But heaven is incredibly practical. As an ordained pastor with over 40 years of ministry, I’ve found that the most effective way to handle an earthly threat is to take it to the Highest Court. I saw it in my spirit: unzipping the ceiling of this noisy world and stepping through the veil to stand on the floor of heaven. From that vantage point, the threat doesn't look like a crisis; it looks like an opportunity for a "Spiritual Security Upgrade."
Kristen Wambach (00:02.134)
Welcome, welcome to Interviewing Jesus podcast. I am your host, Kristin Wambach. Have you ever had that split second where your heart just drops right into your feet? Not because a particularly spiritual attack you can see, but because of a voice on the other end of the phone line. This week, I had a disturbing occurrence. A sophisticated phishing scam nearly got the best of me, targeting my identity, my peace, and my focus. But as I sat in the aftermath of changing passwords and shoring up my digital life, the Holy Spirit began to speak to me of a much deeper truth about the seal of authenticity. As an ordained pastor and spiritual coach, with over four years of ministry experience, I've learned that heaven is incredibly practical. When the noise of the earth tries to drown out who you are, it's time to unzip the ceiling, step through the veil and stand on the floor of heaven to see things from God's perspective.
Today we're talking about Spiritual Security upgrades. We're going into the courts of heaven to place our identity, our spiritual social security number before a righteous father. Whether you have felt accused, threatened, or just distracted by an onslaught of the world, this episode is your reminder that you are a bespoke Preacher, are his, made in his image, signed by the artist himself. It's time to move from what would Jesus do to who does Jesus say that you and I are. Let's breach the gap together between heaven and earth and nail those threats where they belong. Amen.
Kristen Wambach (00:01.56)
Hello, hello, let's get started here today. Has that ever happened to you? This week, seriously a disturbing occurrence. Someone tried to steal my identity through one of those phishing call scams. And quite frankly, they almost got the best of me. And that is what is so scary. But we're not trying to be fearful here, but to take action for who you and I really are. Sometimes we just need that shake to remind us of the benefits that God has provided for us. Amen. I do not think I am an online prude by any means. That's why it really caught me off guard. I have five online stores. I manage two websites. I help people through coaching. I published this podcast and now I am working on launching my second book. Yep. I'm a little bit focused right now.
I can look at it from two different ways. This is what I wanted to share with you. It's time for an upgrade of our own security. And yes, I'm talking spiritual security, which has very practical applications. We need to remember our identity in Him, always, for everything. And that is the heart of what you and I are going to talk about today as I pressed through kind of a very upsetting couple of days during my week. Heaven is absolutely practical, practical, practical, practical. And this is how our story develops. I'm in my final editing stages of the book, working on the website, the VIP launch emails and workflows, which you are most welcome to join. And I'm making sure that I'm communicating the experience in my life, that I've had years of ministry experience, yada, yada, yada, all those things that we do for...
Kristen Wambach (02:26.572)
...those of you who have a voice online, we're always communicating the passions on our heart, the issues that God has reinforced who we are and how we can help others. Amen. I help people live spiritually brave. I encounter God. We step through the veil in Christ to experience heaven. That is what I am so passionate about. I also watch my granddaughter a couple days during the week. And when I do that, I get up very early. Um, yes, very early. And so when nap time rolls around, it is literally nap time for both of us. You get the picture here. And then the phone rings. And it wasn't just twice. And yes, I have my phone set for the do not disturb and the only the contacts can get through and yes. And then it rings right away three times in a row. So I go, "Oh!" And I answer it thinking that it is on behalf of my 92 year old mother who has one of those emergency response contact calls. The thing she wears around her neck.
And that's what I was thinking that it was repeating the call. It was an emergency situation. So I answered this. Note to self about being distracted. Hello, we can all hear this here. When you and I are extra focused on projects, and especially products, projects that have a line of when we want to accomplish them, if they're set with a goal. We are so focused, right? When we're tired, when we're emotionally spent, we are easily distracted. Did I set that up well for you? This is where I actually was. I've been so focused on my work and keeping up all of the hats, so to speak, for my week. I'm sure you can relate with me, that sometimes that in itself can be a distraction. So I answered the phone after the three immediate phone calls back to back and the lady was very nice of course, and she was calling to warn me that my social security number had been used to open an account in Florida and wanted to know if that was me. Well, immediately I'm apprehensive, but she had all the pertinent information and she just kept reading it off and offering it to me. This is who you are. I'm from such and such bank institution and she just read off all this information that you'd assume only a bank official would have. Well, then came the transfer to a higher security individual because they were there to help me make sure that nothing had gone wrong and that my identity was not indeed getting stolen. yeah, they were really good at what they were doing. So I'm sure that you're getting the picture here. First, I was alarmed when I finally...
Kristen Wambach (07:09.022)
...in my spirit, thank God for Holy Spirit, in my spirit, I never had that freedom, that assurity by the phone call, even though they they put me on the edge, you feel at risk like, my gosh, now what am I going to have to do? Now what am I going to have to to go through? And so there was the bridge that was trying to disrupt my peace to provide help. That was the scary part. And how much exact information they actually had about me to convince me of their legitimacy. I tell you, no, I didn't give out any information, nothing new, no matter how irrelevant it might seem. And they really didn't ask too much. Yes. After the end of the call, I contacted my bank institutions and changed my passwords, contacted the credit bureaus and such and such, which took me almost an entire day to shore up my identity. Yeah. It's like, God, this is wrong.
In our society today, this is not news at all. But this is what reminded me. This is what reminded me. And because of what he was reminding me of who I am and who you are, I wanted to just take something that's practical and happens to each one of us and say, hello, we need to remember who our God is. Amen. I wrote this, this is an excerpt. I can say that this is an excerpt from my brand new book, How Good Is God. The seal of authenticity. Mass production has no soul. Factory lines create copies, but they do not create art. Value is determined by one thing. Who signs the work? The ridges on your fingertips are not random lines. They are the evidence that the artist touched the clay while it was still wet. You are not a reprint. You are a bespoke creation. And the fingerprint of God is the only ID you need. Amen. God's fingerprint is on you. God's fingerprint is on me. And that is the only ID that we need and no enemy. No, they cannot have our identity and they could not usurp it. Amen. Here's my conclusion. This is what I did. And I want you to take notes here.
Kristen Wambach (09:33.943)
Okay. I immediately stepped into the courts of heaven and I put my social security on the bench before a righteous father. I can't tell you how much I love this personality of my heavenly father. He is a righteous dude and he is always standing in that place to protect his kids. I love a big papa. He in turn identified me. I was going through the spiritual legalities of protecting myself from an onslaught of the enemy. So I take in my social security number and in the spirit I put it on the bench where papa is sitting. Then we recorded it because obviously he identifies his own kids. And then I sent out the angels to block, protect, and usurp the false authority that was attempting to steal and destroy. Amen. Then I asked the father for a mandate, a special assignment to uproot the evil that was being done against people, people. And I consider myself to have above average online chutzpah. And I was thinking of all the other people that this same type of scam has literally stolen money from them. It's horrendous. So this assignment to uproot evil being done against people through this company and the people who were choosing to partner with that company sent out the angels and BAM! Peace is restored. Yay God!
Kristen Wambach (11:50.369)
Our reminder, our very practical reminder, always ask God, always ask God, step through the veil of himself, get the different picture, get the picture that God is seeing and his perception. I actually made this really cool video this morning with an AI. and I literally put in the words of what I saw my spirit doing literally going through the noise of the earth as if it were a ceiling opening the ceiling unzipping the ceiling and going stepping into heaven and standing on the floor of heaven to get God's perspective you can see it on the YouTube version of this episode. I will also put it in the blog post connected to the show notes. You will love it. It is amazing. Imagine stepping out of the noise of the earth and standing on the floor of heaven and feeling the presence of God and every benefit that he has supplied us as your enforcement for that day.
Always ask God if your identity is being compromised. So many ways to look at that. Now I'm going to give you a couple of different ways that, that God has highlighted this to me throughout the course of my years of engaging heaven. Sometimes it can come through a dream. The dreams will be someone is attempting to steal our purse or maybe we've misplaced our purse in the dream and the purse would be telling us, meaning our wealth, our valuables, our identity in a dream. Hello? Sometimes even in social media, Holy Spirit will just have these posts come up...
Kristen Wambach (14:12.236)
...before us that's just a direct message of pay attention. Look what's going on here. Hello, wake up and this actually happened to me this week as well I had a friend who I'd sent him a link directly from my website and he was blocked he literally many times could not get to my website because he was blocked. Hello. Thank you God for giving me a clue of what is going on. Yay, amen.
Kristen Wambach (14:53.183)
and please. When you have been accused in whatever manner that it comes, take the appropriate actions with the Lord to rid the accusation. Because when you do that, when we rid the accusation, it also helps to remove it from all of us. Amen. What is an accusation? Anything that attempts to usurp the authority of Christ and his sacrifice for you and I. Anything. Anything that is attempting to steal our peace. Anything that threatens what Christ gave to you and I. Who he says we are. Even the keys of the kingdom that he gave us. If it is threatening our access and our authority. Something is usurping. Amen.
What else is an accusation? When life and that life of being abundant is being compromised. I love Romans 8, 37 through 39 in the mirror. It is one of my favorite, favorite scriptures. On the contrary, in the thick of these things, our triumph remains...
Kristen Wambach (16:34.6)
On the contrary, in the thick of these things, our triumph remains beyond dispute. His love has placed us above the reach of any onslaught. And this is my conviction. No threat, whether it be death or life, be it celestial messengers, demon powers, political principalities, nothing known to us at this time. or even in the unknown future, no dimension of any calculation in time or space, nor any device yet to be invented, as what it takes to separate us from the love of God unveiled in our Lord Jesus Christ. Amen. Nothing, nothing can separate us from the love of God. And since you and I cannot be separated from the love of God. It's up to you and I to use that authority that he placed in our hands and time to nail those threats in the courts of heaven. Amen.
In my upcoming book, How Good Is God!, I talk about the "Seal of Authenticity." Think about a factory line. Mass production has no soul. It creates copies, reprints, and generic versions. But value is determined by the signature.
Your fingerprints aren’t just biological markers for a background check. They are the evidence that the Artist touched the clay while it was still wet. You are a bespoke creation. This means your ID isn't found in a Social Security number or a bank account; it is found in the DNA of God’s love for you.
Legal Action in the Courts of Heaven
So, what do we do when the enemy attempts to steal our "purse"—our wealth, our valuables, or our peace? We step into the Courts of Heaven.
I literally took my Social Security number—the very thing the scammers were trying to weaponize—and I placed it on the bench before my Righteous Father. I call Him "Big Papa" because He is a protector. When we present our case, He identifies us. He stamps us as His own.
From that place of legal standing, I didn't just ask for protection; I asked for a mandate. I sent out angels not only to block the attack against me but to uproot the evil being done to others through that organization. This is the power of being a "Spiritually Brave" believer. When you rid the accusation for yourself, you help rid it for the whole Body of Christ.
Romans 8:37-39 tells us that nothing—not celestial messengers, demon powers, or even "devices yet to be invented"—can separate us from the love of God.
If nothing can separate us from His love, then nothing can truly steal our identity.
The next time you feel a "split second where your heart drops," remember that you have the authority to nail those threats to the cross. Step out of the noise. Stand on the floor of heaven. And listen to what the Father says about who you are.
Romans 8: 37-39 du Toit, Francois. Mirror Study Bible
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Last weeks great thought...
and this weeks question: How do you define success in your field?
Success, in the eyes of our Father, isn't found in the "grind" or the height of a platform, but in the radical alignment of our hearts with His. It’s the quiet, supernatural wisdom of faithfulness—the kind that chooses Rhema over Logos and prioritizes Sonship over "doing." To God, you are successful when you are simply, bravely yourself, living out the divine DNA He’s woven into your spirit. He doesn’t just watch our success; He delights in it with the heart of a proud Father, cheering as we bridge the gap between Heaven and Earth. When we succeed for Him, it’s not a performance to earn His love, but a beautiful oneness in action, proving just How Good He is as we steward the restoration of all things in our own unique spheres.
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- Share Your Victory: Has God given you a "Holy Ghost Highlight" this week? Leave a comment below. When we share our triumphs over the accuser, we shore up the security for the entire community.
- FROM NDE TO PDE: Move beyond "Near Death Experiences" and into PDE—Past Death Experiences.
- ERADICATE DEATH DOCTRINES: Break free from the religious belief systems that have held your heart captive.
- REWRITE YOUR HISTORY: Encounter the humanity of Jesus in the lower realms and the courts of heaven to restore your past.
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